First Kiss, chapter 4
*Billie's POV*
My head was hurting, my stomach was aching and I couldn't even see propally because I was crying so much. I had been sitting in the waiting room for 1 hour, nurses kept trying to speak to me but I would ignore them. I didn't want to be alone anymore so I got up and phoned Mike. "Hello?" Mike answered I couldn't reply though everytime I tried to speak I just cried. "Billie? Billie what's wrong?" he asked sounding slightly scared. "It's... It's... Mandy" I stuttered through tears. "What? What's wrong with her? Billie where are you?" he said pratically shouting now. "I'm at the... Hospital" I whispered. "Oh my god! Billie your at the hospital" I heard Tre gasp in the background he must have stayed at Mike's "What's going on Billie why's Mandy at the hospital?" He said. "I... She... Mike can you please just come here?" I didn't want to say what really happend out loud especialy on the phone. "Yer, Me and Tre will be right there. Just stay where you are OK?" He said quickly. "OK" I replied and put the phone down. I went back to my seat in the empty waiting room. I stared at the white wall infront of me an replayed everything that went on tonight. I remebered her running out the club crying and me sitting on the step and Mike coming out an taking me inside. Then I remeber her leaning on the wall of her house and... And then I remeber the car and the scream and her lying on the pavement. Its all too much an I break down. I'm crying so much it's all my fault if i'd have never let that girl kiss me then Mandy would have come home with us and she'd have been safe. And even if that girl had kissed me if i'd have only called her when she'd crossed the road she'd have been the other side when the car came. My head was spinning, my eyes were streaming with tears. I stood up an I felt really faint I was about to fall over when someone caught me. "Billie?" It was Tre, he put me back down on the seat an they sat either side of me. I rested my elbows on my knees and hid my face in my hands. Mike put his hand on my back "What's happend to Mandy?" he asked softly. I looked up I didn't look at them though I looked straight ahead at the blank white wall. I closed my eyes to try an ease the pain, "She was hit by a car" I said opening my eyes Mike and Tre's mouths had dropped open. "Oh my god, an you were there?" Tre said. "Yes, After I left the club I went to her house to try and explain about the girl. She answered the door and came outside. I can't remeber exactly what I said but she started walking away I called out for her to wait, I forgot she was in the middle of a road she turned round and.. And then the car came. I was stunned but I managed to phone a ambulance and well now i'm here." I said shaking and crying. Mike and Tre pulled me into a hug "It's OK" Tre said "she'll be OK". I just wish I could believe him...
*Mike's POV*
Poor Billie! He's blaming himself for everything, were still not allowed to see Mandy. Billie keeps pacing the room and were trying to calm him down but he's really cut up about it. We were all sitting down when a doctor came over, "Are you here for Mandy Diomand?" he asked. Billie got up "Yes, is she going to be OK?" he asked anxiously. "I'm afraid she's in a coma" answered the doctor. Billie sunk into his chair and put his head in his hands. "Will she be OK though?" Tre asked. "We aren't sure, but at this moment it looks like she will be fine." I sighed with relief. "How long will she be in a coma for" Billie asked quietly. "She is not in a bad state so probably around a week but we can't be sure" the doctor said. Billie sighed "So she might miss her birthday" he said. "When will we be able to see her?" I asked. "Tommorow's probably best. You are free to wait or go home" he said. "Ok, thankyou" said Billie as the doctor walked away. Billie turned to us "I'm going to stay, can someone stay with me? I don't know what i'll do if she wakes up. I can't just speak to her, I nearly killed her!" I looked at him he was about to cry again "I'll stay" I said "I'll stay too" Tre said. We got moved to a room where we could sleep and it was completely dark and about 20 minutes later Tre was asleep, I was still awake an as far as I could tell Billie was too. He'd just phoned Mandys parents they said they'd come first thing tommorow and for us to watch her for them. Everything was silent untill I heard shuffling from Billie, I got off my chair and walked over to him. He was sitting on the floor and hugging his knees and rocking slightly. He saw me come over and looked up, I sat next to him "She's going to be alright you know" I whispered so I didn't wake Tre up. He just looked at me with a vacant expression "What if i've killed her" he said quietly. "You havn't done anything its not your fault and she's going to be fine" I said. He stared at me for a second then forced a small smile "Thanks Mike" he replied. I got up to go back to my chair "Mike?" I heard Billie say, "Yer" I replied turning to look at him. "What if she dies, She'll miss her 18th birthday and... And she'll never know how much I loved her." he whispered. I felt really bad for him "She's going to get better Billie then you can tell her" I said and walked back to my seat.
