Take Me From My Hell, chapter 4
"Now, if you want to live... Your gonna keep your fucking mouth shut. Got it?" Some guy asked me. I was on the ground, face down and he was standing over me talking. I nodded my head. He rolled me over and gazed at me.
"What the hell happened to you, my bitch?"
"My mother beat me. Okay?" I snapped
"Don't get cocky with me"; He kicked me. "Now, shut up and be a good bitch for me... "; I gasped and he smacked tape over my mouth. I started crying again as I knew what he was aiming to do.
He slid my pants off and threw them aside. I tried to scream but my voice wouldn't work. I could only hear my muffled sobs from behind the tape over my mouth.
He rammed himself into me and I cried harder. I gasped in pain and shut my eyes as I tried to bear what was happening to me. He started pounding me and I made some odd noise, trying to scream and cry at once. Some sort of squeak escaped my mouth and he slapped me again, telling me if I made another noise he'd slit my throat. I bit my tongue as the pain ran through me. I heard him yell and I felt blood from my tongue run against my teeth and trickle into my throat. He pulled himself out and stared at me, saying someone already did the job of beating 'his bitch for the night'.
I ripped the tape of and I couldn't scream, he could still be around. And he'd kill me, I was scared. I stared at the falling rain from the sky. I was in so much pain. After a few seconds I stood up.
I looked around, that asshole still had my pants! I was alone, hurt, in the rain, with no pants and I was just raped. I cried out in agony, pain and misery as a dizzy spell fell upon me. I started walking away. It was almost midnight, so I didn't expect anyone to see me, and my shirt was somewhat long so I'd be okay if I was spotted, pants less.
I started running as my vision started blurred and I panicked. What was happening to me? I looked around; I was near my neighbor hood. I ran to Vincent's house, pain surging through me. I ran into the front yard and stopped.
He wasn't there, no one was.
There was a 'for sale' sign up.
He left, and didn't say good-bye.
Tears poured again and I started swearing every word under the sun for how my night was going. I turned and starting running again. Maybe if I was lucky I'd get hit by a car and die... No more misery. I started running again, I heard someone behind me after a few minutes of running on a sidewalk on the other side of town. That fucking guy, again! He caught me by my shoulders
"How dare you try and get help... ";
"I didn't... I wasn't! Let me go!" ; I cried out.
"How do I know you won't go to a police station?" ; He said, holding a knife to my throat.
"I'll do anything if you let me go! Please!" ; My mind froze as I realized what I had just let slip out.
"Get down on the ground, stay quiet, and legs apart. Or else"; I could almost see his sick smile of triumph through my closed, teary eyes. My whole body was shaking in fear
I obeyed and paid the price again. I have no idea how long I was laying on that ground after he was done with me. I can't remember what all happened. I remember feeling like I was going to die. I had attempted to run again, I got to some houses, but it wasn't any good.
I felt light headed and I got dizzy once more. I stumbled into the street and crossed and ran to another section I didn't know. Everything blurred into one thing in my vision. My thoughts raced everyway continuously. I wanted to die and be put out of my misery, pants less, raped, beaten, parentless now, no one was around for me.
"Why God? What the f-fuck di-... "; I gasped for breath in between my sibs "What the fuck did I ever do!? Just fucking kill me now! Let the lightening strike me down!" ; The rain smacked against my face even harder as if my prayers would be answered.
I felt the world slip out from under me as I collapsed in someone's front lawn.
***
I woke up in a cold sweat and a daze in a hospital room. I looked around; the room was small with one bed, the one I was on. It was extremely dark and I was extremely cold. A clock said 3:30am. There was a tube in my arm and it was itching like crazy. I panicked as I remembered what happened, and no idea what would happen next.
"Hey, your awake"; Someone said from the doorway
"Who are you?" ; I asked back. He flicked on the lights and my eyes closed shut in reaction to the brightness.
