What happens When Your Idol Is Your Dad?, chapter 21
"Look buddy calm down, your Mom's trying to explain what happen." Mike stepped in.
"Explain! You were the one screwing a fourteen year old when you where sixteen" Alexis hissed at Mike.
"What was the matter with you? Couldn't get any girls your own age!" Alexis spat into Mike's face.
"Calm it!" Tre separated Alexis and Mike.
"Get out my way midget, next thing you will be telling me is that you and Tre have had a kid."
Alexis shoved Tre to the floor easily and made his way to the door.
"Alexis please." Mom called after him.
But Alexis was already down the corridor.
"Amy go after him."
"How could you do this to us Mom! If you knew our dads why did you have to get married to Danny? You knew what he did to us, but you let him stay, why?"
"Why do you want to go over this?"
"Because you don't know what it is like to be raped at 10 do you! As if you cared you have proven that by this drinking yourself to death! And know you're gonna leave us and you think you have made it all better by telling us our fathers, well it doesn't make up for all the shit you put us through." I cried.
"Amy, please." Mom began to cry.
"Please, what, I'm going to find my brother! At least I have always had Alexis, I don't care if he is my half brother he means more to me than any of you"
I ran for the door but was blocked by Mike.
"Get out of my way!" I hissed at Mike.
I felt hands on my shoulders and whipped round to see Billie Joe.
"Just calm down!" Billie tried to hug me.
But I pushed him away.
"Calm down, don't tell me to calm down!" I shouted at Billie Joe.
"I... just... want... my... brother!" I gasped for air as I went into a panic attack.
I swayed trying to keep standing even thou the pain in my chest was killing me.
Jimmy rushed over and helped me to stand by offering himself as a leaning post.
Jimmy pulled me into a hug and I managed to grip his waist to keep myself up. I then concentrated on my breathing. Soon I had my breathing under control.
"I need some... air" I said breathlessly.
I begin to stagger to the door, with Jimmy close behind, watching my every move.
I open the door to the sound of Mom crying. But I keep on going, I need to find Alexis.
*
"Jimmy don't!" I muttered before disappearing down the corridor.
I found my older brother about half way down the corridor. He was sitting on the floor curled up; just the way Billie Joe had found me an hour ago.
I gently lower myself next to him.
I simple placed my arm around his shoulder and gave him a little squeeze so he knew I was here for him.
"That was some pretty twist shit." He sniffed gazing back at me with his eyes filled with tears.
"I know bro, I was in exactly the same place as you a couple of days ago, it isn't easy, I know, but give mike ago, I mean i was a real bitch when I got to Billie's but it doesn't get you anywhere, they're the ones that are gonna look after us when Mom........ they're what we have left of a family I guess"
"It's a pretty fucked up family?"
"It always was" I smile nudging my brother
He ran a shaky hand through his hair.
"I guess I have a half sister."
"Yep I met her the other day Estelle but I think Mike calls her Hero."
"So what's it like, y'know to find out you have another siblings?"
"Daunting, coz we're the oldest and that's new and scary to me, really, but you" I grinned looking at my older brother
"You always have been and always will be a great older brother not just to me but to any one!"
Alexis let a brief smile curve his lips before it feel away and I wasn't sure if I had just imagined it.
Alexis held his head in his hands.
"It's just freaks me out to think all this time our Dads were our idols, I mean we practically worshiped that band, we even went to fucking concerts and all this time they were our Dad's."
I nod slowly and lean my head back against the wall on looking up I jumped to see a pair of blue eyes and a pair of green staring back at me.
"Explain! You were the one screwing a fourteen year old when you where sixteen" Alexis hissed at Mike.
"What was the matter with you? Couldn't get any girls your own age!" Alexis spat into Mike's face.
"Calm it!" Tre separated Alexis and Mike.
"Get out my way midget, next thing you will be telling me is that you and Tre have had a kid."
Alexis shoved Tre to the floor easily and made his way to the door.
"Alexis please." Mom called after him.
But Alexis was already down the corridor.
"Amy go after him."
"How could you do this to us Mom! If you knew our dads why did you have to get married to Danny? You knew what he did to us, but you let him stay, why?"
"Why do you want to go over this?"
"Because you don't know what it is like to be raped at 10 do you! As if you cared you have proven that by this drinking yourself to death! And know you're gonna leave us and you think you have made it all better by telling us our fathers, well it doesn't make up for all the shit you put us through." I cried.
"Amy, please." Mom began to cry.
"Please, what, I'm going to find my brother! At least I have always had Alexis, I don't care if he is my half brother he means more to me than any of you"
I ran for the door but was blocked by Mike.
"Get out of my way!" I hissed at Mike.
I felt hands on my shoulders and whipped round to see Billie Joe.
"Just calm down!" Billie tried to hug me.
But I pushed him away.
"Calm down, don't tell me to calm down!" I shouted at Billie Joe.
"I... just... want... my... brother!" I gasped for air as I went into a panic attack.
I swayed trying to keep standing even thou the pain in my chest was killing me.
Jimmy rushed over and helped me to stand by offering himself as a leaning post.
Jimmy pulled me into a hug and I managed to grip his waist to keep myself up. I then concentrated on my breathing. Soon I had my breathing under control.
"I need some... air" I said breathlessly.
I begin to stagger to the door, with Jimmy close behind, watching my every move.
I open the door to the sound of Mom crying. But I keep on going, I need to find Alexis.
*
"Jimmy don't!" I muttered before disappearing down the corridor.
I found my older brother about half way down the corridor. He was sitting on the floor curled up; just the way Billie Joe had found me an hour ago.
I gently lower myself next to him.
I simple placed my arm around his shoulder and gave him a little squeeze so he knew I was here for him.
"That was some pretty twist shit." He sniffed gazing back at me with his eyes filled with tears.
"I know bro, I was in exactly the same place as you a couple of days ago, it isn't easy, I know, but give mike ago, I mean i was a real bitch when I got to Billie's but it doesn't get you anywhere, they're the ones that are gonna look after us when Mom........ they're what we have left of a family I guess"
"It's a pretty fucked up family?"
"It always was" I smile nudging my brother
He ran a shaky hand through his hair.
"I guess I have a half sister."
"Yep I met her the other day Estelle but I think Mike calls her Hero."
"So what's it like, y'know to find out you have another siblings?"
"Daunting, coz we're the oldest and that's new and scary to me, really, but you" I grinned looking at my older brother
"You always have been and always will be a great older brother not just to me but to any one!"
Alexis let a brief smile curve his lips before it feel away and I wasn't sure if I had just imagined it.
Alexis held his head in his hands.
"It's just freaks me out to think all this time our Dads were our idols, I mean we practically worshiped that band, we even went to fucking concerts and all this time they were our Dad's."
I nod slowly and lean my head back against the wall on looking up I jumped to see a pair of blue eyes and a pair of green staring back at me.