*Billie's POV*
It's now 7am, I have had no sleep tonight. Mike fell asleep a few hours ago. I was nervous about seeing Mandy if she wakes up I don't know what i'm going to do she'll probably hate me. I needed to talk to someone I didn't want to wake Mike up he'd already spent most of the night awake with me. I couldn't wake Tre up either well without being hit anyway. So I carried on sitting in silence, my head full of haunting thoughts.
*Later, 9am*
Finaly Tre woke up. "Where am I?" he said sleepily. "Your in hospital" I replied half mindedly. "Shit, what have I done?" he answered anxiously. "Nothing, It's Mandy remember?" I replied angrily. Tre got up and walked over to me "Oh yeah, sorry" he said. "Its Ok". There was some silence before Tre spoke "How long have you been up for?" He got up to wake Mike up "I never slept" I replied. "Oh" he said now hitting Mike in the head to wake him up. Mike opened his eyes "What the... Tre get off me!" he said pushing Tre onto the ground. They then started fighting but I wasn't bothered about them I'd noticed a doctor was at the door, I got up walked over kicking Tre and Mike on my way they stopped fighting an saw the doctor. The doctor looked at me "Mr Armstrong?" he said. "Yeah, is Mandy OK?" I asked nervously, I saw Mike and Tre walk over to join me by the doctor. "She's in a stable condition at the moment" he replied. "Can we see her?" Tre said. "You may see her now, she's still in a coma though". My heart jumped to my throat I was nervous, the last time i'd seen her she was lying on the pavement with cuts an blood all over her. "Can... Can she hear us?" I stuttered. "It is unsure but as she is not in a bad coma then yes, she probably will be able to hear you." I nodded. Mike and Tre walked in first I heldback, "Holy shit!" I heard Tre say. Mike came out I was still standing by the door not going in. "Come on Billie, It's OK. I'll come in with you". He put his arm round my sholdour and slowly I walked in. I turned and saw her my legs went weak and I nearly fell, Mike and Tre caught me. She was lying on the hospital bed with tubes coming out of her and cuts and bruises all over her body. I broke down into tears, how could I cause her all this pain. I wanted to leave but I knew I had to stay. I slowly edged closer to the bed and put my hand on her hand. "I'm so sorry" I said through tears. "I love you" I whispered and kissed her cheek. I knew Mike and Tre were shocked by what I said but I didn't care, I didn't care about anything anymore I just wanted Mandy back.
*Tre's POV*
He told her he loves her. He's never told any other girl that, me and Mike were stunned when he said it. I knew he really liked her but I didn't think he loved her. It was horrible to watch him crying and holding her hand, she had tubes coming out from all over her. He is really worried she's going to die and that it'll be all his fault. I don't know what to do that can make it better for anyone so I'm trying to stay quiet. Watching Billie sitting there was making my stomach turn, So I walked over to him and put my hand on his sholdour. He looked at me and smiled a very small smile. I knew I couldn't say anything to take the pain from him so I stayed silent. Then her parents came to see her so we left.
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*Around a week later, Mandys 18th birthday*
*Billie's POV*
It was her birthday, she was still in a coma on her birthday... And it was all my fault. We'd brought baloons and presents, even if she was asleep it was still her birthday. Mike and Tre were going to sing happy birthday an i'd play my guitar, I was in no mood for singing. Mike and Tre wern't back yet they'd just gone to get a cake so we could save some for Mandy. I was just sitting and waiting and looking at the pile of presents she'd been given. There was one smallish one that her mum had dropped off before she had to leave for work. I spotted my presents near the bottom of the pile I hope she gets to open it today. I picked up my guitar and started playing a few random songs, I stopped suddenly, her hand had moved she didn't wake up though but she had moved an that must be a good sign. Mike and Tre came through the door and put the cake down. "She moved" I said. "What?" Mike replied. I put my guitar down "I was playing some music and she moved her hand". Tre smiled "Really? Maybe she will wake up for her birthday after all". Mike walked over to us nearly tripping over the presents on the way. "Shall we sing happy birthday?" he asked, me and Tre nodded. I picked up my guitar and started playing the opening chords.
