Untold Secrets, chapter 3
--Billie's POV--
"What? What do you have to tell me?" I asked curious to what it might be.
"You remember when we broke up?" she asked, as my heart sank.
"Yea..." I said trailing at the end.
---Flashback---
--Still Billie's POV--
Tonight was our the night Jess and I were celebrating our two month anniversary. Our actual anniversary was a few days ago but I had been so busy doing things with the band that I hadn't really had much time for Jess, and I felt horrible about not being with her. We talked on the phone at night but it was never the same as being with her. I was finishing getting ready for our date when the phone rang.
"Hello?" I answered. "Oh hey Babe! Yea I'll be there in a few. Ok bye." I said hanging up the phone.
I grabbed my keys, and the gift I got Jess, and headed to her house. I parked in her driveway and knocked on the door. I heard the door unlock and open.
"Hey baby, Happy anniversary!" Jess said jumping into my arms and kissing me.
"Happy anniversary to you too." I said kissing back.
"So you ready to go to dinner?" I asked.
"Yep just let me grab my purse." Jess said turning to grab her purse and walking out.
"Jess what happened to your wrist?" I asked grabbing her badly bruised wrist.
"Oh... Uh... I was walking the dog and the leash got caught around my wrist and given my luck just at that moment a cat walked by." she laughed, snatching her wrist quickly away from me.
The drive to the resturant was alittle awkward. There was something about Jess' story that didn't seem right to me. Oh well I decided to trust her.
We were now driving home after an amazingly fun dinner. Now sitting in my car in her driveway, I turned to Jess.
"Um... Here." I said nervously handing her the gift.
"Oh Billie you didn't have to!" She screamed in excitment.
"I just hope you like it." I said nervously scratching the back of my neck.
I watched closly as she opened the gift.
"Billie..." she gasped as she pulled out the necklace I had gotten her.
I was a simple silver chain with a silver plated guitar pick with a heart engraved into it.
"Do you like it?" I asked looking down.
"I love it." She grinned. "How does it look?" she asked after putting the necklace on.
"Beautiful." I said before cupping her face and kissing her.
---End of Flashback---
"Jess that wasn't the night we broke up." I said after reliving the night.
"I know I have a point." she continued.
"Now do you remember when you left to go on tour." she asked.
All I could do was nod, remembering the horrible events of that night.
---Flashback---
Tonight was a bittersweet night. I was leaving to go on my very first tour with my band Green Day, but that also meants I was leaving Jess. I was at the moment on my way to say goodbye in the bookmobile, which would serve as my home on wheels for the next few months. Tre was driving and pulled into Jess' house. I took a deep breath, recieved recourageing pats on the back from Mike and descended to her door. I knocked but there was no answer, I knocked again but still no answer. I pushed the door and it creaked open.
"Hello? Jess?" I yelled but no answer.
I heard a noise come from upstairs to I descended the staircase and entered Jess' room.
"Hey I can to..." I was stopped in mid sentence to what I saw.
Jess laying under another guy who had no shirt and was trying to take off Jess' belt. I ran down the stairs and out of the house as fast as I could. I was left pacing in the driveway. I looked up to see the man exit the house laughing and putting his shirt back on. We didn't say anything to eachother but exchanged cold looks. I continued to pace not knowing what to do next. Then Jess ran out of the house crying histerically.
"Billie! You have to believe me! I didn't mean to! It wasn't my fault." She sobbed while trying to hug me.
"I just came to say goodbye." I said lightly pushing her off of me.
"Billie no you can't leave like this please." She cried.
I walked back to the door of the bookmobile and paused looking back at Jess' tear stained face.
"You know I really loved you." I said through tears as I got back into the vehicle and drove off.
I never took my eyes off Jess as she collasped on her driveway crying.
---End of Flashback---
"I did you know." I said aftering listening to her explain our break up.
"You did what?" she asked.
"I did love you." I said with no response from her. "So was there a point to telling me this?" I asked.
"Yes. I did not cheat on you that night Billie." She said forcfully looking my in the eyes.
"Jess Come on! I caught you with the guy. Who was he anyway?" I yelled back.
