I Wish I Could Tell You..., chapter 10
The following day, Jessica, Tre, Mike and Billie Joe all met at Mike's house, and ordered pizza. While they were all watching TV, waiting for the pizza to arrive, Tre remembered something.
"Shit, I forgot the beer." Tre laughed, although he was frustrated.
"Better get 'em now." Billie said, changing his position on the couch.
"Tre I'll drive you to your house to get them." Mike offered as he stood up.
"Sure, lets go." Tre said eagerly as he jumped up.
"Billie, get the hot tub ready while we're gone." Mike called over his shoulder as he left the house with Tre.
"So, it's just you and me now." Jessica said.
"Yeah, I'd better start on the hot tub." Billie said, brushing off Jessica's comment as he got up from the couch and headed for the backyard.
"I'll help you." Jessica said, following Billie outside.
As Billie leaned over to turn on the water, Jessica came up behind him and put her arms around his waist. Billie stood up straight and turned to face her, and then she kissed him. At first it was a light kiss, but as it got more passionate, Billie pulled away.
"We shouldn't even be doing this, Jess." Billie said.
"Billie, I thought this is what you wanted." Jessica said. What about yesterday?" she asked.
"Jess, I do want this. I-I'm just scared, alright?" Billie sighed.
"Well don't be." Jessica said as she pushed Billie Joe into the nearly full hot tub.
"Jessica!" Billie laughed.
Jessica laughed too, and Billie waded over to the edge of the hot tub where Jessica was leaning.
"Come here Jess." Billie said.
"No! You're gonna pull me in!" Jessica said, while trying not to laugh.
Billie shook the water out of his hair. "No, I wanna kiss you." he said innocently.
Jessica thought for a minute, then leaned over the edge and Billie kissed her... before pulling her into the hot tub!
"Ahh! I knew it!" Jessica half yelled, half laughed.
Billie put his arms around her waist and kissed her again. Jessica ruffled Billie's wet hair as they made out.
I know that we're only friends,
I hope this feeling never ends.
If I could only hold you,
It's the only thing I wanna do
But Billie's happy thoughts were broken by the sight of Tre and Mike watching him and Jessica make out from the back door. Billie could tell by their expressions that this wasn't going to be a good night. Mike stepped closer to the two of them in the hot tub.
"Get out." Mike said, eyes focused on Billie Joe His voice was so firm, yet so calm, and it scared the shit out of Billie Joe.
Billie climbed out of the hot tub. All that was running through his head was, Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
"What the fuck Billie Joe!" Mike yelled, "We haven't hung out in forever, and this is how you come back into my life!" he yelled.
"Mike, I can explain this." Billie said, his voice trembling.
Mike punched Billie in the face.
"Jeeze Mike! What the hell was that for?!" Billie said angrily, hitting Mike back as blood started running from his nose.
Mike and Billie were soon rolling on the grass, trying to get as many punches out of each other, and Mike was winning by far.
"Mike! Get the fuck off him!" Tre yelled.
"Mike stop it!" Jessica yelled, tears running down her face.
Mike stood up. "Jessica, how could you do this to me?" he asked.
"Mike, let's talk inside." Jessica said, her voice coming out as a whisper.
Mike followed Jessica into his house, which left Tre and Billie, who was still laying on the grass, alone. Tre walked over to where Billie was laying.
"Billie, get up." Tre said. But Billie just laid there on his side and didn't answer. Tre kneeled down beside Billie Joe and pushed him onto his back. He looked at Billie's face. He had a fat lip, a bloody nose, and a bruise on his cheek. Tears were streaming down Billie's face.
"You okay?" Tre asked.
Billie sighed, "I'll be alright."
"Well get up." Tre said again, holding his hand out to Billie.
Billie ignored Tre's hand, and got up on his own. Then Billie walked into Mike's house, got his shoes, and left with Tre following him.
"Aren't you cold?" Tre asked as they walked.
