Hanging on the Brink of Self Destruction, chapter 3
*** 2 years on (2007) ***
God was it good to be home! The bed covers were as fucked up as they always were and everything was going so well... And the sun was too bright...
"Woah, shitty... " Billie Joe woke up to the sun burning his eyes. "Right in the line of fire" he whispered, sitting up suddenly.
Billie Joe had just finished another tour of 'American Idiot' which wasn't an all-round-the-world thing but then again, every gig was sold out. It was really good; as every single tour was.
"Billie Joe?" asked the girl next to him in a tired voice.
"Yeah babe?" Billie Joe answered, lying back down.
"Shut the fuck up" she laughed in an I-can't-be-bothered way.
"Well, fuck you if you don't wanna talk to your boyfriend who you haven't seen for ages" Billie said, getting out of bed. "Ah, shit! Do we have any aspirin?"
"How would I know? And I do wanna talk to you but maybe a lil bit later when I am not tired. Oh wait, hold on, the aspirin is in the cabinet in the bathroom" Aimee replied, turning over.
"Cheers for the first nice thing you've done today" Billie congratulated her, giving sarcastic hand claps while he went through the on suit trying to find the aspirin. There were loads of cabinets.
"Fuck, babe, don't be like that. I'm sorry I'm just so tired" Aimee sat up, rubbing her eyes.
"I am too you know. I've just got back from a fucking tour and a party last night and I still wanna talk to you! And I'm going for a shower!" Billie Joe announced.
He took some aspirin and started to undo the buttons on his top. He was a little bit pissed off with Aimee's behavior; it wasn't what he wanted on a Saturday morning, especially after not seeing her for ages.
"Need some help Mr. Armstrong?" said Aimee, behind him. She wasn't dressed herself; she was in her PJ's still: a purple vest and some pants.
"No thanks babe, I can undress myself!" Billie Joe replied. "Plus, I'd like to know that someone wants to undress me because they want to, not to make up for some shitty morning argument"
"God, you're tense; sure you don't want any help?" Aimee asked again, taking his top off his shoulders and giving him a massage.
Billie Joe turned around smiling. He put his hands on Aimee's hips and gave her a kiss on the lips.
"I'm fine... Really!" he said, backing her up towards the door.
"So are we OK now? No more stupid arguments?" Aimee said, backtracking out of the door, about to let Billie Joe have his shower.
"So all that WAS to make up?" Billie asked, smiling.
"Um, maybe, but it's to make sure you stay talking to me, you know, strengthening the relationship" Aimee laughed.
"You really confuse me, now leave so I can have my fucking shower" Billie laughed, closing the door.
"Y'know if you let me in, we could both have a shower, together" Aimee said, still standing outside the door as she heard the water being turned on.
"Oh well, twice as much warm water for me" Billie Joe laughed.
"OK then... Can I at least come in and get the aspirin?"
"What's the magic word?"
"Fuck" Aimee and Billie Joe both laughed and Aimee kicked the door.
"Let me in, please Bill I have a massive headache"
Finally Billie Joe opened the door, just in his boxers
"Go quickly, and I don't wanna catch you even glancing at my fucking boxers" he smiled.
Aimee rushed in, grabbed the aspirin. "I like that look on you a lot baby" she commented before she left the bathroom, giggling. Billie Joe grabbed her by the hips and pulled her back into the bathroom, both of them laughing. He hauled Aimee over his shoulder and carried her to cabinet and put her down on the counter.
"I thought you said to go quickly?" Aimee laughed, leaning back on the counter.
"Well, maybe I changed my mind" Billie Joe smiled, tucking a piece of loose hair behind Aimee's ear.
Aimee wrapped her legs around Billie Joe's waste and he picked her off the counter and twirled her around the bathroom. They both giggled, like they were properly in love, which they both were but they both didn't know.
Then Billie Joe tripped over the rug in the bathroom and they both fell over, still hysterically laughed and giggling at each other. Aimee landed on top of Billie Joe and he wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Well, that didn't hurt" Billie said.
"Didn't it?" Aimee asked.
"I was speaking for you" Billie Joe joked as Aimee rested her head on his chest, laughing.
"Billie, have you ever thought of a time when you wanted to stay this way forever?" Aimee asked after a couple of minutes of comfortable silence of Billie Joe stroking her hair and cuddling her.
"Well, I don't wanna stay on my back forever" Billie Joe joked. "No, you mean like together?"
"Uh huh, that's the one"
"I suppose so, yeah, there's no one else I'd rather be with"
"Same with me" Aimee smiled. "Oh, honey, I've only just noticed; the hot water is still running"
"Oh well... I like it steamy" Billie Joe smirked, raising his eyebrows at Aimee. She giggled and moved up to kiss him. It was deep but it didn't stop there. Aimee ran her hands through Billie Joe's hair and they kissed deeper and deeper each time.
