Love lasts not only in life but in death, chapter 7
Jem woke with a start. Her body shaking and dripping in a cold sweat. She was back in the music room, cuddled into the chair. The whiskey bottle clutched in her hand. 12:15am flashed the clock.
"What the fuck is going on?" she said to herself, her mind racing.
"Am I dreaming or was that a dream. God please let that be a dream and this be real. Don't let them be together."
She was talking to herself, no one was around. She slowly went to the living room where she had seen Billie Joe and Adrienne talking before she quietly slipped downstairs with her drink and tablets.
She heard the T.V and carried on slowly. She stopped in the hallway when she heard movement. Someone was coming so she hid in the indoor pool, closing the door but only enough so she could see what was going on. She saw Billie Joe coming from the room and was about to call his name when Adrienne followed. She deliberately walked into him but she didn't move and neither did he. She moved closer to him their lips inches apart. Jem quietly opened the door and stood behind the wall to the kitchen.
"I'm sorry I can't" she heard Billie say.
"Why what's wrong?" Adrienne replied.
"I'm married and have children. I can't... I just can't OK"
"Why she won't find out? I'm not gonna tell her and you certainly won't coz you know what would happen."
"I love my wife. I'm not gonna cheat on her. If I did and she found out she would be heartbroken. I couldn't do that to her she's been through so much already."
Jem realised she was holding her breath and breathed loudly. A tear rolled its way down her cheek, dripping onto the floor. She realised how much their love for each other would last not only in life but in death as well.
Billie came out of the kitchen and walked upstairs his head down. Adrienne came out soon after, her gaze fixed on Billie Joe, and after he had disappeared from her view she went into the spare room next to the living room. Jem found herself walking into the kitchen. Her hand in her pocket, grabbing the bottle of tablets and the other - the whiskey. She put them both away and started to climb the stairs, she got halfway when a dark figure appeared before her.
"Where have you been?" he asked worriedly.
Jem lifted her head "no where."
"Come on let's go to bed."
Billie grabbed Jem's hand and led her upstairs.
When they got to the door Jem stopped hesitantly, her dream coming back to her. Billie Joe and Adrienne together in their bed. Billie started kissing Jem's neck, pulling her into the room. He was already undressed and he started undoing her dressing gown, wrapping his arms around her, embracing her tightly. Billie's warm skin met Jem's cold body and he shivered.
"God you're freezing."
"Am I?"
"Yeah. We need to get you warmed up." He said a cheeky smile planted its way across his face.
Soon her dressing gown was flung across the floor and the pair were on the bed. Images kept haunting Jem and she stopped.
"Billie I can't" she said pushing him off her.
Billie looked at her "why? What's the matter hun?"
"I just can't OK, just hold me, please hold me."
Billie moved so Jem could cuddle up to him and he wrapped his arms around her.
"I had a dream you know. Not so much a dream - a nightmare."
"What happened?" he asked interestingly.
"She dragged me into the bathroom and cut my wrists and stomach while saying I wasn't happy and deserved to die. Then you came in and she said you had to make love to her as if it were me and she said I had to watch. If you didn't she would have killed me and the kids and made you watch."
Billie felt a tear fall onto his chest and hugged Jem tighter.
"Nothing will happen to you or the kids. I won't let it. As long as I'm around you're safe."
"I heard you in the kitchen, talking to Adrienne."
"You were listening?"
Jem rolled over on her stomach so she could face him.
"You weren't meant to hear that."
"Why?"
"Because."
"Because?"
Jem leaned forward and kissed him. Billie returned the kiss.
"I'll always love you, no matter what. I promise.
"Please don't ever leave me."
"I promise, why would I leave when I have all I need lying right next to me and next-door."
Jem smiled and kissed him again, this time deeper and more passionately.
"I'll get rid of her tomorrow." Billie said while moving on top of Jem to kiss her, their love for each other desperate. Jem lifted her head to kiss Billie's neck. Her heart beating faster, her body beginning to warm up. A while later the pair lay side by side, both panting and sweating like mad. Sleep overtook them both but they were soon woken, this time by a child's scream.
Billie woke first then ran through. Buffy was sat up straight - looking directly at him, her eyes open wide.
"What's wrong baby?" he asked hugging her.
"Someone was in here and watching Sammy. Then they put a pillow over his face and that's when I screamed. Then they ran away."
Billie moved Buffy up he was looking her directly in the face.
