What's With This Girl?, chapter 20
I went to sleep around 3 in the morning. I'm surprised I got any sleep at all. Well, first of all I was high, second of all I just couldn't stop thinking about Kira. That girl stays on my mind every fucking day of my life. Kira's like Herpes. You think you got over them, and then all of a sudden they show up back into your life. Jesus, I just compared the woman I love to a STD. Anyway, that's not the point. The point is that no matter what, Kira is always going to be a part of me, no mater how badly she doesn't want to.
It was about 11 when I woke up. I was awake, but I just didn't feel like getting up. Another 15 minutes passed, still couldn't get up. It was about 11:30 and I finally got up when I smelled smoke. I jumped up out of bed and ran out of my room. I run into the kitchen and I see three little kids running around with pots and pans in their hand.
"Umm.... Kayla burnt the eggs!" Ramona said.
"We were going to make breakfast for you as a thank you, and Kayla kind of set the eggs on fire. It was an accident." Dylan said.
"I'm sorry Mr. Ramona's dad." Kayla said with tears running down her eyes and a pan of burnt eggs in her hand.
"Aww... Kayla sweetie it's okay. You guys get dressed and we'll grab something to eat on our way to see Kira."
Kayla gave the pan to her brother and walked over to me.
"You're not mad at me, are you?" she asked me.
"Of course not. I know you were just trying to help."
Kayla wiped her eyes and just smiled at me. All of a sudden Mike and Billie burst through the door with fire extinguishers and starts spraying me with them.
"Mike, Billie, what the hell man!" I yelled. "What are you doing?"
"We smelled something burning." Billie said.
"That doesn't mean you have to go all Fire Marshall Bill on me!"
"Sorry man." Mike said.
"Oh my God! Is everything okay!" Adie yelled running in. "Is anyone hurt?"
"Nobody's hurt Adie, everything's fine. The kids just wanted to make breakfast for me."
"You made Ramona make breakfast for you." Adie said.
"No!" I yelled.
"We wanted to do something nice for Tre to thank him for letting us stay here." Dylan said, trying to put his shirt on over his head.
"Hey whose kid is that?" Billie asked.
"It's Kira's step brother. I'm watching him and his sister until Kira's out of the hospital."
"Kira's in the hospital!" Billie, Mike, and Tre said in unison.
"Yes, Kira's in the hospital. She was stabbed yesterday."
"Oh Jesus. Is she okay?" Mike asked.
"She's okay. They were just minor wounds." Dylan said.
"Well what about the baby?" Billie asked.
"What baby?" Adie asked.
"Dammit Billie!" I yelled.
"What the hell are you guys talking about?" Adie asked.
Shit! Billie and his big damn mouth. Ugh.... Now I have to explain this to Adie.
"Well... Umm... Kira's pregnant." I said.
"Holy Shit!" Adie said. "Dude, how did she get Dannie to break his celibacy?"
"She didn't." I said.
"What? I don't understand... Oh damn. You're the father, aren't you?"
"Yeah." I said.
"I'm actually not surprised. I knew something weird was going on with her. I knew something was bothering her, I thought it was just wedding anxiety. I didn't know it was a guilt trip."
"What do you mean?" Tre said.
"Lately she's been a little antsy every time I mentioned the wedding to her. She kept asking me questions, like how did I know Billie was the right one, or what if she was making a big mistake. It was kind of like she was trying to find a good excuse for not marrying Dannie."
"Well she doesn't want to marry him. She wants to be with her Tre." Mike said.
"Shut up Mike." Billie said laughing.
"Come on guys, this isn't funny. This is serious." I said. "Adie you can't tell anyone, please."
"I promise I won't say anything." Adie said.
"Okay. I got to go get my keys, and the kids. Then I'll take you guys to see Kira." I said.
[Back to Kira's POV]
Yesterday was officially the craziest day of my life. So many things happened that I think I could've stopped. I'm not saying I blame myself for Brian's mistakes, I blame myself for not trying to help Dylan and Kayla. I wish I could go back. There are just so many things I would've done over. It was about 10 o'clock in the morning. I was just lying in this hospital bed, replaying yesterday in my head, when I heard a knock on the door.