*Mandy's POV*
I woke up I could hear singing, I kept my eyes closed. I couldn't tell what they were singing because my ears were being weird, I couldn't hear propally. "Wow, it's not everyday Green Day wake you up by singing to you" I said opening my eyes. I saw Billie Joe drop his guitar an back into a corner and Mike and Tre were standing still with very shocked looks on their faces. It was then I noticed the baloons and the presents and the cake. "What's going on? My birthdays a week away" I said totally confused. I looked down at myself my eyes widened and tears streamed down my face I was covered in cuts an there were tubes pinned to my skin. I realised I was in hospital, I was scared and confused. Mike came over and put his hand on mine. "You've been in a coma for the past week" he explained softly. I looked round the room Tre had now joined Mike by my bed. Billie was sitting in the corner with his head in his hands. "I don't get it, I cant rememeber any..." I trailed off as everything came back to me. The club, Billie kissing that girl. The car, the pain everylast detail of that night flooded into my head. "The car, I was with Billie then the car came" I whispered trying to figure it out. "Yeah" Mike nodded. "Am I going to die?" I asked suddenly scared as hell, Billie stood up and ran out the room I couldn't see but I was sure he was crying. Tre followed him "I'll be right back" he said. "Your not going to die" he answered my earlier question. "I'm scared Mike" I said. "I know, everythings going to be Ok though." he replied. "Billie's been really worried you know, he's barely slept since that night at the club. He blames himself. He was really cut up when you ran out he didn't want to kiss her. When you left the club I took him inside and he was crying to much so I had to take him home, then he obviously went yours." I was trying to take everything in, I covered my face with my hands. "I don't know if he wants me to tell you this but he loves you. He's been coming here everyday and telling you." Mike said. I was shocked but didn't have time to reply because the doors opened and Tre and Billie came in. Billie just stood there and looked at me, his eyes were red so he had been crying. Mike and Tre walked out so we could talk. Billie still didn't move I moved over on my bed so he could sit down. "Billie, come sit here" he walked over slowly and gently sat down. I took a deep breath, "Billie, I just want you to know that I don't blame you for any of this, because none of its your fault". I paused, "But it is my fault all of it, That girl kissed me and I let it happen. I was the one who called you back when you were in the middle of the road..." Billie said but I interupted him, "I stopped in the middle of the road. It was my fault I had the choice to cross but I didn't. And if you say she kissed you and not the other way round then I believe you because... I love you." I said. Billie looked at me and smiled "I love you too" he said and kissed me lightly on the lips. I heard Tre shout "Can we come in?". Billie got up and opened the door they must have been leaning on it because they fell into the room. "I'll take that as a yes" Mike said getting up. Billie sat back on the bed and Mike and Tre got chairs. "Can you open your presents now?" Tre asked me. "Sure" I said. They passed me present after present until there were only 3 left. Billie Joe picked them up, "These two are from me" he said placing two presents on the bed "And this ones from Mike and Tre" he put another present on the bed. "Which one should I open first?" I asked. "Doesnt really matter" Mike said. I picked up the one from Mike and Tre "I'll open yours first". I unwrapped it to find a jewellery box. Inside was a gorgeous bracelet, my mouth dropped open. "Oh my god it's beautiful" I said giving them both hugs. I then picked up the biggest of Billie'spresents. It was a photo frame saying 'I Love You' on it an there was a picture of Me, Billie, Mike, Tre and sarah before we went the club. I loved it even if it did bring back horrible memories. I then picked up the smaller one and gasped when I opened it, it was the most beautiful necklace I've ever seen. It was a heart with diamonds in it and a sort of heart shaped sapphire in the middle. "I love them, thankyou so much" I said to Billie and kissed him. And then I hugged Mike and Tre again and thanked them. I wasn't scared anymore the doctor had came in an told me I could leave in a few days. Although I was in a hospital this was one of the best days of my life. I was with my friends and my boyfriend, I felt like nothing could make me unhappy untill...
