What's With This Girl?, chapter 8
I started to pull off Tre's shirt, and this time he didn't stop me. I felt him wince a little when I touched his back. I'm thinking to myself "this is definitely my imagination playing tricks on me", but it wasn't all of this was really happening. I quick stab of guilt hit my heart, knowing what me and Tre were about to do, and knowing that Claudia and Dannie were right downstairs. But the guilt went away when Tre whispered in my ear. "You are so fucking beautiful, did you know that?" I was giggling like a little 7 year old. "You don't look too bad yourself." I said to him. He started to my neck and my shoulders while he was trying to unbuckle my belt. "Why is this thing so damn tight?" "Stop pulling at it." "I can't unbuckle it." "Well you are doing it wrong." "Why did you have to wear a belt anyway?" "Well I'm sorry I wasn't planning on having sex today." "Damn this is irritating." "Let me do it." I moved Tre's hands and unbuckled my belt. "See how easy that was?" "Well that's because you knew how to do it." "Tre?" "Yeah?" "Shut up." I started to unbutton Tre's pants next. It took me a while but I finally got them undone. I started to get a scared and started to shake a little when Tre pulled condom out of his pants pocket, which were now on the floor. "Kira are you ok?" "Yeah I'm fine." "Kira don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you I swear. That's the last thing I would want to do to you." That's what I loved about Tre the most. When he makes a promise to me, I never worry about him breaking it. I feel completely safe with him. Then I felt a sudden rush. A sense of pain and pleasure came over me at the same time. I could now feel every inch of Tre on top of me. This was the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. And that's when it all started to fall apart. I started having flash backs of the night when Brian raped me. I could see his face and I started to feel the exact pain I felt from that night.
Brian closed the door and locked it. "Now listen you little bitch. I've tried my best to be nice to you little brats, but it seems that's not gonna work." "What are you gonna do, hit me? Well go on ahead, and watch me call the cops on you. And I don't think that little restraining order against you will help now will it?" "Okay that's it!" He took my wrists and started squeezing them. "Let go of me you psycho!" I yelled. "You're gonna start showing me some respect." "Give respect to get respect." I said. "Now I can see why your wife won't let you see your kids." I think I took it a little too far with that, because he punched me in the stomach, and then in the face. He took me by the throat and pushed me on the bed. "I'll teach to ever talk about my kids again."<'i>
I tried to block it out, but the more I tried, the more clearer it got. I didn't know how long I could take it.
"Tre." I said
[i]Brian climbed on top of me and still had a hold of my wrists. He was squeezing them so hard I thought he was going to break them. "Get the hell off of me!" I yelled. "HELP!!!" I started screaming. "What are you screaming for?" He said. "No one's going to help you. Remember whatever I say your mom does. What ever I do is what's best for you. I f I told your mom that boarding school was a good idea, you would be on the first train to boarding school." "Yeah well fuck you!" I screamed. He slapped me across the face. "You fucking bastard!" I said. "Now what do I have to do to get your respect?" "I got an idea. How about you FUCK OFF AND DIE!" "You're not making this better." He grabbed my throat and started pulling up my dress. "Stop it! Let go of me!" "Are you going to stop being such a bitch?" "As long as you stop being an asshole." "WRONG ANSWER!" Brian completely lifted my dress up to my waist.
This was getting more difficult to get rid of. I couldn't get it out of my head. I wanted to stop Tre, but he felt so damn good. But I couldn't stand anymore of this.
"Tre! Tre stop!" I yelled
Brian had me pinned down on the bed with his knees and started to take off his shirt. "What are you doing?" I said. "I think the only way I can get into your fucking head is if I'm a little hard on you." "You're insane. Let me go! NOW!" "You have to learn your lesson first. Now... this is going to hurt you more than it's going to hurt me." He grabbed my legs and forcefully spread my legs apart.
Tre's head was lying on my shoulder and I could hear his soft moans in my ear. But they were being drowned out by Brian's voice in my mind.
I could hear Drexel in the hallway screaming my name. "KIRA! KIRA! OPEN THE DOOR!" "DREXEL HELP ME!" I yelled back through tears. But Brian put his hand over my mouth. "Would you shut the hell up!" He yelled. "Stop pretending that you don't like it. You're into older men aren't you? You let Tre screw you, didn't you?" I started hitting him, kicking and screaming as much as I could. But the more I tried to fight him off, the harder and faster he went inside me...
