Your fathers rage and your mothers love, chapter 6
***2 months later***
I sat on the bed wishing Billie Joe were here with me. I had been sick again this morning. I reached for the phone I noticed my hand was shaking as I dialled Mike's number.
"Yellow" Billie answered.
"Billie" My voice wavered.
"80 are you ok?" Billie asked concerned.
"Billie I need you to come home?" I cried into the phone.
"80 what's wrong?" Billie chocked.
"Are you and the boys ok?" Billie asked in a panic.
"Yeah, yeah they're at school, I just need to talk to you," I whimpered.
"Ok hold on 80 I'm coming" Billie hung up the phone.
"Be quick Billie!" I cried to the dialling tone.
A knock came at the door after what felt like hours later. I opened the door and fell into Billie's arms.
"It's ok I'm here" Billie whispered into my ear.
We hugged for what seemed like a lifetime before Billie lead me to the couch and pulled me into his lap.
"80 what's got you so upset?" Billie asked softly.
"Billie I'm 'late'" I managed to gasp through tears.
The words triggered the memory of when I had told Billie Joe I was pregnant with Joey.
**Flashback**
I lay in Billie arms wondering how to tell him. How do you tell some one that they are going to be a dad! I shouldn't jump to conclusions I told myself, I hadn't even done a test. What if I wasn't? No I must be, I haven't had one for almost three months. What else could it be? Plus I have been feeling sick in the morning and throwing up. But maybe I should do a test just to be sure before I tell Billie. I mean what if I tell him and I'm not, that would be hell. What if he didn't want the baby what with his band being noticed I'm sure a record deal is round the corner. How will we cope, we just got married yesterday for fuck sake. No I'm being stupid this is Billie, the most kindest, sweetest, loving man in the world of course he wants the baby. But how to tell him? There was so many ways, Billie your gonna be a dad, I think I'm pregnant, we're going to have a baby! I'm late. I thought about it but my thoughts were disturbed as Billie woke from his sleep.
"Morning Mrs Armstrong" Billie smiled, pulling me into a kiss as he climbed on top of me and began to kiss my neck and explore my body.
"Billie" I whispered.
"Billie"
"Billie stop it!" I groaned.
Billie stopped and looked at my face pushing my hair aside.
"What's wrong?" Billie asked tilting his head to one side.
I guess this was it. I was just going to tell Billie 'I was late'. There was not commitment in the fares. I was just telling him the truth. I took a deep breath.
"Billie I'm late" I blurted out.
Billie looked shocked.
"So you think you're pregnant?" Billie gulped.
"Yeah, but I don't know for definite" I spoke softly.
A grin spread across Billie's face, He leaned back down and kissed me.
" Well let's fine out!" Billie smiled leaping out of bed.
**End of Flashback**
"Well we need to find out for sure" Billie sighed taking my hand.
"You got a test or do you want me to go get one?" Billie asked.
"No I have one I just wanted to do it with you here." I sniffed.
"Well I'm here now" Billie said calmly raising from his seat.
We both walked up stairs. I went to the bathroom and did the test. I walked outside to Billie clutching the test and we sat together on your bed waiting for the results.
**Flashback**
"Billie we can't do it here not in a shop!" I hissed.
"Come on 80 I wanna know now, there's a toilet over there and we have paid for it already!" Billie pleaded.
"I don't want to find out I'm pregnant in some smelly shop toilet!" I protested but it was a tempting Idea I wanted to know the results as well.
"Come on 80 please" Billie begged.
Temptation got the better of me and I gave in.
"Ok, ok but you have to wait outside the women's for me!" I sighed and went to go into the toilet.
"Can't I come in there with you I wanna be there!"
"Let me check if any ones in there" I popped my head round the corner to find the bathroom empty.
"Ok it's clear" I replied happily.
Billie pushed me into the bathroom and into a cubical.
"Billie Joe Armstrong you can think again, if you think you are coming in this cubical with me!" I said to Billie over my shoulder.
"But I have come this far"
"All I'm going to do in there is piss on a stick its not that amazing, I promise as soon as I am done I will come out so we can see the results come together!" I said kissing Billie on the head and going in to the cubical.
About two minutes later I unlocked the door and Billie squeezed into the small cubical as we waited for the results of the test. I put the lid to the toilet down and Billie sat down on that and pulled me into his lap and we waited for the blue line to appear.
**End of Flashback**
The blue line appeared. Tears spilled down my cheeks. It's not like I didn't want the baby, it was just bad timing. My hands were full at the moment, what with the kids, my clothing line, the house, Billie's career, Billie's problems. It was just the thought of adding a baby to the equitation made me cry. Billie pulled his arm around me but sat in silence.
**Flashback**
A blue line appeared on the test. Tears of joy streamed down my face.
"I'm pregnant," I whispered.
Billie increased the grip he had on my.
"This is fucking amazing" Billie kissed me.
"I'm gonna be a Dad!" Billie shouted happily.
"This is the best day of my life, thank you so much 80" Billie Kissed me again.
"I love you" Tears ran down Billie's face.
