Feelings And Scars Are Permanent (Sequel to Why Do Bad Things Always Happen To Us?), chapter 5
"You okay, Steph?" Billie Joe said as he saw my confused face.
"What? Oh.. yeah." I said.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah. Just thinking. About what my sister said."
"Okay. Then let's get going." He said as he kissed me on the cheek.
I smiled as we began walking.
"What did your sister and you say anyways?" Tre asked after a moment.
"Oh, she was just being stupid."
"Oookay. Can't you be a like more specific?"
"No.."
"Are you sure you're okay, Steph?" Billie Joe asked once more.
"Yes! I am fine. Thank you all for concerning." I snapped.
Billie Joe and Tre looked away looking a little hurt. Crap. Not what I meant to do. Damn you Lexi. You're screwing me up!
I shook my head and looked up at Tre and Billie Joe.
"I'm sorry. It's just, my sister. She kind of pissed me off a little. I guess." I said.
"It's okay." Billie Joe said.
I smiled.
"Yeah, we forgive ya. Even though you shouldn't be! We are SO damn good." Tre said nodding to himself.
"Oh my god." I whispered as I lowered my head and shook it.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"What?"
"Nothing."
"What?"
"Nothing!"
"What?!"
"Nothing, damn it!"
"TELL ME DAMNIT!"
"THERE'S NOTHING FUCKING TELL!"
"Yes there is." Tre said quietly.
"Bite me, damn it!"
Tre bit me on the arm.
"Ahh! You fucker!" I said grabbing his arm and biting him back, but harder.
"AHH! That hurt!" Tre screamed.
"So did what you fucking did Count Fuckula."
Billie Joe began to crack up. I glared at him as well as Tre.
"Ahh! What the hell Billie Joe! And Tre, stop fucking biting me and complaining about me biting you when bit me in the first fucking place!"
"Sorry, babe. But, this is rather entertaining. I mean, why are you guys biting eachother in the first place?" Billie Joe asked.
"I bit Tre because he bit me."
"I bit Steph because she told me too!" Tre defended himself.
"What? I did not!" I yelled.
Tre stuck his tongue at me and said, "Yes you did! You were all 'Bite Me!' so I did!"
"It means bite my ass. And as far as biting my ass goes, you're not going to! Because if you bite my ass I'm kicking your ass!"
"AHH! PLEASE DON'T!" He screamed as if he was about to get murdered.
"That's normal."
"For Tre." Billie Joe said.
"Yeah." I said walking. "Let's get going to Billie's. I think we might've woken up the-"
But I was interrupted by a person yelling, "Shut the hell up you damn KIDS!"
"FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!" I yelled as I began running down the street.
Tre and Billie Joe followed me. I heard the guys voice again. Was he chasing us?!
"Yeah you better run!" He yelled out of breath.
I was about to fall on the ground. I was laughing my ass off so much. I mean. Hell. It's not everyday that a freaking old neighborhood dude guy starts chasing you!
"I think.. I'm going.. to piss my fucking pants."
"Yeah. I agree." Tre said.
Billie Joe was bent down laughing and finally rose out of breath.
"God, that made my day." Billie Joe finally said as he walked over to me. "Who knew he'd chase us!"
"Chyeah. Really!" I said.
I looked over at Tre who was still laughing. I started laughing because of that. I bent down and Billie Joe grabbed my shoulders, laughing, so that I wouldn't fall. I don't know how he was going to keep me up considering he began to fall too.
"Okay. Let's get out of here before we piss our fucking pants." I said.
We all agreed and began heading back to Billie Joe's house. Billie Joe draped his arm around my neck as we were walking. I smiled to myself. I shivered as a cool breeze.
Billie Joe looked over at me and said, "Cold?"
"Yeah.."
"Well, we're really close to my house. I'll getcha a blanket when we get there. Okay?"
"Okay. Thanks Billie." I said with a smile.
And, like Billie Joe said, we were close to the house. Within only a few moments, we were there. We all walked in and sat down. Billie Joe grabbed a blanket and handed it to me.
"Thanks." I said.
"Sure thing, babe."
"I'm bored." Tre said out of nowhere.
"Dude, we've been here for about, what? Not even 5 minutes?" Billie Joe said.
"So? I get bored easily when nothing is going on."
