What's With This Girl?, chapter 18
I can't believe I let this happen. How can I be so careless? There's no way in hell I'll ever be able to keep this from Dannie. I really don't know what to do. I don't even know if I want to tell Tre. I was sitting on the bathroom floor crying my eyes out when I heard a knock on the door.
"Kira," I heard BeBe say. "Can I come in?"
"Yeah," I said through tears.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
"No."
BeBe sat down on the floor next to me. "Kira there's nothing to cry about. You and Dannie are going to be parents! You should be happy."
"Well I'm not," I said.
"Why not? You're going to be a mom! I'm just trying to figure out how you got Dannie to break his celibacy."
"Dannie didn't...he's still a virgin," I said hesitantly.
"What do you mean he's...oh my God," BeBe said. "It's not...Dannie's not...oh my God Kira."
"Yeah. Dannie's not the father," I said.
"Who's the father?" she asked.
I couldn't even look BeBe in the eyes. I felt so ashamed. I didn't want to tell her who the father was, but she was going to keep bringing it up until I told her.
"Kira. Please tell me. Please? Who's the father?"
"It's Tre."
"What!" BeBe yelled.
"Shocking isn't it," I said.
"Yeah it is I guess. What happened? I mean how did it happen?"
"It just happened. Tre got drunk one night and I let him stay with me. Then he like completely confessed his love to me, and he started coming on to me really hard. And it just happened. I can't blame it all on him. It was as much as my fault as it was his. I could have kept fighting him off. But I gave in."
"So I'm guessing he didn't use a condom."
"I don't remember."
"So what are you going to do?"
"I guess there's really only one thing I can do. I can't have this baby."
"Kira you are not getting an abortion," BeBe said.
"I can't have this baby BeBe. I just can't."
"But there has to be something else we can do," BeBe said.
"No there isn't. I CANNOT HAVE THIS BABY!"
"Shut up Kira! You want everyone downstairs to hear you?"
"I'm sorry BeBe. I'm just so scared."
"I know Kira. I know this is hard for you. But people make mistakes. People fuck up sometimes, but you just got to learn from them. That's all we can do."
"I guess you're right. Thank you BeBe."
"I'm your big sister. Helping you is my job. I'm going to get off this floor, and you should too it's making your dress dirty. Are you going to be okay?"
"I'll be fine. I just need to be alone."
"Okay Kira. I'll just tell everyone you aren't feeling good."
BeBe got up from the floor and left the bathroom. It was times like these I wish I kept my charm bracelet. I needed something to play with while I think. I started to rub my stomach to see if I could feel any difference. God I am so scared. I don't know what to do. Should I tell Dannie and Tre? It would probably be the best thing to do. But sometimes the best thing to do isn't always the smartest.
I left the bathroom and went into my room. My body kind of felt sore so I laid on the bed. I went in my pocket and found my cell phone. If I were to tell either Dannie or Tre...I'd tell Tre.
"Hello?" I heard Tre say.
"Hey Tre," I said hesitantly.
"Hey Kira. Sorry about earlier. I didn't mean to scare you like that."
"Don't worry about Tre. It was nothing."
"Kira...is everything okay? You sound like something's wrong."
"Tre, I just need to talk to you."
"Okay. What's wrong Kira?"
"I can't tell you over the phone. Are you in Darby?"
"Yeah I'm here. I got here an hour ago."
"What hotel are you in?"
"The Hilton."
"I'll be there in a few minutes."
"Umm...okay. I'll see you when you get here."
"Bye Tre."
I hung up the phone, found my jacket and ran down the stairs.
"BeBe can I borrow your car?"
"Sure Kira what's wrong?"
"Nothing I need to get something for my stomach. I'll be back in a minute."
"Oh ok," BeBe threw me her car keys, and I left the house.
I drove as fast as I could all the way to Philly to get to the hotel. I ran up to the front desk and asked them what room Tre was in. Though they gave me a little hassle I got them to let me go. I ran up to Tre's room as fast as I could and started banging on the door.
"Tre!" I yelled. "Tre open the door please!"
"Hold on Kira I'm coming," I heard Tre yell. Finally he came and opened the door.
"Kira what the hell is going on?" Tre said.
"I really need to talk to you."
"Ok...well come in."
I walked in the room and sat down on the couch. Tre came over and sat next to me.
"Are you okay Kira?"
"Yeah I'm fine. My body just feels really sore. Where's Ramona?" I asked.
"Down at the pool with Mike and Billie. They came with me.
"Oh," I said.
