What happens When Your Idol Is Your Dad?, chapter 26
Mom looked up from the bed sheets to Billie.
"We were only together for a few months, I really can't remember, most of the time we were getting high or drinking."
"Yep that sounds like us." Billie smirked.
"But I do remember the day you left me, I had just found out I was pregnant that morning, but I didn't have the guts to tell you, I thought you would flip out on me and leave or something. I remember you sitting me down on the couch saying we needed to talk, I though you had notice or something... And then you told me you had found someone else. Adrienne... . You said you didn't want to hurt me, but it hurt so bad. I remember you kept going on about how you loved me but Adrienne made you feel something you had never felt before and you knew she was the one."
***Maria's Flash Back***
I turned my head in Billie's direction, I couldn't help but wonder why he hadn't been his usual self with me.
He hardly glanced in my direction any more.
I lay still for a moment until I got that feeling again, for the past two weeks I had been getting that feeling.
I rushed to the bathroom and knelt down over the toilet bowl.
After being sick I leaned against the bath and I knew I had, had this feeling before and I knew what it meant. I took a deep sight and went to get the test from my bag.
I sat on the bath and watched in horror as the blue line appeared.
"Shit." I mumbled as tears pricked my eyes. "Shit, shit, shit."
I could hear movement in the house as I ventured down the corridor to the sitting room.
As I entered the room Billie sprang up from his seat.
"Maria we need to talk." Billie mumbled scratching the back of his head.
I nodded and slowly approached him.
Had he noticed? I thought to myself.
I felt sick with nerves and wanted to rush back to the bathroom, as Billie took my hand and sat me down on the edge of the couch.
We sat there for a moment in silence. I watched Billie lick his lips as he prepared what he was going to say.
Billie was usually good with words but they it looked like they were hard coming.
Billie turned his body in my direction, went to say something, then stopped himself.
I watched as Billie took a long groan and covered his face with is hands. After a moment he ran his hands over his face and turned to me again.
"I've noticed something."
My heart rate doubled and my stomach knotted.
"There's something different about US."
"You know I don't know if it was always there, but it is there now and its like... we're just... .i don't know different people from who we were."
Everything went silence as I let the impact of the word hit me. It felt as if they were in code and I was having trouble to decipher there simple meaning.
I looked confused at Billie until the code unravelled to revel the unwanted truth, he was braking up with me.
Emotions swelled up inside of my, a mix of anger, hate, betrayal, frustration, hopelessness, self pity and anxiety about the uncertain future that lay ahead of me.
The emotions seem to fuse together and somehow I managed to conger a sentence to display them.
"No I've not changed I'm exactly the same person I have always been you're the one that has changed Billie Joe!" I spat.
"Please Maria don't make this harder than it already is... I love you but just not in that way."
"You mean you found some one else!" I cried braking down into a whimper
Billie hung his head and nodded slowly.
"Her names Adrienne and I love her so much, I really think she is the one, but I still love you, but you're more like a friend."
I broke down crying and my body began to shake.
"Please babe, don't cry." Billie sighed placing an arm around me.
Billie draped his arm over my shoulder in an attempted to comfort me, when all it did was enrage me more.
"Doing fucking babe me!" I hissed through gritted teeth and swatted Billie's arm away from me.
"Get away from me Billie Joe fucking Armstrong you've done enough." I sobbed, abruptly getting up.
"Maria I didn't mean to hurt you!"
"Well you fucking well did Billie Joe, we're meant to be together and then I find out you were with someone else the whole time... .What was I to you?....An objected to be used when it suited you... .I hate you Billie Joe Armstrong you can burn in hell for all I care" I shouted storming off to our room and began packing my clothes.
"Please don't leave like this." Billie uttered from the door way.
"How the fuck do you want me to leave? 'Do worry Billie Joe I'll be fine and I totally forgive you for fucking another whore behind my back! Lets be fucking FIENDS' How could you do this to me, considering... " I bit my lip so I didn't finish the sentence.
"Considering what?" Billie Joe sighed in a calm manner rubbing his temple.
"Nothing." I snapped finishing packing.
"Maria tell me!" Billie Joe retorted.
"Have a great life Billie I hope she was fucking worth it!" I snarled pushing past Billie and storming out of the house.
