Tears Fade Away, but Scars Stay the Same, chapter 9
"Billie, you should've talked to her when she called..." Mike said to Billie
"But...I was busy! I didn't know she'd die to today!" Billie was crying more, he couldn't breathe. His one cousin, who he loved a lot had been in a car wreck and might die.
I sat up in bed.
It was a few days into school already. Today was Friday, I woke up and got dressed and waited for Billie and Adrienne to come over and Mike to come down stairs so we could go to school like every other day.
"Nothing will happen to Billie...he'll be fine...his cousin, Anne will be fine too" I kept telling myself.
"Hey, what's up with talking to yourself?" Mike asked as he sat down on the couch beside me
"Ihadadreamthatbilliewouldn'tbreath!" I blurted out
"What?"
"I had a dream, Anne might be dyeing and Billie couldn't breathe!" I said, what if this was like a premonition dream?
"Let's just wait outside for Billie Joe and Adrienne. Don't tell him...he'll worry."
"Okay...okay..." I nodded nervously after taking a deep breath.
We got to school and we're in Social Studies with the evil teacher that Billie hated and she hated Billie. We were in rows with tables and 2 people sat at a table. So it was like one row of people connected behind another. Mike sat on the end, then me, then Billie, then Adrienne. We had been allowed to choose our seats as long as it was boy/girl pattern.
"I have to go to the bathroom" Billie announced to us before the teacher started her job
"Then go" I said
"She won't let me"
"Just ask" I said, nudging him. He raised his hand as she started teaching.
"What now, Billie Joe?"
"I have to go to the bathroom"
"That's nice, anyway...take out a piece of paper, class and--" Billie interrupted her
"can I go to the bathroom?"
"You have the ability to, but you don't have my permission" I glared at her
"May I go to the bathroom?!" Billie said, crossing his legs.
"No, 1) you interrupted my class 2) people have been abusing their rights to use the bathroom and 3) I'm teaching right now"
"But--"
"No is no!" And she went back to her lesson and Billie grabbed himself.
"Just get up and go" Mike whispered down the row
"Are you kidding!? I'll get detention for a fucking month from her!" Billie hissed back.
"Billie! Quiet!" The teacher yelled.
"Jesus Christ, I;m gonna fucking piss my pants" Billie said to no one in particular. We were now sitting in silence, doing the assignment and Billie raised his hand again.
"What Billie?"
"May I go to the bathroom now?" He asked, legs still clamped together.
"What is that rule on the board?" She smiled
"No passes will be signed during the first 5 minutes or last 15 minutes of class..."
"Right, you should've gone before you came" Billie made a small whimpering noise and bit his lip.
"I hate her...so much..." He said.
"I bet she hates you, more than she did 5 minutes ago right now" Mike whispered down the table. I turned to him
"What?"
"Billie!" Adrienne said
"What's going on...what the...Billie!" I hissed. Adrienne, Mike and I were all focused on the carpet underneath Billie.
Oh, the piss stain, not carpet.
"Fucker..." He whispered. No one else had even noticed. "Now I have a piss stain on my pants for the day! Fucking teacher!"
"What was that Mr. Armstrong?" The teacher hissed
"You're a fucking bitch and I hope you burn in hell and I'm glad I left a piss stain on your carpet, you fire breathing bitch!"
The 3 of us still sitting tried not to laugh.
"Detention, now" She said. Billie grabbed his books and slammed the door shut as he left. I started laughing
"Esther, you can join him"
"Okay, Ms. Bitch"
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me, I'm sure of it" I smiled and left the room and caught up with Billie Joe about half way to the detention room
"What are you doing?" He asked when I came up behind him
"I started laughing when you left and called her a bitch and now I'm here" I said. He laughed.
We walked into a small room, with individual desks in rows, 4 across and 4 back and a teacher's desk at the front of the table. Who ever was supposed to be watching the students wasn't in here. Billie and I sat next to each other in the back row in the right corner. There were only 4 other people in the room, 2 of which were Brad and Richie, who were both asleep. One was Leah who was always mouthing off and the other was someone who I hadn't seen in a while. He was sitting two seats ahead of me and I threw a piece of pencil at him and he turned around.
"What?" He asked
"Who are you?"
"Jared, you?"
"Esther, this is Billie" I pointed to Billie.
"Uh...Esther...I know you! You used to have a crush in my best friend!" I turned red.
"So...uh...what are you here for?"
"I told the teacher she was jealous of my sexiness again"
"What?" Billie asked
"The teacher told me to move away from my friend in class so I wouldn't talk, so yesterday and today when she told me to leave I said 'You're just jealous because I'm sexier than you!' And then I was here. I mean...come on! I'm so sexy!" He smiled and I laughed at his remark.
"You are soooo sexy!" Billie said
"You ain't bad yourself" And Jared winked at Billie.
So, the 3 of us wound up in a conversation about the underground bands coming along from 924 Gilman.
"That's where I know you! You went to see Jason's band and we were talking in the crowd!" I said to Jared
"Oh yeah!"