My head was hurting, my stomach was aching and I couldn't even see propally because I was crying so much. I had been sitting in the waiting room for 1 hour, nurses kept trying to speak to me but I would ignore them. I didn't want to be alone anymore so I got up and phoned Mike. "Hello?" Mike answered I couldn't reply though everytime I tried to speak I just cried. "Billie? Billie what's wrong?" he asked sounding slightly scared. "It's... It's... Mandy" I stuttered through tears. "What? What's wrong with her? Billie where are you?" he said pratically shouting now. "I'm at the... Hospital" I whispered. "Oh my god! Billie your at the hospital" I heard Tre gasp in the background he must have stayed at Mike's "What's going on Billie why's Mandy at the hospital?" He said. "I... She... Mike can you please just come here?" I didn't want to say what really happend out loud especialy on the phone. "Yer, Me and Tre will be right there. Just stay where you are OK?" He said quickly. "OK" I replied and put the phone down. I went back to my seat in the empty waiting room. I stared at the white wall infront of me an replayed everything that went on tonight. I remebered her running out the club crying and me sitting on the step and Mike coming out an taking me inside. Then I remeber her leaning on the wall of her house and... And then I remeber the car and the scream and her lying on the pavement. Its all too much an I break down. I'm crying so much it's all my fault if i'd have never let that girl kiss me then Mandy would have come home with us and she'd have been safe. And even if that girl had kissed me if i'd have only called her when she'd crossed the road she'd have been the other side when the car came. My head was spinning, my eyes were streaming with tears. I stood up an I felt really faint I was about to fall over when someone caught me. "Billie?" It was Tre, he put me back down on the seat an they sat either side of me. I rested my elbows on my knees and hid my face in my hands. Mike put his hand on my back "What's happend to Mandy?" he asked softly. I looked up I didn't look at them though I looked straight ahead at the blank white wall. I closed my eyes to try an ease the pain, "She was hit by a car" I said opening my eyes Mike and Tre's mouths had dropped open. "Oh my god, an you were there?" Tre said. "Yes, After I left the club I went to her house to try and explain about the girl. She answered the door and came outside. I can't remeber exactly what I said but she started walking away I called out for her to wait, I forgot she was in the middle of a road she turned round and.. And then the car came. I was stunned but I managed to phone a ambulance and well now i'm here." I said shaking and crying. Mike and Tre pulled me into a hug "It's OK" Tre said "she'll be OK". I just wish I could believe him...
*Mike's POV*
Poor Billie! He's blaming himself for everything, were still not allowed to see Mandy. Billie keeps pacing the room and were trying to calm him down but he's really cut up about it. We were all sitting down when a doctor came over, "Are you here for Mandy Diomand?" he asked. Billie got up "Yes, is she going to be OK?" he asked anxiously. "I'm afraid she's in a coma" answered the doctor. Billie sunk into his chair and put his head in his hands. "Will she be OK though?" Tre asked. "We aren't sure, but at this moment it looks like she will be fine." I sighed with relief. "How long will she be in a coma for" Billie asked quietly. "She is not in a bad state so probably around a week but we can't be sure" the doctor said. Billie sighed "So she might miss her birthday" he said. "When will we be able to see her?" I asked. "Tommorow's probably best. You are free to wait or go home" he said. "Ok, thankyou" said Billie as the doctor walked away. Billie turned to us "I'm going to stay, can someone stay with me? I don't know what i'll do if she wakes up. I can't just speak to her, I nearly killed her!" I looked at him he was about to cry again "I'll stay" I said "I'll stay too" Tre said. We got moved to a room where we could sleep and it was completely dark and about 20 minutes later Tre was asleep, I was still awake an as far as I could tell Billie was too. He'd just phoned Mandys parents they said they'd come first thing tommorow and for us to watch her for them. Everything was silent untill I heard shuffling from Billie, I got off my chair and walked over to him. He was sitting on the floor and hugging his knees and rocking slightly. He saw me come over and looked up, I sat next to him "She's going to be alright you know" I whispered so I didn't wake Tre up. He just looked at me with a vacant expression "What if i've killed her" he said quietly. "You havn't done anything its not your fault and she's going to be fine" I said. He stared at me for a second then forced a small smile "Thanks Mike" he replied. I got up to go back to my chair "Mike?" I heard Billie say, "Yer" I replied turning to look at him. "What if she dies, She'll miss her 18th birthday and... And she'll never know how much I loved her." he whispered. I felt really bad for him "She's going to get better Billie then you can tell her" I said and walked back to my seat.
