The Mysterious Guy, chapter 10
<p>"Joooooooooooooooooooooooooeeeeeeeey, Joooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwweeeeeeeeyyyyy" someone poked me in the temple.<br />"Leave me" I saw the clock 11:30am, and then I turned around.<br />"Joooo Joooo Jooo Joooooooeyyyy" Someone started playing Longview with Frank's guitar, I turned around and opened my eyes.<br />"Hey Mike, Tre, we aren't you with Billie?"<br />"Billie didn't arrive in the whole night" Mike said.<br />"Ow..."<br />"So how are you feeling" Mike asked while he was playing.<br />"Hmhm..." I didn't realize how I was feeling, but I wasn't feeling bad "fine, I guess, I feel locked up in a room ... "<br />"So let's go out!" Tre screamed exitedly.<br />"Ow... I don't feel like..."<br /> "Come on! Going out will make you happy!" Tre told me with a big smile in his face.<br />"I don't feel like Tre..." I said looking at Billie's picture.<br />"Ow... It's because Billie right?"
I nooded with my head.<br />"I'm so sorry Joey... "<br />"Look Joey this woman it's just something for a while in Billie's life, but I know you will be his heart forever" Mike said putting his hand in my shoulder.<br />"Thanks Mike..." the phone started to ring, I ran to the corridor.<br />"Yes?"<br />"Joey hey, we ran out of stuff, like milk, cheese, juice, sugar, etc, would you mind and go to the supermarket? There is money on my closet" said my mom.<br />"A... ok mom, bye"<br />"WOOOHOOO WE ARE GOING TO THE SUPERMARKET" Tre screamed as he walked out from my room.<br />"Yeah it seems so" I walked into my bathroom.<br />"What are you doing there!?!?! We were going to the supermarket, it's the other way!! Nooooooooooo" he cried<br />"Tre... I have to dress up first..."<br />"Aaaaaaaaaah ok, but hurry!"<br />Then I dressed up, I took money from my mom's closet, I took my skate and we went to the supermarket.</p>
<p>"We need... Sugar..." I said looking for it.<br />"I know were that is!! Come come follow me" Tre ran away with the cart to somewhere, we followed him.<br />
"Hey Miiiiiikee give me a ride" Tre asked him.<br />"What?" Mike replied.<br />Tre jumped into the cart and looked at Mike with a smile.<br /> "pleeeease?"<br />Mike took the cart and started running through the whole supermarket.<br />"Wooooooo" Tre screamed as they ran a corridor.<br /> "MIKE STOP" Mike stopped heavily.<br />"WH-what?!"<br />"Look at those chicks... " Tre said looking at a group of girls, they were blonde girls wearing really short skirts and topples<br /> "HOT chicks... lets go and talk to them!"<br />Mike looked at them "hmhm... ok" Tre pushed the cart/<br /> "Hello girls" Tre greeted them, they turned around and they couldn't believe that that was Tre cool.<br />"Oh my gosh, you are, Tre cool!!" one of them said.<br />"Yep I am."<br />"And you... you are the hottest bass player in the whole world!" another one screamed to Mike.<br />"So chicks do you want a ride?" Tre asked inviting them to go into the cart.<br />"Oh Tre!" they all blushed.<br />"So chickssss what's up?" Mike asked, and they started talking.<br />While I was looking for the stuff that mom asked, I smelled Billie's smell, I looked around, there was no one, but I feel it, so near me... but maybe he was now with the woman.. I started feeling depress so I took a cigarette out.
