I Wish I Could Tell You..., chapter 6
The next evening, Billie Joe called Tre on the phone.
"Hello?" Tre answered.
"Hi Tre, it's Billie Joe." Billie said.
"Oh, hey." Tre said.
"Do you wanna hang out at my place?" Billie asked.
"No." Tre answered.
"Why? Are you okay?" Billie asked.
"No." Tre repeated.
"Well...do you wanna talk about it?" Billie asked.
"I'm fucking sick of trying to talk to you. You just don't understand how I feel right now Billie." Tre said.
"Tre, if this is about yesterday, I'm really sorry. I really didn't mean to hurt you." said Billie.
"Is it because I'm gay? Is that it?" Tre said.
"What?" Billie asked in shock.
"Do you not want to be with me because I'm gay?" Tre asked.
"Tre! Don't even think that! That doesn't change anything about us!" Billie said.
"Well, okay." Tre sighed.
"I love you Tre, baby." Billie said.
"But everyone seems to hate me, Billie. Even my parents." said Tre.
"Did you tell them?" Billie asked.
"What? That I'm gay?" Tre asked.
"Yeah." Billie answered.
"Well...no. They'd hate me even more than they already do." said Tre.
"Tre, you have to tell them. Don't keep everything inside, or you're gonna explode one day, 'kay babe?" Billie said softly.
"But Billie! You don't understand! I hate my life." said Tre.
"Don't go hurtin' yourself now Tre, that's not gonna help you." Billie said.
"I know, I know, I know." said Tre.
"Good." said Billie.
"Billie Joe?" Tre asked after a pause.
"Yeah Tre?" Billie answered.
"I love you." Tre said.
"And I love you too, Tre." said Billie.
"Billie, why can't you love me like you used to love me? Remember when we were laying on my bed, it was raining outside...then I got on top of you. We totally connected, Billie. Not just 'cause of the rad sex we had, but because we really loved eachother. For real." Tre said.
"I know Tre. I know things have changed. And yes, the sex was rad, and yes we were really in love. And I still am in love with you, Tre. I love you so much, and you know that." Billie said.
"Remember when you told me that you can't love both me and Jessica?" asked Tre.
"Yeah, I remember." Billie replied.
"Well now it's only me, right?" Tre asked.
"Uh, um yeah. Yeah, you're the only person I love, Tre." Billie answered hesitantly, not wanting to hurt Tre again by telling him he still had feelings for Jessica.
"So why don't you be my boyfriend?" asked Tre.
"You know, you're right, Tre." Billie admitted with a sigh.
"I am?" asked Tre.
"Yeah, you are. I love you, you love me. Yay, lets be together." Billie said.
"Really? You don't sound serious, you sound kinda apathetic Bill." Tre said.
"I'm fucking serious babe!" Billie laughed.
"Well, alright then come over right now!" Tre said excitedly.
"'Kay, I'll be right over, Tre." Billie said.
Billie and Tre said bye, and then hung up their phones.
Billie slipped on his battered black Converse shoes, went out the door, and started down the sidewalk to Tre's house. As Billie walked with his hand in his pockets, thoughts were running through his head. Thoughts like: 'Why did I tell Tre that I don't have feelings for Jessica anymore? Of course I still have feelings for her! Fuck, we were together for two months! But how can I tell Tre? I don't wanna hurt him again. Should I tell him? No. I'll keep it to myself. But that's exactly what I told Tre not to do. Aw fuck, what'd I get myself into!?'
Billie reached Tre's front door and rang the doorbell. Tre came to the door quickly.
"Billie!" Tre said as he gave Billie Joe a huge hug.
"Tre!" Billie said whilst hugging Tre back.
"Come in!" Tre said, motioning for Billie to come inside the house.
"Are your parents home?" Billie asked.
"Yeah, but we'll be quiet...right?" Tre said with a seductive smile creeping across his face.
Tre took Billie's hand and led him upstairs to his bedroom, where he shut the door behind him.
*
Billie and Tre laid there beside eachother on the bed, breathing hard.
"So much for not having sex." Billie chuckled.
"Yeah, I'm glad you changed your mind Billie." said Tre with a smile.
"Me too." said Billie. He smiled back
Billie and Tre lay comfortably in eachother's arms until they were interrupted by the sound of Billie's cell phone ringing.
"Shit." Billie said, rolling out of bed to answer his phone.
"Hello?" Billie said.
"Billie, where are you?" it was Billie's step-dad, Brad.
"I'm at Tre's house." Billie answered.
"Well your mom and I haven't seen you in three days, so come home now." Brad said.
"I'll come back before school tomorrow." Billie pleaded.
"Alright then, you make sure you do." Brad said.
"Okay, bye already." Billie said, annoyed.
"Don't give me that attitutde Billie Joe." Brad snapped.
"Whatever." Billie said, then he hung up. Billie began getting dressed.
"Do you have to go?" asked Tre.
"No, I can stay, but I have to go back home before school. Brad's such an idiot, I hate him." Billie complained.
Tre got up and got his clothes on also. In a moment, both boys were laying down on the bed in eachother's arms once again. But not for long. Billie Joe's cell phone rang again a few minutes later.
"Aw fuck, I hope it's not Brad again." Billie groaned as he got up.
Billie sighed,"Hello?" he said.
"Hi, um...Billie?" a familiar voice said on the other end of the line, and it sure didn't sound like Brad...