"So what's wrong?"
"Um...I don't know exactly how to say this," I said.
"Well just try."
"Okay. You remember that night after my brother's art exhibit...we went back to my hotel room..."
"Yeah I remember," Tre said looking down at his feet.
"Well...do you remember if we used protection?"
"What?" Tre said with a confused look on his face.
"A condom, Tre," I said. "Did you use a condom?"
"Well...I don't remember, but I remember using one later that night. But why does this matter...oh God..."
Tre's face went from confusion to shock in within 2 seconds.
"Kira...you're not. Are you?"
"Tre, I'm pregnant."
"Are you serious?"
"Yes I'm serious. Would I lie about something like this?"
"I know. I just don't know what to say. This has seriously caught me by surprise."
"How do you think it made me feel when I found out?" I said
"Does anyone else know?" Tre asked.
"Only BeBe."
"Dannie doesn't know?"
"Tre he doesn't even know that we slept together again."
"Are you gonna tell him?"
"Hell no Tre! You saw how he reacted when he found out I cheated. Think how he'll react if he found out I was pregnant."
"So what are we gonna do?" Tre asked.
"Tre...I can't have this baby."
"What do you mean, Kira?"
"I mean, I think I'm getting an abortion."
"What?!" Tre yelled. "Kira you can't do that!"
"Tre what do you want me to do?"
"I don't care what you do just...you can't kill this baby," he said.
"Tre, in nine months, I'm gonna be a mother. What if the baby ends up looking like you and not Dannie? What do I do then?"
"Kira, maybe this is a sign."
"A sign?" I said.
"Yes a sign. That maybe this wedding isn't the best idea. Maybe Dannie isn't the one for you."
"Tre, don't do that," I said. "Don't use my baby as an excuse for me to leave Dannie and be with you."
"Dammit Kira!" Tre yelled. "What the hell do you need to prove that marrying Dannie is a bad idea?"
"Dammit Tre! Why did you have to make this about you?" I yelled.
"What the hell Kira! What the hell is wrong with you? I'm not making this about me. It's not about me or you. It's about my baby, and I won't let you get rid of it like it's nothing."
"Last time I check the baby is inside me not you! This is my baby and my body and you can't stop me from doing what I want with it!"
"You can do whatever you want with your body. But you're not killing this baby."
"You can't stop me from doing what I want!"
"It's always about you Kira! Everything is about you!" Tre yelled. "It's not just about you this time Kira! What about me?"
"This isn't about you either Tre! Dammit, I knew it was a bad idea to tell you."
"Wait a minute. You weren't going to tell me? What, you were just going to get rid of our child without even letting me know you were pregnant in the first place?"
"YEAH I WAS!" I yelled. "But I changed my mind because I thought you should know! But now I fucking regret it. Hell, I regret ever sleeping with you in the first place!"
"Yeah well if I knew that you were going to get me into this shit I wouldn't have fucked you either!" Tre yelled.
"How could you be so careless in the first place?" I yelled. "You knew you should have worn a condom!"
"Well you know what I got an idea that could've resolved all of this. You shouldn't have fucked me!"
"Jesus Tre!" I yelled. "We're not making things any better by screaming at each other."
"Well I can't help it Kira! I don't understand how you can be so blind! How many times do I have to tell you how I care about you?"
"I knew you were going to make this about you," I said.
"Just shut up Kira! I've told so many times that I loved you. And for some strange reason I really thought that you loved me back. But I was wrong wasn't I?"
"Tre...I"
"I WAS WRONG WASN'T I?"
"No! Okay! I do love you! Are you happy now?"
"So why don't you want to be with me? Just answer that question for once in your life."
"I can't explain it."
"Just try. Stop ducking the question. Just answer it for once."
"I don't want to leave Dannie. We've been through so much together. I just can't imagine leaving him like that."
"What about all the shit we've been through Kira? Does any of that mean anything to you?"
"You know it does, but...dammit Tre I don't know how else to explain this."
"You don't need to explain yourself Kira. I see right through you. I know why you can't leave Dannie. It's because everyone in your family loves him. Everyone approves of your relationship and all you've ever cared about was their approval. You're even willing to give up your career if your precious family didn't support it. You're afraid that if you do one thing that they won't approve of they'll reject you. Well I've had it. If you don't want to be with me, fine. I am not going to keep bending over backwards for you. But I'm not going to let you get an abortion."
"If you don't want anything to do with me anymore, then why do you want this child?"
"Because my child deserves a life. And it shouldn't have to suffer just because you're too chicken shit to stand up to your family."