<br />While Mike and Tre were talking with the chicks Tre look at the flowers section, and there he saw Billie and that woman.<br />"Shit... emm... Mike? Mike we got a problem, look there" Tre pointed<br />"What... " he looked "shit... if Joey see them she will... "<br />"Yeah! Exactly she will die."<br /> "No that's too much."<br />"Oooh Mike... Mikey Mikey Mike..." Tre put a hand in Mikes shoulder "Love can kill..."<br />In that moment I walked to Mike and Tre
"Hey guys should I buy—"<br />"JOEY!! HEY you want a ride? Yes you want a ride" then Mike took me and he put me inside of the cart as Tre jumped out then they started running.<br />"Bye chicks it was a pleasure to talk to you!" Tre screamed back/<br />"Look! Those flowers are like the ones that Billie gave to me..." Tre jumped in front of me, so I couldn't see.<br />"Hey!! Look... at... my shirt and try to find the black spot!!"<br />"Tre... your shirt is black..."<br />"You found it! It's a really big spot!" Tre looked behind him, there was Billie and the woman.<br /> "MIKE!! A RACE!! WHO GET FIRST TO THE CANDY SECTION!"<br />
"OK!!" Mike replied and they started running, it was damn funny, we almost crashed with a girl and with a baby.<br />"Wow... that... was... awesome... " Mike said trying to breath.<br />"LOOK NERDS!!" I jumped of the cart and got a box of nerds. I hugged the box, then I put it in the cart.<br /> "lets keep looking for stuff."<br />"Ok" Mike looked at the two sides at the end of the corridor "ok cleaned area."<br />"Are you drunk guys? You're acting very weird" I said walking.<br /> "Eee... sort of..." Tre replied looking around.<br />"Ok...Well... I need some milk." I was about to turn into the milk section but Mike saw Billie and the woman so he turned me around.<br />"Noooooooooooooope this way."<br /> "But the milk is THIS way." And I tuned around again.<br />"Nope!" he turned me again.<br /> "Come come come" He pushed me to walk the other direction.<br />"Ok... "<br />"TRE WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" Mike screamed as he saw Tre trying on some lipstick in the make up section.<br />"Eee... I want to know how this tastes like... " he said with a guilty face.<br />
I walked to the make up section and looked for some black eyeliner.<br /> "I lost my eyeliner... " I tried one, I looked my self in a mirror and I put it on. While I was putting in on I saw Billie walking behind me.<br />I turned around, Tre and Mike that were like at the end of the corridor screamed.<br />"Shit!" Billie looked back, then he looked at me, I can't describe his face, he was like happy, surprised, and worried.<br />"Hey Hun I see you're feelling better." He walked to me.<br />"Hey... yeah... much better... what are you doing here?" I asked him.<br />"I'm just—"<br /> "Baby which eyeliner fits me better?" The woman said coming up with an eyeliner en each hand.<br />"Oh sorry I interrupted you."<br />"Joey this is... "<br />"Adie" she finished.<br />"Adie this is Joey."<br /> "Hey" I said shaking hands, she was pretty; she got green eyes and a cool haircut, now I know why Billie might like her...<br /> "So Hun which one fits me better?" she asked Billie.<br />"The black one" I told her.<br />"Really? Well thanks, the black fits you too." She told me and she walked away to try it up, as she walked away I did the same, staring at the floor.<br />"Joey wait... " Billie took my hand.<br />"I've waited too much Billie, and now I losted everything because of waiting... " I told him without looking at his face; I felt my eyes getting wet...<br /> "But Joey I lo—"he couldn't finish.<br />"Baby! I don't have enough money would you lend me some?" Adie asked coming up.<br />"Here you are." he gave her his credit card<br />"Thank you!" she kissed him on the lips... in that moment the world stopped, their lips together, I will never take that picture off my head, I was shocked... I didn't believe it, THAT was a nightmare, worst than a nightmare with Freddy Kruger... then she walked away.<br />Billie looked upset, and like he enjoyed it and confused, more like he enjoyed, I will never forget his expression.<br />"Well... em... Joey ... Joey?" I wasn't there; I couldn't stand seeing their lips together and in that moment I ran away crying. Billie looked for me, he ran to the principal corridor, there I was waking, he ran to me.<br />"Joey! Wait!" I started walking faster.<br /> "let me explain it! Please!" he was closer to me, then I stopped, he stopped to.<br />"You have nothing to explain Billie!" I said turning around "I saw it, and your pleasure face explain everything! That's enough" I started walking again.<br />"But Joey let me explain! I'm confused! that's it!" he said.<br />"I'm tired of waiting Billie!! I've waited a month and maybe more only to see you!, first you arent home, next this?! I've waited so long for THIS?! You... kiss... her... or her kissing you!" I said between tears "I thought you loved me..." there I collapsed crying.<br />"I love you... " he told me getting closer.<br />"Don't get closer! You don't love me like you used to, that was pure love! Now... you are confused, and that's not real love... THAT'S NOT LOVE, if you really love me you wont be confused... think about it... bye Billie... it was nice." Then I turned around and he started walking again to me.<br />"Joey!" I took my skate and went away on it, as faster as I could, I didnt wanted to see him then, it was too horrible to be true.<br />