"Sorry about that"; He said. I looked up at him. He was a petite guy and pretty small. He was in all black, with some beat up converse and a red tie. His hair was in his eyes and messy and he had lines of worn eyeliner under his eyes.
"So umm... Can you fill me in on what happened?" ; I asked as I sat up in the bed and he sat down next to the bed.
"Sure, first off my name is Billie Joe, I found you in my front lawn around 10:30pm because I went outside to take out the trash. So, I went inside and told my wife where I was going and I brought you here. According to the doctors you were raped tonight and passed out from exhaustion, shock and unstable mental stuff";
"Oh... Well. I fill you in now. My name is Khristina... With a KH instead in a CH. I ran out in my mother tonight after I told her off because she's abusive and she was going to be taken away and blah blah that's a story for another time. So... I ran out and got raped outside of a store. Then I ran to my neighbor's house. Well, I like him a lot and he promised he'd say bye before he left but he didn't so I started running and crying more and that guy found me again when I was in this part of town and raped me again." ; I took a deep breath as I realized my voice was cracking and I was making an attempt to hold back tears.
"Shit... I don't know what to say. I see what they meant now... "; His voice trailed off. "Um... Anyway... You didn't notice who I was?" ; He smiled, trying to change the subject
"No.. Should I?" ; I asked. Billie filled me in on his band and albums and things like that.
"I never had anything so I don't know any bands really. I love music... But because my mother was an over controlling alcoholic bitch I couldn't watch TV or buy any CD's or something like that. So yeah"; The clock now said 4:15.
"I see, well, you need to get more sleep. You'll be in here a while more. And... I'll bring you something to listen to. I be back tomorrow around 10:00am. If I'm not, my wife Adrienne will. We'll make sure you're okay." ; He kissed my forehead before he said good-bye, turned off the lights and walked out of the door.
I sank back into the pillows and stared at the black wall in front of me, in desperate need of color. I wanted someone to talk to. I wanted a home, a family, Vincent, and to live a normal life. This was to far from average.
The next day I woke up around the time Billie Joe's wife came in.
"Hi, I'm Adrienne"; She said with a smile
"Hi, I'm Khristina";
"I know, Billie came home and told me about everything, I'm really sorry about this";
"Me too. Where is Billie?" ;
"He was here earlier but left because he's in the end of a tour now. He'll be back in a week, all the ending shows are righter here in California." ; She said, Adrienne sat down in a chair at the end of bed and we started talking, I wound up telling her my life story, she told me about how she met Billie Joe and their two kids, Joey and Jakob.
The days were dragging, I had spent a week and a half in here already and I'd be going home in 3 days... Wherever home was.
"Hey, what's up?" ; It was Billie
"Billie... Where am I gonna go when I get out here?" ; I asked. He stared at me for a while.
"You can't go home... It's just not safe. Especially if you are pregnant, so maybe you could stay with me for-"
"Wait... Go back to the part about being pregnant. What did you say?" ;
"You were raped, twice in one night. You could be pregnant." ;
"Oh my God... Holy fuck... Oh my God! I didn't even think about that! I'm 14! Wait... What's today?" ;
"May 29th 2006, why?" ;
";My birthday was yesterday, I'm 15. And I might be pregnant!" ; I started crying, Billie held me and tried to calm me down
"Okay... Well... Happy birthday and sorry about spending it in a hospital. But right now... We have to find out if you are pregnant or not." ; He said, I nodded against his shoulder. He called a nurse down.
I was taken out of my room, into another wing of the hospital where they would do give me a test and physical. I got into the room and the nurse I was with handed me a box with a test in it and pointed to the bathroom behind me.
"I'll wait out here and then we'll get some of your medical work updated. According to our records you've missed 9 checkups at your doctors office." ;
"I know." ; I walked away from her into the bathroom and followed the directions on the back of the box. I sat on the sink counter for the minutes I had to wait... Thinking. I had been getting sick for the past few days... What if I am?