Billie just shrugged his shoulders, although he was soaking wet, and it was a chilly night.
Billie got to his house, unlocked the door, and Tre proceeded to follow him upstairs and into the bathroom where Billie Joe took off his clothes and stepped into the shower. Tre sat on the counter as he waited for Billie to finish. After half an hour, Billie finally came out, wrapped a towel around himself, and sat on the edge of the bath.
"Ready to talk?" Tre asked, hopping off the counter and sitting on the lid of the toilet.
"Tre, I'm sorry." Billie apologized, looking at the floor.
"I know you are, Billie." Tre said.
"I don't deserve you." said Billie.
"You're right, you don't." Tre agreed.
Billie sighed.
"So what happened?" Tre asked.
Tre, she pushed me in, and then I pulled her in, and then we-we just started kissing!" Billie explained.
"Billie, have you and Jessica been seeing each other secretly?? Tre asked, "I just want the truth, alright." he added.
Billie paused. Shit. This is it. I can't lie to his face now. Fuck, he's gonna hate me. Everyone hates me now. Mike, now Tre, and who knows what Jessica thinks of me. She probably hates me too 'cause I made Mike hate her... Well maybe not hate, but dislike. Fuck, I have to tell Tre the truth...
"Well..." Tre said impatiently.
"Remember yesterday when you had to leave school early for that appointment?" Billie began.
"Yeah... " Tre replied.
"Well, Jessica wanted me to come over to her house after school to "talk to me", so I went. She told me to wait in her room, and when she came back, she was naked! She told me she loved me, and that she wanted to be with me. And-and then, we had... sex, and then I went to your house." by the time Billie was finished explaining, he was crying.
"You two had sex yesterday!?! Billie, you make me sick! I fucking trusted you, baby!" Tre yelled.
"I know, I know Tre. I'm sorry." Billie said.
"That's why you were so uptight at my house yesterday! It fucking adds up!" Tre continued to yell.
"Tre... " Billie said.
"Billie, do you love her?" Tre asked in a serious tone.
"Well a bit, but Tre, I want you." Billie said, looking into Tre's eyes.
"I have to trust you Billie Joe, and right now, I don't." Tre sighed.
"But Tre, I care about you, I love you!" Billie pleaded.
"I dunno Billie, I just don't feel the same anymore. I mean, I care about you, but I'm not sure I love you." Tre admitted.
"Tre, I can change, we can make this work babe!" Billie begged.
"Billie, how do I know you're not gonna cheat on me again, just like you cheated on Jessica. You're just repeating yourself, Billie. You cheated on Jessica, and you broke up. Now you cheated on me, and... " Tre shrugged, "Look at us. You're repeating yourself." he finished.
Billie began to cry again, "Tre, are we breaking up?" Billie asked.
"Yeah, this can't work out Billie." Tre said.
"Fuck, I screwed up big." Billie sighed.
"Still friends though, right?" Tre smiled.
"Of course." Billie replied.
"It was fun while it lasted." Tre said, getting up.
"Yeah." Billie agreed, the reality still sinking in.
"Well, are you gonna be okay?" Tre asked, studying Billie's face.
"Yeah, Mike fucked me up pretty good, but I'll be fine, thanks for asking." Billie answered with a small smile.
"Alright then, I'll see you later." Tre chuckled, "Oh yeah, and make sure to explain to Mike tomorrow." Tre said before heading out the door.
"I will," Billie muttered to himself.
Billie went to his room, got dressed and collapsed onto his unmade bed. Billie was thinking about everything. He thought about Jessica, he thought about Mike, and he thought about life. But most of all, he thought about Tre - the one he loved.
Well I've got some scattered pictures
Lying on my bedroom floor
Reminds me of the times we've shared
Makes me wish that you were here
Now it seems I've forgotten my purpose in this life.
All the songs have been erased.
Guess I've learned from my mistakes
Open the past and present.
Now and we are there.
Story to tell and I am listening.
Open the past and present.
And the future too.
