Tears Fade Away, but Scars Stay the Same, chapter 4
****Back to Esther's POV****
We arrived at Jason's house a few minutes later. His band was in the garage getting ready for practice. Billie opened up the garage door.
"Hey, ready?" He said
"Hey, who's that?" He said while pointing to Adrienne
"Adrienne, new neighbor" Mike replied
"Oh, Hi Adrienne" Jason said
"Hi, Jason..." She said in a shy tone. I just stayed quiet. I wasn't that important. I just stayed off to the side.
"And this is why you don't have very many friends..." Mike came over and whispered while Jason's band was playing
"Huh?"
"You always stay out of things, you need to be social"
"I can't do that, I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me. I can take care of myself."
"If Billie and I didn't help you, then you would've been a laughing stock on Friday" I just looked down at my shoes then around at the place.
"And, Esther, take chances." He said, he walked back over to Billie.
I thought about that for a while.
Later on, Mike and I were at home. It was around 10:00 PM. I was in my room writing but not about pain this time. I wrote sorts of love songs.
'"If you could be here
By my side
The way I wanted you to be
I think my life would be complete
But for now I'm just your friend
Nothing more and nothing less
I wish I could be more
But I'm just that face in a crowd
That you call a 'friend'
And only a friend"
I put my pen down and stared a wall. I heard Mike walk by my door.
"Mike..." I said. He backtracked to the door
"Yeah?"
"Um, where's Myla?"
"Somewhere with Jen."
"Oh, well, then. Can I uh...tell you something?" He nodded and walked in. he grabbed the chair from my desk and sat it at the end of the bed near me and positioned it so the back was facing me. He sat down with one leg on either side and looked at me.
"Okay, go" Mike said
"Um, I think I like someone. But, someone else who I really like does too."
"Okay? This person is?"
I handed him my most recent song. He read it and then stared at me.
"It's Billie" I whispered.
"Please tell me that is like your girlie PMS talking." I shook my head.
"No, I think I like him, more than a friend"
"Uh..does he know?"
"No, and I think he likes Adrienne and Adrienne likes him"
"You should tell him"
'Yeah, so I can feel like a complete ass when he says he doesn't like me that way."
"No, maybe he thinks that way too. You don't know. You need to take chances." And with that he walked out of my room.
'He's such a big help...." I said to myself as he left.
The next day I woke up and walked downstairs. I heard faint talking, Billie and Mike.
"Hey guys" I said as I walked down
"Hey, Esther" Billie said "You really dressed up, where're ya going?" He said smiling. I looked down at my outfit. A black t-shirt and my underpants that was it. I blushed
"No where really, just the cabinets." I walked over to the cabinets to get a glass.
Now, the cabinets were cleverly placed in a wall with a window between them, so there were 3 on each side, and a sink below the little window. I stood in front of the sink and leaned over to get a glass, since I was gonna get water and there were some bags of old clothing for good will in front of the cabinets. So I leaned over and a draft went down my sleeve. I really didn't want to turn around then, in front of my cousin and crush like this.
"God, Esther! Could you be more stupid!? You heard people down here and you didn't get dressed, you didn't even put a damn bra on! Which is what you sorta need now! Damn it! Stupid!" Was my thought.
After a minute, I figured that this wasn't going to go away by standing in front of an open window in a t-shirt. So I crossed my arms over my chest and sat down at the table, and didn't move them for a while.
****Billie's POV***
Esther was talking, why won't she move her arms? What's she hiding? A stain...no....she'd let us see that. Wait...she's moving her arm...Oh, I see now. Is she horny!? Wait..open window...I got it now. See, I really am smart. But if I was smarter, I'd stop thinking about my best friend's breasts and her horny before....great goin'
We arrived at Jason's house a few minutes later. His band was in the garage getting ready for practice. Billie opened up the garage door.
"Hey, ready?" He said
"Hey, who's that?" He said while pointing to Adrienne
"Adrienne, new neighbor" Mike replied
"Oh, Hi Adrienne" Jason said
"Hi, Jason..." She said in a shy tone. I just stayed quiet. I wasn't that important. I just stayed off to the side.
"And this is why you don't have very many friends..." Mike came over and whispered while Jason's band was playing
"Huh?"
"You always stay out of things, you need to be social"
"I can't do that, I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me. I can take care of myself."
"If Billie and I didn't help you, then you would've been a laughing stock on Friday" I just looked down at my shoes then around at the place.
"And, Esther, take chances." He said, he walked back over to Billie.
I thought about that for a while.
Later on, Mike and I were at home. It was around 10:00 PM. I was in my room writing but not about pain this time. I wrote sorts of love songs.
'"If you could be here
By my side
The way I wanted you to be
I think my life would be complete
But for now I'm just your friend
Nothing more and nothing less
I wish I could be more
But I'm just that face in a crowd
That you call a 'friend'
And only a friend"
I put my pen down and stared a wall. I heard Mike walk by my door.
"Mike..." I said. He backtracked to the door
"Yeah?"
"Um, where's Myla?"
"Somewhere with Jen."
"Oh, well, then. Can I uh...tell you something?" He nodded and walked in. he grabbed the chair from my desk and sat it at the end of the bed near me and positioned it so the back was facing me. He sat down with one leg on either side and looked at me.
"Okay, go" Mike said
"Um, I think I like someone. But, someone else who I really like does too."
"Okay? This person is?"
I handed him my most recent song. He read it and then stared at me.
"It's Billie" I whispered.
"Please tell me that is like your girlie PMS talking." I shook my head.
"No, I think I like him, more than a friend"
"Uh..does he know?"
"No, and I think he likes Adrienne and Adrienne likes him"
"You should tell him"
'Yeah, so I can feel like a complete ass when he says he doesn't like me that way."
"No, maybe he thinks that way too. You don't know. You need to take chances." And with that he walked out of my room.
'He's such a big help...." I said to myself as he left.
The next day I woke up and walked downstairs. I heard faint talking, Billie and Mike.
"Hey guys" I said as I walked down
"Hey, Esther" Billie said "You really dressed up, where're ya going?" He said smiling. I looked down at my outfit. A black t-shirt and my underpants that was it. I blushed
"No where really, just the cabinets." I walked over to the cabinets to get a glass.
Now, the cabinets were cleverly placed in a wall with a window between them, so there were 3 on each side, and a sink below the little window. I stood in front of the sink and leaned over to get a glass, since I was gonna get water and there were some bags of old clothing for good will in front of the cabinets. So I leaned over and a draft went down my sleeve. I really didn't want to turn around then, in front of my cousin and crush like this.
"God, Esther! Could you be more stupid!? You heard people down here and you didn't get dressed, you didn't even put a damn bra on! Which is what you sorta need now! Damn it! Stupid!" Was my thought.
After a minute, I figured that this wasn't going to go away by standing in front of an open window in a t-shirt. So I crossed my arms over my chest and sat down at the table, and didn't move them for a while.
****Billie's POV***
Esther was talking, why won't she move her arms? What's she hiding? A stain...no....she'd let us see that. Wait...she's moving her arm...Oh, I see now. Is she horny!? Wait..open window...I got it now. See, I really am smart. But if I was smarter, I'd stop thinking about my best friend's breasts and her horny before....great goin'
