Are we demented or am I disturbed?, chapter 4
"Look out Ruby, he's coming over here... "
"Hey... Billie, Ruby"
"What do you want now?"
"To talk with Ruby, if that's ok with you Billie," he said shooting Billie a death stare.
"It's ok Billie, I'll be ok, just a quick chat," I said trying to convince myself.
"Ray if you even lay one hand on her... Watch out," Billie said with clenched fists.
I looked at Ray who was literally scared. I gave Billie a quick kiss on the check.
"Be careful," he said staring into my eyes. I couldn't get any words out. I just followed Ray outside the classroom.
"Listen Ruby... Look I know you're probably wondering what I'm doing."
"Sure am," I said with sarcasm in my voice.
"God Ruby I'm trying to be nice! Give me a break!"
"Excuse me? Be nice, what after all you've done to me?"
"I didn't want to do that! It wasn't my idea! Look Frank said that if I didn't help him try hook up with you then... "
"Then what? You wouldn't be friends? What could possibly be so important that you just had to help him rape me?" tears streamed down my face.
"He would have hurt Billie! Ok! I was protecting your boyfriend. I didn't know he was actually going to hurt you. I thought he was all talk... "
I sunk to the ground. Frank would hurt Billie? But why? He never did anything to him...
"So I... I nominated you because... I mean you deserved it. Really I mean I am sorry for what happened," he said playing with his fingers, "It was the least I could do."
"Just... but why would frank want to hurt Billie?
"Remember how Frank likes you... "
I nodded my head. "But why hurt Billie, or me?"
"Because Billie likes you, and you don't like Frank. He wanted to get to you any way possible" I wiped away my tears and motioned Ray to come sit down.
"So you're not... ," I said between sobs, "You're not friendly with Frankie anymore?"
"Not at all. I felt so guilty after what he did to you, I couldn't bear being around them anymore," he said looking away.
"Don't tell Billie," I pleaded.
"Tell him what?"
"That Frank wanted to hurt him," I said shivering at the thought.
"Ok, but don't tell Frank or Mike I told you this either," he said sternly, "I don't want to cause any more hurt... "
"Billie isn't my boyfriend... I don't think," I whispered.
Ray nodded his head and helped me up. I walked back into the classroom. As soon as I opened the door Billie rushed over to me.
"What happened? Why are your eyes red? Ruby?" he said with concern.
I laughed it off, keeping it all to myself. "He told me a joke about why he nominated me, just nothing Billie, don't worry."
"Fine," he said, not believing my excuse, "He didn't... he didn't touch you did he?" he said with sorrow in his eyes.
"Billie of course not. He's actually... changed"
"Yeah that's what he wants you to believe Ruby," he said angrily.
"Billie Joe," I pleaded, "Don't be angry at me... "
Billie sighed, "Ruby please I'm not angry at you... I'm angry that you don't realize that Ray and his friends were the ones that destroyed your life a few months ago"
A tear streamed down my cheek, dyed black from my eyeliner. "I'm sorry for being so horrible Billie. You should hate me," I said sitting down again at my desk. I pulled out my diary. I didn't care if anyone saw now. "I don't hate you. I love you," Billie whispered. The bell rang for first class. "Be careful," Billie whispered in my ear, kissing my cheek and then grabbing his bag. "I love you," I said, my eyes blurred from my tears.
*Billie's Pov*
I made my way to first class. I pulled out my timetable. 'Great, I thought to myself, History'. I thought back to what Ruby had said. "He told me a joke about why he nominated me, just nothing Billie, don't worry."
How could I not worry when I knew she was lying to me? I opened the door to the classroom and looked around for a seat. There was only one seat left. 'You've got to be joking me,' I thought to myself. It was right next to Mike and his friends. I sat down and kept to myself, opening my planner and writing down the notes the teacher quickly wrote on the board. "Well well well... Billie Joe, I never knew you actually did any work," Mike said with a smirk.
"You learn something new every day Mike," I replied, still focusing on the work.
Before I knew it, Mike had grabbed me by my shirt. "You don't talk smart to me, ya hear loser?"
I had to agree, now wasn't the time to be making smart comments. "Ok ok, geez let me go already," I coolly said.
"So I hear you and Ruby are pretty close now huh?"
"You could say that," I said looking at Mike.
"Tell me Billie, guy to guy, is she still amazing in bed?"
"Fuck you Dirnt"
"Oh I think she will," he said laughing with his jock friends.
"I hope you die you disgusting basturd," I spat in his face, and got my bag and left.
"Mr. Armstrong, where do you think you're... "
"Fuck you," I said closing the door and making my way to the oval. A tear forming in the corner of my eye, I thought how horrible this must feel for Ruby, every day.
I lit a cigarette and got out a piece of paper. I wrote Ruby a letter; I needed to be with her tonight. Now I fully understood.
Dear Ruby,
My house, at 7? I need to talk to you.
Love Billie Joe xx.
I walked back to the school and followed the corridor to Ruby's locker. Slipping the note in, I ran a hand through my hair and left for home.