He got off the bed and threw me on the floor. My head hit my dresser. He lifted me up by my hair and said in my ear "You know I always thought you were kind of cute." "FUCK YOU!" I yelled. He pulled my head back, kissed me and threw me on the bed. "Now stay there and don't come out until I say so." He said and walked out of the room. "What the hell did you do to my sister!" I heard Drexel say. "Let's just say I thought her a lesson about respect. A lesson I think she won't soon forget."
I was practically in tears now. Here I was, doing something I always wanted to, and I can't enjoy it because that night is haunting me.
"TRE GET OFF OF ME! NOW!" I pushed Tre off of me. I pushed him too hard because he fell off the bed and his back hit the ground. He screamed in pain. "Ahhh... Kira! What the fuck did you do that for!" "Tre I'm sorry I... " "Was I doing something wrong?" "No you weren't. It's just that I... " "Well then why? Was I hurting you?" "It was nothing. I... " "It was nothing? Kira there has to be a reason." "No it's was nothing." "It was something Kira. You didn't just push me on my damn back for no fucking reason!" "TRE STOP YELLING AT ME!" I screamed. I hid my face in my pillow and started crying. "Oh God, Kira, Kira baby I'm sorry." Tre said. "I shouldn't have yelled at you." "I'm the one that should be sorry." I said through tears. "I'm the one who led you on like that, knowing that I really wasn't ready to do this. I thought I could forget about the whole thing. But I can't. I can't deny it anymore. It happened and there's nothing I can do to change that." Tre lifted my face up from the pillow, and wiped my tears away. "Now you're not going to let someone else's mistake take over your life are you? There was nothing you could've done to stop what happened. You have to stop blaming yourself. If anyone did something stupid that night, it was Brian. Don't let that dumb prick ruin you." He gently began rubbing my back. I started to do the same to him but he winced again. "Tre what's wrong?" "It's nothing, don't worry about it." "Tre this is the about the third time you winced when I touched your back. What's wrong?" Tre turned around and showed me his back. There was a huge scar starting from his right shoulder and went all the way down to his lower back. I started crying again. "I'm so sorry Tre." "Are you the physco prick that threw me into the table?" "No." "Then there's nothing to be sorry about." I wrapped myself in Tre's arms and put my head on his bare chest. "Are you going to be okay?" he asked. "I will now." I said. "Would you be more comfortable if I put my clothes back on?" I started laughing. "That would be nice."
I stayed there for what felt like hours wrapped in Tre's arms. Then I remembered something. There was a party going on downstairs and I wasn't there. "Um... Tre we should really go back downstairs." "Oh yeah I forgot there was even a party." He said. "Me too." Tre got up and started to pick up his scattered close, I did the same. When I was dressed and about to leave the room I realized something else. "Billie and Mike." I said. "What was that?" Tre said. "Billie and Mike!" I yelled. "Billie?... Billie and Mike!" Tre yelled. To our knowledge, they were still on the roof. Me and Tre opened the window and peaked outside to see if they were still there. Billie and Mike were both lying on the roof sleeping. "At the count of three let's scare them." Tre said. "Ok... 1... .2... .3!" Me and Tre jumped out of the window and scared Mike and Billie half to death. "What the hell is wrong with you guys?" Mike said. "Wake your drunken asses up." I said. "Have you forgotten that my birthday party is going on downstairs? We've been up here for a good two hours. I bet everyone's worrying." We all went back downstairs. Me and Tre were holding hands, but he let go of my hand when he saw Claudia. "Tre, were have you been?" Claudia said. "I was on the roof with Mike, Billie, and Kira." "Doing what?" she said laughing. "Oh... nothing." Tre said innocently. "Oh don't play that innocent card on me. I saw what Billie had in his hand when he went upstairs. You probably got Kira drunk too" "Now Claudia, would we ever do a thing like that?" Mike said. "Yes, yes you would." Adrienne said sneaking up behind Billie. "Kira, your sister has been looking everywhere for you, it's getting late and we have to sing happy birthday and open your presents." Adie took my hand and took me to this big table filled with presents and a big cake on it.
"There you are!" Drexel said. "Where did you run off to? Doesn't matter you're here now right? Billie, turn off the lights." Billie turned off the lights and ran back over to us in the dark. "Adie get your hand off of my ass!" Billie yelled. "Oh sorry Billie." Donnie said. Drexel let the candles and Ricky, Monty, Billie, Mike, and Tre started to sing a very weird rendition of "The Happy Birthday" song.
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
You look like a monkey
And you fuck like one too!
How old are you
How old are you
We couldn't give a shit about
How old you are!
And God blessed you
And God blessed you
God blessed you with a big ass
And big boobies too!
