And All the Shit You Put Me Through, chapter 19
Watching Lauren and Ville get all cuddly over the past few weeks was really starting to take it's toll. No matter how much I tried to get Ville to back off he just didn't seem to be getting the message. God he's a fuckhead. I wonder if Lauren told him...
That would explain why he wouldn't want to leave her alone, I mean, it's obvious he has a thing for her. Who wouldn't? She's fucking beautiful. I let out the millionth sigh of the day as I watched them swap spit yet again. Yes. The two of them have gotten very close in the past 21 days. Watching them was making me want to throw up, partially because I was sick at the fact that she would fall for someone like him and because I was upset that it wasn't me she wanted. Could I blame her though?
Oh god, here I am feeling sorry for myself. Again. How pathetic. Looking around the yard I seemed to be the only one not with a friend. It made me realise how much I was missing Mike as well, I missed having band practices and screwing around..Tre had offered to act as a substitute drummer but at the moment it seemed like we would need a substitute bass player, as well as best friend.
"God why can't you just leave me alone?!" I turned at the sound of a distressed female. I rolled my eyes. Dianna. She was the typical example of someone who didn't know where she fit in. She was somewhat smart but had no social skills, she acted tough but it was obvious she was soft inside. She got picked on a lot mostly due to the fact that she fought back and it made it more entertaining for those who didn't have anything better to do. I glanced over at Lauren again before looking back at Dianna. Not having anything better to do I walked over to her.
"Hey." I bent down to help her pick up the books she had been forced to drop. She looked up at me with a confused expression on her face. I'm not surprised. I handed her her books as we both stood up straight.
"Thank you..." I nodded.
"You okay now? I know people can be assholes sometimes." She let out a nervous laugh
"Yeah..they're just upset 'cause they can't get any." I chuckled. She was right. Although it is possible for some to get some, you just have to use a little force. This, I was an expert at.
"Wanna go do something?" She looked at me with a look of uncertainty before smiling and nodded her head. I smiled back at her. Time for some fun
*
I smiled up at Ville as I pulled away from our breathtaking kiss. As usual my eyes were drawn to his, getting lost in the green of them. He was the first guy that I had felt completely comfortable with since I could remember. It was refreshing and inspiring. If I didn't know better, I would say I was in love. It's not possible to fall in love that fast though..is it?
"Wanna come over tonight?" I asked just before our lips colliding once again. Breaking apart for a millisecond he murmured a small 'mhmm'. I felt his hands run up my back, I let out a small moan. If we weren't in the middle of a school yard I don't think I'd be able to refrain from ripping all his clothes off.
"Wanna come over right now?" In between kisses he nodded. I grabbed his hand and together we ran out of the school grounds. After running for what seemed like hours but in reality was only minutes we both stopped out of breath. Once my breathing had gone back to normal I looked over at Ville who had a huge grin on his face, his eyes gestured to his left. My eyes wandered over. A park. With a treehouse. Understanding the grin, I bit my lip letting him lead me over.
*
"Where are we going?" Dianna asked. I stopped walking, I hadn't thought about where I was actually taking her. After thinking for while I noticed we were outside the old school building.
"Come on." I grabbed her arm with a bit more force than I had intended and she let out a small whimper. Rolling my eyes at the girlyness of it all I dragged her into the back of the building.
"Billie get off!" Somehow she managed to shake free of my grip, I gave her a small apologetic smile which just caused her to blush. Strange. I pulled out a carton of cigarettes that I always carried around in my pockets. Lighting up I offered her one. She shook her head. I shrugged. I watched her take me take a drag out of the corner of my eye and exhale. I'd never seen anyone so fascinated by it before. Looking around her she sat up against a wall, I joined her. Taking another drag off the cigarette I took a deep breath getting ready to do what I had done so many times before.
"Billie?" I looked over at her "I know this is a stupid thing to say but...I've kinda always liked you..." I smirked as she looked away embarrassed. I threw away the only half burnt out cigarette and placed a hand on her thigh causing her to look back at me startled.
"What is it that you've liked about me?" My hand started moving up, her eyes watching it move
"Uh.. the way you-" She let out a gasp. I forced her eyes to make contact with mine. Slowly I forced myself on top of her, never letting her eyes go. I could see the terror in them as she struggled to get free. I didn't let her. This is the only way to get respect. To get what I want.