"Oh Tre please, would you just shut the hell up?!" I yelled.
"What the hell is with you?" Tre said.
"There's nothing wrong with me," I said.
"You're not Kira," he said.
"What?"
"You're not Kira. This isn't the Kira I know."
"Tre please."
"The Kira I know was easier to talk to. The Kira I know would never even think about doing something stupid like getting an abortion. She was serious but she still knew how to have a good time. She loved me. She loved me enough to almost kill someone for me. She wasted two years if her life, just because she didn't want to see anything happen to me."
"Tre stop it."
"I don't even see that girl in front of me anymore. You've changed. You're a different person and I hate it. This isn't the real you."
"Dammit Tre what do you want from me?"
"I want the old Kira back. I want the girl I loved. I want the girl who loved me. I want her back. I need her."
"Tre...I'm here," I said. "I'm still here. I know I've changed, but, I'm just scared."
"Don't be," Tre said." I'm not going to let you go through this alone. We're going to get through this together. I love you."
"I love you too Tre."
I could feel Tre's hand moving up towards my neck. He used his other hand to push the hair from in front of my face. I knew what he was gong to do next, and I was expecting it. Tre leaned forward and kissed me. The kiss got deeper and more passionate as Tre's hand was moving up my thigh. I put my arms around Tre's waist and pushed him further towards me. Tre put his arms around my waist and used his body to push my back onto the couch. Tre was now on top of me and I spread my legs apart so he could lie between them. Me and Tre were all over each other for a pretty long time until I came to reality. Having sex with Tre isn't going to make this problem disappear. It'll just make it worse.
"Tre get off me," I said and push Tre to the other side of the couch. "What are we doing?" I said.
"Do you really need me to answer that?" Tre said.
"Us having sex isn't going to make anything better. It's just going to confuse the both of us even more."
"I guess you're right this time," Tre said. "So what are we going to do?"
"I don't know Tre. What am I going to do if I do have this baby?" I said.
"Kira, if you want to tell Dannie, I'll be there with you," Tre said.
"I'm not telling Dannie, I'm not telling anyone else."
"Well what do you plan on doing?" Tre said in a very aggravated voice.
"Well I been thinking...the wedding is three weeks away. If I can keep thins a secret until the wedding, I can just say I got pregnant during the honeymoon. That could actually work."
"So basically, you're just going to lie to everyone, and expect me not to say anything," Tre said
"You're not going to tell anyone, right?"
"I don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know?"
"I mean I'm not sure I can keep this from everyone," Tre said.
"But you have to," I said.
"I just think it's better if Dannie knew."
"Tre NO!" I yelled. "He can't know."
"Kira, I can't do this," Tre said. "I can't keep doing this. Either you tell him or I will."
"Tre please don't do this. Please."
"Kira I can't keep doing this. I'm telling him," Tre said.
"No please!" I begged him.
Tre got up from the couch and went into his room.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm looking for my cell phone. I'm calling him."
"Tre No!" I screamed.
I jumped off the couch and ran into Tre's room.
"Dammit," he said. "I can't find it."
"Tre please don't call Dannie."
"Kira I'm sick of the lying," Tre said.
While Tre was looking over the room for his phone I went out of the room and sat back on the couch. That's when I realized where Tre's phone was. It was on the counter in the kitchen. I went over and put his phone in my bag.
"Shit I can't find it," Tre said coming out of his bedroom.
"Well...I should...get going," I said and eased my way to the door.
"Kira, give me my phone," Tre said.
"What are you talking about?" I said hesitantly.
"Don't think I didn't see you sneak something into your bag."
"Tre I don't know what you are talking about," I said.
"Kira just give me the phone."
"No Tre."
"Kira give me my phone."
"No."
"Kira this is childish."
"I'm not giving you the phone if you call Dannie."
"Just give me the phone and stop acting like a baby."
"You should talk. You're the biggest fucking baby I've ever met."
"Dammit Kira! Give me my phone!"
"NO!"
Tre ran up to me and started to try to grab my bag out of my hands.
"Tre let me go!" I yelled.
"Give me my phone!" Tre yelled.
"Tre don't do this!"
"I'm calling him whether you like it or not."
"TRE STOP!" I elbowed Tre in his stomach and rand for the door, but he grabbed me by the arm.
"Dammit Kira, stop it now!"
"I'm not going to let you do this!" I yelled.
"You're only making it harder on yourself."
Tre still had me by the arm trying to take my bag out of my hands.
