Rachina, Green Day And I, chapter 32
*******ABOUT THREE OR SO DAYS LATER*******
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
"What are you doing today?" I asked Kym.
"I'm going to lunch with Tash." She said.
"Ok. So, how do you guys know each other?" I asked hoping to make conversation.
"Well... we were... friends in high school." She said.
"Ok." I said in a tone that let her know I didn't believe her.
"What?" she said. I could tell she was lying instantly. I just looked at her and raised one eyebrow.
"Fine!!! She's my ex girlfriend. Happy now?" Kym said.
"Ex... girlfriend?" I repeated.
"Yes."
"As in... you dated?"
"Yes."
"F-ff-for how long?" I asked.
"Uh, about a year and a half." She replied.
"So you're a bisexual?" I asked.
"Well, I sort of am now, but I was a lesbian in high school." Kym said. Great! Not only was she going out to lunch with someone she dated, there was a possibility she might still like her, or worse, love her. I mean, she was really hot! Not hotter than Kym, but pretty hot. Kym could probably see that I was getting a little insecure by the look on my face, so she moved closer, and kissed me on the cheek.
"Don't worry! We're just going out as friends." She said.
"Yea, ok."
A couple of hours later, Kym was almost about to walk out when I stopped her.
"You're going out wearing... that?" I asked.
"Yea."
"Ok, that skirt is too short, and your top is too tight." I said. I mean, she did look sexy in it, but I didn't want her to look too good.
"Whatever dad." She said, and kissed me. "I'll be back in a couple of hours."
"Ok." I said.
+-*-+ Kym's POV +-*-+
When I got to the café, Tash was standing outside. She looked great. She had short spiky hair which really suited her face shape. It was light brown with bright pink sections. She had a tan, but wasn't as dark as me or Rachel.
"Hey Tash." I said.
"Hey." She greeted me with a kiss on the cheek. So what? Girls did that! It was normal!
After lunch, I realised something I didn't want to know: I still had feelings for Tash. Not like Billie Joe, it was more like a crush, something I hadn't felt since year 12. The more I thought about it, the more I thought I was right. I like her, but I didn't want to like her. I mean, she was pretty, and smart, and kind, and outgoing, but Billie Joe was all that and more. I mean, she was hot, but Billie Joe was sexy. She was kind, but Billie Joe was kind AND caring. She was outgoing, but Billie Joe was more outgoing, and kinda loud like me. I liked her, but I loved Billie Joe. The more we talked, the more I could tell she liked me too. The way she was sitting, her body language, how she was smiling at me weirdly. The feeling was mutual. After lunch, we kissed good bye, but this time, not on the cheek, on the lips. I didn't pull away, although I expected to. Instead, I kissed her back. For a long time. When it was over, she smiled at me, and I blushed. I felt so ashamed inside, yet please by the kiss. It was all so confusing. She knew I was going out with Billie Joe, she knew I was engaged to him, and she knew how god damn much he meant to me, but now, she also knew I liked her back. I bit my lip, and said 'bye' quietly and rushed off to my car. With every step I took, a pang of guilt throbbed inside me. I stepped down on my accelerator, and sped off home. When I got there, Billie Joe was lying on the couch watching TV. I walked quietly to our room, and lay down on the bed, facing away from the door. Although I hated to admit it to myself, I enjoyed the kiss, for the small amount of time it lasted, I enjoyed every second, and I hated myself for being able to admit it. I drifted off into a dreamless sleep, although my subconscious mind seemed to be working at the problem the whole time. When I woke, I had somehow come to the conclusion that I couldn't see Tash behind Billie Joe's back. I'd have to tell him, and I'd have to talk to her. Billie Joe would probably be crushed, but I had to. I waked out into the living room to see Billie Joe cooking dinner in the kitchen, which was strange. He never cooked! I walked up behind him, wrapped my arms around his waist, and kissed his neck.
"Hey, you're finally up." He said.
"Yea. So what are you cooking?" I asked.
