1,000 Hours, chapter 1
"It's always your fault," Billie said and looked at me. We've just had the last show on our American Idiot tour 2005, and after what Billie ment, it was all disaster. I looked at him. "That was totally disaster," he said. "Why are you always blaming me Billie?" I asked and looked exited at him. "Because it's your fault, what do you think?" he replied and went in the car. "Are you coming?" Mike asked me. "Yes," I said and started walking to them. Joe Lindale (our bodyguard) looked at me. I know what he though. I had knew that since Woodstock-1994. I didn't look at him. I didn't even told any of the other's bout it. "Trè, are you sleeping or something?" Mike asked me. I looked at him. "Does it look that way?" I asked short and couldn't do anything about that I sounded a bit angry. Mike stared at me as if I were an ugly animal or something. "That's annoying, Mike," I said angrily. Mike looked down. "I'm sorry Mike, I didn't ment to.." "Nothing is more annoying than you, Trè," Billie said and looked at me. I wanted to say something nasty to him, but I didn't. I never did. Why was that really? Was I scared of him? To kick me out of the band? I could always answer Mike, but not BJ. I though of that for a while, and the others talked about something I didn't notice. "Trè?" Mike awoke me from my thoughs. "We're at the hotel now, come on you lazy ass," Billie said and dragged me out of the car. Jason followed, and so did Joe. "Please don't let me have a room next to Joe, Billie," I said lowly so Joe couldn't hear me. "Trè's room can be next to your's, Joe." Billie smiled. I knew he liked to annoy me. Why did I even say that?
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"What's been wrong with you lately?" Jason asked me when we was in the bar later. "Lately?" I said and smile. Jason looked at me. "It's been something wrong with me since Kerplunk was released," I replied. "Wow, that's a long time ago," Jason said and drinked a bit of his beer. "Yes, it is." I said and though back for a little moment. "What is wrong then?" he said. "Well.. I guess it's Billie," I said and Jason looked weird at me. "Billie?" "Yes," I replied. "Why is that?" "Well, he don't like me. And he never did. I know he wanted John to stay in the band, and he didn't wanted me to replace him at all." "Why do you think that?" "'It's always your fault Trè' 'Don't do that Trè' etc.." "That doesn't means he don't like you. He probably just says it for fun." Jason was staring now. "For fun? Well, it is more though." I said and looked down in my emtpy glass. "What more?" "Well, I slept with Adrienne once.. And Billie found out." "Well, they are divorced now.." Jason started. "Yes, but they have been married. And they were then. And ofcourse he have one more reason for not trusting me after that." "Yes you've got a point there," he said and drinked more. "Is it long ago?" "Some years,"I said and looked down. "Well, have he forgived you yet?" "I don't know.." "Well he should if it is years ago. I am sure Billie like you." he said, and I almost belived him cause he looked so serious. But then again.. "But why does he command me around all the time then? Why is he never smiling to me? Why is he never talking nice to me?" "Well, you've got many points in that to." I was just going to answer him when Billie camed to us. "What are you talking about?" "Nothing," I said quickly. "Go on, tell me." "You don't have to know everything in this world Billie!" I said angrily, but wished I didn't. "Maybe I do Trè," Billie said angrily and went away. "You see?" I told Jason. "He wasn't the only angry person Trè. Think about it. Maybe it's your own fault." "Ofcourse it is! It's always my fault, right?" "No, that's not what I ment. It's just.. How long have he been like this?" "Since 1992." I said and looked sadly down. "1992?!" Jason said surprised. "Yes, now you maybe understand a bit," I said without looking up at him. "Well, if that is, then I can't blame you from beeing angry," Jason said and looked at me. "Thank you for understaning." I said and looked up. "No problem," he said and smiled at me. "Finally I could et it out atlast." I said and smiled back. "Yes, but I think you should tell Billie how you feel," Jason told me. "I don't think that is a good idea." I said. "I think you should. But I am going to my room now, getting some rest. And I think you should to," Jason said and clappet my shoulder friendly. I smiled at him. "I will think about it," I said.
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"What's been wrong with you lately?" Jason asked me when we was in the bar later. "Lately?" I said and smile. Jason looked at me. "It's been something wrong with me since Kerplunk was released," I replied. "Wow, that's a long time ago," Jason said and drinked a bit of his beer. "Yes, it is." I said and though back for a little moment. "What is wrong then?" he said. "Well.. I guess it's Billie," I said and Jason looked weird at me. "Billie?" "Yes," I replied. "Why is that?" "Well, he don't like me. And he never did. I know he wanted John to stay in the band, and he didn't wanted me to replace him at all." "Why do you think that?" "'It's always your fault Trè' 'Don't do that Trè' etc.." "That doesn't means he don't like you. He probably just says it for fun." Jason was staring now. "For fun? Well, it is more though." I said and looked down in my emtpy glass. "What more?" "Well, I slept with Adrienne once.. And Billie found out." "Well, they are divorced now.." Jason started. "Yes, but they have been married. And they were then. And ofcourse he have one more reason for not trusting me after that." "Yes you've got a point there," he said and drinked more. "Is it long ago?" "Some years,"I said and looked down. "Well, have he forgived you yet?" "I don't know.." "Well he should if it is years ago. I am sure Billie like you." he said, and I almost belived him cause he looked so serious. But then again.. "But why does he command me around all the time then? Why is he never smiling to me? Why is he never talking nice to me?" "Well, you've got many points in that to." I was just going to answer him when Billie camed to us. "What are you talking about?" "Nothing," I said quickly. "Go on, tell me." "You don't have to know everything in this world Billie!" I said angrily, but wished I didn't. "Maybe I do Trè," Billie said angrily and went away. "You see?" I told Jason. "He wasn't the only angry person Trè. Think about it. Maybe it's your own fault." "Ofcourse it is! It's always my fault, right?" "No, that's not what I ment. It's just.. How long have he been like this?" "Since 1992." I said and looked sadly down. "1992?!" Jason said surprised. "Yes, now you maybe understand a bit," I said without looking up at him. "Well, if that is, then I can't blame you from beeing angry," Jason said and looked at me. "Thank you for understaning." I said and looked up. "No problem," he said and smiled at me. "Finally I could et it out atlast." I said and smiled back. "Yes, but I think you should tell Billie how you feel," Jason told me. "I don't think that is a good idea." I said. "I think you should. But I am going to my room now, getting some rest. And I think you should to," Jason said and clappet my shoulder friendly. I smiled at him. "I will think about it," I said.
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