But I Love Him...Don't I?, chapter 1
"It's just that you don't love me isn't it!"
"NO! I love you, I do, please, ok, I'll do it!" I took the drug from his hand. Man why am I doing this? It's because you love him and you're doing it for hima little voice said in the back of my mind. Wooooooh I feel weird. This is actually quite nice, I should do this more often. This has been going on for ages now, my name is Charlie, my real name's Charlotte, but I hate it when people call me that, it sucks! I have a boyfriend called Dan, I love him to pieces, when I first met him, he was perfect, cute, funny, AND he liked me! But recently things have been getting a little out of hand, he's been getting me to do things I don't want to do! But he accuses me of not loving him, so I do it, just to make him happy. Dan leaned forward to kiss me, he shoved his tongue down my throat roughly, and started feeling my ass. I looked at my watch, quarter to nine, SHIT!!!
"Dan I've got to go" I said pulling away from him.
"No you don't" he said pushing me back down on the sofa.
"No! I said, I promised my dad I'll be back by nine!" I said getting up.
"Fine, leave me, you don't love me, you never have!" he said getting up himself.
"Dan!" I began, but he had already got up to the front door, and opened it. I sighed, and because I had to go, I didn't have time to explain or apologize; I just ran past him and gently kissed his cheek. I'll sort it out tomorrow.
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BEEP BEEP BEEP
Damn alarm clock, who invented them thingy's any way! What day is it? Saturday? Why the fuck did my alarm clock go off on a Saturday? I picked it up and slammed it on the floor, oopsie now it's broken. I snuggled down into my duvet. I just started to doze off when.....
"Rise and shine my little princess, or I'll take away your blankie!" Mom shouted/sang. Ugh she treats me as if I'm 5, not 15! My mum is one of those mums's who walk around in miniskirts and pink, and flirts with anything that practically moves!! She always tries to get me to change my punk ways.
"Come on my lil bobo (that's my nickname......shut it!!) get up!"
"Coming mom!" So I got my lazy bum out of bed and got ready for the day ahead. I wonder if Dan's still in a mood with me? I'd better text him.
"Hey I'm really sorry about last night, but if I didn't get home on time Dad wouldn't let me see you! I hope you understand C xxxx"
I walked out of my bedroom and slid down the banister, jumping off onto the floor downstairs.
"Oh bobo, I wish you wouldn't do that, it's very dangerous! Oh bobo, by the way I hope you didn't mind me setting your alarm clock it's just that mine doesn't work and I knew I'd be able to hear yours"
"Gee mom, it was so kind of you to tell me, and ask me if it was ok!" I said sarcastically.
"Oh bobo I knew you'd understand" she said smiling sweetly. Grr. anyhoo, I ate my toast and went upstairs to get changed INTO a my chemical romance hoodie, three quarters and purple and black stripey socks and my cons. BEEEEEP ooo, it's a text from Dan.
"Hey its okay I understand, but you have to repay me back, I need you to do a favour for me, meet me in the park in an hour. D. x" hmmmm I wonder what he's got in store for me... I hear American Idiot ringing out of my pocket.
"Hello?"
"Hey Charlie, it's James, you ok?"
"Yeah thanks, it's just that Dan's in a mood with me because I didn't stay with him last night" James is my best friend, he's gay, but it's kinda cool having a gay friend, I can trust him with anything.
"Look Charlie, I don't mean to sound judgemental or mean, or nothing, but isn't he a bit pushy?"
"Yeah.....I suppose, but everyone has their own faults!"
"Yeah, but I dunno why, I just don't like the guy" I hate it when James says stuff like this
"James I appreciate your advice, but it's my problem not yours so keep your big fat butt out of it will ya!"
"Ok, ok!!! Hey guess what I did to Shauni and Chiara!"
Shauni and Chiara are the chavs's who try to be popular, they spend all their time either slagging somebody off, putting on make up, or attempting to flirt with boys, they are so pathetic!
"What did you do when I was off school then?"
