And the Angels Sang Her A Lullaby, chapter 1
"Well I'm leavin in a week baby," whimpered my husband.
"I'm gonna miss you during this tour, as always." he said.
"I'm going to miss you too but its nothing new, a whole summer with you has been great. I wish you didnt have to leave for so long, but I understand, your a bass player and your band needs you."
"Geez Selen, you really do have a nack for making me feel bad," he said as he stood up and walked to the other side of the kitchen to get a cup of coffee.
"Well I'm sorry Mike its just sometimes I need you here, with me. I love you too much to live with you leaving me all the time." I said cautiously.
"I'm sorry I always react like this when you have to leave, don't mind me, I just....i just get worried."
"About what?"
"I dunno a lot of stuff, I get worried that soem crazy fan is going to attack you or that...maybe...you'll find someone better then me there, at the concerts. I KNOW that there are lots of topless women jsut waiting for one of you guys to go single."
"Selen, you can trust me don't worry. You know that you're the only one for me. And besides, NONE of those girls can replace the nights we've had together," he said in a seductive voice as he whispered into my ear,
"I love you."
"I love you too Mikey," I said in reply as I kissed him lightly but so lovingly on his lips. He really is the reason I wake up in the morning, so I can see his face. I know he would never leave me, no matter how far away he is. Those bright blue eyes, and shining blonde hair, no one could ever take that away from me.
He took my hand, and led me upstairs to a soft bed where he laid me down and showed his love for me...
*Mike's Departure Day*
"I love you sooo much and don't worry about me, I will never leave you, ok?"
"Ok I'm gonna miss you, and I'll watch every single one of your shows on the tv ok baby?"
"Alright, its a plan."
"And don't let me out of your mind, no matter what."
"I always think of you, thats the only reason I make it through concerts!"
"Haha," I gave a chuckle,"Well you better get going sooo buhbye babe"
"Bye" he said squeezing me close and kissing my forehead.
I waited for the bus to go out of my sight before I went inside. I tear rolled down my face. I really am scared. I get all emotional all the time when he leaves. its nothing new. Its just, 6 months without him is really hard.
*Two Months Later*
OH GOD I ALMOST FORGOT! Green Day is going to be on tv tonight and LIVE! Thank God I get to see Mike's face!
CLICK! The TV turned on and OMG its A HUGE close up of Mike's face! HALLELUJAH! Wow that crowd is huge! I've never seen so many people at their concerts! HAHA look at all those girls in the crowd with their "I LOVE YOU MIKE" signs...its so sad. Well I cant blame them, I used to be one of them!
*Next Morning at about 11:00 am*
Well theres the paper, and hey Green Day is on the front cover! I better go look at it! Hey wait a second, thats Mike on the front cover, not just Green Day...and uhhh.... *Gasps deeply and takes paper inside to read it*
*No Ones P.O.V.*
Selen read deeply on the newspaper, the headline read "Green Day Punk Caught With Misterious Maiden"
Selen couldnt believe that her nightmare was coming true!
"HE SWORE THIS WOULDN'T HAPPEN!!! WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!" she screamed to no one. She instantly thought of Mike's part in Homecoming.
Nobody Likes You
Everyone Left You
THeir all out without You
Having Fun
She wanted to die. She felt like a dagger was plunged through all of her memories with him. She laid down on her bed, trying to get the newspaper out of her mind, trying to stay alive. She knew where that gun was. It called to her from underneath the bed. She knew its only purpose was for self protection, but now she wanted to contradict it all, everything she was ever told, the lies that were whispered the kisses that meant nothing, she couldn't handle it all. She reached her hand underneath the bed, and felt around for that box, that cold brown box. There it was, as cold and dark as ever. She pulled it out and saw the gleaming black armor of a hand gun. She took hold of it and there, she felt like she had the power of god, she could end her life then and there, or she could spare herself for old age. She blamed herself for it all. What did I do wrong? she asked herself. Was it the sex, was it the work, was it just everything?
She took a piece of paper and pen and enscribed the words, "I loved him" on it in black pen, permanent, cold, and dark. She laid it on the pillow beside hers, Mike's pillow.
She took that gun and placed its cold, hard, deciding metal to her head. Placed her finger on the trigger. She had time to get out the words "I love you" as the angels sang her a lullaby.