"Carbonara, cuz I know it's your favourite." He said, turning around and kissing me.
"Aw, aren't you sweet?" I said, smiling and pulling him into a hug. No one had ever, never treated me this well.
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
Ok, I was being sweeter than usual for two reasons. One, so she wouldn't think of leaving me for Tash, and two, so I could get her into a good enough mood to tell her about... Adrienne. Oh shit shit shit!!! How could I tell her? She'd be absolutely devastated!!!
*******FLASHBACK*******
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
Ok, Kym just left for her dinner with Tash, the major hottie of her ex girlfriend, and I was home, alone and bored. *sigh* Someone knocked on the door. I got up, and walked there, regretting I didn't stay on the couch and let them bugger off. I opened the door, expecting it to be a door to door salesperson, or some shit like that. But no, it was her; Adrienne. My first love. The most beautiful girl I'd ever seen, until I met Kym. Kym changed everything.
"Hi Adi." I said.
"Hey BJ. I know it's been a really long time, but you have to know how I feel. I never stopped loving you." She said, taking a step towards me. It was all too fucking confusing! I loved Kym, yet I still liked Adrienne. Oh god, she was expecting a kiss or something wasn't she?
"I missed you too." I said. It was half true, half I lie. I never even thought about her since I'd been with Kym. She leaned in and kissed me. It stuck me, like a lightning bolt. At first I tried to pull away, but she held me close. I couldn't, and after a couple more seconds, I didn't want to. When the kiss was over, she looked pleased, while my face remained expressionless, and my mind was thinking over what I should do. Before I knew it, she kissed me again. My god! And after that, we said goodbyes, and she gave me her phone number. I went inside, and buried my head into a couch pillow. What the fuck was I going to do??? I know, I had to tell Kym, but how? Maybe if I got her into a good enough mood, she wouldn't kill me.
*******BACK TO REALITY*******
+-*-+ Kym's POV +-*-+
Wow, dinner was great. After that, I lay down on the couch to watch TV, and Billie Joe came up behind me and gave me a back massage. It was then that I started to get a little suspicious. Sure, I really loved being treated this well, but he wouldn't be putting all this effort for nothing right? I turned around to face him.
"Uh, is there anything you want to say?" I asked.
"Yea." He said, looking down at the floor.
"Ok, cuz there's something I really need to tell you too." I said. I bit my lip and hoped for the best.
"You go first." We both said at the same time. I had an idea. I left the room, and returned with two pieces of paper, and two pens. I handed one of each to Billie Joe, and told him to write down what he wanted to tell me, and I did the same. After that, we exchanged papers. Oh my god. He cheated on me. I didn't know how to feel! Upset? Betrayed? Angry? And then I realised he must be going through the exact same emotions and thoughts.
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
She... she cheated on me. With that Tash girl. I looked up at her.
"So, was she a better kisser than me?" I asked.
"No. I'm so sorry, it didn't mean anything," Kym said, looking at me with pleading eyes.
"What do you mean? Of course it meant something!!! You fucking kissed her and didn't pull apart!!" I exploded. I couldn't help it.
"Yea, well you're not any fucking better!!! You cheated on me too!!!" I said, standing up.
"At least she's of the opposite sex!!"
"What's that supposed to mean? Are you insulting the way I am? Is it cuz I used to be a lesbian, cuz you have no idea how many people have had the same argument with me over, and over again."
"Well, Adrienne kissed me. Ok? She kissed me." I said.
"So did Tash." Kym said. "You know what? I can't even look at you right now." She said and stormed out of the room.
"Is it cuz I'm not female?" I retorted. She stopped, and turned around. Tears were gathering in her eyes. Normally they were warm, and chocolate with little flecks of orange, but now they were dark, and cold, seemed black, with no colour in them at all. No love, no nothing. She pulled her ring of her finger, and threw it at me.
"Well I guess you should give that to Adrienne." And walked out the front door. Oh fuck, now what had I done??? I couldn't believe she just said that. She knew I loved her, right?