"Okay fine," Tre said. "Keep my phone. I'll just use the one in the hotel phone."
"Tre no!" I ran after Tre who was headed for the bedroom. I pushed him as hard as I could and he hit his head on the wall.
"OH!" he yelled. "Kira why the fuck did you do that for?" Tre yelled.
"Shit Tre," I said. "I'm sorry. I just can't let you call him. Why are you doing this Tre? Why do you wan to ruin my fucking life?"
"Ruin your life? How the hell am I ruining your life. I'm just doing something you're too chicken shit to do."
"Dammit Tre!" I yelled and lunged at him again.
"Kira get off of me!" Tre yelled.
"Say you won't call him!"
"Kira GET OFF!" Tre pushed me off of him and I hit my side on the table and fell to the floor.
"Fuck...Kira..." Tre said.
"Daddy!" I heard a little voice yell. It was Ramona. She was standing next to Mike and holding Billie's hand.
"Daddy...what did you do to Kira?"
"Ramona...I didn't mean to. It was an accident," Tre said. You could tell how upset Tre was that Ramona walked in on us fighting. She ran over to me and sat next to me on the floor.
"Kira are you okay?" Ramona asked.
"I'm fine Ramona," I said.
"Um...I guess we should get out of here and let you guys talk," Billie said.
"No it's okay I'm going to go," Kira said.
I got off the floor and left Tre's hotel room.
[Back in the hotel room]
"Daddy how could you do that to Kira?!" Ramona yelled. "I thought you said you loved her."
"Ramona I do love her, but I..."
"You don't hurt the people you love dad. You of all people should know that!"
Ramona ran into her room and slammed the door. Tre slowly walked over to the couch and sat down.
"Looks like you need some ice for that head of yours," Mike said. Mike went into the kitchen and wrapped some ice into a towel and gave it to Tre.
"So you know you're going to tell us what happened," Billie said.
"Damn Billie, you always want to know everything. You're worst than Adie," Tre said.
"Damn you sound pissed." Mike said. "You two must have really gone at it."
"We did," Tre said.
"Now I really want to know what happened," Billie said.
"Well if you want to know so bad...Kira's pregnant."
"What!" Mike and Billie both yelled.
"Wow," Mike said. "That's crazy."
"Yeah, but what does that have to do with you?" Billie asked.
"Put the pieces together Billie," Tre said.
"what are you talking about?" Billie asked.
"It's yours isn't it?" Mike asked.
"Yeah," Tre said.
"That night in New York?" Mike asked.
"Yup."
"What night in New York? What the hell guys!" Billie yelled.
"Shit Billie you're annoying me!" Tre said. "I fucked Kira in New York and now she pregnant with my baby."
"How come you didn't tell me about that time in New York?" Billie asked.
"Because you can't keep anything from Adie. And you know Adie and Monty have become close friends. And Monty can't keep her mouth shut. Next thing you know everyone would've known about it."
"So what are you going to do?" Mike asked.
"She wants to have an abortion."
"She can't have an abortion," Billie said.
"It's her body she can do whatever she wants with it."
'But it's your baby," Mike said.
"Try telling her that."
"So what do you want to do?" Billie asked. "You want an abortion too?"
"I want this baby. I want Kira. I love her to fucking death."
[Back at Kira's House]
When I got back home, I didn't say anything to anyone. I was just so fucking confused about everything. I just went upstairs to my room.
I walked into my room and turned on the lights and there was Brian sitting on my bed.
"Shit Brian!" I yelled. "Why are you sitting here in the dark?"
"I was up waiting for you," Brian said.
"Where is everyone else?"
"They all went out. It's only me Dylan and Kayla here."
"Oh," I said hesitantly. "How long have they been gone?"
"Just left a few minutes ago. They all took a trip to your grandma's house. She never got to meet Dannie."
"Oh ok. I guess that's nice."
"So...how far along are you?" he asked me.
"What?"
"Dylan told me. He can never keep a secret from me. So how far along are you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about Brian."
Brian got up from the bed and walked towards me.
"You couldn't be any more than at least three weeks," he said while walking around me touching my stomach. "You're not even showing."
"Don't touch me Brian," I said.
"I know for sure it's not Dannie's. I bet its Tre's isn't it? You've probably been fucking him again behind Dannie's back."
"Brian, leave me alone. I'm not 17 anymore. You can't do whatever you want to me."
"Who said I was going to do anything to you? So have you told your family? I think they deserve that their precious Kira got knocked up by another man," Brian said.
"Please don't tell them. Please."
