Your fathers rage and your mothers love, chapter 5
Billie grinned and wiggled his eyebrows.
"I have a few ideas" Billie smirked before pulling me into a kiss.
Billie wrapped his arms around me and pushed me up against the wall. Billie slipped his tongue into my mouth. I ran my fingers through his messy hair and down his back a few centimetres above his skin. This made him shudder, as he began to softly bit my neck...
After about half-hour of making out Billie Joe and I came back upstairs hand in hand.
Jake ran to me calling me but stopped dead when he saw Billie. I let go of Billie's hand and went over to Jake where I picked him up.
"Jake go get Joey honey we need to talk." I said softly kissing him on the head.
"Joey is in there with Tre" Jake whispered.
"Ok honey" I said running my hand through his hair.
I walked into the sitting room. Tre was goofing off as usual making Joey laugh, but stopped when I entered the room with Billie Joe close behind.
"Tre we need to talk to the boys" I said my voice was a bit shaky.
Tre nodded and made his exit from the room.
I carried Jake over to the couch and sat down next to Joey, placing Jake on my lap. Billie Joe hung at the door for a moment and regarded his family before he came and sat down on the other side of Joey. Billie Joe sat restlessly and ran his hand through his hair. I could tell he was trying to think of how to explain this to his young sons.
"I'm gonna need to go away for a while" Billie Joe said turning to face the boys and me.
"Good" Jake pouted into my shoulder.
"You can't!" Joey said horrified.
"You just got off tour!" Joey whined crossing his arms.
"I know sport, but I'm... " Billie Joe licked his lips to think of how to explain the complexes situation to his son.
"Not well" Billie Joe concluded.
"You look fine to me!" Joey pouted.
Billie Joe took a long sigh and shook his head.
"You promised that you would have a year off and that you would have time with us!" Joey whined.
"You promised to teach me guitar!"
"You promised to come to my sccore games!"
"I need you dad I'm CONFUSED at the minute!" Joey whined sliding down further in his seat.
"But that was before" Billie Joe gulped and struggled over what he was going to say.
"Before I hit your mother, before I almost hurt Jake" Billie said softly placing his head in his hand.
"I don't believe you!" Joey spat.
"He did, he did, he shouted at me and shook me, and he hurt mummy, like the other night!" Jake added.
Joey sat there in disbelieve.
"I have to go Joey, what if next time I hurt your mum badly or you or Jake, I could never forgive myself!" Billie Joe said raising his head from his hands.
Tears run down Billie Joe's face the boys had never seen him cry before.
"Shit" Joey muttered.
"Langue" I said to Joey.
"I'm leaving to get help" Billie Joe added his voice chocked with tears.
"How long for?" Joey asked tears filling his eyes
"For as long as it takes, weeks, months... " Billie Joe uttered.
"But I NEED you dad!" Joey cried throwing his arms around Billie Joe.
"I know, I know" Billie said rubbing Joeys back as he hugged his son tight.
Tears brimmed my eyes.
"When do you leave?" Joey whimpered looking up at Billie Joe.
"Today!" Billie answered softy running his hand through Joey's hair.
"Don't leave Dad please!" Joey begged.
"I have too" Billie Joe chocked.
"Its all your fault!" Joey spun round and faced Jake.
Joey's eyes were full of anger his little face red and tear drenched.
"You broke Dads guitar and made him mad now his going to leave, because of you, I hate you!" Joey shouted at Jake.
"It's not my fault dad hit mum!" Jake cried trembling in my arms.
"Enough! Both of you" I shouted.
"Joey how dare you talk to your younger bother like that!" I said angrily some tears escaped my eyes and ran down my cheeks.
Jake sobbed into my shoulder. I rocked him slowly.
"It's alright buddy it's not your fault!" Billie Joe said extending his arm to rub Jakes back.
Jake struggled out of reach. Billie Joe dropped his arm back down around Joey.
"I hate you Jake!" Joey mumbled.