*Billie's POV*
It's now 7am, I have had no sleep tonight. Mike fell asleep a few hours ago. I was nervous about seeing Mandy if she wakes up I don't know what i'm going to do she'll probably hate me. I needed to talk to someone I didn't want to wake Mike up he'd already spent most of the night awake with me. I couldn't wake Tre up either well without being hit anyway. So I carried on sitting in silence, my head full of haunting thoughts.
*Later, 9am*
Finaly Tre woke up. "Where am I?" he said sleepily. "Your in hospital" I replied half mindedly. "Shit, what have I done?" he answered anxiously. "Nothing, It's Mandy remember?" I replied angrily. Tre got up and walked over to me "Oh yeah, sorry" he said. "Its Ok". There was some silence before Tre spoke "How long have you been up for?" He got up to wake Mike up "I never slept" I replied. "Oh" he said now hitting Mike in the head to wake him up. Mike opened his eyes "What the... Tre get off me!" he said pushing Tre onto the ground. They then started fighting but I wasn't bothered about them I'd noticed a doctor was at the door, I got up walked over kicking Tre and Mike on my way they stopped fighting an saw the doctor. The doctor looked at me "Mr Armstrong?" he said. "Yeah, is Mandy OK?" I asked nervously, I saw Mike and Tre walk over to join me by the doctor. "She's in a stable condition at the moment" he replied. "Can we see her?" Tre said. "You may see her now, she's still in a coma though". My heart jumped to my throat I was nervous, the last time i'd seen her she was lying on the pavement with cuts an blood all over her. "Can... Can she hear us?" I stuttered. "It is unsure but as she is not in a bad coma then yes, she probably will be able to hear you." I nodded. Mike and Tre walked in first I heldback, "Holy shit!" I heard Tre say. Mike came out I was still standing by the door not going in. "Come on Billie, It's OK. I'll come in with you". He put his arm round my sholdour and slowly I walked in. I turned and saw her my legs went weak and I nearly fell, Mike and Tre caught me. She was lying on the hospital bed with tubes coming out of her and cuts and bruises all over her body. I broke down into tears, how could I cause her all this pain. I wanted to leave but I knew I had to stay. I slowly edged closer to the bed and put my hand on her hand. "I'm so sorry" I said through tears. "I love you" I whispered and kissed her cheek. I knew Mike and Tre were shocked by what I said but I didn't care, I didn't care about anything anymore I just wanted Mandy back.
*Tre's POV*
He told her he loves her. He's never told any other girl that, me and Mike were stunned when he said it. I knew he really liked her but I didn't think he loved her. It was horrible to watch him crying and holding her hand, she had tubes coming out from all over her. He is really worried she's going to die and that it'll be all his fault. I don't know what to do that can make it better for anyone so I'm trying to stay quiet. Watching Billie sitting there was making my stomach turn, So I walked over to him and put my hand on his sholdour. He looked at me and smiled a very small smile. I knew I couldn't say anything to take the pain from him so I stayed silent. Then her parents came to see her so we left.
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*Around a week later, Mandys 18th birthday*
*Billie's POV*
It was her birthday, she was still in a coma on her birthday... And it was all my fault. We'd brought baloons and presents, even if she was asleep it was still her birthday. Mike and Tre were going to sing happy birthday an i'd play my guitar, I was in no mood for singing. Mike and Tre wern't back yet they'd just gone to get a cake so we could save some for Mandy. I was just sitting and waiting and looking at the pile of presents she'd been given. There was one smallish one that her mum had dropped off before she had to leave for work. I spotted my presents near the bottom of the pile I hope she gets to open it today. I picked up my guitar and started playing a few random songs, I stopped suddenly, her hand had moved she didn't wake up though but she had moved an that must be a good sign. Mike and Tre came through the door and put the cake down. "She moved" I said. "What?" Mike replied. I put my guitar down "I was playing some music and she moved her hand". Tre smiled "Really? Maybe she will wake up for her birthday after all". Mike walked over to us nearly tripping over the presents on the way. "Shall we sing happy birthday?" he asked, me and Tre nodded. I picked up my guitar and started playing the opening chords.