"Well...I don't know. What are you willing to do to keep my mouth shut?"
"What do you mean?"
"I think you get my idea."
Brian walked over to the door and locked it...
"Kira," I heard BeBe say. "Can I come in?"
"Yeah," I said through tears.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
"No."
BeBe sat down on the floor next to me. "Kira there's nothing to cry about. You and Dannie are going to be parents! You should be happy."
"Well I'm not," I said.
"Why not? You're going to be a mom! I'm just trying to figure out how you got Dannie to break his celibacy."
"Dannie didn't...he's still a virgin," I said hesitantly.
"What do you mean he's...oh my God," BeBe said. "It's not...Dannie's not...oh my God Kira."
"Yeah. Dannie's not the father," I said.
"Who's the father?" she asked.
I couldn't even look BeBe in the eyes. I felt so ashamed. I didn't want to tell her who the father was, but she was going to keep bringing it up until I told her.
"Kira. Please tell me. Please? Who's the father?"
"It's Tre."
"What!" BeBe yelled.
"Shocking isn't it," I said.
"Yeah it is I guess. What happened? I mean how did it happen?"
"It just happened. Tre got drunk one night and I let him stay with me. Then he like completely confessed his love to me, and he started coming on to me really hard. And it just happened. I can't blame it all on him. It was as much as my fault as it was his. I could have kept fighting him off. But I gave in."
"So I'm guessing he didn't use a condom."
"I don't remember."
"So what are you going to do?"
"I guess there's really only one thing I can do. I can't have this baby."
"Kira you are not getting an abortion," BeBe said.
"I can't have this baby BeBe. I just can't."
"But there has to be something else we can do," BeBe said.
"No there isn't. I CANNOT HAVE THIS BABY!"
"Shut up Kira! You want everyone downstairs to hear you?"
"I'm sorry BeBe. I'm just so scared."
"I know Kira. I know this is hard for you. But people make mistakes. People fuck up sometimes, but you just got to learn from them. That's all we can do."
"I guess you're right. Thank you BeBe."
"I'm your big sister. Helping you is my job. I'm going to get off this floor, and you should too it's making your dress dirty. Are you going to be okay?"
"I'll be fine. I just need to be alone."
"Okay Kira. I'll just tell everyone you aren't feeling good."
BeBe got up from the floor and left the bathroom. It was times like these I wish I kept my charm bracelet. I needed something to play with while I think. I started to rub my stomach to see if I could feel any difference. God I am so scared. I don't know what to do. Should I tell Dannie and Tre? It would probably be the best thing to do. But sometimes the best thing to do isn't always the smartest.
I left the bathroom and went into my room. My body kind of felt sore so I laid on the bed. I went in my pocket and found my cell phone. If I were to tell either Dannie or Tre...I'd tell Tre.
"Hello?" I heard Tre say.
"Hey Tre," I said hesitantly.
"Hey Kira. Sorry about earlier. I didn't mean to scare you like that."
"Don't worry about Tre. It was nothing."
"Kira...is everything okay? You sound like something's wrong."
"Tre, I just need to talk to you."
"Okay. What's wrong Kira?"
"I can't tell you over the phone. Are you in Darby?"
"Yeah I'm here. I got here an hour ago."
"What hotel are you in?"
"The Hilton."
"I'll be there in a few minutes."
"Umm...okay. I'll see you when you get here."
"Bye Tre."
I hung up the phone, found my jacket and ran down the stairs.
"BeBe can I borrow your car?"
"Sure Kira what's wrong?"
"Nothing I need to get something for my stomach. I'll be back in a minute."
"Oh ok," BeBe threw me her car keys, and I left the house.
I drove as fast as I could all the way to Philly to get to the hotel. I ran up to the front desk and asked them what room Tre was in. Though they gave me a little hassle I got them to let me go. I ran up to Tre's room as fast as I could and started banging on the door.
"Tre!" I yelled. "Tre open the door please!"
"Hold on Kira I'm coming," I heard Tre yell. Finally he came and opened the door.
"Kira what the hell is going on?" Tre said.
"I really need to talk to you."
"Ok...well come in."
I walked in the room and sat down on the couch. Tre came over and sat next to me.
"Are you okay Kira?"
"Yeah I'm fine. My body just feels really sore. Where's Ramona?" I asked.
"Down at the pool with Mike and Billie. They came with me.
"Oh," I said.
"So what's wrong?"
"Um...I don't know exactly how to say this," I said.
"Well just try."
"Okay. You remember that night after my brother's art exhibit...we went back to my hotel room..."