"Okay... I think that will be enough. Thanks guys." I said sarcastically. "you're most welcome." Monty said. "Did you guys come up with that one all by yourselves?" Adie said. "Yup we did it all by ourselves." Tre said proudly, like a four year old would do. "I blew out my candles and started opening my presents. "Open mine first!" Darby said. He got a small box off the table and handed it to me. I opened it and inside was a key. This is not what I thought it could be. "Darby this isn't what I think it is, is it?" "Well just take a look outside in the driveway." He said. I ran out of that house as fast as I could and in the driveway was a beautiful red Mercedes convertible. It was the exact one I saw when I was 16 and said that was my "Dream car". "I believe that red Mercedes has your name on it." Darby said. "DARBY YOU GOT ME A CAR!" I yelled. I was so fucking happy I didn't even want to go back in the house and open the rest of my presents, but I had to. I didn't want to be rude. The next one I opened was BeBe's, "I think you'll be happy with this one. It's a present for you, Dannie, and Monty." I opened the envelope and it was three plane tickets to California. "Oh my God BeBe, are you saying ... we have a record deal?" "Well not yet, my boss still wants to hear you guys play for him, but I can tell he really likes you guys." "WE GOT A RECORD DEAL!" I yelled. "WE'RE GOING TO CALIFORNIA!" Monty screamed. This was turning out to be the best birthday ever, and it just kept getting better. I went down the line of presents. I got just about everything I wanted, even stuff I wasn't expecting, like the mint condition Nirvana poster autographed by Dave Grohl that Mike gave me, or the brand new acoustic guitar that Billie and Adie gave me. After I finished opening Ricky's present, which by the way was a new camera, because he still felt bad for breaking my old one, I thought that was it. "Wait a minute Kira." Tre said. "I still have to give you my present." Tre leaped over to the table and gave me a jewelry box. I opened it and it was a diamond bracelet with blue, black, and red music note charms on it. "Jesus, Tre this is beautiful." "I knew you would like it." "Like it? I fucking love it" I jumped out of my seat and gave Tre a big hug. "Well now that's done and over with, let's see if a certain band would like to play for us." Drexel said. I get all these awesome gifts and now Green Day's going to play for me? This was awesome. "Kira, why don't you guys play something for us?" "What?"
Oh by the way, in case you didn't know me Monty and Dannie are in a band. We call ourselves The 88s. We got the name from this Shingon belief in Japan that the number 88 represents all the evil in the world. You can do a tour of 88 Buddhist temples to free yourself from all these evils. We thought it was sort of cool, so we made that our name. Dannie played bass and vocals, I played guitar and back up vocals, and Monty played the drums. Ok back to the story...
"You had this planned the whole night. I was wondering why that drum set was in the middle of the living room." I said to Drexel. "Hey it was Ricky's idea." Drexel said. "What? Monty hardly ever let's me go to your gigs." Ricky said. "Come on play one song?" "Ok fine." I said. Me, Monty and Dannie got into our places. I went over to my microphone and put on my guitar, but Dannie pushed me up to the front. "I just got a feeling that you should sing lead." Dannie said, and gave me a kiss on my cheek. Damn I was nervous. I never sang lead in front of people, especially not all my friends and family. "Um... hey guys. We're The 88s, and we're gonna play a song that's very important to us. This was the first song we ever played as a band. 1... 2... 1,2,3!" we started to play "16" by Green Day.
Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older and older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you're a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
Look at my friends and see what they've done
Ask myself why they had to change
I like them better when they were young
Now all these times are rearranged
I look down and stand there and cry
Nothing ever will be the same
The sun is rising, now I ask why?
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older and older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you're a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
When we were done we got a huge applause from everyone. I couldn't believe I just sung in front of everyone. This was the greatest feeling ever! Monty ran from behind her drums and gave Ricky a huge hug and kiss. I ran over to the guys and asked them what they think. "You guys are good, really good." Billie said. "You remind me of us when we were first starting out." Mike said. "Kira, I didn't know you could sing." Tre said. "Just another one of my hidden talents." "Um... Excuse me everyone, I'd like to make an announcement." I heard Dannie say through the microphone. "Could Kira come back up here for a minute please?" Oh God, what was Dannie about to do? Without thinking I walked back over to Dannie. "Kira we've been together for about four years, and we would always talk about getting married and having a big family... " Oh shit. Dannie was not about to do what I think he was. "A few months back, when I gave Kira her promise ring, I made a promise to her that on her 20th birthday I would ask her to marry me. Well as you all know our Kira was almost taken away from us. And that completely opened my eyes. And I couldn't wait until her 20th birthday to ask her this." Dannie got on one knee and took a ring out of his pocket. "Youkira Anne Maria Belle, will you marry me?" I could believe this. A complete look of shock hit everyone's faces, especially me and Tre's. I wasn't planning on this. What do I say? What the hell do I say? Did I even want to be with Dannie anymore? If I wanted to be with Dannie I wouldn't have had sex with Tre. But I had to think about reality. Tre was not going to leave Claudia. I mean he just married her 5 months ago. And to just up and leave like that wouldn't be right. "Yes Dannie I'll marry you." Everyone at the party cheered like crazy when me and Dannie kissed and Dannie put the ring on my finger. I looked over at where Tre was standing and he was gone. I noticed he was going out the kitchen door. So while no one noticed, I went after him.