"Ms. Belle." The nurse said. "Some people are here to see you."
"Let them in please." I said.
Mike, Billie and Adie came running into the room.
"Kira are you okay?" Adie said.
"Yeah I'm fine. I should be out of here soon, I don't know exactly when though." I said.
"Well, all that matters is that you're okay." Mike said.
"Where's Tre?" I asked.
"I think he took Dylan to see Brian." Billie said.
"Hey guys, do you mind if I talk to Kira in private?" Adie said.
"Okay fine." Mike said. "We'll be down the hall."
Billie and Mike left to go down the hall where Tre was. Adie followed them to the door to make sure they were gone. Then she walked back over to the bed and sat down.
"So, now I know why you were so antsy about the wedding." She said.
"What do you mean?" I said.
"You don't want to get married because you feel too guilty for sleeping with Tre." Adie said.
"How did you know?"
"You know who told me." Adie said laughing.
"Billie." We both said in unison.
"He can't keep anything from me." She said. "And you know who told him."
"Tre." We said together.
"They can't keep anything from each other." I said. "So I'm guessing you know about the... "
"The baby? Yeah, I know about that too. So what are you going to do?"
"Right now I really don't know. I don't know if I can go through with the wedding."
"No one's asking you to make a decision right now. But you know you can't avoid it for very long." She said.
"I know Adie." I said.
Then I saw everyone come back into the room, along with a doctor. I could tell by the looks on their faces, something was wrong.
"Ms. Belle." The doctor said. "We need to talk about something very important."
"Um... Okay." I said in a very nervous voice.
"It's about Mr. Hewitt."
"What's wrong with Brian?" I asked.
"The damage done to Brian's head was more serious than I first thought. The bleeding was just.... Terrible. He lost a lot of blood, and we did all we could to stop it."
"Are you saying that if someone doesn't give blood, he'll die?"
"No. Not really."
"Then what are you saying?"
"We did all we could, but it wasn't enough. Brian died this morning."
"Oh my God. You can't be serious." I said.
"He's dead Kira." Dylan said.
"I can't believe this. What am I going to tell my mom? She didn't even know he was in the hospital."
"Well we're releasing you from the hospital today, so you can be with you're family." The doctor said.
I couldn't believe this. As much as I hated Brian, I didn't want him dead. I don't know how I will explain this to my mom. What do I say? Jesus, she's going to hate me for the rest of my life.
Tre pulled up at the house. I was terrified of what was going to happen. How was my mother going to react?
"Kira." Tre said to me. "I just want you to know that whatever happens, I'll be right behind you okay?"
"Okay. I just want to get this over with." I said.
I got out of the car and walked up to the door. Before I could even open it, BeBe comes to the door and pulls us in.
"Jesus, Kira where were you." She said. "I go into your room and the wall and you bed is covered in blood. I was terrified. Where Dylan and Kayla?"
"They're right here." Tre said, holding Kayla's hand, who was holding Dylan's hand.
"Dylan what happened to your face?" Drexel asked.
"Um... My dad did it." Dylan said.
"Oh no. Dylan you're okay right?"
"Yeah I'm fine." He said.
"Tre what are you doing here?" BeBe said.
"It's a long story." He said.
"Well you got to get out of here; if mom sees you here she'll flip." Drexel said.
"Where's Dannie?" I asked.
"He's upstairs in your room." Drexel said.
"Kira!" I heard Dannie yell.
"I'm down here Dannie." I said.
Dannie ran down the stairs as fast as he could and gave me a huge hug.
"Kira I thought something terrible happened to you baby!" he said.
"Dannie I'm fine. I'm sorry to leave you worried like that. But we've been at the hospital all night."
"The hospital? Why?" Dannie asked.
"Something really bad happened." I said.
"Brian tried to hurt you again didn't he?" Drexel said. "Where is he? I swear to God I'll kill him!"
That's when Kayla started crying.
"Kayla honey, why are you crying?" BeBe said.
"Something bad happened to daddy!" Kayla said crying.