"I remember you...Jason said you were sexy" Billie smiled.
"But...I was busy! I didn't know she'd die to today!" Billie was crying more, he couldn't breathe. His one cousin, who he loved a lot had been in a car wreck and might die.
I sat up in bed.
It was a few days into school already. Today was Friday, I woke up and got dressed and waited for Billie and Adrienne to come over and Mike to come down stairs so we could go to school like every other day.
"Nothing will happen to Billie...he'll be fine...his cousin, Anne will be fine too" I kept telling myself.
"Hey, what's up with talking to yourself?" Mike asked as he sat down on the couch beside me
"Ihadadreamthatbilliewouldn'tbreath!" I blurted out
"What?"
"I had a dream, Anne might be dyeing and Billie couldn't breathe!" I said, what if this was like a premonition dream?
"Let's just wait outside for Billie Joe and Adrienne. Don't tell him...he'll worry."
"Okay...okay..." I nodded nervously after taking a deep breath.
We got to school and we're in Social Studies with the evil teacher that Billie hated and she hated Billie. We were in rows with tables and 2 people sat at a table. So it was like one row of people connected behind another. Mike sat on the end, then me, then Billie, then Adrienne. We had been allowed to choose our seats as long as it was boy/girl pattern.
"I have to go to the bathroom" Billie announced to us before the teacher started her job
"Then go" I said
"She won't let me"
"Just ask" I said, nudging him. He raised his hand as she started teaching.
"What now, Billie Joe?"
"I have to go to the bathroom"
"That's nice, anyway...take out a piece of paper, class and--" Billie interrupted her
"can I go to the bathroom?"
"You have the ability to, but you don't have my permission" I glared at her
"May I go to the bathroom?!" Billie said, crossing his legs.
"No, 1) you interrupted my class 2) people have been abusing their rights to use the bathroom and 3) I'm teaching right now"
"But--"
"No is no!" And she went back to her lesson and Billie grabbed himself.
"Just get up and go" Mike whispered down the row
"Are you kidding!? I'll get detention for a fucking month from her!" Billie hissed back.
"Billie! Quiet!" The teacher yelled.
"Jesus Christ, I;m gonna fucking piss my pants" Billie said to no one in particular. We were now sitting in silence, doing the assignment and Billie raised his hand again.
"What Billie?"
"May I go to the bathroom now?" He asked, legs still clamped together.
"What is that rule on the board?" She smiled
"No passes will be signed during the first 5 minutes or last 15 minutes of class..."
"Right, you should've gone before you came" Billie made a small whimpering noise and bit his lip.
"I hate her...so much..." He said.
"I bet she hates you, more than she did 5 minutes ago right now" Mike whispered down the table. I turned to him
"What?"
"Billie!" Adrienne said
"What's going on...what the...Billie!" I hissed. Adrienne, Mike and I were all focused on the carpet underneath Billie.
Oh, the piss stain, not carpet.
"Fucker..." He whispered. No one else had even noticed. "Now I have a piss stain on my pants for the day! Fucking teacher!"
"What was that Mr. Armstrong?" The teacher hissed
"You're a fucking bitch and I hope you burn in hell and I'm glad I left a piss stain on your carpet, you fire breathing bitch!"
The 3 of us still sitting tried not to laugh.
"Detention, now" She said. Billie grabbed his books and slammed the door shut as he left. I started laughing
"Esther, you can join him"
"Okay, Ms. Bitch"
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me, I'm sure of it" I smiled and left the room and caught up with Billie Joe about half way to the detention room
"What are you doing?" He asked when I came up behind him
"I started laughing when you left and called her a bitch and now I'm here" I said. He laughed.
We walked into a small room, with individual desks in rows, 4 across and 4 back and a teacher's desk at the front of the table. Who ever was supposed to be watching the students wasn't in here. Billie and I sat next to each other in the back row in the right corner. There were only 4 other people in the room, 2 of which were Brad and Richie, who were both asleep. One was Leah who was always mouthing off and the other was someone who I hadn't seen in a while. He was sitting two seats ahead of me and I threw a piece of pencil at him and he turned around.
"What?" He asked
"Who are you?"
"Jared, you?"
"Esther, this is Billie" I pointed to Billie.
"Uh...Esther...I know you! You used to have a crush in my best friend!" I turned red.
"So...uh...what are you here for?"
"I told the teacher she was jealous of my sexiness again"
"What?" Billie asked
"The teacher told me to move away from my friend in class so I wouldn't talk, so yesterday and today when she told me to leave I said 'You're just jealous because I'm sexier than you!' And then I was here. I mean...come on! I'm so sexy!" He smiled and I laughed at his remark.
"You are soooo sexy!" Billie said
"You ain't bad yourself" And Jared winked at Billie.
So, the 3 of us wound up in a conversation about the underground bands coming along from 924 Gilman.
"That's where I know you! You went to see Jason's band and we were talking in the crowd!" I said to Jared
"Oh yeah!"
"I remember you...Jason said you were sexy" Billie smiled.