"Well, I filled their mascara things with superglue, so at lunchtime when they were topping up their make up, after they put the "mascara" on and they blinked, their eyelashes got stuck together, so hilarious!"
"OH MY FUCKING GOD, you didn't ha ha " go James, go James woooh!
"Oh yeah and guess what the head announced yesterday"
"What?"
"Well, Joey Armstrong is moving to our school!"
"OH MY GOD NOOOO WAY!" I put the phone down for a min, and done a little dance around my room. I picked the phone back up.
"James I totally got to go now, but that is so awesomeness!!"
"I know init!"
"Bye love you"
"Love you too" Oh my god I can't believe that!! Joey Armstrong moving to our school!! WOOOOOOH! That is just soo awesomeness! I went to the bathroom and washed my face and brushed my teeth. I put my eyeliner on and went downstairs.
"Hey, my lil punk princess! You okay?" My dad is soo awesome, he's just soo funny.
"Yeah I'm good, do you mind if I practice on the drums for a min before I go out?" I said looking at him with puppy dog eyes.
"Aaw, go ahead but hey lil dudette, keep it down right?"
"Right dad heh" I ran down into the garage, and start beating the shit out of the drums.
AT THE PARK
I wonder where Dan is.... he said he'd be here. I start kicking a stone around. Suddenly a guy wearing a hoodie with the hood up and looking at the floor started walking towards me,
"Dan?" It's Dan, why is he being so...weird?
"Sssh! keep your voice down!" he says looking up at me.
"What have you done?" I asked suspiciously.
"Nothing.....I can't say, but if anyone asks, I slept over yours last night" He starts kissing me. A police car starts driving up towards the park; Dan pulls away and starts running,
"Got to go, BYE!!" he shouts. Great so I'm left standing here on my own. A little squirrel is close so I try and make it come towards me. Dan scares me sometimes; I wonder what he's done this time. But I love him....don't I?
"Umm, hi, do you go to st.green's school?" A shadow comes over me, I look up to see Joey Armstrong smiling down at me. I can't believe it, Joey Armstrong, the son of my Idol, is talking to me!!
"NO! I love you, I do, please, ok, I'll do it!" I took the drug from his hand. Man why am I doing this? It's because you love him and you're doing it for hima little voice said in the back of my mind. Wooooooh I feel weird. This is actually quite nice, I should do this more often. This has been going on for ages now, my name is Charlie, my real name's Charlotte, but I hate it when people call me that, it sucks! I have a boyfriend called Dan, I love him to pieces, when I first met him, he was perfect, cute, funny, AND he liked me! But recently things have been getting a little out of hand, he's been getting me to do things I don't want to do! But he accuses me of not loving him, so I do it, just to make him happy. Dan leaned forward to kiss me, he shoved his tongue down my throat roughly, and started feeling my ass. I looked at my watch, quarter to nine, SHIT!!!
"Dan I've got to go" I said pulling away from him.
"No you don't" he said pushing me back down on the sofa.
"No! I said, I promised my dad I'll be back by nine!" I said getting up.
"Fine, leave me, you don't love me, you never have!" he said getting up himself.
"Dan!" I began, but he had already got up to the front door, and opened it. I sighed, and because I had to go, I didn't have time to explain or apologize; I just ran past him and gently kissed his cheek. I'll sort it out tomorrow.
* * * *
BEEP BEEP BEEP
Damn alarm clock, who invented them thingy's any way! What day is it? Saturday? Why the fuck did my alarm clock go off on a Saturday? I picked it up and slammed it on the floor, oopsie now it's broken. I snuggled down into my duvet. I just started to doze off when.....
"Rise and shine my little princess, or I'll take away your blankie!" Mom shouted/sang. Ugh she treats me as if I'm 5, not 15! My mum is one of those mums's who walk around in miniskirts and pink, and flirts with anything that practically moves!! She always tries to get me to change my punk ways.
"Come on my lil bobo (that's my nickname......shut it!!) get up!"
"Coming mom!" So I got my lazy bum out of bed and got ready for the day ahead. I wonder if Dan's still in a mood with me? I'd better text him.
