Feelings And Scars Are Permanent (Sequel to Why Do Bad Things Always Happen To Us?), chapter 4
"Aww, come on! Please. Another kissy. For me? You're boyfriend!" Billie Joe said.
"Be quiet Billie Joe." I said shaking my head and laughing.
"I heard that!" He said pretending to pout.
We both ended up laughing and just watching TV. Nothing was on so we ended up watching this dumb reality show. Fianlly, it was over. I felt like I was torturing myself making we watch this shit. This stupid commercial about washcloths or something came on so I just muted the TV. I leaned my head back on the couch and closed my eyes. I felt someone grab my hand and stoke it with their finger. I opened my eyes and lifted my head from the couch to see Billie Joe holding my hand. I smiled at him and he smiled back.
"You know, our 2 year anniversary is in 3 weeks?" He said.
"Yeah, I know." I said.
"I want it to be special." He said.
"So do I. I mean, it'll be 2 years. Two whole years. With you. It seems so long and magical. You know?"
"Yeah. I'm so glad I'm with you, Steph. I love you." He said.
Billie Joe was the cutest guy ever. So sweet and romantic. And he cared about me so much. And I couldn't understand why at times. All I wanted to do was be with Billie Joe. And hopefully, he felt the same way.
"I'm hungry." Billie Joe said.
I just laughed and started choking on my spit.
"Having trouble?" He asked.
"Only a little. I choked on my spit."
Billie Joe didn't say anything. He just blinked.
"What?!" I said.
He still didn't say anything. And I glared at him.
"Say something."
"Oooooookkkaaayyy." He said looking at the TV.
I stuck my tongue out at him.
"I'm hungry too."
"I'll go see if we have anything in the fridge." Billie Joe said getting up from the couch.
"Okay." I said.
I heard Billie Joe going through cabinets or closets.
"Yesssss!" Billie Joe hissed quietly. "Score!"
"Found something, I presume?" I asked.
"Macaroni and cheese!"
".. Oookkay. I like mac and cheese too but you make it sound so awesome."
"I've been craving mac and cheese for a while now, Steph. You know this."
"Oh yeah." I said as I laughed. "Want me to help you?"
"No! I'm perfectly capable of making some stupid mac and cheese. It's not frickin' rocket science."
"Oh alright then." I said unmuting the TV.
Only a minute had passed by and I heard Billie Joe's voice.
"Steph?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you help me?"
I laughed and headed towards the kitchen.
"Thought it wasn't rocket science, Billie?"
"I hate science." He said crossing his arms.
I took the box from him and read the instructions.
"What was so hard to figure out?" I asked confused.
"I wasn't sure how to measure the water."
"Oh my god." I said putting my hand through my hair and opening a drawer.
I grabbed a cup measurer out of the drawer.
"This," I said holding it up to Billie Joe's face, "Is a measuring cup. It's used to measure things like flour, sugar, cake mixes, syrup, and water."
Billie Joe stuck his tongue at me as he leaned against the kitchen wall as I quickly measured the water and stuff and put it in the microwave.
"How are you so damn smart?" Billie Joe said grabbing my hands.
"Oh I don't know. Maybe it's just a little thing called common sense. You might've heard of it." I said as Billie Joe intwined our fingers.
"Nope, never heard of it." He said giving me his adorable smile and chuckling.
I kissed him on the nose as the microwave went off. I unintwined our fingers and went over to the microwave.
"Oh come on now. We were just getting started." Billie Joe said walking towards me.
"Now, now little horn dog." I said handing him a bowl of mac and cheese with a spoon. "Let's eat instead."
"Aww, you're no fun." He said taking the bowl.
"Uh, huh." I said sarcasticly. "That's why we always have fun together."
"Because of me."
"Uh, no."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
"No, I don't think so."
"Yes!"
"No!" I said as I took a spoon of my mac and cheese and put it in Billie Joe's mouth to make him shut up.
He licked the spoon in a "scary sexual" way.
"You are worse then Tre at times, Billie."
"At times. Onleh, ah times. Naw all the time." He said with his mouth full of food.
"Billie, swallow." I said laughing. "I don't want you to choke."
"I do."
"What?" I asked confused.
"Then you'd give me mouth to mouth." He said with a cheekie grin.