"GOD! No wonder me and Mike were hearing noises downstairs"
Aimee and Billie Joe looked up, still on the floor, still in each others arms. Tre was in the door way, looking very hung over.
"Oh, did I just say that? Am I interrupting something?" he sniggered, making a hilarious face.
Aimee cracked up laughing and rolled off Billie Joe and around the floor. But Billie Joe didn't seem to take it that well.
"Fuck Tre! Why can't you just stay out of the fucking bathroom while someone is in it?" he shouted, getting up and trying to get Aimee off the floor.
"I just came up to say thanks for letting us sleep in you're living room" Tre argued. "I didn't know you would be slobbering over each other!"
This made Aimee laugh even more.
"Tre it's called kissing with tongues; have you ever done it before?!" Billie Joe replied "And why the fuck did you sleep in my living room?"
"Um, we sort of passed out on the sofa when Aimee took you up and yes, I have done it before"
"Um, yeah, with who?" Billie Joe said sarcastically.
"With my... Hehe... Girlfriend!" Tre said in a high girlie voice, prancing out of the bathroom, making Aimee cry with laughter.
"I'm... I'm sorry Bill, he just makes me laugh so fucking much" Aimee recovered, getting up. "You wanna shower now?"
"Don't worry about it honey, just go downstairs, do whatever you want and I'll be down soon" Billie Joe said, giving Aimee a kiss before she went downstairs.
Aimee said good-bye to Mike and Tre, apologizing for Billie Joe's mood.
"Sorry, it's just the whole headache mixed with someone walking in on him" Aimee laughed. "He was a little bit pissed off with me this morning, but I guess that was more my fault than his"
"Don't worry; happens all the time" Tre joked, giving Aimee a hug.
"Hope our living room was OK to sleep in"
"It was actually really comfortable until we woke up... Well, until Tre jumped on me" Mike said, giving Aimee a hug too.
"Ah, bull shit! I fell on you because I fell asleep on the sofa. You were on the floor" Tre corrected.
*** Flash Back ***
Billie Joe made his way back from Mike's house early in the morning. He was about to face one of the biggest arguments and the biggest conclusion of his life; Adie would want to split up with them. It was cold and the sun was shining quite brightly. Billie was walking through the park, the quickest way to his house; it would take a while to get home.
Suddenly he saw a girl sitting on a bench. She was wearing a black beanie hat and was wrapped up in a coat. Her blonde hair seemed all too familiar. It was Aimee. What was she doing outside at 9am?
"Aimee?" Billie Joe asked.
"Shit! Who the fuck...? BILLIE!" she cried, jumping off the bench and throwing herself at Billie Joe. He just saw a glimpse of her face before she buried it in his coat. She was as beautiful as ever but her eyes were bloodshot and her face was red. Aimee suddenly started to shake, her crying muffled by Billie's coat.
"Aimee? Shit, you OK?" Billie Joe asked, holding her close to him. If Adie saw this... Fuck, they'd be over from the word go.
"No, Bill, no... My dad, he's being the biggest dick in the world... Just because Mom is gone he takes it out on me, I'm the only person... I'm so glad you're here" she snuffled.
"God, we're on the same sorta road... Adie has, has... She threw me out last night and I've stayed at Mike's until now"
"No way" Aimee said. She stopped hugging Billie Joe and held him by his shoulders, staring him in the eyes. "She can't do that... Why did she throw you out?"
"Because she saw the texts you sent me... And she wasn't happy because she said they sounded, you know, too intimate"
"Fuck no! Shit... Oh crap, it's all my fault. Billie Joe I'm so sorry, you two have to make up" Aimee exclaimed, looking worse than she already was.
"That's the thing, we're probably never gonna make up... I think it's gonna end today, in fact, it is gonna end today"
"No, don't say that, that is bull shit"
"No, it is"
"Billie Joe, you've never been this upset... You will get back up and she will forgive you, just... "
"No, it's me, not Adie. I... I love someone else" Billie Joe interrupted. "That's why I don't think it's gonna work out between me and her. I never thought I would feel as much for another person other than Adie but I am and I have and I always will at this rate... "
Billie Joe and Aimee stared at each other; his dreamy green eyes looking deep into her blue ones, unlocking each others secrets.
Suddenly a car screeched to a halt outside the park, just before the bench, just where Aimee and Billie Joe were standing. It wasn't much of a car, it was quite old and rusty but the person inside was much worse.
"Oh shit" Aimee whispered, letting go of Billie Joe and walking towards the curb. Billie Joe stood and watched the drama. He thought of helping Aimee but had the idea it might make matters a lot worse. It was Aimee's dad; his face was stern and red and he was screaming in Aimee's.