**End of Flashback**
I sat on the bed wishing Billie Joe were here with me. I had been sick again this morning. I reached for the phone I noticed my hand was shaking as I dialled Mike's number.
"Yellow" Billie answered.
"Billie" My voice wavered.
"80 are you ok?" Billie asked concerned.
"Billie I need you to come home?" I cried into the phone.
"80 what's wrong?" Billie chocked.
"Are you and the boys ok?" Billie asked in a panic.
"Yeah, yeah they're at school, I just need to talk to you," I whimpered.
"Ok hold on 80 I'm coming" Billie hung up the phone.
"Be quick Billie!" I cried to the dialling tone.
A knock came at the door after what felt like hours later. I opened the door and fell into Billie's arms.
"It's ok I'm here" Billie whispered into my ear.
We hugged for what seemed like a lifetime before Billie lead me to the couch and pulled me into his lap.
"80 what's got you so upset?" Billie asked softly.
"Billie I'm 'late'" I managed to gasp through tears.
The words triggered the memory of when I had told Billie Joe I was pregnant with Joey.
**Flashback**
I lay in Billie arms wondering how to tell him. How do you tell some one that they are going to be a dad! I shouldn't jump to conclusions I told myself, I hadn't even done a test. What if I wasn't? No I must be, I haven't had one for almost three months. What else could it be? Plus I have been feeling sick in the morning and throwing up. But maybe I should do a test just to be sure before I tell Billie. I mean what if I tell him and I'm not, that would be hell. What if he didn't want the baby what with his band being noticed I'm sure a record deal is round the corner. How will we cope, we just got married yesterday for fuck sake. No I'm being stupid this is Billie, the most kindest, sweetest, loving man in the world of course he wants the baby. But how to tell him? There was so many ways, Billie your gonna be a dad, I think I'm pregnant, we're going to have a baby! I'm late. I thought about it but my thoughts were disturbed as Billie woke from his sleep.
"Morning Mrs Armstrong" Billie smiled, pulling me into a kiss as he climbed on top of me and began to kiss my neck and explore my body.
"Billie" I whispered.
"Billie"
"Billie stop it!" I groaned.
Billie stopped and looked at my face pushing my hair aside.
"What's wrong?" Billie asked tilting his head to one side.
I guess this was it. I was just going to tell Billie 'I was late'. There was not commitment in the fares. I was just telling him the truth. I took a deep breath.
"Billie I'm late" I blurted out.
Billie looked shocked.
"So you think you're pregnant?" Billie gulped.
"Yeah, but I don't know for definite" I spoke softly.
A grin spread across Billie's face, He leaned back down and kissed me.
" Well let's fine out!" Billie smiled leaping out of bed.
**End of Flashback**
"Well we need to find out for sure" Billie sighed taking my hand.
"You got a test or do you want me to go get one?" Billie asked.
"No I have one I just wanted to do it with you here." I sniffed.
"Well I'm here now" Billie said calmly raising from his seat.
We both walked up stairs. I went to the bathroom and did the test. I walked outside to Billie clutching the test and we sat together on your bed waiting for the results.
**Flashback**
"Billie we can't do it here not in a shop!" I hissed.
"Come on 80 I wanna know now, there's a toilet over there and we have paid for it already!" Billie pleaded.
"I don't want to find out I'm pregnant in some smelly shop toilet!" I protested but it was a tempting Idea I wanted to know the results as well.
"Come on 80 please" Billie begged.
Temptation got the better of me and I gave in.
"Ok, ok but you have to wait outside the women's for me!" I sighed and went to go into the toilet.
"Can't I come in there with you I wanna be there!"
"Let me check if any ones in there" I popped my head round the corner to find the bathroom empty.
"Ok it's clear" I replied happily.
Billie pushed me into the bathroom and into a cubical.
"Billie Joe Armstrong you can think again, if you think you are coming in this cubical with me!" I said to Billie over my shoulder.
"But I have come this far"
"All I'm going to do in there is piss on a stick its not that amazing, I promise as soon as I am done I will come out so we can see the results come together!" I said kissing Billie on the head and going in to the cubical.
About two minutes later I unlocked the door and Billie squeezed into the small cubical as we waited for the results of the test. I put the lid to the toilet down and Billie sat down on that and pulled me into his lap and we waited for the blue line to appear.
**End of Flashback**
The blue line appeared. Tears spilled down my cheeks. It's not like I didn't want the baby, it was just bad timing. My hands were full at the moment, what with the kids, my clothing line, the house, Billie's career, Billie's problems. It was just the thought of adding a baby to the equitation made me cry. Billie pulled his arm around me but sat in silence.
**Flashback**
A blue line appeared on the test. Tears of joy streamed down my face.
"I'm pregnant," I whispered.
Billie increased the grip he had on my.
"This is fucking amazing" Billie kissed me.
"I'm gonna be a Dad!" Billie shouted happily.
"This is the best day of my life, thank you so much 80" Billie Kissed me again.
"I love you" Tears ran down Billie's face.
**End of Flashback**