"What happened to Brian!" I heard my mom yell. "Kira what happened to my husband."
"Mom I think you need to sit down." I said.
"Don't tell me what to do Kira, just tell me where my husband is!"
"Mom I can't do this with you upset like that so just please calm down!"
"Just tell me Kira!"
"I can't Mom! Just stop yelling at me!"
"What did you do to him!"
"What did I do to him? More like what did he do to me and his own damn kids!"
"Dammit Kira, don't start this bullshit again. Don't you tell me you put my damn husband in jail!"
"No mom would you just let me explain!"
"Where the hell is he!"
"He's DEAD!" I yelled.
Everyone's face went completely blank.
"He's dead mom. He died this morning in the hospital."
"You fucking liar!" My mom yelled.
"Mom, why would I lie about something like this?" I said. "He really is dead."
"Dammit Kira! Why are you like this? Why do you hate him so fucking much!"
"She's telling the truth!" Dylan yelled. "My dad's dead.... And I killed him. I didn't mean to, it just happened."
"Dylan what happened? I mean.... What did you do?" Drexel said.
"I hit him in the head with a baseball bat. I didn't mean to do it, he stabbed Kira, and he was hurting my sister I couldn't just stand there and do nothing."
"How could you've done such a thing? That was my husband! That was your father! You should be ashamed of yourself! I told your father he should've put you up for adoption! I knew it was a bad idea to even let you in this house. You fucking stupid idiot!"
"Mom, how can you say such a thing? This kid's only 10 years old, do you think he asked for this? I just can't believe the words that are coming out of your mouth!"
"You just shut up Kira! Since when did you give a damn about this family? All you care about is yourself!"
"I only care about myself. You should be the last person to ever say that to me. Don't you EVER say that to me again! I don't know what the hell happened to you mom. How could you put a man before your family! I've had it with you! You mean nothing to me now! I can't even look you in the eyes because I HATE the person staring back at me!"
I ran up to my room, got my bags and came back downstairs. Dylan and Kayla followed me. They packed as much stuff as they could into their bags.
"That's right. Leave. I don't ever want you in my house again!"
"Oh I'll promise you, you'll never see this face again! And don't you dare think you're going to take your anger out on these kids, because I'm taking them with me. I'm taking custody and you'll never see them again!"
Tre took the bags out of Kayla's hand and Dannie took the bags out of Dylan's hand.
"I just hope your last days with Brian were happy ones. And I wish it was all worth. Because that man is the reason you family has torn apart."
That was the last thing I ever said to my mother. Me, Tre, Dannie, Dylan, and Kayla left that house with the same promise I made two years ago, that I would never come back to this place.
Later that night, me, Dannie and the kids got a room in the hotel Tre was staying at. After I put Dylan and Kayla to sleep, I walked down the hall to the elevators and went up one floor to see Tre. I knocked on the door but he didn't answer, so he must've been sleep. So I went back down to my room. I got into bed next to Dannie and wrapped my arms around him.
"Dannie." I said. "Are you awake?"
"Yeah baby, what's wrong?"
"You love me right?"
"Of course I do."
"And you still want to marry me?"
"You know I do."
"But would you still want to marry me if you knew about something I did that was a really terrible thing to do?"
"Kira, I don't care about anything that happened last night okay? Brian was a jerk, and whatever you did, I would've done the same thing."
"Dannie that's not what I mean."
"Then what do you mean?"
"What would you do if.... You had a friend, who got pregnant by another guy, and she didn't know if she should tell her husband or not?"
"Kira... Don't tell me Adie had an affair!"
I couldn't help but laugh. The one thing I loved about Dannie was that he was so naïve.
"Never mind Dannie, it's not anything important. Nothing important at all."
"It's okay honey, just get some sleep, God knows you need it."
I went to sleep that night with a full mind. I couldn't stop thinking about what might happen to Dylan and Kayla. What happens if I don't win custody? I didn't want to think about it anymore so I focus my mind on something else, my baby. How was I going to get away with this? So far it's been working, Dannie doesn't know, and that's good. I just don't know how long I can go on with this lie. Any other lie is fine, but this one, and what Tre said to me that day I told him I was pregnant. This is just one lie that will haunt me until I confess. No matter how much I don't want to. It refuses to go away.