While I ran away Mike and Tre reached Billie.<br />"Billie hey, man I'm so sorry, we saw everything... " Mike said.<br />"I lost her... forever..." he said with his eyes stucked in the direction a went away.<br />"Oh man... I'm so sorry; I really don't know what to say... " Tre told him with a hand in his shoulder.<br />"I don't want to loose her!!" he started crying Mike hugged him.<br />"Man I'm so sorry, but you didn't loose her, just give her some time... to think"<br />"No Mike!! I totally lost her; Adie kissed me in front of her! How do you want her to feel? She hate me!"<br />"Wow... you screwed it man... " Tre said.<br /> "Yeah! AAA!! Why goddamit!! Why?!" he screamed.<br />"Billie calm down, please, look, we'll talk to her, but not now, now she is as bad as you are."<br />"She is worse; this is the second time this happen to her! And she went into fucking depression, now she will again, and because of me! I'm a fucking bastard!" he said with his hands in his head.<br />"Billie here's your card, oh hey guys what's up?" Adie asked, Billie turned around and washed away his tears.<br />"Emm... Not much and you?" Mike asked.<br />"Billie whats wrong?" she asked concernd.<br />"No nothing I just had something in my eye... Adie I think I'll go home I feel sick, so see ya another day ok, bye" he walked away.<br />"Don't you want me to take you home Hun?" she screamed as he walked by.<br />"No thanks, you've done much for today..."<br />"So... How are you? Adie?" Tre asked her getting closer to her<br /></p>
<p>I was skating home as faster as I could, I couldn't believe what I just saw, this is happening again... I was scared, what I'm going to do now? While I skated home some other skaters started following me, two skaters, they started bothering me, whistling, and whispering things.<br />"Come home baby I'll give you what you need."<br />"SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU SICK PATHETIC BASTARDS!" I screamed back to them.<br />"Ooooww, the baby is crying! Come here sweetie I'll will make you cry, of pain!" One of them screamed as he took my arm.<br />
"Leave me bastard!" I screamed at him hitting him, while the other one took my other arm so I couldn't move.<br />"We got ya baby!"<br />"Yeah let's have some fun!"<br />"Leave me you sick fuckheads!" I tried to release my self but I couldn't, one of them kissed my neck, I looked to him and I spit in his face, he slapped me.<br />"Don't dare to do that again bitch, there you got her!" he pushed me to the other guy.<br />"Come here baby!" He trapped me in his arms, he smelled my neck.<br /> "Aah the smell of fear, I love that smell you know." He took my mouth aggressively, and he pushed his lips against mine, I felt his tongue pushing mine, I didn't like that! It was the worst feeling I could ever felt, after seeing Billie and Adie kissing... but this was grose, disgusting, I bite his tongue so he stop.<br />"AAAAAAAAA BITCH!" he screamed, then I kicked him on the nuts, he went straight to the floor. I turned around and the other guy was getting closer, I punched him on the face, then I took my skate and scaped as fast as I could.<br /> It was getting darker, and the skaters were behind me again, I went faster, but in a street intersection a car passed just in front of me and if I didn't stop. I crashed with the car, then I started skating again as quick as I could, but the skaters catched me. One took my arm, he pushed his fingers against my arm, harming it, he looked at me with... I don't know, an anger face, then he slapped me. He threw me into the floor, then he started kicking me. Then the other one took my arm, and pushed me up, then he slapped me again. He kicked my legs and I fell down into the floor, he took my hair and pushed me up. He punched me on the face, and he kicked me again into the floor, I was there lying in the street.. with pain all over my body, my mouth was bleeding. Then this guys, walked to me and looked at me, one kicked me on the stomach and the other one put his feet in my face, and he pushed against my face, they laughed and then went away in their skates.<br />
