Cigarettes and Valentines, chapter 4

[Recap]

I stumbled towards the door and opened it. That's when I saw her... that's when I saw Maria.


[End Recap]

[Chapter 4]

My mouth dropped in disbelief. I tried to speak but no words came out.

"What are you staring at?" She asked, looking at me as if I was insane.

"M... Maria... .." was all I managed to say.

"What??? Who is Maria? And who are you? And WHAT were you doing in MY room?" she said.

That's when it all came flooding back, the room was familiar, because it was Maria's room at the Lost and Found. I looked around; I was standing in the Hallway that leads to the Bridge.

"What do you mean, who am I? I'm The Jesus of Suburbia, I own this joint girlie. Now do you mind getting out of my way? Oh and before you do, who are you?" I asked bluntly. I wasn't about to go messing around with another chick... at least not so soon after Maria's... "disappearance".

"Well, I'm so sorry, I couldn't recognise you, your highness" She said before rolling her eyes. "I'm Whatshername... now get out my way." She said before pushing me to the side.

I stood there in disbelief. She stood up to me... I wasn't going to take this, especially from some poser without a name.

"You're going to regret that" I said darkly.

"Careful, you don't wanna mess with me Jesus, I'm a rebel, I'm a saint... I'm the salt to the earth and I'm very dangerous. Watch out, because before you know it, I'll be holding onto your heart like a hand grenade." She said before slamming the door in my face.

I walked out of the hallway and stopped when I was under the bridge. I noticed St. Jimmy sitting in a corner. I walked up and sat down next to him.

"Jimmy, what's up man? Finally run out of the good stuff eh?" I said before chuckling to myself.
"Jesus... you still trying to find out what happened to Maria?" He asked.

I gave him a weird look. He knew what happened, was he baiting me?

"Yes I am." I answered.

We sat in silence for what seemed forever, but couldn't have been longer than 5 minutes.

Finally Jimmy spoke.
"It wasn't supposed to happen Jesus... just know that I'm sorry. Okay?"

What was he talking about? I should of realised something big was about to go down, but I just sat there, in ignorance of what he just said. After all, to me, ignorance is Bliss.

"Sure man, whatever. Who's that Whatshername chick? She looks identical to Maria... " I said.

"Oh she's a newbie, ran away from home and needed a place to stay. Play nice won't you?" He said before laughing at another private joke.

We spoke for ages, I wasn't really listening, the only I could think about was what Whatshername had said to me. What did she mean by saying she will hold onto my heart like a hand grenade... It kept re-playing in my mind. Over and over.

But that was nothing compared to what would happen the next day...

I woke up to Tunny shaking me.

"Tunny! Get the fuck off me man! I'm TRYING to sleep!" I yelled.

"Jesus get UP! It's Jimmy... .he blew his brains out into the bay... ." Tunny said, before pulling me into a hug.

I started shaking... this couldn't be happening... not again...