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
"What are you doing today?" I asked Kym.
"I'm going to lunch with Tash." She said.
"Ok. So, how do you guys know each other?" I asked hoping to make conversation.
"Well... we were... friends in high school." She said.
"Ok." I said in a tone that let her know I didn't believe her.
"What?" she said. I could tell she was lying instantly. I just looked at her and raised one eyebrow.
"Fine!!! She's my ex girlfriend. Happy now?" Kym said.
"Ex... girlfriend?" I repeated.
"Yes."
"As in... you dated?"
"Yes."
"F-ff-for how long?" I asked.
"Uh, about a year and a half." She replied.
"So you're a bisexual?" I asked.
"Well, I sort of am now, but I was a lesbian in high school." Kym said. Great! Not only was she going out to lunch with someone she dated, there was a possibility she might still like her, or worse, love her. I mean, she was really hot! Not hotter than Kym, but pretty hot. Kym could probably see that I was getting a little insecure by the look on my face, so she moved closer, and kissed me on the cheek.
"Don't worry! We're just going out as friends." She said.
"Yea, ok."
A couple of hours later, Kym was almost about to walk out when I stopped her.
"You're going out wearing... that?" I asked.
"Yea."
"Ok, that skirt is too short, and your top is too tight." I said. I mean, she did look sexy in it, but I didn't want her to look too good.
"Whatever dad." She said, and kissed me. "I'll be back in a couple of hours."
"Ok." I said.
+-*-+ Kym's POV +-*-+
When I got to the café, Tash was standing outside. She looked great. She had short spiky hair which really suited her face shape. It was light brown with bright pink sections. She had a tan, but wasn't as dark as me or Rachel.
"Hey Tash." I said.
"Hey." She greeted me with a kiss on the cheek. So what? Girls did that! It was normal!
After lunch, I realised something I didn't want to know: I still had feelings for Tash. Not like Billie Joe, it was more like a crush, something I hadn't felt since year 12. The more I thought about it, the more I thought I was right. I like her, but I didn't want to like her. I mean, she was pretty, and smart, and kind, and outgoing, but Billie Joe was all that and more. I mean, she was hot, but Billie Joe was sexy. She was kind, but Billie Joe was kind AND caring. She was outgoing, but Billie Joe was more outgoing, and kinda loud like me. I liked her, but I loved Billie Joe. The more we talked, the more I could tell she liked me too. The way she was sitting, her body language, how she was smiling at me weirdly. The feeling was mutual. After lunch, we kissed good bye, but this time, not on the cheek, on the lips. I didn't pull away, although I expected to. Instead, I kissed her back. For a long time. When it was over, she smiled at me, and I blushed. I felt so ashamed inside, yet please by the kiss. It was all so confusing. She knew I was going out with Billie Joe, she knew I was engaged to him, and she knew how god damn much he meant to me, but now, she also knew I liked her back. I bit my lip, and said 'bye' quietly and rushed off to my car. With every step I took, a pang of guilt throbbed inside me. I stepped down on my accelerator, and sped off home. When I got there, Billie Joe was lying on the couch watching TV. I walked quietly to our room, and lay down on the bed, facing away from the door. Although I hated to admit it to myself, I enjoyed the kiss, for the small amount of time it lasted, I enjoyed every second, and I hated myself for being able to admit it. I drifted off into a dreamless sleep, although my subconscious mind seemed to be working at the problem the whole time. When I woke, I had somehow come to the conclusion that I couldn't see Tash behind Billie Joe's back. I'd have to tell him, and I'd have to talk to her. Billie Joe would probably be crushed, but I had to. I waked out into the living room to see Billie Joe cooking dinner in the kitchen, which was strange. He never cooked! I walked up behind him, wrapped my arms around his waist, and kissed his neck.
"Hey, you're finally up." He said.
"Yea. So what are you cooking?" I asked.
"Carbonara, cuz I know it's your favourite." He said, turning around and kissing me.