I was there in the middle of the dark street, bleeding, with pain all over my body, I couldn't move, I just... Couldn't"<br />"Billie... help me... " I whispered crying, why I was calling Billie? I don't know.<br /> "Someone.. help"<br />I saw a car coming, I tried to move, I couldn't, my legs didn't move, I didn't feel them, I saw the car getting closer. I took my skate with my hand, I tried to pull myself over the skate, and pushed with my hands to get out of the street, the car was getting closer and closer and I moved damn slowly.<br />"Come on arms help me" I tried hard to move, I couldn't move more, the car was almost over my legs, the lights blinded me, I took my legs with my hands and pulled them to a side then I closed my eyes. The noise of the car was over me, minutes later, I opened my eyes, the car was gone. I had all my parts, legs, arms, good. I pulled myself into the graveyard, I put my hand in the floor to move myself. I felt something breaking my skin and pain, bleed over my hand. I pulled away my hand, I saw where I just put it, and there was a broken bottle and pieces of glass all around, now all covered in blood.<br /> I looked at my hand, it was red, with a big piece of glass in the middle of my palm, It hurt like hell, I pulled slowly out
"Aaagh!!" It hurted, but ok I took a deep breath, and slowly pulled it out , I saw at it when it was out, it was huge piece of glass, now my hand was bleeding like hell, I took my t-shirt sleeve out and I covered the cut with it.<br />
I was sitting there, against a tree, in the darkness of the street, I couldn't move, I felt pain all over my body.<br />"I wish Billie was here..." I totally forgot about what happened in the market, and then I remembered.<br /> "NO!!, he can go now with Adie and he can be happy with his woman and not with this fucked up kid that skaters kicked and almost get crashed by a car and put her fucking hand in a fucken glass and now have a fucken cut that fucken hurts!!!" I started crying, like I never did before, this time I felt that the tears won't stop, I wanted to stop them, but I had more than million tears to cry. I was getting cold, this couldn't get worst, I took a cigarette, I smoked but my mouth hurt.<br />
I started to think about the situation, "now; Billie was gone, what will happen now? I love him, I cant stand being without him, but I cant stand being with him and knowing he don't love me, and kissing him, fakes kisses... without love, he only told me lies, I cant stand lies, science he went to NY , everything had been a lie , LIES!!"</p>
<p>I felt asleep there crying, I woke up crying, I woke up like at 6am with the light coming out, the light screamed in my face. I opened slowly my eyes, I was cold, I was scared, I was hurt, I was fucked up, like never I was before.
I was scared because... I don't now, this entire situation, going through that again it scared me. I tried to stand up, I was with my back against the little tree, first I bend my legs with my hands. I rose my left hand up and handled the tree with it, then I did the same with the right hand. I pushed my self up, I was about to fall down again but I hung over the tree so I didn't.<br /> I walked home, hanging my self in the trees so I didn't fall down.<br /> Finally when I arrived home everyone was asleep. I went straight into the bathroom, the sleeve that I took off it was green, now was purple. I took it of, it was a deep cut, and the borders were red. I disinfected it, and then I a band and covered it. I look my self into the mirror, I was creepy, I had cuts and scars all over my face, it was covered with blood, and dirty. I washed, softly, it hurts, I checked my self, I had scars in my arms, in my stomach, and in the legs. I filled the tub with hot water and I cleaned myself. I though about what happened yesterday... the tears started to fall off my face uncontrolled, that picture of Billie and Adie kissing, I wanted to take if off my head, but I couldn't!<br /> "Go away go away!" I said to my self as I took my head with my hands and closed my eyes.<br /> "I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER!! I WANT TO FORGET!!" I screamed to myself crying.<br />