"Joseph, don't say that! I'm gonna be going soon and I need you to be man of the house and look after your Mum and Jake." Billie Joe half scolded Joey.
"I tell you what why don't you come and help me pack!" Billie Joe smiled at Joey wiping away all his tears.
"As if it's going to make a difference!" Joey utter.
"Fine" Billie Joe huffed and got to his feet.
"You wanna help me Jake?" Billie coaxed.
"No!" Jake said sharply.
Billie Joe made his exit from the room. I turned my attention to Joey.
"Joey stop sulking and go help your father this could be the last time you see him for awhile and it will give you time to talk over stuff your not sure about." I prodded a blushing Joey.
"And who's fault is that!" Joey glared at Jake.
"It's no ones fault now go help your father" I scolded.
"Fine" Joey huffed and exited out of the room.
Leaving me with Jake cradled in my lap.
"Jakey don't you want to go help daddy and Joey?" I soothed running my fingers through Jake's hair.
"No!" Jake sniffed.
"Honey I know what happened but that wasn't daddy, you know that!, daddy's going to get help and then everything will be back to normal, you'll see" I spoke softly rocking Jake.
"So should we go help daddy and Joey now?" I asked brightly.
"No!" Jake pouted and buried his head deep into my shoulder.
I gave along sigh and continued to comfort my youngest son. Jake and I fell asleep and I was awoken by Billie Joe.
"80, I've sorted things out with Joey, explained what happen, why it did and what I'm going to do about it, as well as some stuff Joey is 'going through'" Billie Joe winked.
I smiled faintly at him.
"Any way I told Mike my plan and his happy to help me through this, so I'm all packed and ready to leave, do you think I should try one more time to get through to Jake?" Billie Joe whispered over the sleeping Jake.
"Yeah" I smiled.
"Jakey" I said softly waking Jake up.
"Hello honey!" I kissed Jake on the forehead.
Jake looked around the room slightly dazed and confused about where he was. Then he saw Billie Joe and gripped me tight.
"It's ok honey, Daddy's going to be leaving shortly, but first us three need a talk, ok?" I asked Jake.
Jake nodded his head and wiped the sleep out of his eyes. Billie Joe sat on the couch next to Jake and me.
"Hey buddy" Billie Joe smiled at Jake.
"I'm gonna be going soon and I don't know exactly when I will be back hopefully soon, I just need to go away knowing that you don't completely hate me?" Billie Joe paused and waited for a response from Jake, but it never came.
"Jake I know what I did was really wrong I shouted at you and I know that scared you but I swear it will never happen again! I'm gonna get help and then you will have your old daddy back" Billie Joe smiled at Jake.
Jake looked dismissively in the other direction.
"Come on Jakey we're not gonna see daddy for a long time, just tell daddy you love him." I whimpered.
Jake made no response.
"Please Jake for mummy?" My voice cracked into a cry.
Still Jake refused.
"Jake seeing as you don't want to see daddy go in the other room with Joey while I say goodbye to daddy!" I cried with anger present in my voice.
Jake climbed out of my lap and left the room. Tears rolled down my face as I turned to Billie Joe.
"Billie" I sobbed.
Billie pulled me into his lap and cradled me as I did Jake.
"Sssh it's going to be ok" Billie Joe rocked me.
We stayed like this for a long time.
"I guess I should make a move" Billie Joe said tearfully.
"Don't cry 80, just remember I love you and I'm doing this for you!" Billie Joe said before pulling me into a passionate kiss that I never wanted to end.
But it did and I slowly slide off Billie Joe's lap. Billie Joe rose and extended his hand to help me up. We walked into the hallway hand in hand were Billie Joe's bags and the boys were waiting. Billie Joe let go over my hand and went over to Joey.
"I'll miss you Joey" Billie said pulling Joey into a long hug.
"Just remember what I told you and you will be ok!" Billie Joe smiled a tear drenched grin.