"Hello?" Tre answered.
"Hi Tre, it's Billie Joe." Billie said.
"Oh, hey." Tre said.
"Do you wanna hang out at my place?" Billie asked.
"No." Tre answered.
"Why? Are you okay?" Billie asked.
"No." Tre repeated.
"Well...do you wanna talk about it?" Billie asked.
"I'm fucking sick of trying to talk to you. You just don't understand how I feel right now Billie." Tre said.
"Tre, if this is about yesterday, I'm really sorry. I really didn't mean to hurt you." said Billie.
"Is it because I'm gay? Is that it?" Tre said.
"What?" Billie asked in shock.
"Do you not want to be with me because I'm gay?" Tre asked.
"Tre! Don't even think that! That doesn't change anything about us!" Billie said.
"Well, okay." Tre sighed.
"I love you Tre, baby." Billie said.
"But everyone seems to hate me, Billie. Even my parents." said Tre.
"Did you tell them?" Billie asked.
"What? That I'm gay?" Tre asked.
"Yeah." Billie answered.
"Well...no. They'd hate me even more than they already do." said Tre.
"Tre, you have to tell them. Don't keep everything inside, or you're gonna explode one day, 'kay babe?" Billie said softly.
"But Billie! You don't understand! I hate my life." said Tre.
"Don't go hurtin' yourself now Tre, that's not gonna help you." Billie said.
"I know, I know, I know." said Tre.
"Good." said Billie.
"Billie Joe?" Tre asked after a pause.
"Yeah Tre?" Billie answered.
"I love you." Tre said.
"And I love you too, Tre." said Billie.
"Billie, why can't you love me like you used to love me? Remember when we were laying on my bed, it was raining outside...then I got on top of you. We totally connected, Billie. Not just 'cause of the rad sex we had, but because we really loved eachother. For real." Tre said.
"I know Tre. I know things have changed. And yes, the sex was rad, and yes we were really in love. And I still am in love with you, Tre. I love you so much, and you know that." Billie said.
"Remember when you told me that you can't love both me and Jessica?" asked Tre.
"Yeah, I remember." Billie replied.
"Well now it's only me, right?" Tre asked.
"Uh, um yeah. Yeah, you're the only person I love, Tre." Billie answered hesitantly, not wanting to hurt Tre again by telling him he still had feelings for Jessica.
"So why don't you be my boyfriend?" asked Tre.
"You know, you're right, Tre." Billie admitted with a sigh.
"I am?" asked Tre.
"Yeah, you are. I love you, you love me. Yay, lets be together." Billie said.
"Really? You don't sound serious, you sound kinda apathetic Bill." Tre said.
"I'm fucking serious babe!" Billie laughed.
"Well, alright then come over right now!" Tre said excitedly.
"'Kay, I'll be right over, Tre." Billie said.
Billie and Tre said bye, and then hung up their phones.
Billie slipped on his battered black Converse shoes, went out the door, and started down the sidewalk to Tre's house. As Billie walked with his hand in his pockets, thoughts were running through his head. Thoughts like: 'Why did I tell Tre that I don't have feelings for Jessica anymore? Of course I still have feelings for her! Fuck, we were together for two months! But how can I tell Tre? I don't wanna hurt him again. Should I tell him? No. I'll keep it to myself. But that's exactly what I told Tre not to do. Aw fuck, what'd I get myself into!?'
Billie reached Tre's front door and rang the doorbell. Tre came to the door quickly.
"Billie!" Tre said as he gave Billie Joe a huge hug.
"Tre!" Billie said whilst hugging Tre back.
"Come in!" Tre said, motioning for Billie to come inside the house.
"Are your parents home?" Billie asked.
"Yeah, but we'll be quiet...right?" Tre said with a seductive smile creeping across his face.
Tre took Billie's hand and led him upstairs to his bedroom, where he shut the door behind him.
*
Billie and Tre laid there beside eachother on the bed, breathing hard.
"So much for not having sex." Billie chuckled.
"Yeah, I'm glad you changed your mind Billie." said Tre with a smile.
"Me too." said Billie. He smiled back
Billie and Tre lay comfortably in eachother's arms until they were interrupted by the sound of Billie's cell phone ringing.
"Shit." Billie said, rolling out of bed to answer his phone.
"Hello?" Billie said.
"Billie, where are you?" it was Billie's step-dad, Brad.
"I'm at Tre's house." Billie answered.
"Well your mom and I haven't seen you in three days, so come home now." Brad said.
"I'll come back before school tomorrow." Billie pleaded.
"Alright then, you make sure you do." Brad said.
"Okay, bye already." Billie said, annoyed.
"Don't give me that attitutde Billie Joe." Brad snapped.
"Whatever." Billie said, then he hung up. Billie began getting dressed.
"Do you have to go?" asked Tre.
"No, I can stay, but I have to go back home before school. Brad's such an idiot, I hate him." Billie complained.
Tre got up and got his clothes on also. In a moment, both boys were laying down on the bed in eachother's arms once again. But not for long. Billie Joe's cell phone rang again a few minutes later.
"Aw fuck, I hope it's not Brad again." Billie groaned as he got up.
Billie sighed,"Hello?" he said.
"Hi, um...Billie?" a familiar voice said on the other end of the line, and it sure didn't sound like Brad...