Then I went to my bed, I pulled in and covered me, the cover, the pillows, everything had Billie's smell.<br />"Go away, go away please, stop hunting me, go away, with Adie, and be happy." I thought for a moment I saw his picture in me night table.<br />"WHY BILLIE?!?! WHY!!! I LOVE YOU!, things were so perfect, we were deeply in love, now I'm the only one loving, why things had to change?"<br />I felt again that horrible, but at the same time beautiful sensation; I was getting into a deep black hole, I was going down, I didnt have strength, and I started feeling, VERY sad.<br />"Oh no, here it comes, no no please no!! go away please no!" I started shaking, this is what I was afraid of, depression again. I stood up hardly, I opened my night table stand, I seached for the pills, they werent there. I walked to the bath room, everything was turning around around me. I hit the floor, I crawled into the bathroom. I stood up in front of the mirror. I opened it and search for the pills, I threw everything down, there were no pills! I started to get more and more scared , the feeling was getting stronger, I wished I could control my shakes but I coudn't, I went to my closet and opened the stands and threw al the clothes down, nothing!, I searched in my bag, there! I found them, I sat on my bed.<br />"My friends" I said opening the pills box, I swallow them all at once. Then I pulled into my bed, I waited, but nothing, I felt going into the hole, I had no strength, that sadnees feeling was all over me, I couldnt control it.<br />"Pleeasee" I cried "Not again! Pleaseeee e eeee" I cried, I was so scared, I hated that feeling so much.<br /> "Friends why didn't you make any effect?" I said looking at the pills box. Then I pushed my head against the pillow, holding my head, waiting to this feeling to get out.<br />
How can you drain a feeling? How can you stop, something that you can't touch? But that touch you all over, and you cant stop it.</p>
I nooded with my head.<br />"I'm so sorry Joey... "<br />"Look Joey this woman it's just something for a while in Billie's life, but I know you will be his heart forever" Mike said putting his hand in my shoulder.<br />"Thanks Mike..." the phone started to ring, I ran to the corridor.<br />"Yes?"<br />"Joey hey, we ran out of stuff, like milk, cheese, juice, sugar, etc, would you mind and go to the supermarket? There is money on my closet" said my mom.<br />"A... ok mom, bye"<br />"WOOOHOOO WE ARE GOING TO THE SUPERMARKET" Tre screamed as he walked out from my room.<br />"Yeah it seems so" I walked into my bathroom.<br />"What are you doing there!?!?! We were going to the supermarket, it's the other way!! Nooooooooooo" he cried<br />"Tre... I have to dress up first..."<br />"Aaaaaaaaaah ok, but hurry!"<br />Then I dressed up, I took money from my mom's closet, I took my skate and we went to the supermarket.</p>
<p>"We need... Sugar..." I said looking for it.<br />"I know were that is!! Come come follow me" Tre ran away with the cart to somewhere, we followed him.<br />
"Hey Miiiiiikee give me a ride" Tre asked him.<br />"What?" Mike replied.<br />Tre jumped into the cart and looked at Mike with a smile.<br /> "pleeeease?"<br />Mike took the cart and started running through the whole supermarket.<br />"Wooooooo" Tre screamed as they ran a corridor.<br /> "MIKE STOP" Mike stopped heavily.<br />"WH-what?!"<br />"Look at those chicks... " Tre said looking at a group of girls, they were blonde girls wearing really short skirts and topples<br /> "HOT chicks... lets go and talk to them!"<br />Mike looked at them "hmhm... ok" Tre pushed the cart/<br /> "Hello girls" Tre greeted them, they turned around and they couldn't believe that that was Tre cool.<br />"Oh my gosh, you are, Tre cool!!" one of them said.<br />"Yep I am."<br />"And you... you are the hottest bass player in the whole world!" another one screamed to Mike.<br />"So chicks do you want a ride?" Tre asked inviting them to go into the cart.<br />"Oh Tre!" they all blushed.<br />"So chickssss what's up?" Mike asked, and they started talking.<br />While I was looking for the stuff that mom asked, I smelled Billie's smell, I looked around, there was no one, but I feel it, so near me... but maybe he was now with the woman.. I started feeling depress so I took a cigarette out.
<br />While Mike and Tre were talking with the chicks Tre look at the flowers section, and there he saw Billie and that woman.<br />"Shit... emm... Mike? Mike we got a problem, look there" Tre pointed<br />"What... " he looked "shit... if Joey see them she will... "<br />"Yeah! Exactly she will die."<br /> "No that's too much."<br />"Oooh Mike... Mikey Mikey Mike..." Tre put a hand in Mikes shoulder "Love can kill..."<br />In that moment I walked to Mike and Tre
"Hey guys should I buy—"<br />"JOEY!! HEY you want a ride? Yes you want a ride" then Mike took me and he put me inside of the cart as Tre jumped out then they started running.<br />"Bye chicks it was a pleasure to talk to you!" Tre screamed back/<br />"Look! Those flowers are like the ones that Billie gave to me..." Tre jumped in front of me, so I couldn't see.<br />"Hey!! Look... at... my shirt and try to find the black spot!!"<br />"Tre... your shirt is black..."<br />"You found it! It's a really big spot!" Tre looked behind him, there was Billie and the woman.<br /> "MIKE!! A RACE!! WHO GET FIRST TO THE CANDY SECTION!"<br />