"Well, then do something." Billie Joe said. "Wait, no scratch that. Don't do something. Knowing you, only God knows what you'll really do."
Tre smiled cheeky like and was about to say something when the phone rang. Billie Joe stood up and walked over to the phone, answering it.
"Hello?" He asked. "Yes he's here. Okay." Billie Joe handed the phone to Tre.
"Who is it?" Tre whispered.
"Your mom." Billie Joe silently laughed. "For real though."
"Hello? Oh. Hi mom. Um, what's up?"
Billie Joe walked back over to the couch and sat next to me.
"Warmer?" He whispered.
"Yeah."
"Good."
We looked from eachother and to Tre who was still talking to his mom.
"No mom. Why? I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not a fucking dip-shit mom!"
Tre looked down. Cuss words and Tre's mom. Well, they don't mix well.
"Uhh, I didn't mean to say that mom. Oh come on! Like you never said a cuss word before! So?! Fine! Not like I'm doing anything anyway." Tre put the phone on the hook and cussed under his breath.
"God-fucking- damn it."
"Gotta leave?" I asked taking the blanket off.
"Yeah. Cuz my fucking mom is being paranoid. I guess I'll see yah guys later." He said heading for the door.
"See ya." Billie Joe said.
"Yeah, see ya, Tre." I said.
"Bye."
Billie Joe smiled at me and turned on the TV. I felt cold again so I put the blanket back on. I was very indecisive at times. Can you tell?
"Having trouble deciding?" Billie Joe said suddenly.
"What..? Oh. Yeah." I said laughing. "You know me. Indecisive."
"Yeah. But I still love you."
"Oh really?! I am so lucky!" I said rolling my eyes. "Billie, Billie, Billie."
"What?"
"Nothing."
Billie Joe blinked and said, "Oookay. So, what did your sister, Lexi, say earlier that got you pissed?"
I frowned and looked away. If I tell him I have a feeling he'll think I'm stupid. Or.. something. I don't know what though.
"She just.. thinks I'm irresponsible."
"I don't think so. You're pretty responsible when you need to be. "
"Try telling Lexi that. She's smart and a goddamn know-it-all. Uhh, she drives me mad at times!"
"I can tell. She does seem to piss you off a lot."
"She does."
"I don't get why she gets on your case a lot."
"Me neither."
"How exactly, I mean how exactly did she say that your irresponsible? Why did she say that?"
"Well, she didn't exactly say that."
"Well, what did she say exactly? You can tell me anything. You know that don't you?"
"Yeah. I do. She asked me if I was um.. having..."
"Sex?"
"Yeah."
"I know what you're going through. I got the lectures from my brothers and sisters and my mom. It really sucks being the baby of the family. "
"Yes. It does."
"But I love my brothers and sisters. But they love to annoy the fuck out of me at times."
"Same with Lexi. But you already knew that." I said laughing.
Billie Joe just laughed and nodded. He looked back at the TV and turned up the volume a little. I also looked at the TV. We ended up watching music videos and debating about them. We fought over who sucked who rocked over and over and over again. Billie Joe said he one the fight but truthfully? I did. Haha.
Billie Joe got up to go into the kitchen when I tripped him. I gave him a good innocent/shocked look.
"Oh my gosh! Are you okay?" I said.
"Don't give me that innocent look, Steph!" Billie Joe rolling over to his back laughing. "You did that on purpose."
I shook my head with my eyes closed. Before I knew it, Billie Joe had grabbed my hand pulling me on top of me.
"Oof." I said.
Billie Joe gave me a weird look.
"Oof?" He sorta asked.
"Yeah. I fell. You know? Well actually. You PULLED me."
"So? You tripped me!"
"Nonsense! That's in-fucking-sane!"
"In-fucking-sane. That's very interesting." Billie Joe said laughing. "Or as you would say, inter-fucking-resting."
"Shut up." I said sticking my tongue out as I attempted to get off Billie Joe.
I got on my knees and went to get up when Billie Joe tripped me. But really, it didn't help him much. Because I fell on him again. But harder.
"Goddamn it. That's the last fucking time I trip you!"
"Better be!"
I looked down at Billie Joe smiling. Billie Joe gave me a mischievous grin and flipped me over so that he was on top of me.
"Billie Joe Armstrong! What are you doing?" I asked laughing.
"Isn't it obvious? I'm sitting on top of you!" He replied with another mischievous grin.
