Lost Thoughts, chapter 3
You an Billie Joe start talking about little things, How he met Mike and Tre', guitars, what you do in your free time, more about music, etc.
"So what was that look about today after school?" You ask.
"What look?" Billie Joe replies.
"Well when you walked up you were smiling then you looked over at Tre' and you just looked sad. Did he do something?" You say.
Billie Joe doesn't say anything for a while.
"Well no, not exactly. See...I don't really know how to say this, but....okay it's like whenever I like a girl and Tre' likes a girl Tre' is usually the one that gets that girl. I'm not jealous or anything, it's just well I really like you and I thought maybe well I might have a chance...and oh nevermind. I'm just rambling again." He says.
You feel your face turning red as you can't help smiling. "Billie Joe, I..." You start.
"Yeah, I know you like Tre' a lot. I understand." He says kicking the ground.
"No, actually I kind of well...I don't like Tre' like that." You say bluntly.
"Really?" He says.
"Yeah, he's funny and all but I dunno I'm not as attracted I guess." You say.
You see your house a little ways away.
"Oh." Billie Joe says. You notice a hint of disappointment in his voice.
"Well there is this one guy in two of my classes I kind of like...He's pretty quiet most of the time though." You say looking down at the ground, along with Billie Joe.
"Really? I guess that's cool." He says sadly.
"Yeah, but he's not as quiet right now." You say looking up at him.
He looks up at your surprised, you notice his eyes are beautiful. You smile as he turns a light shade of pink.
You reach your house and stop.
"I don't think my mom's home, you want to stay a little while?" You say timidly.
"Um sure, she won't mind will she?" Billie Joe asks.
"She shouldn't, even if she did she won't remember." You say. opening the gate.
You both walk up to your door. You pull out your keys and unlock it.
"You want something to drink?" You say setting your stuff down on the couch and walking toward the kitchen.
Billie Joe walks over to the couch still looking around. "Sure, water please."
You walk in the kitchen and grab two bottles of water out of the fridge. You walk over to Billie Joe and set the water down on the table in front of him. He's looking at one of your notebooks that was on the table. It had a bunch of collages. "You are really good at doing these." He says looking up at you. "Thank you. It's just a hobby, but I like it. My favorite is the one with all the band pictures, I think there are some of you guys from one of the concerts I went to." You smile as you sit next to him. You flip a few pages as he holds the notebook in his lap and find that page. "See there." You say and point to three differnet pictures. One Billie Joe and Mike are in the air, one is Billie Joe holding his guitar up to the crowd and the last one is just all of them playing their hearts out. "Awesome." He says and smiles at you. You smile back as you slip your hand into your lap.
"JESSIE!" You hear coming from outside. "COME HELP ME WITH THESE BAGS!" Your mom yells.
"OKAY MOTHER!" You yell back getting up. "I'll be right back." You say to Billie smiling as you go to the door. You walk outside and see your mom getting some bags out of the trunk of her car. "Did you like your new school dear?" You mom says. "Yeah, my friend Billie Joe is inside I want you to meet him." You say trying to be as nice as possible so she won't asked too many questions.
"Okay." She says walking up the steps as you grab the rest of the bags. You feel two are full of different kinds of "alcoholic beverages". You walk up the steps after her.
"Billie Joe this is my mom." You say standing behind her. She smiles sweetly at him and walks to the kitchen you start to follow her but turn and make a face at Billie Joe mocking her making him laugh. You walk in the kitchen and put everything up. You walk in the lounge and see your mom turning on the t.v.
"Um mom, Me and Billie Joe are going to be in my room if you need anything okay?" You say motioning to Billie Joe to come with you as you start towards the stairs.
"Okay, you two don't be doing anything though." She says opening a bottle.
You roll your eyes and walk up to your room. You open the door and scruntch up your face at the mess. You sigh and think 'Oh well.' Billie Joe comes up behind you. You feel a hand on your shoulder as you turn to look at him you smile. "It's messy but it's better than being down there with her." You say and walk in. Billie Joe nods and follows you in. You walk over and sit on your bed, Billie does the same.