"OK!!" Mike replied and they started running, it was damn funny, we almost crashed with a girl and with a baby.<br />"Wow... that... was... awesome... " Mike said trying to breath.<br />"LOOK NERDS!!" I jumped of the cart and got a box of nerds. I hugged the box, then I put it in the cart.<br /> "lets keep looking for stuff."<br />"Ok" Mike looked at the two sides at the end of the corridor "ok cleaned area."<br />"Are you drunk guys? You're acting very weird" I said walking.<br /> "Eee... sort of..." Tre replied looking around.<br />"Ok...Well... I need some milk." I was about to turn into the milk section but Mike saw Billie and the woman so he turned me around.<br />"Noooooooooooooope this way."<br /> "But the milk is THIS way." And I tuned around again.<br />"Nope!" he turned me again.<br /> "Come come come" He pushed me to walk the other direction.<br />"Ok... "<br />"TRE WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" Mike screamed as he saw Tre trying on some lipstick in the make up section.<br />"Eee... I want to know how this tastes like... " he said with a guilty face.<br />
I walked to the make up section and looked for some black eyeliner.<br /> "I lost my eyeliner... " I tried one, I looked my self in a mirror and I put it on. While I was putting in on I saw Billie walking behind me.<br />I turned around, Tre and Mike that were like at the end of the corridor screamed.<br />"Shit!" Billie looked back, then he looked at me, I can't describe his face, he was like happy, surprised, and worried.<br />"Hey Hun I see you're feelling better." He walked to me.<br />"Hey... yeah... much better... what are you doing here?" I asked him.<br />"I'm just—"<br /> "Baby which eyeliner fits me better?" The woman said coming up with an eyeliner en each hand.<br />"Oh sorry I interrupted you."<br />"Joey this is... "<br />"Adie" she finished.<br />"Adie this is Joey."<br /> "Hey" I said shaking hands, she was pretty; she got green eyes and a cool haircut, now I know why Billie might like her...<br /> "So Hun which one fits me better?" she asked Billie.<br />"The black one" I told her.<br />"Really? Well thanks, the black fits you too." She told me and she walked away to try it up, as she walked away I did the same, staring at the floor.<br />"Joey wait... " Billie took my hand.<br />"I've waited too much Billie, and now I losted everything because of waiting... " I told him without looking at his face; I felt my eyes getting wet...<br /> "But Joey I lo—"he couldn't finish.<br />"Baby! I don't have enough money would you lend me some?" Adie asked coming up.<br />"Here you are." he gave her his credit card<br />"Thank you!" she kissed him on the lips... in that moment the world stopped, their lips together, I will never take that picture off my head, I was shocked... I didn't believe it, THAT was a nightmare, worst than a nightmare with Freddy Kruger... then she walked away.<br />Billie looked upset, and like he enjoyed it and confused, more like he enjoyed, I will never forget his expression.<br />"Well... em... Joey ... Joey?" I wasn't there; I couldn't stand seeing their lips together and in that moment I ran away crying. Billie looked for me, he ran to the principal corridor, there I was waking, he ran to me.<br />"Joey! Wait!" I started walking faster.<br /> "let me explain it! Please!" he was closer to me, then I stopped, he stopped to.<br />"You have nothing to explain Billie!" I said turning around "I saw it, and your pleasure face explain everything! That's enough" I started walking again.<br />"But Joey let me explain! I'm confused! that's it!" he said.<br />"I'm tired of waiting Billie!! I've waited a month and maybe more only to see you!, first you arent home, next this?! I've waited so long for THIS?! You... kiss... her... or her kissing you!" I said between tears "I thought you loved me..." there I collapsed crying.<br />"I love you... " he told me getting closer.<br />"Don't get closer! You don't love me like you used to, that was pure love! Now... you are confused, and that's not real love... THAT'S NOT LOVE, if you really love me you wont be confused... think about it... bye Billie... it was nice." Then I turned around and he started walking again to me.<br />"Joey!" I took my skate and went away on it, as faster as I could, I didnt wanted to see him then, it was too horrible to be true.<br />
