What Are You Going To Do, Billie?...Kill Me?, chapter 20

He looked at her, her skin was almost white. It scared him to see her that way, he could feel the panic finally coming out.

"No! This Can't be happening! Don't tell me this is happening! No!" He yelled out, he could feel the tears stinging his eyes, Mike put his arm over Billie. He could feel Billie's rapid breathing as he kept his eyes closed.

"Billie... Just calm down, everything is o. K... She'll be just fine." Mike said, trying to convince him.

"She's not o. K!... Why?!" Billie yelled as he tore himself out of Mike, he ran down the hall. Not wanting his tears to fall as the image of Cali kept in his mind, he couldn't control his breathing.

"Billie!" Mike called for him." Tre, I'll go..."

Billie ran out of the hospital door and into the open air.

"Don't let her go!... Please just don't let her leave me!" He screamed to the sky, he put his head in his hand and collapsed onto the side walk, he lent his back up against the brick wall, still with his head in hands. He was breathing so fast, he just couldn't catch his breath. One tear fell but he quickly wiped it away.
"Why did I fucking let this happen!?... If it wasn't for me this wouldn't of fucking happen to her!" He felt the anxiety rise in his chest, making it harder to breathe. He felt the anger for himself. He loves this girl, now... What has happen?

Mike ran out of the doors, he looked to the right then the left, hoping to see any signs of where Billie could be. And there Billie was, almost crunched up into a little on the side walk with his back against the wall. He ran over to him and sat down next to him.

"It's all my fucking fault Mike!... How could I have let this happen!?" Billie screamed out, holding his tears.

"Billie, it will be o. K..." That was Mike could say, he didn't know if it was going to be o. K.

"No it fucking won't Mike..." Billie said, letting the anger go away. Mike saw a tear fall from his cheek. "You saw her... I just got here, and look what has happen to her... Mike I'm in love with her... And now she won't even get to hear that for a second time." Billie said, with his voice scratching. Another tear fell, he quickly wiped them away. Mike could feel a tear rising in his eyes as well, Billie looked down to in between his legs.
"I would be with her forever... My now..." He stopped. "She's going for forever, and I won't be with her..." He felt a few more tears roll down.

"Everything will be-"

"Guys..." They both looked up to see Tre, Tre had this sadness in his eyes that would of only been seen a few times before. "We all have to get blood tested... One of us could have the same blood type as Cali."

They walked back down through the white halls to where Cali's room was, they stopped when they saw Kelly and Ollie sitting on the chairs outside of the room.
Billie held in his tears, he looked down to his shoes with his hands in his pockets.
He looked over to the door, and threw the window. But in the room, the bed was gone. Billie felt his eyes water up again, he remembered off when his dads bed wasn't there.

"They've gone to get her bandages changed..." Kelly said, Billie looked over to her. He saw how red her eyes where, Kelly knew what Billie was thinking. She needed to tell him that she wasn't gone.
Ollie told her about how Cali loved Billie. But she wasn't anger about it, Cali was in trouble. Billie didn't say anything, no one did.

The doctor came rushing around the corner and rushed over to the saddened bunch.

"We need to blood test someone now... Who's first?"

"Me..." Billie said quickly. The doctor nodded and rushed Billie, they went into a little room. Billie looked at the needle and didn't even care if it was going to hurt.
The nurse put the needle into his arm, as she drawn out the blood. Billie's mind wasn't even in the same room.

Billie and Mike both walked into the quit library. It was probably the first time they had ever been in the school library, but they were told to go there after detention so the teacher could talk to them about their behavior. And unfortunately the teacher was in the library for lunch.

"Dude... Fuck I hate this place..." Mike whispered to Billie has they looked around for the teacher, Billie shoved his hand in his pockets.

"Why would anyone wanna come here anyway?..." He whispered back, Mike saw the teacher talking to the library lady, they both walked over to him.
As the teacher was telling them how much they annoyed him, and how much they wasting his time, Billie was looking around the library. There were a shit load of books, a few empty table. As his eyes wondered the room, he notice a table that was taken. Taken by a girl, that was all alone. He suddenly had an infatuation for her, the black in her hair shining as the sun hit on her.
The first thing he thought was:

Together hand in hand we'll run away.