"Tre?" I said. He had his back turned to me. "Con... Congratulations Kira. I'm really happy for you." I walked over to Tre, who was resting on out gate. He still wouldn't look at me. "Tre I am so sorry. I feel like such a bitch." Tre still wouldn't look at my face. "Tre look at me. Please?" Tre turned around at looked at me. His eyes were red and puffy, like he had been crying. "Tre are you crying?" "No it's just windy out here and my eyes are starting to water up." "Tre don't lie to me. You're a bad liar. We're you crying?" "Well I can't help it okay? I can't help but cry. It's bad enough I couldn't have you before, and now, you're getting married." "How do you think I felt when you got married to Claudia?" "Is that what this is Kira? Some damn competition?" What so I get married to Claudia and you get married to Dannie to get me jealous? Well, congratulations Kira, because you fucking pulled it off!" Tre stormed back into the house and slammed the door. I was left alone out there, to think about what Tre said. A few seconds later Tre came back outside. He walked up to me, grabbed my face and kissed me. "I'm sorry; I just had to kiss you again while I still had the chance." "Tre wait." I took Tre hands and I pulled him in for a hug. "I love you Tre. I really do. You're the only person I know that I can trust with anything." "I love you too Kira. I really do. And that means that if you want to be with someone else... then I'll support you." "I wish I could be with you." "I know Kira. But I love Claudia too much. I feel terrible that I did that to her." "If it makes you feel better. I won't tell a soul about us." Tre cupped my face with his hands and gave me a kiss on the forehead. Me and Tre both heard a loud crash in the house, so we both ran back in. Neither of us could believe what we saw. It was my mom and Brian in the living room. "What the hell is going on in here!" my mom yelled. "PARTY'S OVER!" Monty yelled. Everyone started to run towards the door to get out. "Could someone explain to me what's going on?" my mom said. "That's funny. We were about to ask you the same thing." Darby said. "Where have you been?" Drexel started yelling "You were supposed to be going to Grandma's, but when we called she said you weren't there and that you didn't plan to go there." "Who are you to ask me where I have been? You should be explaining to me why the hell all these damn people were in my house?" "We were throwing Kira a belated Birthday party." Ricky said. "We just wanted Kira to have some fun." "Well I hope you all have fun cleaning up this damn house." "You still haven't answered our question?" Drexel said. "Where have you been?" "And you still haven't answered my question." My mom said "Who are you to ask me where I have been?" "I'm your daughter and we're your family. You remember us don't you? We're the family you used to care about. Now you couldn't give a damn about us. You don't even care that your husband raped your daughter in her own bed." "You shut up Drexel! I am so damn sick of your mouth." "Mom don't talk to Drexel like that." Darby said. "You shut up too Darby." My mom looked over at me and Tre. "And what are you doing here?" She said. "I thought you said you were leaving. What happened? Did you realized no one was going to take you in? What your little superstar friends didn't want you around." "I'll have you know mom that in three days Kira will be on the next plane to California where she'll be far away fro you and the rapist." Darby said. "Shut up Darby." My mom yelled. "And you." She said to Tre. "How dare you show you face in this house, after what you did to m daughter, I should kill you right now." "I didn't do anything to your daughter." Tre said. Tre and Brain locked eyes. "You!" Brian yelled. Tre and Brian ran over each and started beating each other up. "Tre stop it!" Claudia screamed. Those two were really going at it. "Leave Tre alone!" I yelled. Tre was now on top of Brian punching him with all his might. Brian finally got Tre off of him and pulled out a gun. "Tre watch out!" Mike yelled. Brian fired a shot but missed then he fired another, and missed again. I could tell no one was going to try and stop this. So I ran over to Brian, twisted his right arm and tackled him to the ground, just how my dad would show me. I took the gun out of his hand and threw it as far as I could. Brian threw me on the ground and ran after Tre again. He had Tre by the throat and I thought he was going to kill him. I got up to my feet and found the gun. I closed my eyes and fired to shoot a warning shot in the air but I tripped over the table and the gun went off. I couldn't control it.