*Mandy's POV*
I woke up I could hear singing, I kept my eyes closed. I couldn't tell what they were singing because my ears were being weird, I couldn't hear propally. "Wow, it's not everyday Green Day wake you up by singing to you" I said opening my eyes. I saw Billie Joe drop his guitar an back into a corner and Mike and Tre were standing still with very shocked looks on their faces. It was then I noticed the baloons and the presents and the cake. "What's going on? My birthdays a week away" I said totally confused. I looked down at myself my eyes widened and tears streamed down my face I was covered in cuts an there were tubes pinned to my skin. I realised I was in hospital, I was scared and confused. Mike came over and put his hand on mine. "You've been in a coma for the past week" he explained softly. I looked round the room Tre had now joined Mike by my bed. Billie was sitting in the corner with his head in his hands. "I don't get it, I cant rememeber any..." I trailed off as everything came back to me. The club, Billie kissing that girl. The car, the pain everylast detail of that night flooded into my head. "The car, I was with Billie then the car came" I whispered trying to figure it out. "Yeah" Mike nodded. "Am I going to die?" I asked suddenly scared as hell, Billie stood up and ran out the room I couldn't see but I was sure he was crying. Tre followed him "I'll be right back" he said. "Your not going to die" he answered my earlier question. "I'm scared Mike" I said. "I know, everythings going to be Ok though." he replied. "Billie's been really worried you know, he's barely slept since that night at the club. He blames himself. He was really cut up when you ran out he didn't want to kiss her. When you left the club I took him inside and he was crying to much so I had to take him home, then he obviously went yours." I was trying to take everything in, I covered my face with my hands. "I don't know if he wants me to tell you this but he loves you. He's been coming here everyday and telling you." Mike said. I was shocked but didn't have time to reply because the doors opened and Tre and Billie came in. Billie just stood there and looked at me, his eyes were red so he had been crying. Mike and Tre walked out so we could talk. Billie still didn't move I moved over on my bed so he could sit down. "Billie, come sit here" he walked over slowly and gently sat down. I took a deep breath, "Billie, I just want you to know that I don't blame you for any of this, because none of its your fault". I paused, "But it is my fault all of it, That girl kissed me and I let it happen. I was the one who called you back when you were in the middle of the road..." Billie said but I interupted him, "I stopped in the middle of the road. It was my fault I had the choice to cross but I didn't. And if you say she kissed you and not the other way round then I believe you because... I love you." I said. Billie looked at me and smiled "I love you too" he said and kissed me lightly on the lips. I heard Tre shout "Can we come in?". Billie got up and opened the door they must have been leaning on it because they fell into the room. "I'll take that as a yes" Mike said getting up. Billie sat back on the bed and Mike and Tre got chairs. "Can you open your presents now?" Tre asked me. "Sure" I said. They passed me present after present until there were only 3 left. Billie Joe picked them up, "These two are from me" he said placing two presents on the bed "And this ones from Mike and Tre" he put another present on the bed. "Which one should I open first?" I asked. "Doesnt really matter" Mike said. I picked up the one from Mike and Tre "I'll open yours first". I unwrapped it to find a jewellery box. Inside was a gorgeous bracelet, my mouth dropped open. "Oh my god it's beautiful" I said giving them both hugs. I then picked up the biggest of Billie'spresents. It was a photo frame saying 'I Love You' on it an there was a picture of Me, Billie, Mike, Tre and sarah before we went the club. I loved it even if it did bring back horrible memories. I then picked up the smaller one and gasped when I opened it, it was the most beautiful necklace I've ever seen. It was a heart with diamonds in it and a sort of heart shaped sapphire in the middle. "I love them, thankyou so much" I said to Billie and kissed him. And then I hugged Mike and Tre again and thanked them. I wasn't scared anymore the doctor had came in an told me I could leave in a few days. Although I was in a hospital this was one of the best days of my life. I was with my friends and my boyfriend, I felt like nothing could make me unhappy untill...
