Your fathers rage and your mothers love, chapter 4
I went to move forward, with Jake crying in my arms.
"He needs to learn a lesson 80!" Billie said grabbing my arm.
"He's learnt it Billie!" I said wincing slightly has he increased the pressure he was putting on my arm.
"Give me Jake" Billie ordered
"No" I managed to say.
"80 give me Jake before I really lose it!" Billie hissed in my ear.
Jake tightend the grip he had on me.
"It's ok Jake" I soothed.
"No" I replied to Billie
"80 don't make me hurt you!" Billie hissed at me.
"Mikey" I shouted as Billie began to bend my arm back, the pain made me fall to my knees.
"What the fuck do you think you are doing Billie!" Mike shouted shoving Billie hard.
Billie Joe fell back and landed on the floor.
Tre rushed over to my side.
"80 are you ok?" Tre asked concerned.
"Yeah, yeah" I said in shock of what had just happened.
"Take Jake upstairs and don't come back down here!" I told Tre.
"No... Mummy" Jake cried as I handed him over to Tre.
It broke my heart to see Jake so frightened. I watched them go upstairs before I got up and went over to Mike and Billie. Billie was slumped against the wall. His knees where tucked tightly into his chest and he buried his head in his arms folded across his knee. Mike stood above Billie Joe shaking his head in disbelieve of what his fiend had just done. I stood next to Mike a minute before sitting down next to Billie Joe.
"Billie" I whispered softly.
Billie slowly lifted his head to face me.
"80" He said before pulling me into a close hug his eyes were back to their natural green.
"Mike can you give us a moment alone" I asked as I knew Billie Joe was back to his old self.
Mike studied Billie Joe's face and mine before giving a reluctant nod.
"I will be on the other side of the door so call me if you need me" Mike said turning and making his way back up stairs.
I nodded my response and turned back to face Billie Joe. Tears streamed down his face.
"I can't believe I couldn't even hold my promise a day" Billie sighed wiping the tears away from his face but smudging his eyeliner at the same time.
"Billie I know this one was kinda provoked but you real scared the shit out of not just Jake but all of us!" I sighed
"I'm sorry" Billie whimpered
"Fuck sorry isn't good enough I just made my child fear me. That's not the kind of father I want to be! Then I fucking hurt you again over nothing! I don't want to be like this 80" Billie cried.
"I know but... " I took a long sigh
"You can't stay here with us any more. You need to learn to control your anger before I can let you go near the kids!" I cried as Billie Joe's heart and mine broke.
"Billie this is the most difficult thing I have ever had to say but I'm only thinking of you around the boys" I muttered resting my head on Billie's shoulder.
"I know and I'm the one that has put you in this position, I'm so sorry 80"Billie spoke softly.
"Billie we need to find you help and until then maybe Mike will take you in"
Billie gave a little laugh and sniffed his nose.
"Don't you think it's ironic all these years I have been singing about being a basket case, and now I am one." Billie smiled weakly
"No you're not a basket case you just need some anger management or counseling," I suggested.
Billie Joe and I sat in the basement for along time thinking and reflecting on what had happened.
"Do you think I should talk to Jake before I leave and explain what happen and that I'm getting help" Billie questioned.
"Lets see how Jakes responds to you and if he will let you get close I think it would be a great idea, you're also going to have to talk to Joey, he has no idea this has happen, but he needs you so much at the minute." I sighed getting up and extending my arm to help Billie up.
"But more important how am I going to say goodbye to you" Billie smiled properly for the first time today as he stood up next to me puling me close to him.
"It's up to you" I smiled back
"He needs to learn a lesson 80!" Billie said grabbing my arm.
"He's learnt it Billie!" I said wincing slightly has he increased the pressure he was putting on my arm.
"Give me Jake" Billie ordered
"No" I managed to say.
"80 give me Jake before I really lose it!" Billie hissed in my ear.
Jake tightend the grip he had on me.
"It's ok Jake" I soothed.
"No" I replied to Billie
"80 don't make me hurt you!" Billie hissed at me.
"Mikey" I shouted as Billie began to bend my arm back, the pain made me fall to my knees.
"What the fuck do you think you are doing Billie!" Mike shouted shoving Billie hard.
Billie Joe fell back and landed on the floor.
Tre rushed over to my side.
"80 are you ok?" Tre asked concerned.
"Yeah, yeah" I said in shock of what had just happened.
"Take Jake upstairs and don't come back down here!" I told Tre.
"No... Mummy" Jake cried as I handed him over to Tre.
It broke my heart to see Jake so frightened. I watched them go upstairs before I got up and went over to Mike and Billie. Billie was slumped against the wall. His knees where tucked tightly into his chest and he buried his head in his arms folded across his knee. Mike stood above Billie Joe shaking his head in disbelieve of what his fiend had just done. I stood next to Mike a minute before sitting down next to Billie Joe.
"Billie" I whispered softly.
Billie slowly lifted his head to face me.
"80" He said before pulling me into a close hug his eyes were back to their natural green.
"Mike can you give us a moment alone" I asked as I knew Billie Joe was back to his old self.
Mike studied Billie Joe's face and mine before giving a reluctant nod.
"I will be on the other side of the door so call me if you need me" Mike said turning and making his way back up stairs.
I nodded my response and turned back to face Billie Joe. Tears streamed down his face.
"I can't believe I couldn't even hold my promise a day" Billie sighed wiping the tears away from his face but smudging his eyeliner at the same time.
"Billie I know this one was kinda provoked but you real scared the shit out of not just Jake but all of us!" I sighed
"I'm sorry" Billie whimpered
"Fuck sorry isn't good enough I just made my child fear me. That's not the kind of father I want to be! Then I fucking hurt you again over nothing! I don't want to be like this 80" Billie cried.
"I know but... " I took a long sigh
"You can't stay here with us any more. You need to learn to control your anger before I can let you go near the kids!" I cried as Billie Joe's heart and mine broke.
"Billie this is the most difficult thing I have ever had to say but I'm only thinking of you around the boys" I muttered resting my head on Billie's shoulder.
"I know and I'm the one that has put you in this position, I'm so sorry 80"Billie spoke softly.
"Billie we need to find you help and until then maybe Mike will take you in"
Billie gave a little laugh and sniffed his nose.
"Don't you think it's ironic all these years I have been singing about being a basket case, and now I am one." Billie smiled weakly
"No you're not a basket case you just need some anger management or counseling," I suggested.
Billie Joe and I sat in the basement for along time thinking and reflecting on what had happened.
"Do you think I should talk to Jake before I leave and explain what happen and that I'm getting help" Billie questioned.
"Lets see how Jakes responds to you and if he will let you get close I think it would be a great idea, you're also going to have to talk to Joey, he has no idea this has happen, but he needs you so much at the minute." I sighed getting up and extending my arm to help Billie up.
"But more important how am I going to say goodbye to you" Billie smiled properly for the first time today as he stood up next to me puling me close to him.
"It's up to you" I smiled back