"It's nice." He says smiling and still looking around. He notices some pictures on your wall and two framed by your bed.
"Is that you?" He sys pointing at one by your bed. It's a black and white picture of you that your mom had made about two years ago. It was the best one you ever took in your opinion, but you didn't brag.
"Yeah." You say as he smiles.
"Who is that?" Billie Joe asks pointing at the other picture. It was you and your brother before he went off to college.
"That's Justin, my brother. That was a few years ago before he went to college." You reply and look at it thoughtfully.
You sit in silence for a few minutes.
"So...."You say trying to start conversation. "What are we going to do tomorrow?"
"I don't know, probably just go back to Mike's and smoke." Billie Joe says.
"Oh sounds good to me." You say as you scoot back and lean on the wall.
"You wanna watch a movie?" Billie Joe says looking over at your t.v. and stack of dvds beside it.
"Sure, you can pick whichever one you want." You say laying over on your pillow. Billie Joe puts in Cable Guy, turns the lights off, and sits on the end of your bed. You look down at him and smile. "Billie Joe you can lay down if you want, you're too far away way down there." You say and laugh lightly. "Are you sure?" Billie Joe says laying down beside you as you hand him a pillow. "Yeah, don't worry about it." You say. Half way through the movie you fall asleep.
You wake up later that night and finda note on the table by your bed from Billie Joe who is gone. It reads :
Jessie,
It's late and I need to get home, but I wanted to let you know I liked spending this afternoon with you. You are sleeping right now and I don't want to bother you so I'm going to leave this and hope you find it. I really like you and hope to see you tomorrow. You're not like any other girl I've met. Maybe we can be more than friends but that will be up to you. Well see you soon!
-Billie Joe
You smile as you read it and set it back on the table. You look at the clock, 11:45pm. 'Gosh, how long was I asleep. I wonder what time he left.' You think as you get up and walk over to your dresser. You pull off your clothes from today and slip into your night clothes, some loose night pants and a baggy shirt. You walk back over to your bed and fall asleep.
"So what was that look about today after school?" You ask.
"What look?" Billie Joe replies.
"Well when you walked up you were smiling then you looked over at Tre' and you just looked sad. Did he do something?" You say.
Billie Joe doesn't say anything for a while.
"Well no, not exactly. See...I don't really know how to say this, but....okay it's like whenever I like a girl and Tre' likes a girl Tre' is usually the one that gets that girl. I'm not jealous or anything, it's just well I really like you and I thought maybe well I might have a chance...and oh nevermind. I'm just rambling again." He says.
You feel your face turning red as you can't help smiling. "Billie Joe, I..." You start.
"Yeah, I know you like Tre' a lot. I understand." He says kicking the ground.
"No, actually I kind of well...I don't like Tre' like that." You say bluntly.
"Really?" He says.
"Yeah, he's funny and all but I dunno I'm not as attracted I guess." You say.
You see your house a little ways away.
"Oh." Billie Joe says. You notice a hint of disappointment in his voice.
"Well there is this one guy in two of my classes I kind of like...He's pretty quiet most of the time though." You say looking down at the ground, along with Billie Joe.
"Really? I guess that's cool." He says sadly.
"Yeah, but he's not as quiet right now." You say looking up at him.
He looks up at your surprised, you notice his eyes are beautiful. You smile as he turns a light shade of pink.
You reach your house and stop.
"I don't think my mom's home, you want to stay a little while?" You say timidly.
"Um sure, she won't mind will she?" Billie Joe asks.
"She shouldn't, even if she did she won't remember." You say. opening the gate.
You both walk up to your door. You pull out your keys and unlock it.
"You want something to drink?" You say setting your stuff down on the couch and walking toward the kitchen.
Billie Joe walks over to the couch still looking around. "Sure, water please."