It's all I've got and I'm giving it up to you.
If you got no one
And I've got no place to go,
Would it be alright?
Could it be alright?
"Shit, I forgot the beer." Tre laughed, although he was frustrated.
"Better get 'em now." Billie said, changing his position on the couch.
"Tre I'll drive you to your house to get them." Mike offered as he stood up.
"Sure, lets go." Tre said eagerly as he jumped up.
"Billie, get the hot tub ready while we're gone." Mike called over his shoulder as he left the house with Tre.
"So, it's just you and me now." Jessica said.
"Yeah, I'd better start on the hot tub." Billie said, brushing off Jessica's comment as he got up from the couch and headed for the backyard.
"I'll help you." Jessica said, following Billie outside.
As Billie leaned over to turn on the water, Jessica came up behind him and put her arms around his waist. Billie stood up straight and turned to face her, and then she kissed him. At first it was a light kiss, but as it got more passionate, Billie pulled away.
"We shouldn't even be doing this, Jess." Billie said.
"Billie, I thought this is what you wanted." Jessica said. What about yesterday?" she asked.
"Jess, I do want this. I-I'm just scared, alright?" Billie sighed.
"Well don't be." Jessica said as she pushed Billie Joe into the nearly full hot tub.
"Jessica!" Billie laughed.
Jessica laughed too, and Billie waded over to the edge of the hot tub where Jessica was leaning.
"Come here Jess." Billie said.
"No! You're gonna pull me in!" Jessica said, while trying not to laugh.
Billie shook the water out of his hair. "No, I wanna kiss you." he said innocently.
Jessica thought for a minute, then leaned over the edge and Billie kissed her... before pulling her into the hot tub!
"Ahh! I knew it!" Jessica half yelled, half laughed.
Billie put his arms around her waist and kissed her again. Jessica ruffled Billie's wet hair as they made out.
I know that we're only friends,
I hope this feeling never ends.
If I could only hold you,
It's the only thing I wanna do
But Billie's happy thoughts were broken by the sight of Tre and Mike watching him and Jessica make out from the back door. Billie could tell by their expressions that this wasn't going to be a good night. Mike stepped closer to the two of them in the hot tub.
"Get out." Mike said, eyes focused on Billie Joe His voice was so firm, yet so calm, and it scared the shit out of Billie Joe.
Billie climbed out of the hot tub. All that was running through his head was, Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
"What the fuck Billie Joe!" Mike yelled, "We haven't hung out in forever, and this is how you come back into my life!" he yelled.
"Mike, I can explain this." Billie said, his voice trembling.
Mike punched Billie in the face.
"Jeeze Mike! What the hell was that for?!" Billie said angrily, hitting Mike back as blood started running from his nose.
Mike and Billie were soon rolling on the grass, trying to get as many punches out of each other, and Mike was winning by far.
"Mike! Get the fuck off him!" Tre yelled.
"Mike stop it!" Jessica yelled, tears running down her face.
Mike stood up. "Jessica, how could you do this to me?" he asked.
"Mike, let's talk inside." Jessica said, her voice coming out as a whisper.
Mike followed Jessica into his house, which left Tre and Billie, who was still laying on the grass, alone. Tre walked over to where Billie was laying.
"Billie, get up." Tre said. But Billie just laid there on his side and didn't answer. Tre kneeled down beside Billie Joe and pushed him onto his back. He looked at Billie's face. He had a fat lip, a bloody nose, and a bruise on his cheek. Tears were streaming down Billie's face.
"You okay?" Tre asked.
Billie sighed, "I'll be alright."
"Well get up." Tre said again, holding his hand out to Billie.
Billie ignored Tre's hand, and got up on his own. Then Billie walked into Mike's house, got his shoes, and left with Tre following him.
"Aren't you cold?" Tre asked as they walked.
Billie just shrugged his shoulders, although he was soaking wet, and it was a chilly night.