"Oh my giddy aunt." I said turning away from him and heading to the living room again to eat my food.
Billie Joe was nearly done with his. A way to a man's heart is through his stomach. What stomach?! I swear some guys have about as many as cows do. And cows have 4 stomachs!
"I guess you were hungry." I said as I took a spoonful of food and stuffed it into my mouth.
"I told you I was."
We heard a knock and someone come in.
"Hey bitches!"
It was Tre. I don't know where Mike was though.
"Where's Mike?" I asked, finishing my food.
"He went home." Tre said.
"Why?"
"I dunno. I think he said he had a headache. Oh yeah. He did. So he just left and went home. Guess he's sick or something."
"Or just has a headache from the sun."
"That's one idea." Tre said. "So whatcha guys doin'?"
"We were eating. But, now we're done." I said taking my bowl to the kitchen.
"Did you guys have fun when we left?" Tre said, smirking.
"Yes." Billie Joe said chuckling.
"Ooooo! I wanna know!" Tre squealed like a little school girl.
"No." I said coming back into the living room, sitting next to Billie Joe.
"Aww, why? That bad?" He said.
"No, it wasn't bad." I said.
"Haha! I tricked you!"
"How?"
"I got you to tell me it was good."
"So? It's not like you know what we did."
"Shut up!" He said pretending to pout as he sat on the floor.
***
I yawned and was beginning to fall asleep. We were watching this stupid movie that was kind of good but boring. I rested my head on Billie's shoulder as he rested his head on my head. Tre was on the floor bascilly sleeping. I yawned once again and closed my eyes.
"Tired?" Billie Joe whispered in my ear.
"Yeah," I sleepily said.
"Do you wanna lay down then?"
"Sure." I said.
So Billie Joe layed down on the couch and I got on him on my stomach with my head on his chest. I closed my eyes again and Billie Joe kept running his hand through my hair. I smiled and kissed his chest and I eventually just fell asleep.
***
I heard someone talking as I slowly and finally awoke. I kept my eyes closed though. It was Tre and Billie Joe talking. They must've woken up before, obviously. Normally I woke up first. Oh well.
"You know, you guys really look cute together." Tre said.
"Thanks." Billie Joe said.
"Isn't your guy's 2 year anniversary in like a month or something."
"Well, 3 weeks. I'm excited. I can't believe it's gonna be 2 years. I don't think I've loved anyone as much as I love Steph."
"Me neither. I mean, you've never been so happy with any other girl. So what're you gonna do for the anniversary. Do you have anything special planned?"
"Well," Billie Joe said lowering his voice, "I did have one idea. But, I'm not sure if she's ready."
"Oh, you mean you're first time?" Tre whispered.
"Yeah. I think it'd be so romantic and special. I'm just not sure if she's ready. I know I'm ready."
"And it doesn't bother you that when you two are close to that point that you have to stop because she's not ready?"
"Not really. I don't want to push her. That's the last thing I want to do."
"You're a good man, Billie. And I'm not just blowin' smoke up your ass either."
"Thanks Tre."
"Your welcome. Do you have any protection?"
"Of course. I have a package in my drawer. I have it in case. You know?"
"Yup."
They stopped talking for a second and it was quiet.
"Why don't you ask her if she's ready?" Tre asked.
"I don't know. I don't want to, because what if she gets the idea that I really want to have sex? She might say yes when she really means no. Just because she feels pressured."
"Yeah, you have a point. But I'd think she'd tell you the truth."
"Who knows." Billie said, running his hand through my hair.
I opened my eyes slowly and stirred a little. Billie Joe looked down and smiled at me.
"Hey baby." He said as he kissed the top of my head.
"Hey." I said smiling.
I yawned and rubbed my eyes.
"How long did I sleep?" I asked.
"Uhh, about 2 hours." Billie Joe said.
"Did you guys sleep long?"
"Sorta."
"Billie tells me your guy's anniversary's coming up." Tre said.
"Yup. It'll be 2 years. I'm so excited." I said smiling.
"I should think so. That is a long time." Tre said agreeing.
"Yup."
"Billie's got something special planned for it."
"Really?" I said chuckling.
"Yeah!"
"Tre, shut it!" Billie Joe said.
The funny thing is, I already know. I do feel a little guilty but who knows, maybe I'll surprise him and be ready. I really need to decide on whether or not I am ready. I think I could be but I need to think on it. I want to decide hopefully before next weekend.