"Hey I'm really sorry about last night, but if I didn't get home on time Dad wouldn't let me see you! I hope you understand C xxxx"
I walked out of my bedroom and slid down the banister, jumping off onto the floor downstairs.
"Oh bobo, I wish you wouldn't do that, it's very dangerous! Oh bobo, by the way I hope you didn't mind me setting your alarm clock it's just that mine doesn't work and I knew I'd be able to hear yours"
"Gee mom, it was so kind of you to tell me, and ask me if it was ok!" I said sarcastically.
"Oh bobo I knew you'd understand" she said smiling sweetly. Grr. anyhoo, I ate my toast and went upstairs to get changed INTO a my chemical romance hoodie, three quarters and purple and black stripey socks and my cons. BEEEEEP ooo, it's a text from Dan.
"Hey its okay I understand, but you have to repay me back, I need you to do a favour for me, meet me in the park in an hour. D. x" hmmmm I wonder what he's got in store for me... I hear American Idiot ringing out of my pocket.
"Hello?"
"Hey Charlie, it's James, you ok?"
"Yeah thanks, it's just that Dan's in a mood with me because I didn't stay with him last night" James is my best friend, he's gay, but it's kinda cool having a gay friend, I can trust him with anything.
"Look Charlie, I don't mean to sound judgemental or mean, or nothing, but isn't he a bit pushy?"
"Yeah.....I suppose, but everyone has their own faults!"
"Yeah, but I dunno why, I just don't like the guy" I hate it when James says stuff like this
"James I appreciate your advice, but it's my problem not yours so keep your big fat butt out of it will ya!"
"Ok, ok!!! Hey guess what I did to Shauni and Chiara!"
Shauni and Chiara are the chavs's who try to be popular, they spend all their time either slagging somebody off, putting on make up, or attempting to flirt with boys, they are so pathetic!
"What did you do when I was off school then?"
"Well, I filled their mascara things with superglue, so at lunchtime when they were topping up their make up, after they put the "mascara" on and they blinked, their eyelashes got stuck together, so hilarious!"
"OH MY FUCKING GOD, you didn't ha ha " go James, go James woooh!
"Oh yeah and guess what the head announced yesterday"
"What?"
"Well, Joey Armstrong is moving to our school!"
"OH MY GOD NOOOO WAY!" I put the phone down for a min, and done a little dance around my room. I picked the phone back up.
"James I totally got to go now, but that is so awesomeness!!"
"I know init!"
"Bye love you"
"Love you too" Oh my god I can't believe that!! Joey Armstrong moving to our school!! WOOOOOOH! That is just soo awesomeness! I went to the bathroom and washed my face and brushed my teeth. I put my eyeliner on and went downstairs.
"Hey, my lil punk princess! You okay?" My dad is soo awesome, he's just soo funny.
"Yeah I'm good, do you mind if I practice on the drums for a min before I go out?" I said looking at him with puppy dog eyes.
"Aaw, go ahead but hey lil dudette, keep it down right?"
"Right dad heh" I ran down into the garage, and start beating the shit out of the drums.
AT THE PARK
I wonder where Dan is.... he said he'd be here. I start kicking a stone around. Suddenly a guy wearing a hoodie with the hood up and looking at the floor started walking towards me,
"Dan?" It's Dan, why is he being so...weird?
"Sssh! keep your voice down!" he says looking up at me.
"What have you done?" I asked suspiciously.
"Nothing.....I can't say, but if anyone asks, I slept over yours last night" He starts kissing me. A police car starts driving up towards the park; Dan pulls away and starts running,
"Got to go, BYE!!" he shouts. Great so I'm left standing here on my own. A little squirrel is close so I try and make it come towards me. Dan scares me sometimes; I wonder what he's done this time. But I love him....don't I?
"Umm, hi, do you go to st.green's school?" A shadow comes over me, I look up to see Joey Armstrong smiling down at me. I can't believe it, Joey Armstrong, the son of my Idol, is talking to me!!
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