"No Billie listen. I didn't cheat on you. He... He raped me." She confessed.
"What?!" I asked in shock.
"You remember the bruise on my wrist I told you was from walking the dog? That was from him. I tried to tell you when you caught us, but I couldn't you left." she explained.
"Omg..." I gasped. "Omg. Jess I am so sorry. I had no idea. But you have to understand that if I knew I would have never left you. I... Omg I don't know how to explain how I feel right now." I said looking at Jess.
"It's alright I've have alot of time to come to terms with the situation. I never blamed you for anything Billie. And I loved you too." She said back.
There were a few moments of silence, that I thought was needed to let everything sink in.
"So why find me now? Why not sooner?" I asked.
"Well there were things with the rape I had to deal with like procecuting him and trying to recover. And you were so well into your tour by then and everything was going so well for you I didn't want to ruin everything." she explained.
"I would have understood. But I guess that's all said and done huh?... But why come to me now?" I pressed on.
"Well I was in town visiting my parents, when I heard about your concert in town and I knew I had to see you. I couldn't get tickets of backstage passes so hopefully getting pass the barrier was my last chance. I was planning on talking to you but you were so we gaurded that that was pretty much impossible. And... God Billie once I saw you everything came flooding back to me. All I could do was hug you. Just maybe hug you for one last time." she said to me.
"I had to idea. I've been to busy with the American Idiot tour and with Adi..." I rambled on.
"So how are your wife and kids?... Wow seems so weird to be asking that." she smiled.
"The kids are good Joey and Jakob... But Adi and I are having our troubles." I laughed.
"Yea well what marriage doesn't have trouble." she laughed with me.
"So what about you?" I asked. "Gotta husband and kids yourself?" I questioned.
"Oh well I just finalised my divorce with my husband of 5 years. And I have a daughter, Amy." She informed me.
"Wow, sorry to hear about the divorce." I said as she just nodded. "So how about you come to my place and we can talk alittle bit more and you can meet Adi and the boys?" I offered.
"Sure sounds great!" she agreed.
We both left and drove to my house never stoping talking. It felt amazing to have Jess back in my life.
"What? What do you have to tell me?" I asked curious to what it might be.
"You remember when we broke up?" she asked, as my heart sank.
"Yea..." I said trailing at the end.
---Flashback---
--Still Billie's POV--
Tonight was our the night Jess and I were celebrating our two month anniversary. Our actual anniversary was a few days ago but I had been so busy doing things with the band that I hadn't really had much time for Jess, and I felt horrible about not being with her. We talked on the phone at night but it was never the same as being with her. I was finishing getting ready for our date when the phone rang.
"Hello?" I answered. "Oh hey Babe! Yea I'll be there in a few. Ok bye." I said hanging up the phone.
I grabbed my keys, and the gift I got Jess, and headed to her house. I parked in her driveway and knocked on the door. I heard the door unlock and open.
"Hey baby, Happy anniversary!" Jess said jumping into my arms and kissing me.
"Happy anniversary to you too." I said kissing back.
"So you ready to go to dinner?" I asked.
"Yep just let me grab my purse." Jess said turning to grab her purse and walking out.
"Jess what happened to your wrist?" I asked grabbing her badly bruised wrist.
"Oh... Uh... I was walking the dog and the leash got caught around my wrist and given my luck just at that moment a cat walked by." she laughed, snatching her wrist quickly away from me.
The drive to the resturant was alittle awkward. There was something about Jess' story that didn't seem right to me. Oh well I decided to trust her.
We were now driving home after an amazingly fun dinner. Now sitting in my car in her driveway, I turned to Jess.
"Um... Here." I said nervously handing her the gift.
"Oh Billie you didn't have to!" She screamed in excitment.
"I just hope you like it." I said nervously scratching the back of my neck.
I watched closly as she opened the gift.
"Billie..." she gasped as she pulled out the necklace I had gotten her.
I was a simple silver chain with a silver plated guitar pick with a heart engraved into it.
"Do you like it?" I asked looking down.
"I love it." She grinned. "How does it look?" she asked after putting the necklace on.
"Beautiful." I said before cupping her face and kissing her.