"Don't hate me cuz you ain't me Billie!" Tre yelled.
"Oh God." Billie said rubbing his face.
"Billie?" I said.
"Yeah?"
"Can I ask you something this time?" I said referring to the macaroni and cheese incident earlier in the kitchen.
"Yeah, of course."
"Isn't it unconfortable having my lay on you for so long?"
"Acutally no. I kind of like it." He said.
Tre and I cracked up.
"Oh shut up you perverts! I didn't mean it like that! I just meant I don't mind because I like having you around. I like having you near."
"Aww.." I said holding back laughter.
"You're holding back laughter, Stephany!" He said.
"I know. But that was still sweet." I said kissing his chest.
"You guys are one of the cutest/weirdest couples I have ever seen?" Tre said.
"How so?" I asked.
"Well, you have your sweet and adorable moments. You have your weird and odd moments. And then you have those just plain weird moments."
"Oh thanks a lot, Tre!" I said. "I can feel the love. Can you, Billie."
"Oh yes, Stephany. I can feel the love. Can you Stephany."
"Yes, Billie. I can feel the love. Can you feel the love?"
"I can feel the love, Steph! Can you-"
"Will you guys shut the hell up?!" Tre yelled, interrupting Billie.
"Tsk, tsk, tsk." I said wagging my finger. "It's impolite to interrupt others."
This caused Billie and I to start a fit of laughter. We were an odd/cute couple. And that's how I liked it. It was perfectly balanced. Not too much of anything. Which can really be a bad thing.
"I'll be back. I gotta go potty." I said.
"Okay, as long as you do it in the bathroom and not on Billie Joe." Tre said laughing.
"Shut up, Tre!" I said getting off of Billie. "I'd do it on you waaaaay before I do it on Billie!"
And with that I left Billie Joe and Tre to talk, argue, or do God knows what while I used the bathroom. Or 'potty.'
I looked in the mirror and my hair was a little messed up. I took out the hair tie and brushed it with my finger nails and I put it back into a low ponytail as usual. It was always either that or a bun or something along those lines.
I could hear Tre and Billie talking about something in the living room. I felt the need to take a risk of some kind. I found a washcloth and got it wet. That stupid commercial popped in my head and I figured I'd throw one at one of them. Probably Tre considering he'd be closer.
I slowly opened the bathroom door and slowly peaker my head out the door a little. I saw Tre, still sitting on the floor. He wasn't looking over here so I had a perfect shot! He was a sitting duck. I threw it and it stuck to his head.
"Ahhh!! What the fuck!?" He yelled trying to get it off.
I started to crack up laughing as I fell on my knees laughing.
"Stephany!" He yelled getting up and chasing me with the washcloth.
I got up and ran away.
"Catch me if you can!" I yelled still laughing and running.
I dived behind a couch before he could see me and sat there quietly. I breathed in a out because I was laughing so hard that I couldn't breath. I crawled a little to the side of the couch and saw Tre run into the kitchen. I sat on my knees as he searched the kitchen.
"Come here Steph! Come here damnit!" He yelled.
"Dude, you fucking break anything and I'll break your ass." Billie Joe said looking serious.
"I won't. Chill yourself." Tre said.
"Just let it go! Give me the damn wash cloth!"
"No!"
"Tre! Stop being a fuckin' 5 year old!"
"I'm not! I just want revenge!"
"Yeah, well, I don't want to see the look on my mother's face when she sees something of hers broken. So just let it go!"
"Fine! Fucking asshole.." Tre said throwing the washcloth at Billie.
I came out from behind the couch stifling my laughter.
"YOU! You were there the whole damn time?" Tre yelled.
"Chill, Tre. It was just a damn washcloth. It's not like a dunked it in the toilet.... I should've done that!" I yelled. "Damnit!"
I walked over to the couch and sat next to Billie Joe.
"If you would've thrown it at me with toilet water.. damn. I wouldn't give a shit what Billie said. I'd kill you!" Tre said sitting in a chair.
Billie Joe glared at him.
"Chill, I was joking, Billie. Don't kill me."
It was quiet for a while.
"I wonder how Mike's doing." I said out of nowhere.
"Who knows. Let's find out!" Tre yelled running for the phone and bringing it to the kitchen.