God... It never gets easier for me does it?
It was about 11 when I woke up. I was awake, but I just didn't feel like getting up. Another 15 minutes passed, still couldn't get up. It was about 11:30 and I finally got up when I smelled smoke. I jumped up out of bed and ran out of my room. I run into the kitchen and I see three little kids running around with pots and pans in their hand.
"Umm.... Kayla burnt the eggs!" Ramona said.
"We were going to make breakfast for you as a thank you, and Kayla kind of set the eggs on fire. It was an accident." Dylan said.
"I'm sorry Mr. Ramona's dad." Kayla said with tears running down her eyes and a pan of burnt eggs in her hand.
"Aww... Kayla sweetie it's okay. You guys get dressed and we'll grab something to eat on our way to see Kira."
Kayla gave the pan to her brother and walked over to me.
"You're not mad at me, are you?" she asked me.
"Of course not. I know you were just trying to help."
Kayla wiped her eyes and just smiled at me. All of a sudden Mike and Billie burst through the door with fire extinguishers and starts spraying me with them.
"Mike, Billie, what the hell man!" I yelled. "What are you doing?"
"We smelled something burning." Billie said.
"That doesn't mean you have to go all Fire Marshall Bill on me!"
"Sorry man." Mike said.
"Oh my God! Is everything okay!" Adie yelled running in. "Is anyone hurt?"
"Nobody's hurt Adie, everything's fine. The kids just wanted to make breakfast for me."
"You made Ramona make breakfast for you." Adie said.
"No!" I yelled.
"We wanted to do something nice for Tre to thank him for letting us stay here." Dylan said, trying to put his shirt on over his head.
"Hey whose kid is that?" Billie asked.
"It's Kira's step brother. I'm watching him and his sister until Kira's out of the hospital."
"Kira's in the hospital!" Billie, Mike, and Tre said in unison.
"Yes, Kira's in the hospital. She was stabbed yesterday."
"Oh Jesus. Is she okay?" Mike asked.
"She's okay. They were just minor wounds." Dylan said.
"Well what about the baby?" Billie asked.
"What baby?" Adie asked.
"Dammit Billie!" I yelled.
"What the hell are you guys talking about?" Adie asked.
Shit! Billie and his big damn mouth. Ugh.... Now I have to explain this to Adie.
"Well... Umm... Kira's pregnant." I said.
"Holy Shit!" Adie said. "Dude, how did she get Dannie to break his celibacy?"
"She didn't." I said.
"What? I don't understand... Oh damn. You're the father, aren't you?"
"Yeah." I said.
"I'm actually not surprised. I knew something weird was going on with her. I knew something was bothering her, I thought it was just wedding anxiety. I didn't know it was a guilt trip."
"What do you mean?" Tre said.
"Lately she's been a little antsy every time I mentioned the wedding to her. She kept asking me questions, like how did I know Billie was the right one, or what if she was making a big mistake. It was kind of like she was trying to find a good excuse for not marrying Dannie."
"Well she doesn't want to marry him. She wants to be with her Tre." Mike said.
"Shut up Mike." Billie said laughing.
"Come on guys, this isn't funny. This is serious." I said. "Adie you can't tell anyone, please."
"I promise I won't say anything." Adie said.
"Okay. I got to go get my keys, and the kids. Then I'll take you guys to see Kira." I said.
[Back to Kira's POV]
Yesterday was officially the craziest day of my life. So many things happened that I think I could've stopped. I'm not saying I blame myself for Brian's mistakes, I blame myself for not trying to help Dylan and Kayla. I wish I could go back. There are just so many things I would've done over. It was about 10 o'clock in the morning. I was just lying in this hospital bed, replaying yesterday in my head, when I heard a knock on the door.
"Ms. Belle." The nurse said. "Some people are here to see you."
"Let them in please." I said.
Mike, Billie and Adie came running into the room.