I was afraid to look at the test... It could change my life. I walked out and handed it to the nurse. She looked at it.
"Okay, honey... You're positive. You're gonna have a baby";
"What the hell happened to you, my bitch?"
"My mother beat me. Okay?" I snapped
"Don't get cocky with me"; He kicked me. "Now, shut up and be a good bitch for me... "; I gasped and he smacked tape over my mouth. I started crying again as I knew what he was aiming to do.
He slid my pants off and threw them aside. I tried to scream but my voice wouldn't work. I could only hear my muffled sobs from behind the tape over my mouth.
He rammed himself into me and I cried harder. I gasped in pain and shut my eyes as I tried to bear what was happening to me. He started pounding me and I made some odd noise, trying to scream and cry at once. Some sort of squeak escaped my mouth and he slapped me again, telling me if I made another noise he'd slit my throat. I bit my tongue as the pain ran through me. I heard him yell and I felt blood from my tongue run against my teeth and trickle into my throat. He pulled himself out and stared at me, saying someone already did the job of beating 'his bitch for the night'.
I ripped the tape of and I couldn't scream, he could still be around. And he'd kill me, I was scared. I stared at the falling rain from the sky. I was in so much pain. After a few seconds I stood up.
I looked around, that asshole still had my pants! I was alone, hurt, in the rain, with no pants and I was just raped. I cried out in agony, pain and misery as a dizzy spell fell upon me. I started walking away. It was almost midnight, so I didn't expect anyone to see me, and my shirt was somewhat long so I'd be okay if I was spotted, pants less.
I started running as my vision started blurred and I panicked. What was happening to me? I looked around; I was near my neighbor hood. I ran to Vincent's house, pain surging through me. I ran into the front yard and stopped.
He wasn't there, no one was.
There was a 'for sale' sign up.
He left, and didn't say good-bye.
Tears poured again and I started swearing every word under the sun for how my night was going. I turned and starting running again. Maybe if I was lucky I'd get hit by a car and die... No more misery. I started running again, I heard someone behind me after a few minutes of running on a sidewalk on the other side of town. That fucking guy, again! He caught me by my shoulders
"How dare you try and get help... ";
"I didn't... I wasn't! Let me go!" ; I cried out.
"How do I know you won't go to a police station?" ; He said, holding a knife to my throat.
"I'll do anything if you let me go! Please!" ; My mind froze as I realized what I had just let slip out.
"Get down on the ground, stay quiet, and legs apart. Or else"; I could almost see his sick smile of triumph through my closed, teary eyes. My whole body was shaking in fear
I obeyed and paid the price again. I have no idea how long I was laying on that ground after he was done with me. I can't remember what all happened. I remember feeling like I was going to die. I had attempted to run again, I got to some houses, but it wasn't any good.
I felt light headed and I got dizzy once more. I stumbled into the street and crossed and ran to another section I didn't know. Everything blurred into one thing in my vision. My thoughts raced everyway continuously. I wanted to die and be put out of my misery, pants less, raped, beaten, parentless now, no one was around for me.
"Why God? What the f-fuck di-... "; I gasped for breath in between my sibs "What the fuck did I ever do!? Just fucking kill me now! Let the lightening strike me down!" ; The rain smacked against my face even harder as if my prayers would be answered.
I felt the world slip out from under me as I collapsed in someone's front lawn.
***
I woke up in a cold sweat and a daze in a hospital room. I looked around; the room was small with one bed, the one I was on. It was extremely dark and I was extremely cold. A clock said 3:30am. There was a tube in my arm and it was itching like crazy. I panicked as I remembered what happened, and no idea what would happen next.
"Hey, your awake"; Someone said from the doorway
"Who are you?" ; I asked back. He flicked on the lights and my eyes closed shut in reaction to the brightness.
"Sorry about that"; He said. I looked up at him. He was a petite guy and pretty small. He was in all black, with some beat up converse and a red tie. His hair was in his eyes and messy and he had lines of worn eyeliner under his eyes.
