I Feel Like Punching You In Between The Eyes, chapter 2

We started walking toward Kmart when a car came speeding by. Zach screamed something at me but I couldn't understand what it was.

"Lina wake up...please wake up. Just stay awake don't loosen your grip come on you know you can make it just dint let go. PLEASE WAKE UP!"

I guess Nessa had called an ambulance because I heard sirens and mumbling voices from Zach. I guess he was saying he was my brother so he would be able to be in the ambulance with me or something.

"Kid I'm afraid shes not gonna make it. Just go home."
"No I'm not gonna leave her she's my sister and I'm not gonna go home and wait until you call the house and say she's dead!"
"Fine you can come just try to keep her awake...Does she have a boyfriend?Maybe if you talk to her about him she'll stay awake."
"Lina! What about Jesse? Hmm you know you cant leave him you saved him remember? When we were little. You can't die I just got home. YOU CANT DIE DO YOU HEAR ME ANNALISA LYNN YOU CAN NOT DIE NOT HERE!"

I started to wish I had brought a jacket because it was starting to get cold and I heard Zach say something about not dying....wait was I hit am I dying?? No this is all just a really fucked up dream I'll wake up and I'll be getting yelled at by my math teacher because I fell asleep as usual. Maybe if I close my eyes...

"NO OPEN YOUR EYES LINA STAY AWAKE" The paramedic said. I could still hear Zach saying something in my ear..but I couldn't figure it out.

"LINA YOU CAN'T DO THIS REMEMBER YOUR DAD HE SAID YOU HAVE TO STAY ALIVE FOR YOUR MOM REMEMBER? HE SAID IT RIGHT BEFORE HE DIED. LINA PLEASE JUST WAKE UP!"

I'm getting scared I really don't want this to be real. Its getting so cold...Its so silent..why am I remembering that poem that I had found when I was on the internet...why?

I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom
So I had a Sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice, and your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mom
Something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mom, his voice seems far away.
My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell Sister not to be afraid, Mom
Tell Daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven,
Put Daddy's Girl on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mom,
As I lie here and die, and wish that I could tell you,
I love you, and goodbye.

All I could really think of was that poem and the last line I wish I could tell Zach how I really feel. Tell him I love you and goodbye.

"Wait...kid what were you saying to her? Keep saying it...shes breathing again" The paramedic told Zach.....