"Kira are you okay?" Adie said.
"Yeah I'm fine. I should be out of here soon, I don't know exactly when though." I said.
"Well, all that matters is that you're okay." Mike said.
"Where's Tre?" I asked.
"I think he took Dylan to see Brian." Billie said.
"Hey guys, do you mind if I talk to Kira in private?" Adie said.
"Okay fine." Mike said. "We'll be down the hall."
Billie and Mike left to go down the hall where Tre was. Adie followed them to the door to make sure they were gone. Then she walked back over to the bed and sat down.
"So, now I know why you were so antsy about the wedding." She said.
"What do you mean?" I said.
"You don't want to get married because you feel too guilty for sleeping with Tre." Adie said.
"How did you know?"
"You know who told me." Adie said laughing.
"Billie." We both said in unison.
"He can't keep anything from me." She said. "And you know who told him."
"Tre." We said together.
"They can't keep anything from each other." I said. "So I'm guessing you know about the... "
"The baby? Yeah, I know about that too. So what are you going to do?"
"Right now I really don't know. I don't know if I can go through with the wedding."
"No one's asking you to make a decision right now. But you know you can't avoid it for very long." She said.
"I know Adie." I said.
Then I saw everyone come back into the room, along with a doctor. I could tell by the looks on their faces, something was wrong.
"Ms. Belle." The doctor said. "We need to talk about something very important."
"Um... Okay." I said in a very nervous voice.
"It's about Mr. Hewitt."
"What's wrong with Brian?" I asked.
"The damage done to Brian's head was more serious than I first thought. The bleeding was just.... Terrible. He lost a lot of blood, and we did all we could to stop it."
"Are you saying that if someone doesn't give blood, he'll die?"
"No. Not really."
"Then what are you saying?"
"We did all we could, but it wasn't enough. Brian died this morning."
"Oh my God. You can't be serious." I said.
"He's dead Kira." Dylan said.
"I can't believe this. What am I going to tell my mom? She didn't even know he was in the hospital."
"Well we're releasing you from the hospital today, so you can be with you're family." The doctor said.
I couldn't believe this. As much as I hated Brian, I didn't want him dead. I don't know how I will explain this to my mom. What do I say? Jesus, she's going to hate me for the rest of my life.
Tre pulled up at the house. I was terrified of what was going to happen. How was my mother going to react?
"Kira." Tre said to me. "I just want you to know that whatever happens, I'll be right behind you okay?"
"Okay. I just want to get this over with." I said.
I got out of the car and walked up to the door. Before I could even open it, BeBe comes to the door and pulls us in.
"Jesus, Kira where were you." She said. "I go into your room and the wall and you bed is covered in blood. I was terrified. Where Dylan and Kayla?"
"They're right here." Tre said, holding Kayla's hand, who was holding Dylan's hand.
"Dylan what happened to your face?" Drexel asked.
"Um... My dad did it." Dylan said.
"Oh no. Dylan you're okay right?"
"Yeah I'm fine." He said.
"Tre what are you doing here?" BeBe said.
"It's a long story." He said.
"Well you got to get out of here; if mom sees you here she'll flip." Drexel said.
"Where's Dannie?" I asked.
"He's upstairs in your room." Drexel said.
"Kira!" I heard Dannie yell.
"I'm down here Dannie." I said.
Dannie ran down the stairs as fast as he could and gave me a huge hug.
"Kira I thought something terrible happened to you baby!" he said.
"Dannie I'm fine. I'm sorry to leave you worried like that. But we've been at the hospital all night."
"The hospital? Why?" Dannie asked.
"Something really bad happened." I said.
"Brian tried to hurt you again didn't he?" Drexel said. "Where is he? I swear to God I'll kill him!"
That's when Kayla started crying.
"Kayla honey, why are you crying?" BeBe said.
"Something bad happened to daddy!" Kayla said crying.
"What happened to Brian!" I heard my mom yell. "Kira what happened to my husband."
"Mom I think you need to sit down." I said.
"Don't tell me what to do Kira, just tell me where my husband is!"
"Mom I can't do this with you upset like that so just please calm down!"