"Aw, aren't you sweet?" I said, smiling and pulling him into a hug. No one had ever, never treated me this well.
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
Ok, I was being sweeter than usual for two reasons. One, so she wouldn't think of leaving me for Tash, and two, so I could get her into a good enough mood to tell her about... Adrienne. Oh shit shit shit!!! How could I tell her? She'd be absolutely devastated!!!
*******FLASHBACK*******
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
Ok, Kym just left for her dinner with Tash, the major hottie of her ex girlfriend, and I was home, alone and bored. *sigh* Someone knocked on the door. I got up, and walked there, regretting I didn't stay on the couch and let them bugger off. I opened the door, expecting it to be a door to door salesperson, or some shit like that. But no, it was her; Adrienne. My first love. The most beautiful girl I'd ever seen, until I met Kym. Kym changed everything.
"Hi Adi." I said.
"Hey BJ. I know it's been a really long time, but you have to know how I feel. I never stopped loving you." She said, taking a step towards me. It was all too fucking confusing! I loved Kym, yet I still liked Adrienne. Oh god, she was expecting a kiss or something wasn't she?
"I missed you too." I said. It was half true, half I lie. I never even thought about her since I'd been with Kym. She leaned in and kissed me. It stuck me, like a lightning bolt. At first I tried to pull away, but she held me close. I couldn't, and after a couple more seconds, I didn't want to. When the kiss was over, she looked pleased, while my face remained expressionless, and my mind was thinking over what I should do. Before I knew it, she kissed me again. My god! And after that, we said goodbyes, and she gave me her phone number. I went inside, and buried my head into a couch pillow. What the fuck was I going to do??? I know, I had to tell Kym, but how? Maybe if I got her into a good enough mood, she wouldn't kill me.
*******BACK TO REALITY*******
+-*-+ Kym's POV +-*-+
Wow, dinner was great. After that, I lay down on the couch to watch TV, and Billie Joe came up behind me and gave me a back massage. It was then that I started to get a little suspicious. Sure, I really loved being treated this well, but he wouldn't be putting all this effort for nothing right? I turned around to face him.
"Uh, is there anything you want to say?" I asked.
"Yea." He said, looking down at the floor.
"Ok, cuz there's something I really need to tell you too." I said. I bit my lip and hoped for the best.
"You go first." We both said at the same time. I had an idea. I left the room, and returned with two pieces of paper, and two pens. I handed one of each to Billie Joe, and told him to write down what he wanted to tell me, and I did the same. After that, we exchanged papers. Oh my god. He cheated on me. I didn't know how to feel! Upset? Betrayed? Angry? And then I realised he must be going through the exact same emotions and thoughts.
+-*-+ Billie Joe's POV +-*-+
She... she cheated on me. With that Tash girl. I looked up at her.
"So, was she a better kisser than me?" I asked.
"No. I'm so sorry, it didn't mean anything," Kym said, looking at me with pleading eyes.
"What do you mean? Of course it meant something!!! You fucking kissed her and didn't pull apart!!" I exploded. I couldn't help it.
"Yea, well you're not any fucking better!!! You cheated on me too!!!" I said, standing up.
"At least she's of the opposite sex!!"
"What's that supposed to mean? Are you insulting the way I am? Is it cuz I used to be a lesbian, cuz you have no idea how many people have had the same argument with me over, and over again."
"Well, Adrienne kissed me. Ok? She kissed me." I said.
"So did Tash." Kym said. "You know what? I can't even look at you right now." She said and stormed out of the room.
"Is it cuz I'm not female?" I retorted. She stopped, and turned around. Tears were gathering in her eyes. Normally they were warm, and chocolate with little flecks of orange, but now they were dark, and cold, seemed black, with no colour in them at all. No love, no nothing. She pulled her ring of her finger, and threw it at me.
"Well I guess you should give that to Adrienne." And walked out the front door. Oh fuck, now what had I done??? I couldn't believe she just said that. She knew I loved her, right?