"Billie Joe?" He snapped back into reality.

"Yeah... Do I have to same..." He slowly stopped, he saw the look on the nurses face. She had check his blood type.

"Sorry Billie Joe, it's not the same."

Billie walked out of the small room and went to where everyone was, by the look on his face Ollie knew. And so did everyone else...

Mike had gone, but no luck. Kelly had gone, she didn't have the same blood type.
Ollie went... Still it wasn't the same, and now it was Tre's turn.

Billie sat next to his mom, with his elbows on his knees and with his head in his hands as he looked down to his shoes.

"Don't worry Billie... There has to be someone." He felt his mom's hand on his shoulder, he looked up.

"There is no one!... None of us have the same fucking blood type!" He yelled.

"Billie-"

"-No mom!... We need to fine someone!... They're not gonna come to us!... We have to go to them!... What about her parents?!... Her brothers?!" He yelled, determined to save Cali.

"I don't know..." Ollie said softly... No one had the answer. Billie sighed in frustration, he turned his head once he heard a sound.

He saw Cali's bed being wheeled back, and Cali was on it. She was hocked to a lot of machines, once again... Seeing Cali that way made his eyes well up.

Once Cali's bed was back in her room, Ollie stood beside her bed, and next to Ollie was Kelly, and next to Kelly was Mike.
Billie stood on the other side of the bed, he felt sick. It wasn't a ill sick, it was feeling an over whelming sence of sadness as he looked at the girl he was in love with, it looked as though all of her life had been taken away from her. A mask over her mouth and nose, helping her breathe. All the needles on her arms
Her skin was almost as white as the sheets that lay onto of her, Billie took a deep breath, trying to force back the tears.

"We'll leave you with her Billie... Come on guys..." Ollie said, she took Kelly out of the room, leaving Billie there to look at the girl with only bit of life left.


"I can't believe this has happened..." Kelly softly said in disbelief, the 3 of them sat in the chairs.

"No one saw this coming..." Ollie said, Mike didn't know what to say. He was so shocked as to why this had happened. They had only been away for not even 2 days, and all of it had come out.

All they could do now was hope, hope for something good to happen for Cali. So that she could stay around, and be with the people that love her.

They heard footsteps coming back down the hall, they looked over and saw Tre with a paper in his hand and a big smile on his face.
Kelly felt tears fall down her cheek as she looked at the expression one Tre's face, happy tears...

They ran over to Tre...


Billie looked at Cali's pale hand, laying on the side of her body. She looked so peaceful, he slowly moved over to her arm, he rubbed her arm with his thumb. Being sure not to her hurt, her skin was warm. But not as warm as it was before...
He looked to her face, her hair was messy. The grey under eyes, he felt his eyes sting as a tear rolled down is cheek. He moved his hand to her's, he slip his hand in her's and held on.

Cali felt his hand, in her mind she knew it was his hand.

Billie felt her thumb move, he quickly looked over to her. Her eyes slowly opened.
At first everything was blurry, but she saw him. Standing next her, she felt his hand in her's.

"Cali, I'm sorry, I should of-it's all my fault..." He said quickly, thanking that she was awake.

"Shh... It's... Not you're fault." She whispered, everytime she breathed in it hurt. She saw a tear roll down his face, she rubbed his thumb. He sat down on the bed quickly, wanting to be near her.

"Cali..." Billie said with tears streaming down. She couldn't keep her eyes open anymore.

"I love you." He heard her faintly say. Still holding onto her hand, he looked at her has her eyes started to close.

"I love you." He told her, he brought her hand up to his cheek and let his skin feel her's.
He didn't know what was going to be of Cali Right, but for that moment he kept his hand with her's. Never wanting to let go, her skin was warm. He just hoped that it would stay warm, a tear rolled down his cheek and rolled down to the warm skin of her hand, eventually it rolled down her arm and onto the bed, staining the white of the sheets forever.