"Who was it? You can tell me. You won't get into trouble."
"Adrienne" she said so quietly Billie Joe could barely hear her.
"What the fuck is going on?" she said to herself, her mind racing.
"Am I dreaming or was that a dream. God please let that be a dream and this be real. Don't let them be together."
She was talking to herself, no one was around. She slowly went to the living room where she had seen Billie Joe and Adrienne talking before she quietly slipped downstairs with her drink and tablets.
She heard the T.V and carried on slowly. She stopped in the hallway when she heard movement. Someone was coming so she hid in the indoor pool, closing the door but only enough so she could see what was going on. She saw Billie Joe coming from the room and was about to call his name when Adrienne followed. She deliberately walked into him but she didn't move and neither did he. She moved closer to him their lips inches apart. Jem quietly opened the door and stood behind the wall to the kitchen.
"I'm sorry I can't" she heard Billie say.
"Why what's wrong?" Adrienne replied.
"I'm married and have children. I can't... I just can't OK"
"Why she won't find out? I'm not gonna tell her and you certainly won't coz you know what would happen."
"I love my wife. I'm not gonna cheat on her. If I did and she found out she would be heartbroken. I couldn't do that to her she's been through so much already."
Jem realised she was holding her breath and breathed loudly. A tear rolled its way down her cheek, dripping onto the floor. She realised how much their love for each other would last not only in life but in death as well.
Billie came out of the kitchen and walked upstairs his head down. Adrienne came out soon after, her gaze fixed on Billie Joe, and after he had disappeared from her view she went into the spare room next to the living room. Jem found herself walking into the kitchen. Her hand in her pocket, grabbing the bottle of tablets and the other - the whiskey. She put them both away and started to climb the stairs, she got halfway when a dark figure appeared before her.
"Where have you been?" he asked worriedly.
Jem lifted her head "no where."
"Come on let's go to bed."
Billie grabbed Jem's hand and led her upstairs.
When they got to the door Jem stopped hesitantly, her dream coming back to her. Billie Joe and Adrienne together in their bed. Billie started kissing Jem's neck, pulling her into the room. He was already undressed and he started undoing her dressing gown, wrapping his arms around her, embracing her tightly. Billie's warm skin met Jem's cold body and he shivered.
"God you're freezing."
"Am I?"
"Yeah. We need to get you warmed up." He said a cheeky smile planted its way across his face.
Soon her dressing gown was flung across the floor and the pair were on the bed. Images kept haunting Jem and she stopped.
"Billie I can't" she said pushing him off her.
Billie looked at her "why? What's the matter hun?"
"I just can't OK, just hold me, please hold me."
Billie moved so Jem could cuddle up to him and he wrapped his arms around her.
"I had a dream you know. Not so much a dream - a nightmare."
"What happened?" he asked interestingly.
"She dragged me into the bathroom and cut my wrists and stomach while saying I wasn't happy and deserved to die. Then you came in and she said you had to make love to her as if it were me and she said I had to watch. If you didn't she would have killed me and the kids and made you watch."
Billie felt a tear fall onto his chest and hugged Jem tighter.
"Nothing will happen to you or the kids. I won't let it. As long as I'm around you're safe."
"I heard you in the kitchen, talking to Adrienne."
"You were listening?"
Jem rolled over on her stomach so she could face him.
"You weren't meant to hear that."
"Why?"
"Because."
"Because?"
Jem leaned forward and kissed him. Billie returned the kiss.
"I'll always love you, no matter what. I promise.
"Please don't ever leave me."
"I promise, why would I leave when I have all I need lying right next to me and next-door."
Jem smiled and kissed him again, this time deeper and more passionately.
"I'll get rid of her tomorrow." Billie said while moving on top of Jem to kiss her, their love for each other desperate. Jem lifted her head to kiss Billie's neck. Her heart beating faster, her body beginning to warm up. A while later the pair lay side by side, both panting and sweating like mad. Sleep overtook them both but they were soon woken, this time by a child's scream.
Billie woke first then ran through. Buffy was sat up straight - looking directly at him, her eyes open wide.
"What's wrong baby?" he asked hugging her.
"Someone was in here and watching Sammy. Then they put a pillow over his face and that's when I screamed. Then they ran away."
Billie moved Buffy up he was looking her directly in the face.
"Who was it? You can tell me. You won't get into trouble."
"Adrienne" she said so quietly Billie Joe could barely hear her.