That would explain why he wouldn't want to leave her alone, I mean, it's obvious he has a thing for her. Who wouldn't? She's fucking beautiful. I let out the millionth sigh of the day as I watched them swap spit yet again. Yes. The two of them have gotten very close in the past 21 days. Watching them was making me want to throw up, partially because I was sick at the fact that she would fall for someone like him and because I was upset that it wasn't me she wanted. Could I blame her though?
Oh god, here I am feeling sorry for myself. Again. How pathetic. Looking around the yard I seemed to be the only one not with a friend. It made me realise how much I was missing Mike as well, I missed having band practices and screwing around..Tre had offered to act as a substitute drummer but at the moment it seemed like we would need a substitute bass player, as well as best friend.
"God why can't you just leave me alone?!" I turned at the sound of a distressed female. I rolled my eyes. Dianna. She was the typical example of someone who didn't know where she fit in. She was somewhat smart but had no social skills, she acted tough but it was obvious she was soft inside. She got picked on a lot mostly due to the fact that she fought back and it made it more entertaining for those who didn't have anything better to do. I glanced over at Lauren again before looking back at Dianna. Not having anything better to do I walked over to her.
"Hey." I bent down to help her pick up the books she had been forced to drop. She looked up at me with a confused expression on her face. I'm not surprised. I handed her her books as we both stood up straight.
"Thank you..." I nodded.
"You okay now? I know people can be assholes sometimes." She let out a nervous laugh
"Yeah..they're just upset 'cause they can't get any." I chuckled. She was right. Although it is possible for some to get some, you just have to use a little force. This, I was an expert at.
"Wanna go do something?" She looked at me with a look of uncertainty before smiling and nodded her head. I smiled back at her. Time for some fun
*
I smiled up at Ville as I pulled away from our breathtaking kiss. As usual my eyes were drawn to his, getting lost in the green of them. He was the first guy that I had felt completely comfortable with since I could remember. It was refreshing and inspiring. If I didn't know better, I would say I was in love. It's not possible to fall in love that fast though..is it?
"Wanna come over tonight?" I asked just before our lips colliding once again. Breaking apart for a millisecond he murmured a small 'mhmm'. I felt his hands run up my back, I let out a small moan. If we weren't in the middle of a school yard I don't think I'd be able to refrain from ripping all his clothes off.
"Wanna come over right now?" In between kisses he nodded. I grabbed his hand and together we ran out of the school grounds. After running for what seemed like hours but in reality was only minutes we both stopped out of breath. Once my breathing had gone back to normal I looked over at Ville who had a huge grin on his face, his eyes gestured to his left. My eyes wandered over. A park. With a treehouse. Understanding the grin, I bit my lip letting him lead me over.
*
"Where are we going?" Dianna asked. I stopped walking, I hadn't thought about where I was actually taking her. After thinking for while I noticed we were outside the old school building.
"Come on." I grabbed her arm with a bit more force than I had intended and she let out a small whimper. Rolling my eyes at the girlyness of it all I dragged her into the back of the building.
"Billie get off!" Somehow she managed to shake free of my grip, I gave her a small apologetic smile which just caused her to blush. Strange. I pulled out a carton of cigarettes that I always carried around in my pockets. Lighting up I offered her one. She shook her head. I shrugged. I watched her take me take a drag out of the corner of my eye and exhale. I'd never seen anyone so fascinated by it before. Looking around her she sat up against a wall, I joined her. Taking another drag off the cigarette I took a deep breath getting ready to do what I had done so many times before.
"Billie?" I looked over at her "I know this is a stupid thing to say but...I've kinda always liked you..." I smirked as she looked away embarrassed. I threw away the only half burnt out cigarette and placed a hand on her thigh causing her to look back at me startled.
"What is it that you've liked about me?" My hand started moving up, her eyes watching it move
"Uh.. the way you-" She let out a gasp. I forced her eyes to make contact with mine. Slowly I forced myself on top of her, never letting her eyes go. I could see the terror in them as she struggled to get free. I didn't let her. This is the only way to get respect. To get what I want.
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