Billie got to his house, unlocked the door, and Tre proceeded to follow him upstairs and into the bathroom where Billie Joe took off his clothes and stepped into the shower. Tre sat on the counter as he waited for Billie to finish. After half an hour, Billie finally came out, wrapped a towel around himself, and sat on the edge of the bath.
"Ready to talk?" Tre asked, hopping off the counter and sitting on the lid of the toilet.
"Tre, I'm sorry." Billie apologized, looking at the floor.
"I know you are, Billie." Tre said.
"I don't deserve you." said Billie.
"You're right, you don't." Tre agreed.
Billie sighed.
"So what happened?" Tre asked.
Tre, she pushed me in, and then I pulled her in, and then we-we just started kissing!" Billie explained.
"Billie, have you and Jessica been seeing each other secretly?? Tre asked, "I just want the truth, alright." he added.
Billie paused. Shit. This is it. I can't lie to his face now. Fuck, he's gonna hate me. Everyone hates me now. Mike, now Tre, and who knows what Jessica thinks of me. She probably hates me too 'cause I made Mike hate her... Well maybe not hate, but dislike. Fuck, I have to tell Tre the truth...
"Well..." Tre said impatiently.
"Remember yesterday when you had to leave school early for that appointment?" Billie began.
"Yeah... " Tre replied.
"Well, Jessica wanted me to come over to her house after school to "talk to me", so I went. She told me to wait in her room, and when she came back, she was naked! She told me she loved me, and that she wanted to be with me. And-and then, we had... sex, and then I went to your house." by the time Billie was finished explaining, he was crying.
"You two had sex yesterday!?! Billie, you make me sick! I fucking trusted you, baby!" Tre yelled.
"I know, I know Tre. I'm sorry." Billie said.
"That's why you were so uptight at my house yesterday! It fucking adds up!" Tre continued to yell.
"Tre... " Billie said.
"Billie, do you love her?" Tre asked in a serious tone.
"Well a bit, but Tre, I want you." Billie said, looking into Tre's eyes.
"I have to trust you Billie Joe, and right now, I don't." Tre sighed.
"But Tre, I care about you, I love you!" Billie pleaded.
"I dunno Billie, I just don't feel the same anymore. I mean, I care about you, but I'm not sure I love you." Tre admitted.
"Tre, I can change, we can make this work babe!" Billie begged.
"Billie, how do I know you're not gonna cheat on me again, just like you cheated on Jessica. You're just repeating yourself, Billie. You cheated on Jessica, and you broke up. Now you cheated on me, and... " Tre shrugged, "Look at us. You're repeating yourself." he finished.
Billie began to cry again, "Tre, are we breaking up?" Billie asked.
"Yeah, this can't work out Billie." Tre said.
"Fuck, I screwed up big." Billie sighed.
"Still friends though, right?" Tre smiled.
"Of course." Billie replied.
"It was fun while it lasted." Tre said, getting up.
"Yeah." Billie agreed, the reality still sinking in.
"Well, are you gonna be okay?" Tre asked, studying Billie's face.
"Yeah, Mike fucked me up pretty good, but I'll be fine, thanks for asking." Billie answered with a small smile.
"Alright then, I'll see you later." Tre chuckled, "Oh yeah, and make sure to explain to Mike tomorrow." Tre said before heading out the door.
"I will," Billie muttered to himself.
Billie went to his room, got dressed and collapsed onto his unmade bed. Billie was thinking about everything. He thought about Jessica, he thought about Mike, and he thought about life. But most of all, he thought about Tre - the one he loved.
Well I've got some scattered pictures
Lying on my bedroom floor
Reminds me of the times we've shared
Makes me wish that you were here
Now it seems I've forgotten my purpose in this life.
All the songs have been erased.
Guess I've learned from my mistakes
Open the past and present.
Now and we are there.
Story to tell and I am listening.
Open the past and present.
And the future too.
It's all I've got and I'm giving it up to you.
If you got no one
And I've got no place to go,
Would it be alright?
Could it be alright?