*** End of Flash Back ***
God was it good to be home! The bed covers were as fucked up as they always were and everything was going so well... And the sun was too bright...
"Woah, shitty... " Billie Joe woke up to the sun burning his eyes. "Right in the line of fire" he whispered, sitting up suddenly.
Billie Joe had just finished another tour of 'American Idiot' which wasn't an all-round-the-world thing but then again, every gig was sold out. It was really good; as every single tour was.
"Billie Joe?" asked the girl next to him in a tired voice.
"Yeah babe?" Billie Joe answered, lying back down.
"Shut the fuck up" she laughed in an I-can't-be-bothered way.
"Well, fuck you if you don't wanna talk to your boyfriend who you haven't seen for ages" Billie said, getting out of bed. "Ah, shit! Do we have any aspirin?"
"How would I know? And I do wanna talk to you but maybe a lil bit later when I am not tired. Oh wait, hold on, the aspirin is in the cabinet in the bathroom" Aimee replied, turning over.
"Cheers for the first nice thing you've done today" Billie congratulated her, giving sarcastic hand claps while he went through the on suit trying to find the aspirin. There were loads of cabinets.
"Fuck, babe, don't be like that. I'm sorry I'm just so tired" Aimee sat up, rubbing her eyes.
"I am too you know. I've just got back from a fucking tour and a party last night and I still wanna talk to you! And I'm going for a shower!" Billie Joe announced.
He took some aspirin and started to undo the buttons on his top. He was a little bit pissed off with Aimee's behavior; it wasn't what he wanted on a Saturday morning, especially after not seeing her for ages.
"Need some help Mr. Armstrong?" said Aimee, behind him. She wasn't dressed herself; she was in her PJ's still: a purple vest and some pants.
"No thanks babe, I can undress myself!" Billie Joe replied. "Plus, I'd like to know that someone wants to undress me because they want to, not to make up for some shitty morning argument"
"God, you're tense; sure you don't want any help?" Aimee asked again, taking his top off his shoulders and giving him a massage.
Billie Joe turned around smiling. He put his hands on Aimee's hips and gave her a kiss on the lips.
"I'm fine... Really!" he said, backing her up towards the door.
"So are we OK now? No more stupid arguments?" Aimee said, backtracking out of the door, about to let Billie Joe have his shower.
"So all that WAS to make up?" Billie asked, smiling.
"Um, maybe, but it's to make sure you stay talking to me, you know, strengthening the relationship" Aimee laughed.
"You really confuse me, now leave so I can have my fucking shower" Billie laughed, closing the door.
"Y'know if you let me in, we could both have a shower, together" Aimee said, still standing outside the door as she heard the water being turned on.
"Oh well, twice as much warm water for me" Billie Joe laughed.
"OK then... Can I at least come in and get the aspirin?"
"What's the magic word?"
"Fuck" Aimee and Billie Joe both laughed and Aimee kicked the door.
"Let me in, please Bill I have a massive headache"
Finally Billie Joe opened the door, just in his boxers
"Go quickly, and I don't wanna catch you even glancing at my fucking boxers" he smiled.
Aimee rushed in, grabbed the aspirin. "I like that look on you a lot baby" she commented before she left the bathroom, giggling. Billie Joe grabbed her by the hips and pulled her back into the bathroom, both of them laughing. He hauled Aimee over his shoulder and carried her to cabinet and put her down on the counter.
"I thought you said to go quickly?" Aimee laughed, leaning back on the counter.
"Well, maybe I changed my mind" Billie Joe smiled, tucking a piece of loose hair behind Aimee's ear.
Aimee wrapped her legs around Billie Joe's waste and he picked her off the counter and twirled her around the bathroom. They both giggled, like they were properly in love, which they both were but they both didn't know.
Then Billie Joe tripped over the rug in the bathroom and they both fell over, still hysterically laughed and giggling at each other. Aimee landed on top of Billie Joe and he wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Well, that didn't hurt" Billie said.
"Didn't it?" Aimee asked.
"I was speaking for you" Billie Joe joked as Aimee rested her head on his chest, laughing.
"Billie, have you ever thought of a time when you wanted to stay this way forever?" Aimee asked after a couple of minutes of comfortable silence of Billie Joe stroking her hair and cuddling her.
"Well, I don't wanna stay on my back forever" Billie Joe joked. "No, you mean like together?"
"Uh huh, that's the one"
"I suppose so, yeah, there's no one else I'd rather be with"
"Same with me" Aimee smiled. "Oh, honey, I've only just noticed; the hot water is still running"
"Oh well... I like it steamy" Billie Joe smirked, raising his eyebrows at Aimee. She giggled and moved up to kiss him. It was deep but it didn't stop there. Aimee ran her hands through Billie Joe's hair and they kissed deeper and deeper each time.