"Hey... Billie, Ruby"
"What do you want now?"
"To talk with Ruby, if that's ok with you Billie," he said shooting Billie a death stare.
"It's ok Billie, I'll be ok, just a quick chat," I said trying to convince myself.
"Ray if you even lay one hand on her... Watch out," Billie said with clenched fists.
I looked at Ray who was literally scared. I gave Billie a quick kiss on the check.
"Be careful," he said staring into my eyes. I couldn't get any words out. I just followed Ray outside the classroom.
"Listen Ruby... Look I know you're probably wondering what I'm doing."
"Sure am," I said with sarcasm in my voice.
"God Ruby I'm trying to be nice! Give me a break!"
"Excuse me? Be nice, what after all you've done to me?"
"I didn't want to do that! It wasn't my idea! Look Frank said that if I didn't help him try hook up with you then... "
"Then what? You wouldn't be friends? What could possibly be so important that you just had to help him rape me?" tears streamed down my face.
"He would have hurt Billie! Ok! I was protecting your boyfriend. I didn't know he was actually going to hurt you. I thought he was all talk... "
I sunk to the ground. Frank would hurt Billie? But why? He never did anything to him...
"So I... I nominated you because... I mean you deserved it. Really I mean I am sorry for what happened," he said playing with his fingers, "It was the least I could do."
"Just... but why would frank want to hurt Billie?
"Remember how Frank likes you... "
I nodded my head. "But why hurt Billie, or me?"
"Because Billie likes you, and you don't like Frank. He wanted to get to you any way possible" I wiped away my tears and motioned Ray to come sit down.
"So you're not... ," I said between sobs, "You're not friendly with Frankie anymore?"
"Not at all. I felt so guilty after what he did to you, I couldn't bear being around them anymore," he said looking away.
"Don't tell Billie," I pleaded.
"Tell him what?"
"That Frank wanted to hurt him," I said shivering at the thought.
"Ok, but don't tell Frank or Mike I told you this either," he said sternly, "I don't want to cause any more hurt... "
"Billie isn't my boyfriend... I don't think," I whispered.
Ray nodded his head and helped me up. I walked back into the classroom. As soon as I opened the door Billie rushed over to me.
"What happened? Why are your eyes red? Ruby?" he said with concern.
I laughed it off, keeping it all to myself. "He told me a joke about why he nominated me, just nothing Billie, don't worry."
"Fine," he said, not believing my excuse, "He didn't... he didn't touch you did he?" he said with sorrow in his eyes.
"Billie of course not. He's actually... changed"
"Yeah that's what he wants you to believe Ruby," he said angrily.
"Billie Joe," I pleaded, "Don't be angry at me... "
Billie sighed, "Ruby please I'm not angry at you... I'm angry that you don't realize that Ray and his friends were the ones that destroyed your life a few months ago"
A tear streamed down my cheek, dyed black from my eyeliner. "I'm sorry for being so horrible Billie. You should hate me," I said sitting down again at my desk. I pulled out my diary. I didn't care if anyone saw now. "I don't hate you. I love you," Billie whispered. The bell rang for first class. "Be careful," Billie whispered in my ear, kissing my cheek and then grabbing his bag. "I love you," I said, my eyes blurred from my tears.
*Billie's Pov*
I made my way to first class. I pulled out my timetable. 'Great, I thought to myself, History'. I thought back to what Ruby had said. "He told me a joke about why he nominated me, just nothing Billie, don't worry."
How could I not worry when I knew she was lying to me? I opened the door to the classroom and looked around for a seat. There was only one seat left. 'You've got to be joking me,' I thought to myself. It was right next to Mike and his friends. I sat down and kept to myself, opening my planner and writing down the notes the teacher quickly wrote on the board. "Well well well... Billie Joe, I never knew you actually did any work," Mike said with a smirk.
"You learn something new every day Mike," I replied, still focusing on the work.
Before I knew it, Mike had grabbed me by my shirt. "You don't talk smart to me, ya hear loser?"
I had to agree, now wasn't the time to be making smart comments. "Ok ok, geez let me go already," I coolly said.
"So I hear you and Ruby are pretty close now huh?"
"You could say that," I said looking at Mike.
"Tell me Billie, guy to guy, is she still amazing in bed?"
"Fuck you Dirnt"
"Oh I think she will," he said laughing with his jock friends.
"I hope you die you disgusting basturd," I spat in his face, and got my bag and left.
"Mr. Armstrong, where do you think you're... "
"Fuck you," I said closing the door and making my way to the oval. A tear forming in the corner of my eye, I thought how horrible this must feel for Ruby, every day.
I lit a cigarette and got out a piece of paper. I wrote Ruby a letter; I needed to be with her tonight. Now I fully understood.
Dear Ruby,
My house, at 7? I need to talk to you.
Love Billie Joe xx.
I walked back to the school and followed the corridor to Ruby's locker. Slipping the note in, I ran a hand through my hair and left for home.