"What time is it?" I asked.
"It's," Tre said looking for a clock. "Almost 7:00 at night."
"Then hold on. I'm gonna call my house real quick." I said grabbing the phone and dialing my phone number.
It rang a few times until finally someone answered.
"Hello?"
"Lexi? That you?" I asked.
"Yeah. What is it, Steph?"
"I was just calling to tell yah that I might be staying at Billie Joe's house. But I probably will stop by for some like new cloths or whatever. Guess what!" I yelled into the phone.
"What?"
"You know that bitchy girl Taylor Smith?"
"Yeah?"
"Well, I had just gotten off work and she bumped into me and was giving me all this shit about how it was my fault and so she just pissed me off big time so I punched it right in the nose!"
"Are you serious?!"
"Yeah, why?" I asked confused.
"That's hilarious! I hope you broke her nose. Oh, god. She's such a bitch!"
"Why do you think I punched her?"
Both my sister and I laughed.
"Okay, so you'll be over in a bit, right? To pick up cloths or whatever?" Lexi asked.
"Yup!"
"Okay, see yah in a bit, Steph. Love yah."
"Love yah. Bye."
We both hung up and I handed the phone to Tre.
"Okay we're gonna have to head over to my house soon so I can pick up some cloths."
"Okay," Billie Joe said kissing my cheek as I sat next to him on the couch.
I kissed him back and gave him a smile. Tre hung up the phone and got up.
"I don't feel like calling Mike right now." He said.
"You're very indecisive, aren't you Tre?" I said.
"Yeah.."
"So you wanna go to my house and get my stuff now?" I asked Billie Joe.
"Sure." Billie Joe said as we all got up.
We left the house and began walking to my house. It was only about a street away so it wasn't so bad.
"I'm surprised it's not chilly." I said.
Billie Joe had his arm around me as we walked.
"Well, I guess it's one of those hot humid summer nights." Billie Joe said.
"Oh goody."
That was the last we talked, surprisingly. So the time actually passed by fast and we were there. I opened the door and we all went into my house. I saw Lexi and sneaked up on her then quickly shook her and yelled.
"Ahh!!" She screamed while I laughed.
"Oh my gut." I said laughing.
Billie Joe and Tre were laughing too.
"God, Steph. Dumbass." She said.
"Nice to see you too." I said hugging her and walking to my room to get some cloths.
As I was in my room getting cloths I heard them talking. I wasn't sure what they were saying but I didn't care. After grabbing all my stuff, I headed back to the living room.
"Okay, I'm ready. Hope Lexi didn't bore you." I said chuckling.
"Shut up, Steph! You're such a smartass." She said.
"I know. Is dad home?"
"No."
"Okay. Just tell him I'm staying at a friend's house."
"Okay, but Steph?"
"Yeah, what?"
"Can I talk to you." She said looking at Tre and Billie Joe. "In private."
"Sure, I guess. Tre, Billie? Could you guys go outside for a second?"
"Sure thing, babe." Billie Joe said. "Come on Tre."
"Fine, fine, fine." Tre said followling Billie Joe outside.
"What is it?" I asked once they left.
"Is Tre staying the night?" She asked.
"Maybe. I don't know. Why?"
"Because, then you'll be alone with Billie Joe."
"Yeah, so?" I was getting confused. "What're you thinking?"
She sighed.
"Are you having sex?" She asked.
"What?! No!" I said. "I'm a virgin, Lex. And so is Billie Joe. And besides, we're not stupid. If we do have sex, which we won't! we'll use protection. So just chill, okay?"
"Fine, but I'm warning you. Dad will skin you alive if he ever found out you were pregnant or having sex. You know that don't you?" She asked. "I'm just warning you."
"I know, but you don't have to because I'm not."
"Okay, I know I can trust you. Just, don't do anything stupid."
Goddamnit, Lexi. Stop it with the lecture I'm trying to decide whether or not I'm ready to even have sex and you're telling me not to which is making it even harder! I wish she wouldn't worry so much.
I sighed and said, "I wish you wouldn't worry so much, Lex."
She smiled and kissed my forehead and said, "Do you even know if you want to have sex?"
I shook my head and said good-bye as I walked out the door and stood on the porch. Do I want to have sex? Am I ready to have sex? With Billie Joe?