Both Tre and Brian had blank looks on their faces. They both were mortified. I didn't realize what I did until Brian and Tre both fell to the floor. Blood was all over Tre's hands. Monty, Claudia, and Adrienne were screaming their lungs out and ran over to one of the bodies on the floor.
It wasn't my fault. I didn't mean to do it. I didn't mean to shoot him. Why would I do such a thing?
Truth be told I wasn't that upset that I shot Brian in the arm. But I was devastated to see who else I shot.
How could I do such a thing? How could I do this to someone I love, someone who cares about me, one of my best friends.
Look at everyone's faces. I think I did it. I think... no I know I did it. I think... no not think... I know I killed him.
I... I killed Ricky.
Brian closed the door and locked it. "Now listen you little bitch. I've tried my best to be nice to you little brats, but it seems that's not gonna work." "What are you gonna do, hit me? Well go on ahead, and watch me call the cops on you. And I don't think that little restraining order against you will help now will it?" "Okay that's it!" He took my wrists and started squeezing them. "Let go of me you psycho!" I yelled. "You're gonna start showing me some respect." "Give respect to get respect." I said. "Now I can see why your wife won't let you see your kids." I think I took it a little too far with that, because he punched me in the stomach, and then in the face. He took me by the throat and pushed me on the bed. "I'll teach to ever talk about my kids again."<'i>
I tried to block it out, but the more I tried, the more clearer it got. I didn't know how long I could take it.
"Tre." I said
[i]Brian climbed on top of me and still had a hold of my wrists. He was squeezing them so hard I thought he was going to break them. "Get the hell off of me!" I yelled. "HELP!!!" I started screaming. "What are you screaming for?" He said. "No one's going to help you. Remember whatever I say your mom does. What ever I do is what's best for you. I f I told your mom that boarding school was a good idea, you would be on the first train to boarding school." "Yeah well fuck you!" I screamed. He slapped me across the face. "You fucking bastard!" I said. "Now what do I have to do to get your respect?" "I got an idea. How about you FUCK OFF AND DIE!" "You're not making this better." He grabbed my throat and started pulling up my dress. "Stop it! Let go of me!" "Are you going to stop being such a bitch?" "As long as you stop being an asshole." "WRONG ANSWER!" Brian completely lifted my dress up to my waist.
This was getting more difficult to get rid of. I couldn't get it out of my head. I wanted to stop Tre, but he felt so damn good. But I couldn't stand anymore of this.
"Tre! Tre stop!" I yelled
Brian had me pinned down on the bed with his knees and started to take off his shirt. "What are you doing?" I said. "I think the only way I can get into your fucking head is if I'm a little hard on you." "You're insane. Let me go! NOW!" "You have to learn your lesson first. Now... this is going to hurt you more than it's going to hurt me." He grabbed my legs and forcefully spread my legs apart.
Tre's head was lying on my shoulder and I could hear his soft moans in my ear. But they were being drowned out by Brian's voice in my mind.
I could hear Drexel in the hallway screaming my name. "KIRA! KIRA! OPEN THE DOOR!" "DREXEL HELP ME!" I yelled back through tears. But Brian put his hand over my mouth. "Would you shut the hell up!" He yelled. "Stop pretending that you don't like it. You're into older men aren't you? You let Tre screw you, didn't you?" I started hitting him, kicking and screaming as much as I could. But the more I tried to fight him off, the harder and faster he went inside me...
He got off the bed and threw me on the floor. My head hit my dresser. He lifted me up by my hair and said in my ear "You know I always thought you were kind of cute." "FUCK YOU!" I yelled. He pulled my head back, kissed me and threw me on the bed. "Now stay there and don't come out until I say so." He said and walked out of the room. "What the hell did you do to my sister!" I heard Drexel say. "Let's just say I thought her a lesson about respect. A lesson I think she won't soon forget."
I was practically in tears now. Here I was, doing something I always wanted to, and I can't enjoy it because that night is haunting me.