Joey cried and held onto Billie Joe for dear life.
"Pleas, please, please Dad don't go!" Joey sobbed.
"You know I have to!" Billie Joe said ruffling Joey's hair.
Joey reluctantly let go of Billie Joe and wiped his face with the back of his sleeve. Billie Joe knelt down so he was eye level with Jake.
"This is it Jake buddy I'm leaving, you wanna say something?" Billie Joe coaxed examining Jake's face.
"Anything" Billie whimpered.
Jake just stared blankly through Billie Joe as if he wasn't even there.
"Alright Buddy, just remember daddy has and always will love you, no matter what!" Billie Joe sighed getting up.
"Goodbye 80" Billie Joe hardly got the chance to say as I flung my arms around him tightly.
"I love you so much!" I whispered in is ear.
I pulled away slowly and Billie Joe leaned his forehead against mine.
"I love you too" Billie Joe's voice quivered as he pulled me in for our final kiss.
I reluctantly let go of Billie Joe. Billie Joe called Tre and Mike and got his bags together. Billie Joe short us a reassuring smile.
"I'll be back as soon as I can, until then Joey your man of the house look after Jake and your mother and boys please listen to what your mother tells you! This will not be for long! You can always phone me at Mike's! I love you all!" A tear dripped down Billie Joe's face.
Billie Joe turned and opened the door and Mike and Tre began to help him load his things into Mike's car. We all went to the door to watch. I wrapped my arms around Joeys shoulders and Joey held Jake by the side of the arms.
"Bye" Billie Joe raised his arm and gave us a little wave and he got in Mike'scar and Mike began to turn the engine.
Jake suddenly ran from Joeys grip.
"Daddy don't leave!" Jake screamed as he ran to the car that was slowly pulling away.
The car came to a halt and Billie Joe jumped out door and knelt on the ground with his arms wide open for Jake.
"Daddy" Jake cried running into Billie Joe's arms.
"I'll say anything Daddy, just please don't go, please" Jake hugged Billie Joe tight.
"I have a few ideas" Billie smirked before pulling me into a kiss.
Billie wrapped his arms around me and pushed me up against the wall. Billie slipped his tongue into my mouth. I ran my fingers through his messy hair and down his back a few centimetres above his skin. This made him shudder, as he began to softly bit my neck...
After about half-hour of making out Billie Joe and I came back upstairs hand in hand.
Jake ran to me calling me but stopped dead when he saw Billie. I let go of Billie's hand and went over to Jake where I picked him up.
"Jake go get Joey honey we need to talk." I said softly kissing him on the head.
"Joey is in there with Tre" Jake whispered.
"Ok honey" I said running my hand through his hair.
I walked into the sitting room. Tre was goofing off as usual making Joey laugh, but stopped when I entered the room with Billie Joe close behind.
"Tre we need to talk to the boys" I said my voice was a bit shaky.
Tre nodded and made his exit from the room.
I carried Jake over to the couch and sat down next to Joey, placing Jake on my lap. Billie Joe hung at the door for a moment and regarded his family before he came and sat down on the other side of Joey. Billie Joe sat restlessly and ran his hand through his hair. I could tell he was trying to think of how to explain this to his young sons.
"I'm gonna need to go away for a while" Billie Joe said turning to face the boys and me.
"Good" Jake pouted into my shoulder.
"You can't!" Joey said horrified.
"You just got off tour!" Joey whined crossing his arms.
"I know sport, but I'm... " Billie Joe licked his lips to think of how to explain the complexes situation to his son.
"Not well" Billie Joe concluded.
"You look fine to me!" Joey pouted.
Billie Joe took a long sigh and shook his head.
"You promised that you would have a year off and that you would have time with us!" Joey whined.
"You promised to teach me guitar!"
"You promised to come to my sccore games!"
"I need you dad I'm CONFUSED at the minute!" Joey whined sliding down further in his seat.
