You're A Blur In My Dead Past, chapter 16
"Someone better?" I asked Billie. "I don't think I could find anyone better than Mike, you of all people should know that, Billie"
I laid my hand on his, which was still caressing my cheek and pulled it down to rest on my knee.
"But Mags, you don't seriously believe he can treat you as well as, um" he trailed off.
"As well as?" I inquired.
"Me" he mumbled, looking at the floor.
I would be lying if I didn't say this didn't shock me, I was totally caught off guard. Since when had Billie felt that way about me? Why had I never noticed?
"Billie Joe, I love Mike, I love everything about him; the way he makes me feel when we're together, the way he kisses m-" I was interrupted by Billie's hand wrapping around my neck and pulling me closer to him as his lips cascaded onto my own.
The kiss sent a shiver though my spine. It wasn't that it had never happened when Mike kissed me, it was just that Billies kiss-enduced tingle lasted the whole time our lips met. I put my hands on his chest in attempts to push him away, but my mind seemed to stop functioning. I finally snapped out of it and pushed Billie off me so fast, he fell off the couch.
"Billie, I cant do this we both know its wrong.'
He stood up and brushed of his pants and attempted to sit down next to me, but I got up quickly and backed away, ignoring the searing pain in my head.
"I should go, it's getting late" I mumbled, picking up my school back and backing towards the door.
"Mags, hold on. This can be our little secret, no need to tell Mike. You know how out of whack I get in September. It's not my fault" he said frantically, reaching out his hands towards me. I could see the tears starting to cloud his eyes. He stepped back to the couch and collapsed on it. He held his face in his hands and sobbed.
"I miss him Mags"
That got me. I had never known Billie's father, but I knew how much he had meant to Billie. Andy had been the inspiration to Billie's whole music career. I bit the inside of my cheek nervously and dropped my bag, and comforted the upset teenager. I hugged his shaking body and stayed with him until his tears stopped.
"I never meant to hurt you, trust me, it's the last thing I would ever do" he whispered into my shoulder.
"I know. It's ok. It'll be our little secret. But you have to promise me that it'll never happen again, ok?"
"I promise"
I hugged him one last time and excused myself as I got my bag and pushed the front door open.
The following morning at school, the first person I ran into was Billie, who was standing at his locker talking to Mike. I said hello to both boys and noticed the heavy look of guilt that was built up in Billie's eyes.
"How's your head Mags?" Mike asked me as we made our way to class.
"It's fine" I lied.
"I never really got to apologise for it. Im sorry, I'm really, really sorry"
"It's ok, honestly. It was an accident.
We parted ways at Mike's class and I kept walking when my vision suddenly blurred and I felt nauseious. My books slipped out my hands and tumbled to the floor. I leant against the wall and slid down into a sitting position, clutching my ever hurting head and wincing.
"MAGS!" Bianca yelled as she ran up the hallway and slid into her knees. "I saw you fall, what's wrong? Is it your head?"
I remained still, my head still overcome with pain and my vision still blurred. "Come on" she said, helping to my feet "Ill take you to see the nurse" A few minutes later, I sat on the paper covered table in the nurses office as she shone a light into my eyes and tutted. My vision was somewhat and I had been given aspirin to soothe the pain.
"I'm afraid your pupils aren't reacting Miss Curtis. And you're friend here" she motioned to Bianca, who was sitting in the chair not to far away, biting her nails nervously "Says that you recently received some head trauma?" I scowled at Bianca. She hadn't told the nurse what had happened, had she?
"Is that correct Miss Curtis?" I nodded in response to the question. "Well, I have a bad feeling, so I'll contact the hospital so they can send an ambulance to take you over for some exams."
The hospital? Surely it wasn't that bad. All I needed was some aspiring and I would be fine. No need for the hospital was there?
I laid my hand on his, which was still caressing my cheek and pulled it down to rest on my knee.
"But Mags, you don't seriously believe he can treat you as well as, um" he trailed off.
"As well as?" I inquired.
"Me" he mumbled, looking at the floor.
I would be lying if I didn't say this didn't shock me, I was totally caught off guard. Since when had Billie felt that way about me? Why had I never noticed?
"Billie Joe, I love Mike, I love everything about him; the way he makes me feel when we're together, the way he kisses m-" I was interrupted by Billie's hand wrapping around my neck and pulling me closer to him as his lips cascaded onto my own.
The kiss sent a shiver though my spine. It wasn't that it had never happened when Mike kissed me, it was just that Billies kiss-enduced tingle lasted the whole time our lips met. I put my hands on his chest in attempts to push him away, but my mind seemed to stop functioning. I finally snapped out of it and pushed Billie off me so fast, he fell off the couch.
"Billie, I cant do this we both know its wrong.'
He stood up and brushed of his pants and attempted to sit down next to me, but I got up quickly and backed away, ignoring the searing pain in my head.
"I should go, it's getting late" I mumbled, picking up my school back and backing towards the door.
"Mags, hold on. This can be our little secret, no need to tell Mike. You know how out of whack I get in September. It's not my fault" he said frantically, reaching out his hands towards me. I could see the tears starting to cloud his eyes. He stepped back to the couch and collapsed on it. He held his face in his hands and sobbed.
"I miss him Mags"
That got me. I had never known Billie's father, but I knew how much he had meant to Billie. Andy had been the inspiration to Billie's whole music career. I bit the inside of my cheek nervously and dropped my bag, and comforted the upset teenager. I hugged his shaking body and stayed with him until his tears stopped.
"I never meant to hurt you, trust me, it's the last thing I would ever do" he whispered into my shoulder.
"I know. It's ok. It'll be our little secret. But you have to promise me that it'll never happen again, ok?"
"I promise"
I hugged him one last time and excused myself as I got my bag and pushed the front door open.
The following morning at school, the first person I ran into was Billie, who was standing at his locker talking to Mike. I said hello to both boys and noticed the heavy look of guilt that was built up in Billie's eyes.
"How's your head Mags?" Mike asked me as we made our way to class.
"It's fine" I lied.
"I never really got to apologise for it. Im sorry, I'm really, really sorry"
"It's ok, honestly. It was an accident.
We parted ways at Mike's class and I kept walking when my vision suddenly blurred and I felt nauseious. My books slipped out my hands and tumbled to the floor. I leant against the wall and slid down into a sitting position, clutching my ever hurting head and wincing.
"MAGS!" Bianca yelled as she ran up the hallway and slid into her knees. "I saw you fall, what's wrong? Is it your head?"
I remained still, my head still overcome with pain and my vision still blurred. "Come on" she said, helping to my feet "Ill take you to see the nurse" A few minutes later, I sat on the paper covered table in the nurses office as she shone a light into my eyes and tutted. My vision was somewhat and I had been given aspirin to soothe the pain.
"I'm afraid your pupils aren't reacting Miss Curtis. And you're friend here" she motioned to Bianca, who was sitting in the chair not to far away, biting her nails nervously "Says that you recently received some head trauma?" I scowled at Bianca. She hadn't told the nurse what had happened, had she?
"Is that correct Miss Curtis?" I nodded in response to the question. "Well, I have a bad feeling, so I'll contact the hospital so they can send an ambulance to take you over for some exams."
The hospital? Surely it wasn't that bad. All I needed was some aspiring and I would be fine. No need for the hospital was there?