"Ready, Steph?" Billie Joe said.
I nodded.
Was I ready for it?
"Be quiet Billie Joe." I said shaking my head and laughing.
"I heard that!" He said pretending to pout.
We both ended up laughing and just watching TV. Nothing was on so we ended up watching this dumb reality show. Fianlly, it was over. I felt like I was torturing myself making we watch this shit. This stupid commercial about washcloths or something came on so I just muted the TV. I leaned my head back on the couch and closed my eyes. I felt someone grab my hand and stoke it with their finger. I opened my eyes and lifted my head from the couch to see Billie Joe holding my hand. I smiled at him and he smiled back.
"You know, our 2 year anniversary is in 3 weeks?" He said.
"Yeah, I know." I said.
"I want it to be special." He said.
"So do I. I mean, it'll be 2 years. Two whole years. With you. It seems so long and magical. You know?"
"Yeah. I'm so glad I'm with you, Steph. I love you." He said.
Billie Joe was the cutest guy ever. So sweet and romantic. And he cared about me so much. And I couldn't understand why at times. All I wanted to do was be with Billie Joe. And hopefully, he felt the same way.
"I'm hungry." Billie Joe said.
I just laughed and started choking on my spit.
"Having trouble?" He asked.
"Only a little. I choked on my spit."
Billie Joe didn't say anything. He just blinked.
"What?!" I said.
He still didn't say anything. And I glared at him.
"Say something."
"Oooooookkkaaayyy." He said looking at the TV.
I stuck my tongue out at him.
"I'm hungry too."
"I'll go see if we have anything in the fridge." Billie Joe said getting up from the couch.
"Okay." I said.
I heard Billie Joe going through cabinets or closets.
"Yesssss!" Billie Joe hissed quietly. "Score!"
"Found something, I presume?" I asked.
"Macaroni and cheese!"
".. Oookkay. I like mac and cheese too but you make it sound so awesome."
"I've been craving mac and cheese for a while now, Steph. You know this."
"Oh yeah." I said as I laughed. "Want me to help you?"
"No! I'm perfectly capable of making some stupid mac and cheese. It's not frickin' rocket science."
"Oh alright then." I said unmuting the TV.
Only a minute had passed by and I heard Billie Joe's voice.
"Steph?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you help me?"
I laughed and headed towards the kitchen.
"Thought it wasn't rocket science, Billie?"
"I hate science." He said crossing his arms.
I took the box from him and read the instructions.
"What was so hard to figure out?" I asked confused.
"I wasn't sure how to measure the water."
"Oh my god." I said putting my hand through my hair and opening a drawer.
I grabbed a cup measurer out of the drawer.
"This," I said holding it up to Billie Joe's face, "Is a measuring cup. It's used to measure things like flour, sugar, cake mixes, syrup, and water."
Billie Joe stuck his tongue at me as he leaned against the kitchen wall as I quickly measured the water and stuff and put it in the microwave.
"How are you so damn smart?" Billie Joe said grabbing my hands.
"Oh I don't know. Maybe it's just a little thing called common sense. You might've heard of it." I said as Billie Joe intwined our fingers.
"Nope, never heard of it." He said giving me his adorable smile and chuckling.
I kissed him on the nose as the microwave went off. I unintwined our fingers and went over to the microwave.
"Oh come on now. We were just getting started." Billie Joe said walking towards me.
"Now, now little horn dog." I said handing him a bowl of mac and cheese with a spoon. "Let's eat instead."
"Aww, you're no fun." He said taking the bowl.
"Uh, huh." I said sarcasticly. "That's why we always have fun together."
"Because of me."
"Uh, no."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
"No, I don't think so."
"Yes!"
"No!" I said as I took a spoon of my mac and cheese and put it in Billie Joe's mouth to make him shut up.
He licked the spoon in a "scary sexual" way.
"You are worse then Tre at times, Billie."
"At times. Onleh, ah times. Naw all the time." He said with his mouth full of food.
"Billie, swallow." I said laughing. "I don't want you to choke."
"I do."
"What?" I asked confused.
"Then you'd give me mouth to mouth." He said with a cheekie grin.
"Oh my giddy aunt." I said turning away from him and heading to the living room again to eat my food.