"So umm... Can you fill me in on what happened?" ; I asked as I sat up in the bed and he sat down next to the bed.
"Sure, first off my name is Billie Joe, I found you in my front lawn around 10:30pm because I went outside to take out the trash. So, I went inside and told my wife where I was going and I brought you here. According to the doctors you were raped tonight and passed out from exhaustion, shock and unstable mental stuff";
"Oh... Well. I fill you in now. My name is Khristina... With a KH instead in a CH. I ran out in my mother tonight after I told her off because she's abusive and she was going to be taken away and blah blah that's a story for another time. So... I ran out and got raped outside of a store. Then I ran to my neighbor's house. Well, I like him a lot and he promised he'd say bye before he left but he didn't so I started running and crying more and that guy found me again when I was in this part of town and raped me again." ; I took a deep breath as I realized my voice was cracking and I was making an attempt to hold back tears.
"Shit... I don't know what to say. I see what they meant now... "; His voice trailed off. "Um... Anyway... You didn't notice who I was?" ; He smiled, trying to change the subject
"No.. Should I?" ; I asked. Billie filled me in on his band and albums and things like that.
"I never had anything so I don't know any bands really. I love music... But because my mother was an over controlling alcoholic bitch I couldn't watch TV or buy any CD's or something like that. So yeah"; The clock now said 4:15.
"I see, well, you need to get more sleep. You'll be in here a while more. And... I'll bring you something to listen to. I be back tomorrow around 10:00am. If I'm not, my wife Adrienne will. We'll make sure you're okay." ; He kissed my forehead before he said good-bye, turned off the lights and walked out of the door.
I sank back into the pillows and stared at the black wall in front of me, in desperate need of color. I wanted someone to talk to. I wanted a home, a family, Vincent, and to live a normal life. This was to far from average.
The next day I woke up around the time Billie Joe's wife came in.
"Hi, I'm Adrienne"; She said with a smile
"Hi, I'm Khristina";
"I know, Billie came home and told me about everything, I'm really sorry about this";
"Me too. Where is Billie?" ;
"He was here earlier but left because he's in the end of a tour now. He'll be back in a week, all the ending shows are righter here in California." ; She said, Adrienne sat down in a chair at the end of bed and we started talking, I wound up telling her my life story, she told me about how she met Billie Joe and their two kids, Joey and Jakob.
The days were dragging, I had spent a week and a half in here already and I'd be going home in 3 days... Wherever home was.
"Hey, what's up?" ; It was Billie
"Billie... Where am I gonna go when I get out here?" ; I asked. He stared at me for a while.
"You can't go home... It's just not safe. Especially if you are pregnant, so maybe you could stay with me for-"
"Wait... Go back to the part about being pregnant. What did you say?" ;
"You were raped, twice in one night. You could be pregnant." ;
"Oh my God... Holy fuck... Oh my God! I didn't even think about that! I'm 14! Wait... What's today?" ;
"May 29th 2006, why?" ;
";My birthday was yesterday, I'm 15. And I might be pregnant!" ; I started crying, Billie held me and tried to calm me down
"Okay... Well... Happy birthday and sorry about spending it in a hospital. But right now... We have to find out if you are pregnant or not." ; He said, I nodded against his shoulder. He called a nurse down.
I was taken out of my room, into another wing of the hospital where they would do give me a test and physical. I got into the room and the nurse I was with handed me a box with a test in it and pointed to the bathroom behind me.
"I'll wait out here and then we'll get some of your medical work updated. According to our records you've missed 9 checkups at your doctors office." ;
"I know." ; I walked away from her into the bathroom and followed the directions on the back of the box. I sat on the sink counter for the minutes I had to wait... Thinking. I had been getting sick for the past few days... What if I am?
I was afraid to look at the test... It could change my life. I walked out and handed it to the nurse. She looked at it.
"Okay, honey... You're positive. You're gonna have a baby";