While I ran away Mike and Tre reached Billie.<br />"Billie hey, man I'm so sorry, we saw everything... " Mike said.<br />"I lost her... forever..." he said with his eyes stucked in the direction a went away.<br />"Oh man... I'm so sorry; I really don't know what to say... " Tre told him with a hand in his shoulder.<br />"I don't want to loose her!!" he started crying Mike hugged him.<br />"Man I'm so sorry, but you didn't loose her, just give her some time... to think"<br />"No Mike!! I totally lost her; Adie kissed me in front of her! How do you want her to feel? She hate me!"<br />"Wow... you screwed it man... " Tre said.<br /> "Yeah! AAA!! Why goddamit!! Why?!" he screamed.<br />"Billie calm down, please, look, we'll talk to her, but not now, now she is as bad as you are."<br />"She is worse; this is the second time this happen to her! And she went into fucking depression, now she will again, and because of me! I'm a fucking bastard!" he said with his hands in his head.<br />"Billie here's your card, oh hey guys what's up?" Adie asked, Billie turned around and washed away his tears.<br />"Emm... Not much and you?" Mike asked.<br />"Billie whats wrong?" she asked concernd.<br />"No nothing I just had something in my eye... Adie I think I'll go home I feel sick, so see ya another day ok, bye" he walked away.<br />"Don't you want me to take you home Hun?" she screamed as he walked by.<br />"No thanks, you've done much for today..."<br />"So... How are you? Adie?" Tre asked her getting closer to her<br /></p>
<p>I was skating home as faster as I could, I couldn't believe what I just saw, this is happening again... I was scared, what I'm going to do now? While I skated home some other skaters started following me, two skaters, they started bothering me, whistling, and whispering things.<br />"Come home baby I'll give you what you need."<br />"SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU SICK PATHETIC BASTARDS!" I screamed back to them.<br />"Ooooww, the baby is crying! Come here sweetie I'll will make you cry, of pain!" One of them screamed as he took my arm.<br />
"Leave me bastard!" I screamed at him hitting him, while the other one took my other arm so I couldn't move.<br />"We got ya baby!"<br />"Yeah let's have some fun!"<br />"Leave me you sick fuckheads!" I tried to release my self but I couldn't, one of them kissed my neck, I looked to him and I spit in his face, he slapped me.<br />"Don't dare to do that again bitch, there you got her!" he pushed me to the other guy.<br />"Come here baby!" He trapped me in his arms, he smelled my neck.<br /> "Aah the smell of fear, I love that smell you know." He took my mouth aggressively, and he pushed his lips against mine, I felt his tongue pushing mine, I didn't like that! It was the worst feeling I could ever felt, after seeing Billie and Adie kissing... but this was grose, disgusting, I bite his tongue so he stop.<br />"AAAAAAAAA BITCH!" he screamed, then I kicked him on the nuts, he went straight to the floor. I turned around and the other guy was getting closer, I punched him on the face, then I took my skate and scaped as fast as I could.<br /> It was getting darker, and the skaters were behind me again, I went faster, but in a street intersection a car passed just in front of me and if I didn't stop. I crashed with the car, then I started skating again as quick as I could, but the skaters catched me. One took my arm, he pushed his fingers against my arm, harming it, he looked at me with... I don't know, an anger face, then he slapped me. He threw me into the floor, then he started kicking me. Then the other one took my arm, and pushed me up, then he slapped me again. He kicked my legs and I fell down into the floor, he took my hair and pushed me up. He punched me on the face, and he kicked me again into the floor, I was there lying in the street.. with pain all over my body, my mouth was bleeding. Then this guys, walked to me and looked at me, one kicked me on the stomach and the other one put his feet in my face, and he pushed against my face, they laughed and then went away in their skates.<br />
I was there in the middle of the dark street, bleeding, with pain all over my body, I couldn't move, I just... Couldn't"<br />"Billie... help me... " I whispered crying, why I was calling Billie? I don't know.<br /> "Someone.. help"<br />I saw a car coming, I tried to move, I couldn't, my legs didn't move, I didn't feel them, I saw the car getting closer. I took my skate with my hand, I tried to pull myself over the skate, and pushed with my hands to get out of the street, the car was getting closer and closer and I moved damn slowly.<br />"Come on arms help me" I tried hard to move, I couldn't move more, the car was almost over my legs, the lights blinded me, I took my legs with my hands and pulled them to a side then I closed my eyes. The noise of the car was over me, minutes later, I opened my eyes, the car was gone. I had all my parts, legs, arms, good. I pulled myself into the graveyard, I put my hand in the floor to move myself. I felt something breaking my skin and pain, bleed over my hand. I pulled away my hand, I saw where I just put it, and there was a broken bottle and pieces of glass all around, now all covered in blood.<br /> I looked at my hand, it was red, with a big piece of glass in the middle of my palm, It hurt like hell, I pulled slowly out