"Yeah I remember," Tre said looking down at his feet.
"Well...do you remember if we used protection?"
"What?" Tre said with a confused look on his face.
"A condom, Tre," I said. "Did you use a condom?"
"Well...I don't remember, but I remember using one later that night. But why does this matter...oh God..."
Tre's face went from confusion to shock in within 2 seconds.
"Kira...you're not. Are you?"
"Tre, I'm pregnant."
"Are you serious?"
"Yes I'm serious. Would I lie about something like this?"
"I know. I just don't know what to say. This has seriously caught me by surprise."
"How do you think it made me feel when I found out?" I said
"Does anyone else know?" Tre asked.
"Only BeBe."
"Dannie doesn't know?"
"Tre he doesn't even know that we slept together again."
"Are you gonna tell him?"
"Hell no Tre! You saw how he reacted when he found out I cheated. Think how he'll react if he found out I was pregnant."
"So what are we gonna do?" Tre asked.
"Tre...I can't have this baby."
"What do you mean, Kira?"
"I mean, I think I'm getting an abortion."
"What?!" Tre yelled. "Kira you can't do that!"
"Tre what do you want me to do?"
"I don't care what you do just...you can't kill this baby," he said.
"Tre, in nine months, I'm gonna be a mother. What if the baby ends up looking like you and not Dannie? What do I do then?"
"Kira, maybe this is a sign."
"A sign?" I said.
"Yes a sign. That maybe this wedding isn't the best idea. Maybe Dannie isn't the one for you."
"Tre, don't do that," I said. "Don't use my baby as an excuse for me to leave Dannie and be with you."
"Dammit Kira!" Tre yelled. "What the hell do you need to prove that marrying Dannie is a bad idea?"
"Dammit Tre! Why did you have to make this about you?" I yelled.
"What the hell Kira! What the hell is wrong with you? I'm not making this about me. It's not about me or you. It's about my baby, and I won't let you get rid of it like it's nothing."
"Last time I check the baby is inside me not you! This is my baby and my body and you can't stop me from doing what I want with it!"
"You can do whatever you want with your body. But you're not killing this baby."
"You can't stop me from doing what I want!"
"It's always about you Kira! Everything is about you!" Tre yelled. "It's not just about you this time Kira! What about me?"
"This isn't about you either Tre! Dammit, I knew it was a bad idea to tell you."
"Wait a minute. You weren't going to tell me? What, you were just going to get rid of our child without even letting me know you were pregnant in the first place?"
"YEAH I WAS!" I yelled. "But I changed my mind because I thought you should know! But now I fucking regret it. Hell, I regret ever sleeping with you in the first place!"
"Yeah well if I knew that you were going to get me into this shit I wouldn't have fucked you either!" Tre yelled.
"How could you be so careless in the first place?" I yelled. "You knew you should have worn a condom!"
"Well you know what I got an idea that could've resolved all of this. You shouldn't have fucked me!"
"Jesus Tre!" I yelled. "We're not making things any better by screaming at each other."
"Well I can't help it Kira! I don't understand how you can be so blind! How many times do I have to tell you how I care about you?"
"I knew you were going to make this about you," I said.
"Just shut up Kira! I've told so many times that I loved you. And for some strange reason I really thought that you loved me back. But I was wrong wasn't I?"
"Tre...I"
"I WAS WRONG WASN'T I?"
"No! Okay! I do love you! Are you happy now?"
"So why don't you want to be with me? Just answer that question for once in your life."
"I can't explain it."
"Just try. Stop ducking the question. Just answer it for once."
"I don't want to leave Dannie. We've been through so much together. I just can't imagine leaving him like that."
"What about all the shit we've been through Kira? Does any of that mean anything to you?"
"You know it does, but...dammit Tre I don't know how else to explain this."
"You don't need to explain yourself Kira. I see right through you. I know why you can't leave Dannie. It's because everyone in your family loves him. Everyone approves of your relationship and all you've ever cared about was their approval. You're even willing to give up your career if your precious family didn't support it. You're afraid that if you do one thing that they won't approve of they'll reject you. Well I've had it. If you don't want to be with me, fine. I am not going to keep bending over backwards for you. But I'm not going to let you get an abortion."
"If you don't want anything to do with me anymore, then why do you want this child?"
"Because my child deserves a life. And it shouldn't have to suffer just because you're too chicken shit to stand up to your family."
"Oh Tre please, would you just shut the hell up?!" I yelled.
"What the hell is with you?" Tre said.