"But that was before" Billie Joe gulped and struggled over what he was going to say.
"Before I hit your mother, before I almost hurt Jake" Billie said softly placing his head in his hand.
"I don't believe you!" Joey spat.
"He did, he did, he shouted at me and shook me, and he hurt mummy, like the other night!" Jake added.
Joey sat there in disbelieve.
"I have to go Joey, what if next time I hurt your mum badly or you or Jake, I could never forgive myself!" Billie Joe said raising his head from his hands.
Tears run down Billie Joe's face the boys had never seen him cry before.
"Shit" Joey muttered.
"Langue" I said to Joey.
"I'm leaving to get help" Billie Joe added his voice chocked with tears.
"How long for?" Joey asked tears filling his eyes
"For as long as it takes, weeks, months... " Billie Joe uttered.
"But I NEED you dad!" Joey cried throwing his arms around Billie Joe.
"I know, I know" Billie said rubbing Joeys back as he hugged his son tight.
Tears brimmed my eyes.
"When do you leave?" Joey whimpered looking up at Billie Joe.
"Today!" Billie answered softy running his hand through Joey's hair.
"Don't leave Dad please!" Joey begged.
"I have too" Billie Joe chocked.
"Its all your fault!" Joey spun round and faced Jake.
Joey's eyes were full of anger his little face red and tear drenched.
"You broke Dads guitar and made him mad now his going to leave, because of you, I hate you!" Joey shouted at Jake.
"It's not my fault dad hit mum!" Jake cried trembling in my arms.
"Enough! Both of you" I shouted.
"Joey how dare you talk to your younger bother like that!" I said angrily some tears escaped my eyes and ran down my cheeks.
Jake sobbed into my shoulder. I rocked him slowly.
"It's alright buddy it's not your fault!" Billie Joe said extending his arm to rub Jakes back.
Jake struggled out of reach. Billie Joe dropped his arm back down around Joey.
"I hate you Jake!" Joey mumbled.
"Joseph, don't say that! I'm gonna be going soon and I need you to be man of the house and look after your Mum and Jake." Billie Joe half scolded Joey.
"I tell you what why don't you come and help me pack!" Billie Joe smiled at Joey wiping away all his tears.
"As if it's going to make a difference!" Joey utter.
"Fine" Billie Joe huffed and got to his feet.
"You wanna help me Jake?" Billie coaxed.
"No!" Jake said sharply.
Billie Joe made his exit from the room. I turned my attention to Joey.
"Joey stop sulking and go help your father this could be the last time you see him for awhile and it will give you time to talk over stuff your not sure about." I prodded a blushing Joey.
"And who's fault is that!" Joey glared at Jake.
"It's no ones fault now go help your father" I scolded.
"Fine" Joey huffed and exited out of the room.
Leaving me with Jake cradled in my lap.
"Jakey don't you want to go help daddy and Joey?" I soothed running my fingers through Jake's hair.
"No!" Jake sniffed.
"Honey I know what happened but that wasn't daddy, you know that!, daddy's going to get help and then everything will be back to normal, you'll see" I spoke softly rocking Jake.
"So should we go help daddy and Joey now?" I asked brightly.
"No!" Jake pouted and buried his head deep into my shoulder.
I gave along sigh and continued to comfort my youngest son. Jake and I fell asleep and I was awoken by Billie Joe.
"80, I've sorted things out with Joey, explained what happen, why it did and what I'm going to do about it, as well as some stuff Joey is 'going through'" Billie Joe winked.
I smiled faintly at him.
"Any way I told Mike my plan and his happy to help me through this, so I'm all packed and ready to leave, do you think I should try one more time to get through to Jake?" Billie Joe whispered over the sleeping Jake.
"Yeah" I smiled.
"Jakey" I said softly waking Jake up.
"Hello honey!" I kissed Jake on the forehead.
Jake looked around the room slightly dazed and confused about where he was. Then he saw Billie Joe and gripped me tight.