"Aaagh!!" It hurted, but ok I took a deep breath, and slowly pulled it out , I saw at it when it was out, it was huge piece of glass, now my hand was bleeding like hell, I took my t-shirt sleeve out and I covered the cut with it.<br />
I was sitting there, against a tree, in the darkness of the street, I couldn't move, I felt pain all over my body.<br />"I wish Billie was here..." I totally forgot about what happened in the market, and then I remembered.<br /> "NO!!, he can go now with Adie and he can be happy with his woman and not with this fucked up kid that skaters kicked and almost get crashed by a car and put her fucking hand in a fucken glass and now have a fucken cut that fucken hurts!!!" I started crying, like I never did before, this time I felt that the tears won't stop, I wanted to stop them, but I had more than million tears to cry. I was getting cold, this couldn't get worst, I took a cigarette, I smoked but my mouth hurt.<br />
I started to think about the situation, "now; Billie was gone, what will happen now? I love him, I cant stand being without him, but I cant stand being with him and knowing he don't love me, and kissing him, fakes kisses... without love, he only told me lies, I cant stand lies, science he went to NY , everything had been a lie , LIES!!"</p>
<p>I felt asleep there crying, I woke up crying, I woke up like at 6am with the light coming out, the light screamed in my face. I opened slowly my eyes, I was cold, I was scared, I was hurt, I was fucked up, like never I was before.
I was scared because... I don't now, this entire situation, going through that again it scared me. I tried to stand up, I was with my back against the little tree, first I bend my legs with my hands. I rose my left hand up and handled the tree with it, then I did the same with the right hand. I pushed my self up, I was about to fall down again but I hung over the tree so I didn't.<br /> I walked home, hanging my self in the trees so I didn't fall down.<br /> Finally when I arrived home everyone was asleep. I went straight into the bathroom, the sleeve that I took off it was green, now was purple. I took it of, it was a deep cut, and the borders were red. I disinfected it, and then I a band and covered it. I look my self into the mirror, I was creepy, I had cuts and scars all over my face, it was covered with blood, and dirty. I washed, softly, it hurts, I checked my self, I had scars in my arms, in my stomach, and in the legs. I filled the tub with hot water and I cleaned myself. I though about what happened yesterday... the tears started to fall off my face uncontrolled, that picture of Billie and Adie kissing, I wanted to take if off my head, but I couldn't!<br /> "Go away go away!" I said to my self as I took my head with my hands and closed my eyes.<br /> "I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER!! I WANT TO FORGET!!" I screamed to myself crying.<br />
Then I went to my bed, I pulled in and covered me, the cover, the pillows, everything had Billie's smell.<br />"Go away, go away please, stop hunting me, go away, with Adie, and be happy." I thought for a moment I saw his picture in me night table.<br />"WHY BILLIE?!?! WHY!!! I LOVE YOU!, things were so perfect, we were deeply in love, now I'm the only one loving, why things had to change?"<br />I felt again that horrible, but at the same time beautiful sensation; I was getting into a deep black hole, I was going down, I didnt have strength, and I started feeling, VERY sad.<br />"Oh no, here it comes, no no please no!! go away please no!" I started shaking, this is what I was afraid of, depression again. I stood up hardly, I opened my night table stand, I seached for the pills, they werent there. I walked to the bath room, everything was turning around around me. I hit the floor, I crawled into the bathroom. I stood up in front of the mirror. I opened it and search for the pills, I threw everything down, there were no pills! I started to get more and more scared , the feeling was getting stronger, I wished I could control my shakes but I coudn't, I went to my closet and opened the stands and threw al the clothes down, nothing!, I searched in my bag, there! I found them, I sat on my bed.<br />"My friends" I said opening the pills box, I swallow them all at once. Then I pulled into my bed, I waited, but nothing, I felt going into the hole, I had no strength, that sadnees feeling was all over me, I couldnt control it.<br />"Pleeasee" I cried "Not again! Pleaseeee e eeee" I cried, I was so scared, I hated that feeling so much.<br /> "Friends why didn't you make any effect?" I said looking at the pills box. Then I pushed my head against the pillow, holding my head, waiting to this feeling to get out.<br />
How can you drain a feeling? How can you stop, something that you can't touch? But that touch you all over, and you cant stop it.</p>
