Broken Bones and Nasty Cuts, chapter 7
So, like I said, Billie Joe sat there, thinking, wondering... wishing. He just sat there, for hours, thinking. Then, he remembered something. He was starting his tour next month. The Green Day World Tour, 2005. Now, you'd think that he'd be happy. Anything that got him away from his life should make him happy, right? No, not really. It's a little hard to explain... in fact, I'm not sure if he really understands it. You see, ever since he married Adrienne, she completely deprived him of any physical or emotional love. Except for the few times when she was completely plastered, he hadn't had sex with his wife since they married. This lack of love or attention caused him to change inside... .about nine years ago...
Billie Joe was now in the middle of his tour. He had been amazed at the success of "Dookie" Everywhere he performed there were fans screaming his name. It was shocking. Well, he had just finished a great concert and was hanging out with the guys and some fans. He was slowly drifting off to sleep, but was still aware of the conversation. Mike was telling some guy about the places they've been to. He looked at Mike, from his hair down to his shoes. He really was an attractive guy... Billie Joe had just never paid any attention to it... ... ... ... before now.
"Wait," he thought, "am I checking Mike out?!?"
"No," he retorted, to himself, "you've been best friends for the longest time, you're just having one of those days when you're really fond of everybody and everything."
This battle inside his head went on for quite some time. Then Mike looked at him. Billie Joe felt himself going red. He felt like Mike knew what he was thinking. He came and sat next to Billie Joe.
"You okay, Billie?" Mike asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." he answered..
"Okay, cause you were creeping me out a little." Mike said
"Huh, why?" Billie Joe asked, confused. Mike smirked.
"Well, I know I'm sexy and all, but there's no reason to stare." he said, smiling. Billie Joe knew Mike was just joking, but part of him was a little scared. And a little excited.
"Mike?" Billie Joe asked timidly
"Huh?" Mike answered
"You know that we've been friends since we were, um, ten, right?"
"Yeah,"
"So," Billie Joe started, "we could tell each other anything, right?"
Mike looked a little worried and confused. "Yeah, we could. What's up?"
Billie Joe was so thankful that most of the fans were gone now. And those who were still here were either asleep or laughing at Tre. He could care less why. He gathered up all of his strength for what he was gonna do next.
He leaned forward and pulled Mike into a kiss. Not a peck on the lips, like he intended, but a kiss. A kiss that deepened and deepened by the second. Why wasn't Mike pulling away? Then, they broke apart.
Mike looked stunned. Billie Joe hadn't even registered what had happened yet. Then, Mike spoke.
"Billie, is there something you wanna tell me?" Mike asked. Billie Joe just bowed his head. Partly because he was thinking, and partly because he didn't want to look at Mike. When he didn't say anything, Mike spoke again.
"I mean, I knew that you had wrote songs about this, but I thought it was just a phase. I thought you were just trying it on for size." He said, still looking shocked
"It fits." Billie Joe said, quietly.
That day, Billie Joe Armstrong realized that he was bi-sexual.
And this is why he wasn't too happy about going on tour. He had been deprived of any love for the better part of his life, and tour was the only time when he got it. It was a little depressing, because he almost felt like he was cheating on his wife. But he never had an affair. Unless you counted Mike and Tre every once in a while, but that would never go anywhere, and they always respected the fact that he was married. He thought some more. He would never even look at another woman. He was scared shitless about how Adrienne would react if she found out. That's why he turned to men.
Billie Joe looked up, seeing how late it was. He got up from where he was sitting , put on his sunglasses and hat, and started heading home.
Billie Joe was now in the middle of his tour. He had been amazed at the success of "Dookie" Everywhere he performed there were fans screaming his name. It was shocking. Well, he had just finished a great concert and was hanging out with the guys and some fans. He was slowly drifting off to sleep, but was still aware of the conversation. Mike was telling some guy about the places they've been to. He looked at Mike, from his hair down to his shoes. He really was an attractive guy... Billie Joe had just never paid any attention to it... ... ... ... before now.
"Wait," he thought, "am I checking Mike out?!?"
"No," he retorted, to himself, "you've been best friends for the longest time, you're just having one of those days when you're really fond of everybody and everything."
This battle inside his head went on for quite some time. Then Mike looked at him. Billie Joe felt himself going red. He felt like Mike knew what he was thinking. He came and sat next to Billie Joe.
"You okay, Billie?" Mike asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." he answered..
"Okay, cause you were creeping me out a little." Mike said
"Huh, why?" Billie Joe asked, confused. Mike smirked.
"Well, I know I'm sexy and all, but there's no reason to stare." he said, smiling. Billie Joe knew Mike was just joking, but part of him was a little scared. And a little excited.
"Mike?" Billie Joe asked timidly
"Huh?" Mike answered
"You know that we've been friends since we were, um, ten, right?"
"Yeah,"
"So," Billie Joe started, "we could tell each other anything, right?"
Mike looked a little worried and confused. "Yeah, we could. What's up?"
Billie Joe was so thankful that most of the fans were gone now. And those who were still here were either asleep or laughing at Tre. He could care less why. He gathered up all of his strength for what he was gonna do next.
He leaned forward and pulled Mike into a kiss. Not a peck on the lips, like he intended, but a kiss. A kiss that deepened and deepened by the second. Why wasn't Mike pulling away? Then, they broke apart.
Mike looked stunned. Billie Joe hadn't even registered what had happened yet. Then, Mike spoke.
"Billie, is there something you wanna tell me?" Mike asked. Billie Joe just bowed his head. Partly because he was thinking, and partly because he didn't want to look at Mike. When he didn't say anything, Mike spoke again.
"I mean, I knew that you had wrote songs about this, but I thought it was just a phase. I thought you were just trying it on for size." He said, still looking shocked
"It fits." Billie Joe said, quietly.
That day, Billie Joe Armstrong realized that he was bi-sexual.
And this is why he wasn't too happy about going on tour. He had been deprived of any love for the better part of his life, and tour was the only time when he got it. It was a little depressing, because he almost felt like he was cheating on his wife. But he never had an affair. Unless you counted Mike and Tre every once in a while, but that would never go anywhere, and they always respected the fact that he was married. He thought some more. He would never even look at another woman. He was scared shitless about how Adrienne would react if she found out. That's why he turned to men.
Billie Joe looked up, seeing how late it was. He got up from where he was sitting , put on his sunglasses and hat, and started heading home.