"There's nothing wrong with me," I said.
"You're not Kira," he said.
"What?"
"You're not Kira. This isn't the Kira I know."
"Tre please."
"The Kira I know was easier to talk to. The Kira I know would never even think about doing something stupid like getting an abortion. She was serious but she still knew how to have a good time. She loved me. She loved me enough to almost kill someone for me. She wasted two years if her life, just because she didn't want to see anything happen to me."
"Tre stop it."
"I don't even see that girl in front of me anymore. You've changed. You're a different person and I hate it. This isn't the real you."
"Dammit Tre what do you want from me?"
"I want the old Kira back. I want the girl I loved. I want the girl who loved me. I want her back. I need her."
"Tre...I'm here," I said. "I'm still here. I know I've changed, but, I'm just scared."
"Don't be," Tre said." I'm not going to let you go through this alone. We're going to get through this together. I love you."
"I love you too Tre."
I could feel Tre's hand moving up towards my neck. He used his other hand to push the hair from in front of my face. I knew what he was gong to do next, and I was expecting it. Tre leaned forward and kissed me. The kiss got deeper and more passionate as Tre's hand was moving up my thigh. I put my arms around Tre's waist and pushed him further towards me. Tre put his arms around my waist and used his body to push my back onto the couch. Tre was now on top of me and I spread my legs apart so he could lie between them. Me and Tre were all over each other for a pretty long time until I came to reality. Having sex with Tre isn't going to make this problem disappear. It'll just make it worse.
"Tre get off me," I said and push Tre to the other side of the couch. "What are we doing?" I said.
"Do you really need me to answer that?" Tre said.
"Us having sex isn't going to make anything better. It's just going to confuse the both of us even more."
"I guess you're right this time," Tre said. "So what are we going to do?"
"I don't know Tre. What am I going to do if I do have this baby?" I said.
"Kira, if you want to tell Dannie, I'll be there with you," Tre said.
"I'm not telling Dannie, I'm not telling anyone else."
"Well what do you plan on doing?" Tre said in a very aggravated voice.
"Well I been thinking...the wedding is three weeks away. If I can keep thins a secret until the wedding, I can just say I got pregnant during the honeymoon. That could actually work."
"So basically, you're just going to lie to everyone, and expect me not to say anything," Tre said
"You're not going to tell anyone, right?"
"I don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know?"
"I mean I'm not sure I can keep this from everyone," Tre said.
"But you have to," I said.
"I just think it's better if Dannie knew."
"Tre NO!" I yelled. "He can't know."
"Kira, I can't do this," Tre said. "I can't keep doing this. Either you tell him or I will."
"Tre please don't do this. Please."
"Kira I can't keep doing this. I'm telling him," Tre said.
"No please!" I begged him.
Tre got up from the couch and went into his room.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm looking for my cell phone. I'm calling him."
"Tre No!" I screamed.
I jumped off the couch and ran into Tre's room.
"Dammit," he said. "I can't find it."
"Tre please don't call Dannie."
"Kira I'm sick of the lying," Tre said.
While Tre was looking over the room for his phone I went out of the room and sat back on the couch. That's when I realized where Tre's phone was. It was on the counter in the kitchen. I went over and put his phone in my bag.
"Shit I can't find it," Tre said coming out of his bedroom.
"Well...I should...get going," I said and eased my way to the door.
"Kira, give me my phone," Tre said.
"What are you talking about?" I said hesitantly.
"Don't think I didn't see you sneak something into your bag."
"Tre I don't know what you are talking about," I said.
"Kira just give me the phone."
"No Tre."
"Kira give me my phone."
"No."
"Kira this is childish."
"I'm not giving you the phone if you call Dannie."
"Just give me the phone and stop acting like a baby."
"You should talk. You're the biggest fucking baby I've ever met."
"Dammit Kira! Give me my phone!"
"NO!"
Tre ran up to me and started to try to grab my bag out of my hands.
"Tre let me go!" I yelled.
"Give me my phone!" Tre yelled.
"Tre don't do this!"
"I'm calling him whether you like it or not."
"TRE STOP!" I elbowed Tre in his stomach and rand for the door, but he grabbed me by the arm.
"Dammit Kira, stop it now!"
"I'm not going to let you do this!" I yelled.
"You're only making it harder on yourself."
Tre still had me by the arm trying to take my bag out of my hands.
"Okay fine," Tre said. "Keep my phone. I'll just use the one in the hotel phone."
"Tre no!" I ran after Tre who was headed for the bedroom. I pushed him as hard as I could and he hit his head on the wall.