---End of Flashback---
"Jess that wasn't the night we broke up." I said after reliving the night.
"I know I have a point." she continued.
"Now do you remember when you left to go on tour." she asked.
All I could do was nod, remembering the horrible events of that night.
---Flashback---
Tonight was a bittersweet night. I was leaving to go on my very first tour with my band Green Day, but that also meants I was leaving Jess. I was at the moment on my way to say goodbye in the bookmobile, which would serve as my home on wheels for the next few months. Tre was driving and pulled into Jess' house. I took a deep breath, recieved recourageing pats on the back from Mike and descended to her door. I knocked but there was no answer, I knocked again but still no answer. I pushed the door and it creaked open.
"Hello? Jess?" I yelled but no answer.
I heard a noise come from upstairs to I descended the staircase and entered Jess' room.
"Hey I can to..." I was stopped in mid sentence to what I saw.
Jess laying under another guy who had no shirt and was trying to take off Jess' belt. I ran down the stairs and out of the house as fast as I could. I was left pacing in the driveway. I looked up to see the man exit the house laughing and putting his shirt back on. We didn't say anything to eachother but exchanged cold looks. I continued to pace not knowing what to do next. Then Jess ran out of the house crying histerically.
"Billie! You have to believe me! I didn't mean to! It wasn't my fault." She sobbed while trying to hug me.
"I just came to say goodbye." I said lightly pushing her off of me.
"Billie no you can't leave like this please." She cried.
I walked back to the door of the bookmobile and paused looking back at Jess' tear stained face.
"You know I really loved you." I said through tears as I got back into the vehicle and drove off.
I never took my eyes off Jess as she collasped on her driveway crying.
---End of Flashback---
"I did you know." I said aftering listening to her explain our break up.
"You did what?" she asked.
"I did love you." I said with no response from her. "So was there a point to telling me this?" I asked.
"Yes. I did not cheat on you that night Billie." She said forcfully looking my in the eyes.
"Jess Come on! I caught you with the guy. Who was he anyway?" I yelled back.
"No Billie listen. I didn't cheat on you. He... He raped me." She confessed.
"What?!" I asked in shock.
"You remember the bruise on my wrist I told you was from walking the dog? That was from him. I tried to tell you when you caught us, but I couldn't you left." she explained.
"Omg..." I gasped. "Omg. Jess I am so sorry. I had no idea. But you have to understand that if I knew I would have never left you. I... Omg I don't know how to explain how I feel right now." I said looking at Jess.
"It's alright I've have alot of time to come to terms with the situation. I never blamed you for anything Billie. And I loved you too." She said back.
There were a few moments of silence, that I thought was needed to let everything sink in.
"So why find me now? Why not sooner?" I asked.
"Well there were things with the rape I had to deal with like procecuting him and trying to recover. And you were so well into your tour by then and everything was going so well for you I didn't want to ruin everything." she explained.
"I would have understood. But I guess that's all said and done huh?... But why come to me now?" I pressed on.
"Well I was in town visiting my parents, when I heard about your concert in town and I knew I had to see you. I couldn't get tickets of backstage passes so hopefully getting pass the barrier was my last chance. I was planning on talking to you but you were so we gaurded that that was pretty much impossible. And... God Billie once I saw you everything came flooding back to me. All I could do was hug you. Just maybe hug you for one last time." she said to me.
"I had to idea. I've been to busy with the American Idiot tour and with Adi..." I rambled on.
"So how are your wife and kids?... Wow seems so weird to be asking that." she smiled.
"The kids are good Joey and Jakob... But Adi and I are having our troubles." I laughed.
"Yea well what marriage doesn't have trouble." she laughed with me.
"So what about you?" I asked. "Gotta husband and kids yourself?" I questioned.
"Oh well I just finalised my divorce with my husband of 5 years. And I have a daughter, Amy." She informed me.
"Wow, sorry to hear about the divorce." I said as she just nodded. "So how about you come to my place and we can talk alittle bit more and you can meet Adi and the boys?" I offered.
"Sure sounds great!" she agreed.
We both left and drove to my house never stoping talking. It felt amazing to have Jess back in my life.
