Letters From Home, chapter 3
July 28, 1994
Dear Amy,
How's Evanescence going? Got a record deal yet? You guys should, because, you rock. I should know. I used to be the drummer, am I right? Sorry, a little bit of fantasy going on here. *sings like Tre* I need a rock n roll band, I need a rock n roll life! *Normal Voice* God, Adrienne is so freaking lucky. Why did he have to leave for the tour? Why did he find someone else? Why, did TRE tell me instead of HIM? Sorry I'm bitching about this to you, but it's that I feel really shitty, like she has something I don't. Oh well... As long as he's happy.
I know, I know, I shouldn't be blabbing about Billie Joe when you lost Tre, too. But it hurts so fucking much. You CAN'T tell Billie what I did... I got the razor... And, you know, tried to kill myself. The neighbor kid (an 11-year old) found me passed out into the kitchen and got his dad to take me to the hospital. Sometimes I wish he hadn't sometimes I'm grateful he had. I'll never know. Anyway, Jasen (my kid), is crying his head off. I'll write later.
You can't tell anyone,
-Mia
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July 30, 1994
Dear Guyz,
I'm not supposed to tell you what Mia writes to me, but it is URGENT. Billie, why did you leave her? She is trying to freaking murder herself, you need to get your sorry ass over there, or I'll go over there and KICK IT! You need to hurry! I'll be staying with her until you come.
I mean it, I will kick your ass!
Amy
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August 1, 1994
Dear Mia and Amy,
I have to go to a gig, but I'll be over in a couple hours. Mia, we're sorry to say this, but Amy told me what you did. Mia, why didn't you tell me? I bet this is how you felt when I had Tre tell you I was engaged to Adie, huh? God, I feel like shit. I screwed up so bad. I lost you, and now I'm paying for it. I am SOOOOOOO sorry. I just wish things were like the way they used to be. But I'll pay the hospital bill, have them send it to me.
Mia, forgive me
-Billie
Dear Amy,
How's Evanescence going? Got a record deal yet? You guys should, because, you rock. I should know. I used to be the drummer, am I right? Sorry, a little bit of fantasy going on here. *sings like Tre* I need a rock n roll band, I need a rock n roll life! *Normal Voice* God, Adrienne is so freaking lucky. Why did he have to leave for the tour? Why did he find someone else? Why, did TRE tell me instead of HIM? Sorry I'm bitching about this to you, but it's that I feel really shitty, like she has something I don't. Oh well... As long as he's happy.
I know, I know, I shouldn't be blabbing about Billie Joe when you lost Tre, too. But it hurts so fucking much. You CAN'T tell Billie what I did... I got the razor... And, you know, tried to kill myself. The neighbor kid (an 11-year old) found me passed out into the kitchen and got his dad to take me to the hospital. Sometimes I wish he hadn't sometimes I'm grateful he had. I'll never know. Anyway, Jasen (my kid), is crying his head off. I'll write later.
You can't tell anyone,
-Mia
***
July 30, 1994
Dear Guyz,
I'm not supposed to tell you what Mia writes to me, but it is URGENT. Billie, why did you leave her? She is trying to freaking murder herself, you need to get your sorry ass over there, or I'll go over there and KICK IT! You need to hurry! I'll be staying with her until you come.
I mean it, I will kick your ass!
Amy
***
August 1, 1994
Dear Mia and Amy,
I have to go to a gig, but I'll be over in a couple hours. Mia, we're sorry to say this, but Amy told me what you did. Mia, why didn't you tell me? I bet this is how you felt when I had Tre tell you I was engaged to Adie, huh? God, I feel like shit. I screwed up so bad. I lost you, and now I'm paying for it. I am SOOOOOOO sorry. I just wish things were like the way they used to be. But I'll pay the hospital bill, have them send it to me.
Mia, forgive me
-Billie