I shook my head. Billie Joe and his mind at times. I swear..
Billie Joe gave me one of those real winner smiles and leaned down to kiss me but instead I flipped us over and was now again on top of him. Billie Joe looked at me.
He laughed and said, "Bad girl."
That made me laugh.
"Well, you're a bad boy for flipping me over and getting on top of me. I know what was on your mind Mr. Horny."
"Nonsense! That's Tre. I'm Mr. Normal-Not-Horny-All-The-Time."
I nodded. "Uh huh." I said sarcasticlly.
I rolled off of him and got up helping Billie Joe up and sat down on the couch. Billie Joe sighed and sat next to me.
"You're no fun." He said like a 5 year old.
"Shut up Billie Joe." I said laughing.
"No!"
"Yes!"
"NooOOoOooOO!"
"YES!"
"...no.."
"Oh my goodness."
"What?"
"Nothing!"
"You don't tell me anything anymore!" Billie Joe said pretending to sob.
"Ahh.." I said kissing Billie Joe on the cheek.
"Ooo I feel better. Can I have another one?" He asked with a cheeky grin.
I smiled and kissed him on the cheek again. Then I moved to his lips and gave him a light kiss. He kissed me back putting his hand on my face. We kissed me again and I tried to hide my smile. I failed miserably. Billie Joe scooted closer to me as we kissed and put his other hand on my shoulder. I stopped the kiss and looked at Billie Joe, who was a tad out of breath.
He smiled at me and kissed me once again on the lips. He went in for another kiss but I got up and laughed.
"Aww.. where ya going?" He asked licking his lips.
"Oh nowhere."
"Then how about we go back to where we were?"
"Naaaah."
"You like to make me suffer, don't you?"
"Yup!" I said as I sat next to Billie Joe once again on the couch.
I yawned and stretched.
"Are you tired, Steph?"
"A little bit. Yeah."
"Well, I'll be right back. I'm gonna get something to drink. Do you want anything?"
"No."
"Okay."
While Billie Joe was in the kitchen I lied down on the couch to just 'rest' my eyes. But, before I knew it, I had fallen asleep. Billie Joe walked into see me sleeping and laughed silently. He walked over to me and kissed me on the cheek, then sitting down in the recliner.
"What? Oh.. yeah." I said.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah. Just thinking. About what my sister said."
"Okay. Then let's get going." He said as he kissed me on the cheek.
I smiled as we began walking.
"What did your sister and you say anyways?" Tre asked after a moment.
"Oh, she was just being stupid."
"Oookay. Can't you be a like more specific?"
"No.."
"Are you sure you're okay, Steph?" Billie Joe asked once more.
"Yes! I am fine. Thank you all for concerning." I snapped.
Billie Joe and Tre looked away looking a little hurt. Crap. Not what I meant to do. Damn you Lexi. You're screwing me up!
I shook my head and looked up at Tre and Billie Joe.
"I'm sorry. It's just, my sister. She kind of pissed me off a little. I guess." I said.
"It's okay." Billie Joe said.
I smiled.
"Yeah, we forgive ya. Even though you shouldn't be! We are SO damn good." Tre said nodding to himself.
"Oh my god." I whispered as I lowered my head and shook it.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"What?"
"Nothing."
"What?"
"Nothing!"
"What?!"
"Nothing, damn it!"
"TELL ME DAMNIT!"
"THERE'S NOTHING FUCKING TELL!"
"Yes there is." Tre said quietly.
"Bite me, damn it!"
Tre bit me on the arm.
"Ahh! You fucker!" I said grabbing his arm and biting him back, but harder.
"AHH! That hurt!" Tre screamed.
"So did what you fucking did Count Fuckula."
Billie Joe began to crack up. I glared at him as well as Tre.
"Ahh! What the hell Billie Joe! And Tre, stop fucking biting me and complaining about me biting you when bit me in the first fucking place!"
"Sorry, babe. But, this is rather entertaining. I mean, why are you guys biting eachother in the first place?" Billie Joe asked.
"I bit Tre because he bit me."
"I bit Steph because she told me too!" Tre defended himself.
"What? I did not!" I yelled.
Tre stuck his tongue at me and said, "Yes you did! You were all 'Bite Me!' so I did!"
"It means bite my ass. And as far as biting my ass goes, you're not going to! Because if you bite my ass I'm kicking your ass!"