Billie Joe was nearly done with his. A way to a man's heart is through his stomach. What stomach?! I swear some guys have about as many as cows do. And cows have 4 stomachs!
"I guess you were hungry." I said as I took a spoonful of food and stuffed it into my mouth.
"I told you I was."
We heard a knock and someone come in.
"Hey bitches!"
It was Tre. I don't know where Mike was though.
"Where's Mike?" I asked, finishing my food.
"He went home." Tre said.
"Why?"
"I dunno. I think he said he had a headache. Oh yeah. He did. So he just left and went home. Guess he's sick or something."
"Or just has a headache from the sun."
"That's one idea." Tre said. "So whatcha guys doin'?"
"We were eating. But, now we're done." I said taking my bowl to the kitchen.
"Did you guys have fun when we left?" Tre said, smirking.
"Yes." Billie Joe said chuckling.
"Ooooo! I wanna know!" Tre squealed like a little school girl.
"No." I said coming back into the living room, sitting next to Billie Joe.
"Aww, why? That bad?" He said.
"No, it wasn't bad." I said.
"Haha! I tricked you!"
"How?"
"I got you to tell me it was good."
"So? It's not like you know what we did."
"Shut up!" He said pretending to pout as he sat on the floor.
***
I yawned and was beginning to fall asleep. We were watching this stupid movie that was kind of good but boring. I rested my head on Billie's shoulder as he rested his head on my head. Tre was on the floor bascilly sleeping. I yawned once again and closed my eyes.
"Tired?" Billie Joe whispered in my ear.
"Yeah," I sleepily said.
"Do you wanna lay down then?"
"Sure." I said.
So Billie Joe layed down on the couch and I got on him on my stomach with my head on his chest. I closed my eyes again and Billie Joe kept running his hand through my hair. I smiled and kissed his chest and I eventually just fell asleep.
***
I heard someone talking as I slowly and finally awoke. I kept my eyes closed though. It was Tre and Billie Joe talking. They must've woken up before, obviously. Normally I woke up first. Oh well.
"You know, you guys really look cute together." Tre said.
"Thanks." Billie Joe said.
"Isn't your guy's 2 year anniversary in like a month or something."
"Well, 3 weeks. I'm excited. I can't believe it's gonna be 2 years. I don't think I've loved anyone as much as I love Steph."
"Me neither. I mean, you've never been so happy with any other girl. So what're you gonna do for the anniversary. Do you have anything special planned?"
"Well," Billie Joe said lowering his voice, "I did have one idea. But, I'm not sure if she's ready."
"Oh, you mean you're first time?" Tre whispered.
"Yeah. I think it'd be so romantic and special. I'm just not sure if she's ready. I know I'm ready."
"And it doesn't bother you that when you two are close to that point that you have to stop because she's not ready?"
"Not really. I don't want to push her. That's the last thing I want to do."
"You're a good man, Billie. And I'm not just blowin' smoke up your ass either."
"Thanks Tre."
"Your welcome. Do you have any protection?"
"Of course. I have a package in my drawer. I have it in case. You know?"
"Yup."
They stopped talking for a second and it was quiet.
"Why don't you ask her if she's ready?" Tre asked.
"I don't know. I don't want to, because what if she gets the idea that I really want to have sex? She might say yes when she really means no. Just because she feels pressured."
"Yeah, you have a point. But I'd think she'd tell you the truth."
"Who knows." Billie said, running his hand through my hair.
I opened my eyes slowly and stirred a little. Billie Joe looked down and smiled at me.
"Hey baby." He said as he kissed the top of my head.
"Hey." I said smiling.
I yawned and rubbed my eyes.
"How long did I sleep?" I asked.
"Uhh, about 2 hours." Billie Joe said.
"Did you guys sleep long?"
"Sorta."
"Billie tells me your guy's anniversary's coming up." Tre said.
"Yup. It'll be 2 years. I'm so excited." I said smiling.
"I should think so. That is a long time." Tre said agreeing.
"Yup."
"Billie's got something special planned for it."
"Really?" I said chuckling.
"Yeah!"
"Tre, shut it!" Billie Joe said.
The funny thing is, I already know. I do feel a little guilty but who knows, maybe I'll surprise him and be ready. I really need to decide on whether or not I am ready. I think I could be but I need to think on it. I want to decide hopefully before next weekend.