You walk in the kitchen and grab two bottles of water out of the fridge. You walk over to Billie Joe and set the water down on the table in front of him. He's looking at one of your notebooks that was on the table. It had a bunch of collages. "You are really good at doing these." He says looking up at you. "Thank you. It's just a hobby, but I like it. My favorite is the one with all the band pictures, I think there are some of you guys from one of the concerts I went to." You smile as you sit next to him. You flip a few pages as he holds the notebook in his lap and find that page. "See there." You say and point to three differnet pictures. One Billie Joe and Mike are in the air, one is Billie Joe holding his guitar up to the crowd and the last one is just all of them playing their hearts out. "Awesome." He says and smiles at you. You smile back as you slip your hand into your lap.
"JESSIE!" You hear coming from outside. "COME HELP ME WITH THESE BAGS!" Your mom yells.
"OKAY MOTHER!" You yell back getting up. "I'll be right back." You say to Billie smiling as you go to the door. You walk outside and see your mom getting some bags out of the trunk of her car. "Did you like your new school dear?" You mom says. "Yeah, my friend Billie Joe is inside I want you to meet him." You say trying to be as nice as possible so she won't asked too many questions.
"Okay." She says walking up the steps as you grab the rest of the bags. You feel two are full of different kinds of "alcoholic beverages". You walk up the steps after her.
"Billie Joe this is my mom." You say standing behind her. She smiles sweetly at him and walks to the kitchen you start to follow her but turn and make a face at Billie Joe mocking her making him laugh. You walk in the kitchen and put everything up. You walk in the lounge and see your mom turning on the t.v.
"Um mom, Me and Billie Joe are going to be in my room if you need anything okay?" You say motioning to Billie Joe to come with you as you start towards the stairs.
"Okay, you two don't be doing anything though." She says opening a bottle.
You roll your eyes and walk up to your room. You open the door and scruntch up your face at the mess. You sigh and think 'Oh well.' Billie Joe comes up behind you. You feel a hand on your shoulder as you turn to look at him you smile. "It's messy but it's better than being down there with her." You say and walk in. Billie Joe nods and follows you in. You walk over and sit on your bed, Billie does the same.
"It's nice." He says smiling and still looking around. He notices some pictures on your wall and two framed by your bed.
"Is that you?" He sys pointing at one by your bed. It's a black and white picture of you that your mom had made about two years ago. It was the best one you ever took in your opinion, but you didn't brag.
"Yeah." You say as he smiles.
"Who is that?" Billie Joe asks pointing at the other picture. It was you and your brother before he went off to college.
"That's Justin, my brother. That was a few years ago before he went to college." You reply and look at it thoughtfully.
You sit in silence for a few minutes.
"So...."You say trying to start conversation. "What are we going to do tomorrow?"
"I don't know, probably just go back to Mike's and smoke." Billie Joe says.
"Oh sounds good to me." You say as you scoot back and lean on the wall.
"You wanna watch a movie?" Billie Joe says looking over at your t.v. and stack of dvds beside it.
"Sure, you can pick whichever one you want." You say laying over on your pillow. Billie Joe puts in Cable Guy, turns the lights off, and sits on the end of your bed. You look down at him and smile. "Billie Joe you can lay down if you want, you're too far away way down there." You say and laugh lightly. "Are you sure?" Billie Joe says laying down beside you as you hand him a pillow. "Yeah, don't worry about it." You say. Half way through the movie you fall asleep.
You wake up later that night and finda note on the table by your bed from Billie Joe who is gone. It reads :
Jessie,
It's late and I need to get home, but I wanted to let you know I liked spending this afternoon with you. You are sleeping right now and I don't want to bother you so I'm going to leave this and hope you find it. I really like you and hope to see you tomorrow. You're not like any other girl I've met. Maybe we can be more than friends but that will be up to you. Well see you soon!
-Billie Joe
You smile as you read it and set it back on the table. You look at the clock, 11:45pm. 'Gosh, how long was I asleep. I wonder what time he left.' You think as you get up and walk over to your dresser. You pull off your clothes from today and slip into your night clothes, some loose night pants and a baggy shirt. You walk back over to your bed and fall asleep.