"It's ok honey, Daddy's going to be leaving shortly, but first us three need a talk, ok?" I asked Jake.
Jake nodded his head and wiped the sleep out of his eyes. Billie Joe sat on the couch next to Jake and me.
"Hey buddy" Billie Joe smiled at Jake.
"I'm gonna be going soon and I don't know exactly when I will be back hopefully soon, I just need to go away knowing that you don't completely hate me?" Billie Joe paused and waited for a response from Jake, but it never came.
"Jake I know what I did was really wrong I shouted at you and I know that scared you but I swear it will never happen again! I'm gonna get help and then you will have your old daddy back" Billie Joe smiled at Jake.
Jake looked dismissively in the other direction.
"Come on Jakey we're not gonna see daddy for a long time, just tell daddy you love him." I whimpered.
Jake made no response.
"Please Jake for mummy?" My voice cracked into a cry.
Still Jake refused.
"Jake seeing as you don't want to see daddy go in the other room with Joey while I say goodbye to daddy!" I cried with anger present in my voice.
Jake climbed out of my lap and left the room. Tears rolled down my face as I turned to Billie Joe.
"Billie" I sobbed.
Billie pulled me into his lap and cradled me as I did Jake.
"Sssh it's going to be ok" Billie Joe rocked me.
We stayed like this for a long time.
"I guess I should make a move" Billie Joe said tearfully.
"Don't cry 80, just remember I love you and I'm doing this for you!" Billie Joe said before pulling me into a passionate kiss that I never wanted to end.
But it did and I slowly slide off Billie Joe's lap. Billie Joe rose and extended his hand to help me up. We walked into the hallway hand in hand were Billie Joe's bags and the boys were waiting. Billie Joe let go over my hand and went over to Joey.
"I'll miss you Joey" Billie said pulling Joey into a long hug.
"Just remember what I told you and you will be ok!" Billie Joe smiled a tear drenched grin.
Joey cried and held onto Billie Joe for dear life.
"Pleas, please, please Dad don't go!" Joey sobbed.
"You know I have to!" Billie Joe said ruffling Joey's hair.
Joey reluctantly let go of Billie Joe and wiped his face with the back of his sleeve. Billie Joe knelt down so he was eye level with Jake.
"This is it Jake buddy I'm leaving, you wanna say something?" Billie Joe coaxed examining Jake's face.
"Anything" Billie whimpered.
Jake just stared blankly through Billie Joe as if he wasn't even there.
"Alright Buddy, just remember daddy has and always will love you, no matter what!" Billie Joe sighed getting up.
"Goodbye 80" Billie Joe hardly got the chance to say as I flung my arms around him tightly.
"I love you so much!" I whispered in is ear.
I pulled away slowly and Billie Joe leaned his forehead against mine.
"I love you too" Billie Joe's voice quivered as he pulled me in for our final kiss.
I reluctantly let go of Billie Joe. Billie Joe called Tre and Mike and got his bags together. Billie Joe short us a reassuring smile.
"I'll be back as soon as I can, until then Joey your man of the house look after Jake and your mother and boys please listen to what your mother tells you! This will not be for long! You can always phone me at Mike's! I love you all!" A tear dripped down Billie Joe's face.
Billie Joe turned and opened the door and Mike and Tre began to help him load his things into Mike's car. We all went to the door to watch. I wrapped my arms around Joeys shoulders and Joey held Jake by the side of the arms.
"Bye" Billie Joe raised his arm and gave us a little wave and he got in Mike'scar and Mike began to turn the engine.
Jake suddenly ran from Joeys grip.
"Daddy don't leave!" Jake screamed as he ran to the car that was slowly pulling away.
The car came to a halt and Billie Joe jumped out door and knelt on the ground with his arms wide open for Jake.
"Daddy" Jake cried running into Billie Joe's arms.
"I'll say anything Daddy, just please don't go, please" Jake hugged Billie Joe tight.