"Don't hate me cuz you ain't me Billie!" Tre yelled.
"Oh God." Billie said rubbing his face.
"Billie?" I said.
"Yeah?"
"Can I ask you something this time?" I said referring to the macaroni and cheese incident earlier in the kitchen.
"Yeah, of course."
"Isn't it unconfortable having my lay on you for so long?"
"Acutally no. I kind of like it." He said.
Tre and I cracked up.
"Oh shut up you perverts! I didn't mean it like that! I just meant I don't mind because I like having you around. I like having you near."
"Aww.." I said holding back laughter.
"You're holding back laughter, Stephany!" He said.
"I know. But that was still sweet." I said kissing his chest.
"You guys are one of the cutest/weirdest couples I have ever seen?" Tre said.
"How so?" I asked.
"Well, you have your sweet and adorable moments. You have your weird and odd moments. And then you have those just plain weird moments."
"Oh thanks a lot, Tre!" I said. "I can feel the love. Can you, Billie."
"Oh yes, Stephany. I can feel the love. Can you Stephany."
"Yes, Billie. I can feel the love. Can you feel the love?"
"I can feel the love, Steph! Can you-"
"Will you guys shut the hell up?!" Tre yelled, interrupting Billie.
"Tsk, tsk, tsk." I said wagging my finger. "It's impolite to interrupt others."
This caused Billie and I to start a fit of laughter. We were an odd/cute couple. And that's how I liked it. It was perfectly balanced. Not too much of anything. Which can really be a bad thing.
"I'll be back. I gotta go potty." I said.
"Okay, as long as you do it in the bathroom and not on Billie Joe." Tre said laughing.
"Shut up, Tre!" I said getting off of Billie. "I'd do it on you waaaaay before I do it on Billie!"
And with that I left Billie Joe and Tre to talk, argue, or do God knows what while I used the bathroom. Or 'potty.'
I looked in the mirror and my hair was a little messed up. I took out the hair tie and brushed it with my finger nails and I put it back into a low ponytail as usual. It was always either that or a bun or something along those lines.
I could hear Tre and Billie talking about something in the living room. I felt the need to take a risk of some kind. I found a washcloth and got it wet. That stupid commercial popped in my head and I figured I'd throw one at one of them. Probably Tre considering he'd be closer.
I slowly opened the bathroom door and slowly peaker my head out the door a little. I saw Tre, still sitting on the floor. He wasn't looking over here so I had a perfect shot! He was a sitting duck. I threw it and it stuck to his head.
"Ahhh!! What the fuck!?" He yelled trying to get it off.
I started to crack up laughing as I fell on my knees laughing.
"Stephany!" He yelled getting up and chasing me with the washcloth.
I got up and ran away.
"Catch me if you can!" I yelled still laughing and running.
I dived behind a couch before he could see me and sat there quietly. I breathed in a out because I was laughing so hard that I couldn't breath. I crawled a little to the side of the couch and saw Tre run into the kitchen. I sat on my knees as he searched the kitchen.
"Come here Steph! Come here damnit!" He yelled.
"Dude, you fucking break anything and I'll break your ass." Billie Joe said looking serious.
"I won't. Chill yourself." Tre said.
"Just let it go! Give me the damn wash cloth!"
"No!"
"Tre! Stop being a fuckin' 5 year old!"
"I'm not! I just want revenge!"
"Yeah, well, I don't want to see the look on my mother's face when she sees something of hers broken. So just let it go!"
"Fine! Fucking asshole.." Tre said throwing the washcloth at Billie.
I came out from behind the couch stifling my laughter.
"YOU! You were there the whole damn time?" Tre yelled.
"Chill, Tre. It was just a damn washcloth. It's not like a dunked it in the toilet.... I should've done that!" I yelled. "Damnit!"
I walked over to the couch and sat next to Billie Joe.
"If you would've thrown it at me with toilet water.. damn. I wouldn't give a shit what Billie said. I'd kill you!" Tre said sitting in a chair.
Billie Joe glared at him.
"Chill, I was joking, Billie. Don't kill me."
It was quiet for a while.
"I wonder how Mike's doing." I said out of nowhere.
"Who knows. Let's find out!" Tre yelled running for the phone and bringing it to the kitchen.
"What time is it?" I asked.
"It's," Tre said looking for a clock. "Almost 7:00 at night."