"AHH! PLEASE DON'T!" He screamed as if he was about to get murdered.
"That's normal."
"For Tre." Billie Joe said.
"Yeah." I said walking. "Let's get going to Billie's. I think we might've woken up the-"
But I was interrupted by a person yelling, "Shut the hell up you damn KIDS!"
"FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!" I yelled as I began running down the street.
Tre and Billie Joe followed me. I heard the guys voice again. Was he chasing us?!
"Yeah you better run!" He yelled out of breath.
I was about to fall on the ground. I was laughing my ass off so much. I mean. Hell. It's not everyday that a freaking old neighborhood dude guy starts chasing you!
"I think.. I'm going.. to piss my fucking pants."
"Yeah. I agree." Tre said.
Billie Joe was bent down laughing and finally rose out of breath.
"God, that made my day." Billie Joe finally said as he walked over to me. "Who knew he'd chase us!"
"Chyeah. Really!" I said.
I looked over at Tre who was still laughing. I started laughing because of that. I bent down and Billie Joe grabbed my shoulders, laughing, so that I wouldn't fall. I don't know how he was going to keep me up considering he began to fall too.
"Okay. Let's get out of here before we piss our fucking pants." I said.
We all agreed and began heading back to Billie Joe's house. Billie Joe draped his arm around my neck as we were walking. I smiled to myself. I shivered as a cool breeze.
Billie Joe looked over at me and said, "Cold?"
"Yeah.."
"Well, we're really close to my house. I'll getcha a blanket when we get there. Okay?"
"Okay. Thanks Billie." I said with a smile.
And, like Billie Joe said, we were close to the house. Within only a few moments, we were there. We all walked in and sat down. Billie Joe grabbed a blanket and handed it to me.
"Thanks." I said.
"Sure thing, babe."
"I'm bored." Tre said out of nowhere.
"Dude, we've been here for about, what? Not even 5 minutes?" Billie Joe said.
"So? I get bored easily when nothing is going on."
"Well, then do something." Billie Joe said. "Wait, no scratch that. Don't do something. Knowing you, only God knows what you'll really do."
Tre smiled cheeky like and was about to say something when the phone rang. Billie Joe stood up and walked over to the phone, answering it.
"Hello?" He asked. "Yes he's here. Okay." Billie Joe handed the phone to Tre.
"Who is it?" Tre whispered.
"Your mom." Billie Joe silently laughed. "For real though."
"Hello? Oh. Hi mom. Um, what's up?"
Billie Joe walked back over to the couch and sat next to me.
"Warmer?" He whispered.
"Yeah."
"Good."
We looked from eachother and to Tre who was still talking to his mom.
"No mom. Why? I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm not a fucking dip-shit mom!"
Tre looked down. Cuss words and Tre's mom. Well, they don't mix well.
"Uhh, I didn't mean to say that mom. Oh come on! Like you never said a cuss word before! So?! Fine! Not like I'm doing anything anyway." Tre put the phone on the hook and cussed under his breath.
"God-fucking- damn it."
"Gotta leave?" I asked taking the blanket off.
"Yeah. Cuz my fucking mom is being paranoid. I guess I'll see yah guys later." He said heading for the door.
"See ya." Billie Joe said.
"Yeah, see ya, Tre." I said.
"Bye."
Billie Joe smiled at me and turned on the TV. I felt cold again so I put the blanket back on. I was very indecisive at times. Can you tell?
"Having trouble deciding?" Billie Joe said suddenly.
"What..? Oh. Yeah." I said laughing. "You know me. Indecisive."
"Yeah. But I still love you."
"Oh really?! I am so lucky!" I said rolling my eyes. "Billie, Billie, Billie."
"What?"
"Nothing."
Billie Joe blinked and said, "Oookay. So, what did your sister, Lexi, say earlier that got you pissed?"
I frowned and looked away. If I tell him I have a feeling he'll think I'm stupid. Or.. something. I don't know what though.
"She just.. thinks I'm irresponsible."
"I don't think so. You're pretty responsible when you need to be. "
"Try telling Lexi that. She's smart and a goddamn know-it-all. Uhh, she drives me mad at times!"
"I can tell. She does seem to piss you off a lot."
"She does."
"I don't get why she gets on your case a lot."
"Me neither."