"OH!" he yelled. "Kira why the fuck did you do that for?" Tre yelled.
"Shit Tre," I said. "I'm sorry. I just can't let you call him. Why are you doing this Tre? Why do you wan to ruin my fucking life?"
"Ruin your life? How the hell am I ruining your life. I'm just doing something you're too chicken shit to do."
"Dammit Tre!" I yelled and lunged at him again.
"Kira get off of me!" Tre yelled.
"Say you won't call him!"
"Kira GET OFF!" Tre pushed me off of him and I hit my side on the table and fell to the floor.
"Fuck...Kira..." Tre said.
"Daddy!" I heard a little voice yell. It was Ramona. She was standing next to Mike and holding Billie's hand.
"Daddy...what did you do to Kira?"
"Ramona...I didn't mean to. It was an accident," Tre said. You could tell how upset Tre was that Ramona walked in on us fighting. She ran over to me and sat next to me on the floor.
"Kira are you okay?" Ramona asked.
"I'm fine Ramona," I said.
"Um...I guess we should get out of here and let you guys talk," Billie said.
"No it's okay I'm going to go," Kira said.
I got off the floor and left Tre's hotel room.
[Back in the hotel room]
"Daddy how could you do that to Kira?!" Ramona yelled. "I thought you said you loved her."
"Ramona I do love her, but I..."
"You don't hurt the people you love dad. You of all people should know that!"
Ramona ran into her room and slammed the door. Tre slowly walked over to the couch and sat down.
"Looks like you need some ice for that head of yours," Mike said. Mike went into the kitchen and wrapped some ice into a towel and gave it to Tre.
"So you know you're going to tell us what happened," Billie said.
"Damn Billie, you always want to know everything. You're worst than Adie," Tre said.
"Damn you sound pissed." Mike said. "You two must have really gone at it."
"We did," Tre said.
"Now I really want to know what happened," Billie said.
"Well if you want to know so bad...Kira's pregnant."
"What!" Mike and Billie both yelled.
"Wow," Mike said. "That's crazy."
"Yeah, but what does that have to do with you?" Billie asked.
"Put the pieces together Billie," Tre said.
"what are you talking about?" Billie asked.
"It's yours isn't it?" Mike asked.
"Yeah," Tre said.
"That night in New York?" Mike asked.
"Yup."
"What night in New York? What the hell guys!" Billie yelled.
"Shit Billie you're annoying me!" Tre said. "I fucked Kira in New York and now she pregnant with my baby."
"How come you didn't tell me about that time in New York?" Billie asked.
"Because you can't keep anything from Adie. And you know Adie and Monty have become close friends. And Monty can't keep her mouth shut. Next thing you know everyone would've known about it."
"So what are you going to do?" Mike asked.
"She wants to have an abortion."
"She can't have an abortion," Billie said.
"It's her body she can do whatever she wants with it."
'But it's your baby," Mike said.
"Try telling her that."
"So what do you want to do?" Billie asked. "You want an abortion too?"
"I want this baby. I want Kira. I love her to fucking death."
[Back at Kira's House]
When I got back home, I didn't say anything to anyone. I was just so fucking confused about everything. I just went upstairs to my room.
I walked into my room and turned on the lights and there was Brian sitting on my bed.
"Shit Brian!" I yelled. "Why are you sitting here in the dark?"
"I was up waiting for you," Brian said.
"Where is everyone else?"
"They all went out. It's only me Dylan and Kayla here."
"Oh," I said hesitantly. "How long have they been gone?"
"Just left a few minutes ago. They all took a trip to your grandma's house. She never got to meet Dannie."
"Oh ok. I guess that's nice."
"So...how far along are you?" he asked me.
"What?"
"Dylan told me. He can never keep a secret from me. So how far along are you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about Brian."
Brian got up from the bed and walked towards me.
"You couldn't be any more than at least three weeks," he said while walking around me touching my stomach. "You're not even showing."
"Don't touch me Brian," I said.
"I know for sure it's not Dannie's. I bet its Tre's isn't it? You've probably been fucking him again behind Dannie's back."
"Brian, leave me alone. I'm not 17 anymore. You can't do whatever you want to me."
"Who said I was going to do anything to you? So have you told your family? I think they deserve that their precious Kira got knocked up by another man," Brian said.
"Please don't tell them. Please."
"Well...I don't know. What are you willing to do to keep my mouth shut?"
"What do you mean?"
"I think you get my idea."
Brian walked over to the door and locked it...