"Just tell me Kira!"
"I can't Mom! Just stop yelling at me!"
"What did you do to him!"
"What did I do to him? More like what did he do to me and his own damn kids!"
"Dammit Kira, don't start this bullshit again. Don't you tell me you put my damn husband in jail!"
"No mom would you just let me explain!"
"Where the hell is he!"
"He's DEAD!" I yelled.
Everyone's face went completely blank.
"He's dead mom. He died this morning in the hospital."
"You fucking liar!" My mom yelled.
"Mom, why would I lie about something like this?" I said. "He really is dead."
"Dammit Kira! Why are you like this? Why do you hate him so fucking much!"
"She's telling the truth!" Dylan yelled. "My dad's dead.... And I killed him. I didn't mean to, it just happened."
"Dylan what happened? I mean.... What did you do?" Drexel said.
"I hit him in the head with a baseball bat. I didn't mean to do it, he stabbed Kira, and he was hurting my sister I couldn't just stand there and do nothing."
"How could you've done such a thing? That was my husband! That was your father! You should be ashamed of yourself! I told your father he should've put you up for adoption! I knew it was a bad idea to even let you in this house. You fucking stupid idiot!"
"Mom, how can you say such a thing? This kid's only 10 years old, do you think he asked for this? I just can't believe the words that are coming out of your mouth!"
"You just shut up Kira! Since when did you give a damn about this family? All you care about is yourself!"
"I only care about myself. You should be the last person to ever say that to me. Don't you EVER say that to me again! I don't know what the hell happened to you mom. How could you put a man before your family! I've had it with you! You mean nothing to me now! I can't even look you in the eyes because I HATE the person staring back at me!"
I ran up to my room, got my bags and came back downstairs. Dylan and Kayla followed me. They packed as much stuff as they could into their bags.
"That's right. Leave. I don't ever want you in my house again!"
"Oh I'll promise you, you'll never see this face again! And don't you dare think you're going to take your anger out on these kids, because I'm taking them with me. I'm taking custody and you'll never see them again!"
Tre took the bags out of Kayla's hand and Dannie took the bags out of Dylan's hand.
"I just hope your last days with Brian were happy ones. And I wish it was all worth. Because that man is the reason you family has torn apart."
That was the last thing I ever said to my mother. Me, Tre, Dannie, Dylan, and Kayla left that house with the same promise I made two years ago, that I would never come back to this place.
Later that night, me, Dannie and the kids got a room in the hotel Tre was staying at. After I put Dylan and Kayla to sleep, I walked down the hall to the elevators and went up one floor to see Tre. I knocked on the door but he didn't answer, so he must've been sleep. So I went back down to my room. I got into bed next to Dannie and wrapped my arms around him.
"Dannie." I said. "Are you awake?"
"Yeah baby, what's wrong?"
"You love me right?"
"Of course I do."
"And you still want to marry me?"
"You know I do."
"But would you still want to marry me if you knew about something I did that was a really terrible thing to do?"
"Kira, I don't care about anything that happened last night okay? Brian was a jerk, and whatever you did, I would've done the same thing."
"Dannie that's not what I mean."
"Then what do you mean?"
"What would you do if.... You had a friend, who got pregnant by another guy, and she didn't know if she should tell her husband or not?"
"Kira... Don't tell me Adie had an affair!"
I couldn't help but laugh. The one thing I loved about Dannie was that he was so naïve.
"Never mind Dannie, it's not anything important. Nothing important at all."
"It's okay honey, just get some sleep, God knows you need it."
I went to sleep that night with a full mind. I couldn't stop thinking about what might happen to Dylan and Kayla. What happens if I don't win custody? I didn't want to think about it anymore so I focus my mind on something else, my baby. How was I going to get away with this? So far it's been working, Dannie doesn't know, and that's good. I just don't know how long I can go on with this lie. Any other lie is fine, but this one, and what Tre said to me that day I told him I was pregnant. This is just one lie that will haunt me until I confess. No matter how much I don't want to. It refuses to go away.
God... It never gets easier for me does it?