"How exactly, I mean how exactly did she say that your irresponsible? Why did she say that?"
"Well, she didn't exactly say that."
"Well, what did she say exactly? You can tell me anything. You know that don't you?"
"Yeah. I do. She asked me if I was um.. having..."
"Sex?"
"Yeah."
"I know what you're going through. I got the lectures from my brothers and sisters and my mom. It really sucks being the baby of the family. "
"Yes. It does."
"But I love my brothers and sisters. But they love to annoy the fuck out of me at times."
"Same with Lexi. But you already knew that." I said laughing.
Billie Joe just laughed and nodded. He looked back at the TV and turned up the volume a little. I also looked at the TV. We ended up watching music videos and debating about them. We fought over who sucked who rocked over and over and over again. Billie Joe said he one the fight but truthfully? I did. Haha.
Billie Joe got up to go into the kitchen when I tripped him. I gave him a good innocent/shocked look.
"Oh my gosh! Are you okay?" I said.
"Don't give me that innocent look, Steph!" Billie Joe rolling over to his back laughing. "You did that on purpose."
I shook my head with my eyes closed. Before I knew it, Billie Joe had grabbed my hand pulling me on top of me.
"Oof." I said.
Billie Joe gave me a weird look.
"Oof?" He sorta asked.
"Yeah. I fell. You know? Well actually. You PULLED me."
"So? You tripped me!"
"Nonsense! That's in-fucking-sane!"
"In-fucking-sane. That's very interesting." Billie Joe said laughing. "Or as you would say, inter-fucking-resting."
"Shut up." I said sticking my tongue out as I attempted to get off Billie Joe.
I got on my knees and went to get up when Billie Joe tripped me. But really, it didn't help him much. Because I fell on him again. But harder.
"Goddamn it. That's the last fucking time I trip you!"
"Better be!"
I looked down at Billie Joe smiling. Billie Joe gave me a mischievous grin and flipped me over so that he was on top of me.
"Billie Joe Armstrong! What are you doing?" I asked laughing.
"Isn't it obvious? I'm sitting on top of you!" He replied with another mischievous grin.
I shook my head. Billie Joe and his mind at times. I swear..
Billie Joe gave me one of those real winner smiles and leaned down to kiss me but instead I flipped us over and was now again on top of him. Billie Joe looked at me.
He laughed and said, "Bad girl."
That made me laugh.
"Well, you're a bad boy for flipping me over and getting on top of me. I know what was on your mind Mr. Horny."
"Nonsense! That's Tre. I'm Mr. Normal-Not-Horny-All-The-Time."
I nodded. "Uh huh." I said sarcasticlly.
I rolled off of him and got up helping Billie Joe up and sat down on the couch. Billie Joe sighed and sat next to me.
"You're no fun." He said like a 5 year old.
"Shut up Billie Joe." I said laughing.
"No!"
"Yes!"
"NooOOoOooOO!"
"YES!"
"...no.."
"Oh my goodness."
"What?"
"Nothing!"
"You don't tell me anything anymore!" Billie Joe said pretending to sob.
"Ahh.." I said kissing Billie Joe on the cheek.
"Ooo I feel better. Can I have another one?" He asked with a cheeky grin.
I smiled and kissed him on the cheek again. Then I moved to his lips and gave him a light kiss. He kissed me back putting his hand on my face. We kissed me again and I tried to hide my smile. I failed miserably. Billie Joe scooted closer to me as we kissed and put his other hand on my shoulder. I stopped the kiss and looked at Billie Joe, who was a tad out of breath.
He smiled at me and kissed me once again on the lips. He went in for another kiss but I got up and laughed.
"Aww.. where ya going?" He asked licking his lips.
"Oh nowhere."
"Then how about we go back to where we were?"
"Naaaah."
"You like to make me suffer, don't you?"
"Yup!" I said as I sat next to Billie Joe once again on the couch.
I yawned and stretched.
"Are you tired, Steph?"
"A little bit. Yeah."
"Well, I'll be right back. I'm gonna get something to drink. Do you want anything?"
"No."
"Okay."
While Billie Joe was in the kitchen I lied down on the couch to just 'rest' my eyes. But, before I knew it, I had fallen asleep. Billie Joe walked into see me sleeping and laughed silently. He walked over to me and kissed me on the cheek, then sitting down in the recliner.