"Then hold on. I'm gonna call my house real quick." I said grabbing the phone and dialing my phone number.
It rang a few times until finally someone answered.
"Hello?"
"Lexi? That you?" I asked.
"Yeah. What is it, Steph?"
"I was just calling to tell yah that I might be staying at Billie Joe's house. But I probably will stop by for some like new cloths or whatever. Guess what!" I yelled into the phone.
"What?"
"You know that bitchy girl Taylor Smith?"
"Yeah?"
"Well, I had just gotten off work and she bumped into me and was giving me all this shit about how it was my fault and so she just pissed me off big time so I punched it right in the nose!"
"Are you serious?!"
"Yeah, why?" I asked confused.
"That's hilarious! I hope you broke her nose. Oh, god. She's such a bitch!"
"Why do you think I punched her?"
Both my sister and I laughed.
"Okay, so you'll be over in a bit, right? To pick up cloths or whatever?" Lexi asked.
"Yup!"
"Okay, see yah in a bit, Steph. Love yah."
"Love yah. Bye."
We both hung up and I handed the phone to Tre.
"Okay we're gonna have to head over to my house soon so I can pick up some cloths."
"Okay," Billie Joe said kissing my cheek as I sat next to him on the couch.
I kissed him back and gave him a smile. Tre hung up the phone and got up.
"I don't feel like calling Mike right now." He said.
"You're very indecisive, aren't you Tre?" I said.
"Yeah.."
"So you wanna go to my house and get my stuff now?" I asked Billie Joe.
"Sure." Billie Joe said as we all got up.
We left the house and began walking to my house. It was only about a street away so it wasn't so bad.
"I'm surprised it's not chilly." I said.
Billie Joe had his arm around me as we walked.
"Well, I guess it's one of those hot humid summer nights." Billie Joe said.
"Oh goody."
That was the last we talked, surprisingly. So the time actually passed by fast and we were there. I opened the door and we all went into my house. I saw Lexi and sneaked up on her then quickly shook her and yelled.
"Ahh!!" She screamed while I laughed.
"Oh my gut." I said laughing.
Billie Joe and Tre were laughing too.
"God, Steph. Dumbass." She said.
"Nice to see you too." I said hugging her and walking to my room to get some cloths.
As I was in my room getting cloths I heard them talking. I wasn't sure what they were saying but I didn't care. After grabbing all my stuff, I headed back to the living room.
"Okay, I'm ready. Hope Lexi didn't bore you." I said chuckling.
"Shut up, Steph! You're such a smartass." She said.
"I know. Is dad home?"
"No."
"Okay. Just tell him I'm staying at a friend's house."
"Okay, but Steph?"
"Yeah, what?"
"Can I talk to you." She said looking at Tre and Billie Joe. "In private."
"Sure, I guess. Tre, Billie? Could you guys go outside for a second?"
"Sure thing, babe." Billie Joe said. "Come on Tre."
"Fine, fine, fine." Tre said followling Billie Joe outside.
"What is it?" I asked once they left.
"Is Tre staying the night?" She asked.
"Maybe. I don't know. Why?"
"Because, then you'll be alone with Billie Joe."
"Yeah, so?" I was getting confused. "What're you thinking?"
She sighed.
"Are you having sex?" She asked.
"What?! No!" I said. "I'm a virgin, Lex. And so is Billie Joe. And besides, we're not stupid. If we do have sex, which we won't! we'll use protection. So just chill, okay?"
"Fine, but I'm warning you. Dad will skin you alive if he ever found out you were pregnant or having sex. You know that don't you?" She asked. "I'm just warning you."
"I know, but you don't have to because I'm not."
"Okay, I know I can trust you. Just, don't do anything stupid."
Goddamnit, Lexi. Stop it with the lecture I'm trying to decide whether or not I'm ready to even have sex and you're telling me not to which is making it even harder! I wish she wouldn't worry so much.
I sighed and said, "I wish you wouldn't worry so much, Lex."
She smiled and kissed my forehead and said, "Do you even know if you want to have sex?"
I shook my head and said good-bye as I walked out the door and stood on the porch. Do I want to have sex? Am I ready to have sex? With Billie Joe?
"Ready, Steph?" Billie Joe said.
I nodded.
Was I ready for it?