"I'm gonna miss you during this tour, as always." he said.
"I'm going to miss you too but its nothing new, a whole summer with you has been great. I wish you didnt have to leave for so long, but I understand, your a bass player and your band needs you."
"Geez Selen, you really do have a nack for making me feel bad," he said as he stood up and walked to the other side of the kitchen to get a cup of coffee.
"Well I'm sorry Mike its just sometimes I need you here, with me. I love you too much to live with you leaving me all the time." I said cautiously.
"I'm sorry I always react like this when you have to leave, don't mind me, I just....i just get worried."
"About what?"
"I dunno a lot of stuff, I get worried that soem crazy fan is going to attack you or that...maybe...you'll find someone better then me there, at the concerts. I KNOW that there are lots of topless women jsut waiting for one of you guys to go single."
"Selen, you can trust me don't worry. You know that you're the only one for me. And besides, NONE of those girls can replace the nights we've had together," he said in a seductive voice as he whispered into my ear,
"I love you."
"I love you too Mikey," I said in reply as I kissed him lightly but so lovingly on his lips. He really is the reason I wake up in the morning, so I can see his face. I know he would never leave me, no matter how far away he is. Those bright blue eyes, and shining blonde hair, no one could ever take that away from me.
He took my hand, and led me upstairs to a soft bed where he laid me down and showed his love for me...
*Mike's Departure Day*
"I love you sooo much and don't worry about me, I will never leave you, ok?"
"Ok I'm gonna miss you, and I'll watch every single one of your shows on the tv ok baby?"
"Alright, its a plan."
"And don't let me out of your mind, no matter what."
"I always think of you, thats the only reason I make it through concerts!"
"Haha," I gave a chuckle,"Well you better get going sooo buhbye babe"
"Bye" he said squeezing me close and kissing my forehead.
I waited for the bus to go out of my sight before I went inside. I tear rolled down my face. I really am scared. I get all emotional all the time when he leaves. its nothing new. Its just, 6 months without him is really hard.
*Two Months Later*
OH GOD I ALMOST FORGOT! Green Day is going to be on tv tonight and LIVE! Thank God I get to see Mike's face!
CLICK! The TV turned on and OMG its A HUGE close up of Mike's face! HALLELUJAH! Wow that crowd is huge! I've never seen so many people at their concerts! HAHA look at all those girls in the crowd with their "I LOVE YOU MIKE" signs...its so sad. Well I cant blame them, I used to be one of them!
*Next Morning at about 11:00 am*
Well theres the paper, and hey Green Day is on the front cover! I better go look at it! Hey wait a second, thats Mike on the front cover, not just Green Day...and uhhh.... *Gasps deeply and takes paper inside to read it*
*No Ones P.O.V.*
Selen read deeply on the newspaper, the headline read "Green Day Punk Caught With Misterious Maiden"
Selen couldnt believe that her nightmare was coming true!
"HE SWORE THIS WOULDN'T HAPPEN!!! WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!" she screamed to no one. She instantly thought of Mike's part in Homecoming.
Nobody Likes You
Everyone Left You
THeir all out without You
Having Fun
She wanted to die. She felt like a dagger was plunged through all of her memories with him. She laid down on her bed, trying to get the newspaper out of her mind, trying to stay alive. She knew where that gun was. It called to her from underneath the bed. She knew its only purpose was for self protection, but now she wanted to contradict it all, everything she was ever told, the lies that were whispered the kisses that meant nothing, she couldn't handle it all. She reached her hand underneath the bed, and felt around for that box, that cold brown box. There it was, as cold and dark as ever. She pulled it out and saw the gleaming black armor of a hand gun. She took hold of it and there, she felt like she had the power of god, she could end her life then and there, or she could spare herself for old age. She blamed herself for it all. What did I do wrong? she asked herself. Was it the sex, was it the work, was it just everything?
She took a piece of paper and pen and enscribed the words, "I loved him" on it in black pen, permanent, cold, and dark. She laid it on the pillow beside hers, Mike's pillow.
She took that gun and placed its cold, hard, deciding metal to her head. Placed her finger on the trigger. She had time to get out the words "I love you" as the angels sang her a lullaby.