"TRE GET OFF OF ME! NOW!" I pushed Tre off of me. I pushed him too hard because he fell off the bed and his back hit the ground. He screamed in pain. "Ahhh... Kira! What the fuck did you do that for!" "Tre I'm sorry I... " "Was I doing something wrong?" "No you weren't. It's just that I... " "Well then why? Was I hurting you?" "It was nothing. I... " "It was nothing? Kira there has to be a reason." "No it's was nothing." "It was something Kira. You didn't just push me on my damn back for no fucking reason!" "TRE STOP YELLING AT ME!" I screamed. I hid my face in my pillow and started crying. "Oh God, Kira, Kira baby I'm sorry." Tre said. "I shouldn't have yelled at you." "I'm the one that should be sorry." I said through tears. "I'm the one who led you on like that, knowing that I really wasn't ready to do this. I thought I could forget about the whole thing. But I can't. I can't deny it anymore. It happened and there's nothing I can do to change that." Tre lifted my face up from the pillow, and wiped my tears away. "Now you're not going to let someone else's mistake take over your life are you? There was nothing you could've done to stop what happened. You have to stop blaming yourself. If anyone did something stupid that night, it was Brian. Don't let that dumb prick ruin you." He gently began rubbing my back. I started to do the same to him but he winced again. "Tre what's wrong?" "It's nothing, don't worry about it." "Tre this is the about the third time you winced when I touched your back. What's wrong?" Tre turned around and showed me his back. There was a huge scar starting from his right shoulder and went all the way down to his lower back. I started crying again. "I'm so sorry Tre." "Are you the physco prick that threw me into the table?" "No." "Then there's nothing to be sorry about." I wrapped myself in Tre's arms and put my head on his bare chest. "Are you going to be okay?" he asked. "I will now." I said. "Would you be more comfortable if I put my clothes back on?" I started laughing. "That would be nice."
I stayed there for what felt like hours wrapped in Tre's arms. Then I remembered something. There was a party going on downstairs and I wasn't there. "Um... Tre we should really go back downstairs." "Oh yeah I forgot there was even a party." He said. "Me too." Tre got up and started to pick up his scattered close, I did the same. When I was dressed and about to leave the room I realized something else. "Billie and Mike." I said. "What was that?" Tre said. "Billie and Mike!" I yelled. "Billie?... Billie and Mike!" Tre yelled. To our knowledge, they were still on the roof. Me and Tre opened the window and peaked outside to see if they were still there. Billie and Mike were both lying on the roof sleeping. "At the count of three let's scare them." Tre said. "Ok... 1... .2... .3!" Me and Tre jumped out of the window and scared Mike and Billie half to death. "What the hell is wrong with you guys?" Mike said. "Wake your drunken asses up." I said. "Have you forgotten that my birthday party is going on downstairs? We've been up here for a good two hours. I bet everyone's worrying." We all went back downstairs. Me and Tre were holding hands, but he let go of my hand when he saw Claudia. "Tre, were have you been?" Claudia said. "I was on the roof with Mike, Billie, and Kira." "Doing what?" she said laughing. "Oh... nothing." Tre said innocently. "Oh don't play that innocent card on me. I saw what Billie had in his hand when he went upstairs. You probably got Kira drunk too" "Now Claudia, would we ever do a thing like that?" Mike said. "Yes, yes you would." Adrienne said sneaking up behind Billie. "Kira, your sister has been looking everywhere for you, it's getting late and we have to sing happy birthday and open your presents." Adie took my hand and took me to this big table filled with presents and a big cake on it.
"There you are!" Drexel said. "Where did you run off to? Doesn't matter you're here now right? Billie, turn off the lights." Billie turned off the lights and ran back over to us in the dark. "Adie get your hand off of my ass!" Billie yelled. "Oh sorry Billie." Donnie said. Drexel let the candles and Ricky, Monty, Billie, Mike, and Tre started to sing a very weird rendition of "The Happy Birthday" song.
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
You look like a monkey
And you fuck like one too!
How old are you
How old are you
We couldn't give a shit about
How old you are!
And God blessed you
And God blessed you
God blessed you with a big ass
And big boobies too!