"GOD! No wonder me and Mike were hearing noises downstairs"
Aimee and Billie Joe looked up, still on the floor, still in each others arms. Tre was in the door way, looking very hung over.
"Oh, did I just say that? Am I interrupting something?" he sniggered, making a hilarious face.
Aimee cracked up laughing and rolled off Billie Joe and around the floor. But Billie Joe didn't seem to take it that well.
"Fuck Tre! Why can't you just stay out of the fucking bathroom while someone is in it?" he shouted, getting up and trying to get Aimee off the floor.
"I just came up to say thanks for letting us sleep in you're living room" Tre argued. "I didn't know you would be slobbering over each other!"
This made Aimee laugh even more.
"Tre it's called kissing with tongues; have you ever done it before?!" Billie Joe replied "And why the fuck did you sleep in my living room?"
"Um, we sort of passed out on the sofa when Aimee took you up and yes, I have done it before"
"Um, yeah, with who?" Billie Joe said sarcastically.
"With my... Hehe... Girlfriend!" Tre said in a high girlie voice, prancing out of the bathroom, making Aimee cry with laughter.
"I'm... I'm sorry Bill, he just makes me laugh so fucking much" Aimee recovered, getting up. "You wanna shower now?"
"Don't worry about it honey, just go downstairs, do whatever you want and I'll be down soon" Billie Joe said, giving Aimee a kiss before she went downstairs.
Aimee said good-bye to Mike and Tre, apologizing for Billie Joe's mood.
"Sorry, it's just the whole headache mixed with someone walking in on him" Aimee laughed. "He was a little bit pissed off with me this morning, but I guess that was more my fault than his"
"Don't worry; happens all the time" Tre joked, giving Aimee a hug.
"Hope our living room was OK to sleep in"
"It was actually really comfortable until we woke up... Well, until Tre jumped on me" Mike said, giving Aimee a hug too.
"Ah, bull shit! I fell on you because I fell asleep on the sofa. You were on the floor" Tre corrected.
*** Flash Back ***
Billie Joe made his way back from Mike's house early in the morning. He was about to face one of the biggest arguments and the biggest conclusion of his life; Adie would want to split up with them. It was cold and the sun was shining quite brightly. Billie was walking through the park, the quickest way to his house; it would take a while to get home.
Suddenly he saw a girl sitting on a bench. She was wearing a black beanie hat and was wrapped up in a coat. Her blonde hair seemed all too familiar. It was Aimee. What was she doing outside at 9am?
"Aimee?" Billie Joe asked.
"Shit! Who the fuck...? BILLIE!" she cried, jumping off the bench and throwing herself at Billie Joe. He just saw a glimpse of her face before she buried it in his coat. She was as beautiful as ever but her eyes were bloodshot and her face was red. Aimee suddenly started to shake, her crying muffled by Billie's coat.
"Aimee? Shit, you OK?" Billie Joe asked, holding her close to him. If Adie saw this... Fuck, they'd be over from the word go.
"No, Bill, no... My dad, he's being the biggest dick in the world... Just because Mom is gone he takes it out on me, I'm the only person... I'm so glad you're here" she snuffled.
"God, we're on the same sorta road... Adie has, has... She threw me out last night and I've stayed at Mike's until now"
"No way" Aimee said. She stopped hugging Billie Joe and held him by his shoulders, staring him in the eyes. "She can't do that... Why did she throw you out?"
"Because she saw the texts you sent me... And she wasn't happy because she said they sounded, you know, too intimate"
"Fuck no! Shit... Oh crap, it's all my fault. Billie Joe I'm so sorry, you two have to make up" Aimee exclaimed, looking worse than she already was.
"That's the thing, we're probably never gonna make up... I think it's gonna end today, in fact, it is gonna end today"
"No, don't say that, that is bull shit"
"No, it is"
"Billie Joe, you've never been this upset... You will get back up and she will forgive you, just... "
"No, it's me, not Adie. I... I love someone else" Billie Joe interrupted. "That's why I don't think it's gonna work out between me and her. I never thought I would feel as much for another person other than Adie but I am and I have and I always will at this rate... "
Billie Joe and Aimee stared at each other; his dreamy green eyes looking deep into her blue ones, unlocking each others secrets.
Suddenly a car screeched to a halt outside the park, just before the bench, just where Aimee and Billie Joe were standing. It wasn't much of a car, it was quite old and rusty but the person inside was much worse.
"Oh shit" Aimee whispered, letting go of Billie Joe and walking towards the curb. Billie Joe stood and watched the drama. He thought of helping Aimee but had the idea it might make matters a lot worse. It was Aimee's dad; his face was stern and red and he was screaming in Aimee's.
*** End of Flash Back ***
