The Meaning Of Love, chapter 1
A Fading Memory:
He said hello to Jakob, Joey, and Adrienne and went to his room. He lay on the bed, his slightly-too-long jet black hair getting a little bit on top of his closed eyes.
Unnoticed by anyone in the world but himself, tears formed in his eyes.
A picture of a woman formed in his mind's eye, blurry at first, then...not precisely clear, let's leave it at that. Billie wondered who it was. It was definitely not Adrienne...
'Adrienne is the only woman I will ever love'.
He remembered saying that, and the event seemed so long ago. He couldn't have said that just this year! He constantly told the media that, and he suddenly, alone in his room, with his thoughts, thought he might actually be regretting that... 'Adrienne is the only woman I will ever love'...but was that true?
Of course it is, Billie thought, trying to convince himself. After all, they were married, had two kids, and he had never felt he loved anyone else so much apart from his kids, his mom, Mike, and Tre'.
But he couldn't lie to himself.
Night had fallen by the time his long inner conflict stopped. Exhausted, he rolled over and fell instantly asleep. He dreamed of Her again, like he did every night. But when he woke up, he was still missing Her. He was still unaware of exactly who she was. Still always depressed.
While asleep, his consciousness was still guilty. 'I love Adrienne. Or maybe...I don't.'
In his sleep, his brain ached and got sore inside from fighting with himself. This might be a sign of how much he loved Adrienne. But was that enough? For her, him, everyone. Was his love for Adrienne enough to overshadow the other one?
He said hello to Jakob, Joey, and Adrienne and went to his room. He lay on the bed, his slightly-too-long jet black hair getting a little bit on top of his closed eyes.
Unnoticed by anyone in the world but himself, tears formed in his eyes.
A picture of a woman formed in his mind's eye, blurry at first, then...not precisely clear, let's leave it at that. Billie wondered who it was. It was definitely not Adrienne...
'Adrienne is the only woman I will ever love'.
He remembered saying that, and the event seemed so long ago. He couldn't have said that just this year! He constantly told the media that, and he suddenly, alone in his room, with his thoughts, thought he might actually be regretting that... 'Adrienne is the only woman I will ever love'...but was that true?
Of course it is, Billie thought, trying to convince himself. After all, they were married, had two kids, and he had never felt he loved anyone else so much apart from his kids, his mom, Mike, and Tre'.
But he couldn't lie to himself.
Night had fallen by the time his long inner conflict stopped. Exhausted, he rolled over and fell instantly asleep. He dreamed of Her again, like he did every night. But when he woke up, he was still missing Her. He was still unaware of exactly who she was. Still always depressed.
While asleep, his consciousness was still guilty. 'I love Adrienne. Or maybe...I don't.'
In his sleep, his brain ached and got sore inside from fighting with himself. This might be a sign of how much he loved Adrienne. But was that enough? For her, him, everyone. Was his love for Adrienne enough to overshadow the other one?
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