"Okay... I think that will be enough. Thanks guys." I said sarcastically. "you're most welcome." Monty said. "Did you guys come up with that one all by yourselves?" Adie said. "Yup we did it all by ourselves." Tre said proudly, like a four year old would do. "I blew out my candles and started opening my presents. "Open mine first!" Darby said. He got a small box off the table and handed it to me. I opened it and inside was a key. This is not what I thought it could be. "Darby this isn't what I think it is, is it?" "Well just take a look outside in the driveway." He said. I ran out of that house as fast as I could and in the driveway was a beautiful red Mercedes convertible. It was the exact one I saw when I was 16 and said that was my "Dream car". "I believe that red Mercedes has your name on it." Darby said. "DARBY YOU GOT ME A CAR!" I yelled. I was so fucking happy I didn't even want to go back in the house and open the rest of my presents, but I had to. I didn't want to be rude. The next one I opened was BeBe's, "I think you'll be happy with this one. It's a present for you, Dannie, and Monty." I opened the envelope and it was three plane tickets to California. "Oh my God BeBe, are you saying ... we have a record deal?" "Well not yet, my boss still wants to hear you guys play for him, but I can tell he really likes you guys." "WE GOT A RECORD DEAL!" I yelled. "WE'RE GOING TO CALIFORNIA!" Monty screamed. This was turning out to be the best birthday ever, and it just kept getting better. I went down the line of presents. I got just about everything I wanted, even stuff I wasn't expecting, like the mint condition Nirvana poster autographed by Dave Grohl that Mike gave me, or the brand new acoustic guitar that Billie and Adie gave me. After I finished opening Ricky's present, which by the way was a new camera, because he still felt bad for breaking my old one, I thought that was it. "Wait a minute Kira." Tre said. "I still have to give you my present." Tre leaped over to the table and gave me a jewelry box. I opened it and it was a diamond bracelet with blue, black, and red music note charms on it. "Jesus, Tre this is beautiful." "I knew you would like it." "Like it? I fucking love it" I jumped out of my seat and gave Tre a big hug. "Well now that's done and over with, let's see if a certain band would like to play for us." Drexel said. I get all these awesome gifts and now Green Day's going to play for me? This was awesome. "Kira, why don't you guys play something for us?" "What?"
Oh by the way, in case you didn't know me Monty and Dannie are in a band. We call ourselves The 88s. We got the name from this Shingon belief in Japan that the number 88 represents all the evil in the world. You can do a tour of 88 Buddhist temples to free yourself from all these evils. We thought it was sort of cool, so we made that our name. Dannie played bass and vocals, I played guitar and back up vocals, and Monty played the drums. Ok back to the story...
"You had this planned the whole night. I was wondering why that drum set was in the middle of the living room." I said to Drexel. "Hey it was Ricky's idea." Drexel said. "What? Monty hardly ever let's me go to your gigs." Ricky said. "Come on play one song?" "Ok fine." I said. Me, Monty and Dannie got into our places. I went over to my microphone and put on my guitar, but Dannie pushed me up to the front. "I just got a feeling that you should sing lead." Dannie said, and gave me a kiss on my cheek. Damn I was nervous. I never sang lead in front of people, especially not all my friends and family. "Um... hey guys. We're The 88s, and we're gonna play a song that's very important to us. This was the first song we ever played as a band. 1... 2... 1,2,3!" we started to play "16" by Green Day.
Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older and older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you're a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
Look at my friends and see what they've done
Ask myself why they had to change
I like them better when they were young
Now all these times are rearranged
I look down and stand there and cry
Nothing ever will be the same
The sun is rising, now I ask why?
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older and older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you're a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
When we were done we got a huge applause from everyone. I couldn't believe I just sung in front of everyone. This was the greatest feeling ever! Monty ran from behind her drums and gave Ricky a huge hug and kiss. I ran over to the guys and asked them what they think. "You guys are good, really good." Billie said. "You remind me of us when we were first starting out." Mike said. "Kira, I didn't know you could sing." Tre said. "Just another one of my hidden talents." "Um... Excuse me everyone, I'd like to make an announcement." I heard Dannie say through the microphone. "Could Kira come back up here for a minute please?" Oh God, what was Dannie about to do? Without thinking I walked back over to Dannie. "Kira we've been together for about four years, and we would always talk about getting married and having a big family... " Oh shit. Dannie was not about to do what I think he was. "A few months back, when I gave Kira her promise ring, I made a promise to her that on her 20th birthday I would ask her to marry me. Well as you all know our Kira was almost taken away from us. And that completely opened my eyes. And I couldn't wait until her 20th birthday to ask her this." Dannie got on one knee and took a ring out of his pocket. "Youkira Anne Maria Belle, will you marry me?" I could believe this. A complete look of shock hit everyone's faces, especially me and Tre's. I wasn't planning on this. What do I say? What the hell do I say? Did I even want to be with Dannie anymore? If I wanted to be with Dannie I wouldn't have had sex with Tre. But I had to think about reality. Tre was not going to leave Claudia. I mean he just married her 5 months ago. And to just up and leave like that wouldn't be right. "Yes Dannie I'll marry you." Everyone at the party cheered like crazy when me and Dannie kissed and Dannie put the ring on my finger. I looked over at where Tre was standing and he was gone. I noticed he was going out the kitchen door. So while no one noticed, I went after him.