***End Of Maria's Flash Back***
"We were only together for a few months, I really can't remember, most of the time we were getting high or drinking."
"Yep that sounds like us." Billie smirked.
"But I do remember the day you left me, I had just found out I was pregnant that morning, but I didn't have the guts to tell you, I thought you would flip out on me and leave or something. I remember you sitting me down on the couch saying we needed to talk, I though you had notice or something... And then you told me you had found someone else. Adrienne... . You said you didn't want to hurt me, but it hurt so bad. I remember you kept going on about how you loved me but Adrienne made you feel something you had never felt before and you knew she was the one."
***Maria's Flash Back***
I turned my head in Billie's direction, I couldn't help but wonder why he hadn't been his usual self with me.
He hardly glanced in my direction any more.
I lay still for a moment until I got that feeling again, for the past two weeks I had been getting that feeling.
I rushed to the bathroom and knelt down over the toilet bowl.
After being sick I leaned against the bath and I knew I had, had this feeling before and I knew what it meant. I took a deep sight and went to get the test from my bag.
I sat on the bath and watched in horror as the blue line appeared.
"Shit." I mumbled as tears pricked my eyes. "Shit, shit, shit."
I could hear movement in the house as I ventured down the corridor to the sitting room.
As I entered the room Billie sprang up from his seat.
"Maria we need to talk." Billie mumbled scratching the back of his head.
I nodded and slowly approached him.
Had he noticed? I thought to myself.
I felt sick with nerves and wanted to rush back to the bathroom, as Billie took my hand and sat me down on the edge of the couch.
We sat there for a moment in silence. I watched Billie lick his lips as he prepared what he was going to say.
Billie was usually good with words but they it looked like they were hard coming.
Billie turned his body in my direction, went to say something, then stopped himself.
I watched as Billie took a long groan and covered his face with is hands. After a moment he ran his hands over his face and turned to me again.
"I've noticed something."
My heart rate doubled and my stomach knotted.
"There's something different about US."
"You know I don't know if it was always there, but it is there now and its like... we're just... .i don't know different people from who we were."
Everything went silence as I let the impact of the word hit me. It felt as if they were in code and I was having trouble to decipher there simple meaning.
I looked confused at Billie until the code unravelled to revel the unwanted truth, he was braking up with me.
Emotions swelled up inside of my, a mix of anger, hate, betrayal, frustration, hopelessness, self pity and anxiety about the uncertain future that lay ahead of me.
The emotions seem to fuse together and somehow I managed to conger a sentence to display them.
"No I've not changed I'm exactly the same person I have always been you're the one that has changed Billie Joe!" I spat.
"Please Maria don't make this harder than it already is... I love you but just not in that way."
"You mean you found some one else!" I cried braking down into a whimper
Billie hung his head and nodded slowly.
"Her names Adrienne and I love her so much, I really think she is the one, but I still love you, but you're more like a friend."
I broke down crying and my body began to shake.
"Please babe, don't cry." Billie sighed placing an arm around me.
Billie draped his arm over my shoulder in an attempted to comfort me, when all it did was enrage me more.
"Doing fucking babe me!" I hissed through gritted teeth and swatted Billie's arm away from me.
"Get away from me Billie Joe fucking Armstrong you've done enough." I sobbed, abruptly getting up.
"Maria I didn't mean to hurt you!"
"Well you fucking well did Billie Joe, we're meant to be together and then I find out you were with someone else the whole time... .What was I to you?....An objected to be used when it suited you... .I hate you Billie Joe Armstrong you can burn in hell for all I care" I shouted storming off to our room and began packing my clothes.
"Please don't leave like this." Billie uttered from the door way.
"How the fuck do you want me to leave? 'Do worry Billie Joe I'll be fine and I totally forgive you for fucking another whore behind my back! Lets be fucking FIENDS' How could you do this to me, considering... " I bit my lip so I didn't finish the sentence.
"Considering what?" Billie Joe sighed in a calm manner rubbing his temple.
"Nothing." I snapped finishing packing.
"Maria tell me!" Billie Joe retorted.
"Have a great life Billie I hope she was fucking worth it!" I snarled pushing past Billie and storming out of the house.
***End Of Maria's Flash Back***
