So Long and Goodnight, chapter 2

The last few days I've received thousand phone calls from Billie. As a perfectly normal girl who just broke up, I ignored him.

But I must say, I missed him so much. I miss he sitting with me during lunchtime, I miss he pop into my locker between periods and I miss him mostly during weekends.

I felt very alone. I did not have good friends except for him. My only friend is Billie. Now, that we broke up, I was alone.

Even it was months after we broke up, he still tried to call me everyday. Sometimes I felt like I want to pick the call, but I told myself to not to. It was very hard to ignore him.

I tore his photos which I had put in my wallet, in a photo frame, in my computer and anywhere else. I could not look at him. It would just hurt me.

Finally it had been a year after the break up. I heard from somebody that both he and Mike dropped out of school to concentrate on their Sweet Children band. Then I realised that I may not see him anymore, for the rest of my life. Sweet Children had lots of gigs. I think they'd get famous one day, and Billie would just forget me.

He had stopped calling me everyday, but on my birthday, he sent an email to me and he also sent me a present. The present was a beautiful bracelet that engraved with 'To Sam, love always, your faithful friend, Billie Joe". I had never wear the bracelet. But I did keep it.

*** Four Years Later ***

I never heard from Billie anymore. But I do know that he was married with somebody called Adrienne Nesser, and his band Sweet Children was changed into Green Day. The drummer was changed to somebody called Tre Cool. Green Day released an album called Dookie. I bought it and it was a good CD. But I couldn't help to hear Billie's voice when he sang the songs.

The band was getting famous. As more famous they get, the more I believe that Billie had totally forgotten about me.

I had graduated from high school two years ago, and I am studying in Princeton. I had a new boyfriend, at this one cares about me. We started going out ever since we first met during the first day of college.

However to my surprise, on my birthday on 31 July 1994, Billie sent me another present. This time it was a necklace with my initials. There was a letter attached to it:

Dearest Samantha,

Hi! How are you? Hope you're okay. I'm fine here.

Things had been great for us. I hope now you're in college, as you told me you wanted to go to college. I dropped out of school around four years ago, and continued to focus on my band.

I remembered whenever I called you, you'd never answer. Why, Sam? I wanted to talk to you, but you ignored me.

I still love you, and I will always do. I broke up with you because I realised, if my band go famous, we'd go on tours and I'd never see you anymore. I never want to part with you, Sam. I would never stand it.

But you must think that I'm lying, because of the fact that now I'm married to Adrienne. But please, don't get me wrong. I wanted to start a family, then I saw her. She reminds me a lot of you, Sam. I fell in love with her. It happens gradually. Please know that I miss you a lot.

You may tore this letter up after reading it, maybe even before reading it, which i hope not. But I've said what I've been trying to tell you for four years.

Please forgive me, Sam.

Love,

Billie Joe


So, that's the reason why he broke up with me. I still don't get it. Anyway the letter doesn't really make sense. But at least, now I get a rough idea why he broke up with me. However, I decided to reply his letter.

Billie Joe,

Hi. I'm fine thanks.

I know about your band. I bought your CD, and it's great.

I perfectly understand. Don't worry. Now I have a new boyfriend, Steven. He's sweet and nice.

Thanks for the presents.

I forgive you.

Love,

Sam.

It's a short letter, I know. But at the very least, I replied to him.

I am confused now.