"Tre?" I said. He had his back turned to me. "Con... Congratulations Kira. I'm really happy for you." I walked over to Tre, who was resting on out gate. He still wouldn't look at me. "Tre I am so sorry. I feel like such a bitch." Tre still wouldn't look at my face. "Tre look at me. Please?" Tre turned around at looked at me. His eyes were red and puffy, like he had been crying. "Tre are you crying?" "No it's just windy out here and my eyes are starting to water up." "Tre don't lie to me. You're a bad liar. We're you crying?" "Well I can't help it okay? I can't help but cry. It's bad enough I couldn't have you before, and now, you're getting married." "How do you think I felt when you got married to Claudia?" "Is that what this is Kira? Some damn competition?" What so I get married to Claudia and you get married to Dannie to get me jealous? Well, congratulations Kira, because you fucking pulled it off!" Tre stormed back into the house and slammed the door. I was left alone out there, to think about what Tre said. A few seconds later Tre came back outside. He walked up to me, grabbed my face and kissed me. "I'm sorry; I just had to kiss you again while I still had the chance." "Tre wait." I took Tre hands and I pulled him in for a hug. "I love you Tre. I really do. You're the only person I know that I can trust with anything." "I love you too Kira. I really do. And that means that if you want to be with someone else... then I'll support you." "I wish I could be with you." "I know Kira. But I love Claudia too much. I feel terrible that I did that to her." "If it makes you feel better. I won't tell a soul about us." Tre cupped my face with his hands and gave me a kiss on the forehead. Me and Tre both heard a loud crash in the house, so we both ran back in. Neither of us could believe what we saw. It was my mom and Brian in the living room. "What the hell is going on in here!" my mom yelled. "PARTY'S OVER!" Monty yelled. Everyone started to run towards the door to get out. "Could someone explain to me what's going on?" my mom said. "That's funny. We were about to ask you the same thing." Darby said. "Where have you been?" Drexel started yelling "You were supposed to be going to Grandma's, but when we called she said you weren't there and that you didn't plan to go there." "Who are you to ask me where I have been? You should be explaining to me why the hell all these damn people were in my house?" "We were throwing Kira a belated Birthday party." Ricky said. "We just wanted Kira to have some fun." "Well I hope you all have fun cleaning up this damn house." "You still haven't answered our question?" Drexel said. "Where have you been?" "And you still haven't answered my question." My mom said "Who are you to ask me where I have been?" "I'm your daughter and we're your family. You remember us don't you? We're the family you used to care about. Now you couldn't give a damn about us. You don't even care that your husband raped your daughter in her own bed." "You shut up Drexel! I am so damn sick of your mouth." "Mom don't talk to Drexel like that." Darby said. "You shut up too Darby." My mom looked over at me and Tre. "And what are you doing here?" She said. "I thought you said you were leaving. What happened? Did you realized no one was going to take you in? What your little superstar friends didn't want you around." "I'll have you know mom that in three days Kira will be on the next plane to California where she'll be far away fro you and the rapist." Darby said. "Shut up Darby." My mom yelled. "And you." She said to Tre. "How dare you show you face in this house, after what you did to m daughter, I should kill you right now." "I didn't do anything to your daughter." Tre said. Tre and Brain locked eyes. "You!" Brian yelled. Tre and Brian ran over each and started beating each other up. "Tre stop it!" Claudia screamed. Those two were really going at it. "Leave Tre alone!" I yelled. Tre was now on top of Brian punching him with all his might. Brian finally got Tre off of him and pulled out a gun. "Tre watch out!" Mike yelled. Brian fired a shot but missed then he fired another, and missed again. I could tell no one was going to try and stop this. So I ran over to Brian, twisted his right arm and tackled him to the ground, just how my dad would show me. I took the gun out of his hand and threw it as far as I could. Brian threw me on the ground and ran after Tre again. He had Tre by the throat and I thought he was going to kill him. I got up to my feet and found the gun. I closed my eyes and fired to shoot a warning shot in the air but I tripped over the table and the gun went off. I couldn't control it.
Both Tre and Brian had blank looks on their faces. They both were mortified. I didn't realize what I did until Brian and Tre both fell to the floor. Blood was all over Tre's hands. Monty, Claudia, and Adrienne were screaming their lungs out and ran over to one of the bodies on the floor.
It wasn't my fault. I didn't mean to do it. I didn't mean to shoot him. Why would I do such a thing?
Truth be told I wasn't that upset that I shot Brian in the arm. But I was devastated to see who else I shot.
How could I do such a thing? How could I do this to someone I love, someone who cares about me, one of my best friends.
Look at everyone's faces. I think I did it. I think... no I know I did it. I think... no not think... I know I killed him.
I... I killed Ricky.
