Ha ha, you're dead!, chapter 14
I opened the door slowly. The metal was cold against my hand. Inside, Mum was sitting in the living room. She looked really angry.
"Are you aware of what you've been a part of, young lady?" she shouted at me. I didn't answer. Just went upstairs in silence. I heard Mum yelling at me, but I didn't bother noticing what she said. I had to figure out something clever to rescue Billie! Make Jim change his mind, but how?
"So you just gonna give up?" Tre said and lit a cigarette and passed the lighter to me.
"I don't know what else to do, Tre! I've been more in the way than I've been a help!" I murmured and lit my own cigarette. I took a drag and blew the smoke out into the cold autumn air. We were sitting on the porch outside my room. There was not a cloud in the sky, so we could see all the stars, but it all seemed so heartbreaking without Billie.
"Hey! Maria! Down here!" I voice whispered. I looked down to see Mike waving at us. I climbed down on the ladder I had there. I had to be able to run out in the middle of the night somehow, right? I gave Mike a hug when I came down. He stared at me. He pitied me.
"Don't look at me like that, Mike! I'll be just fine!" I turned around and lit another cigarette. I offered Mike one, but he turned it down.
"Since when did you smoke?" he asked.
"Since today!" I answered lightly as Tre climbed down the ladder.
"Maria, there's something I need to tell you!" Mike said. And the way he said it...I just knew I was going to be mad at him!
"You see, I've been seeing...Cara for some time...and I really like her!" he said. I could practically hear my heart breaking. I sat down and looked down. I knew if I looked up, I would look into a pair of big, blue, teary eyes. And that would be more than I could handle right now.
"You know this is a really, REALLY bad time to tell me this!"
"I know, but I had to tell you, 'cause..." he stopped.
"Wait, you're the reason she dumped me?" I said and stood up again. I could feel the anger boil inside of me. My fist clenched and my heartbeat started raising.
"Well...no...I don't know...I suppose...maybe..." he stuttered and started walking slowly backwards as I came closer and closer, with my fist tighter for every step. Mike leaned against the fence. He had nowhere to go. Normally Mike seemed big and though, but now he didn't look bigger than a mouse. He was scared of me. Scared of what I could do. I raised my arm to give him a punch, but Tre came and grabbed my hand.
"Calm down, now!" he said and forced me to sit down. This sudden change, made me really sad, and I started crying...AGAIN!
"Mike...I'm really scared!" I said as Mike slowly took his hands around me. I sobbed and let all of my feelings out. It's frustrating to be a teenager.
"So you still love Billie?" Mike asked and gave me his jacket, 'cause he saw I was getting cold. I nodded and lit another cigarette.
"But he loves Adie now! He even wrote her a song, Mike! A really good song! He never did that for me!" I said. We were walking down the street. I didn't want to be at home. I didn't want to be anywhere. I just wanted to vanish. To be nothing so this pain in my heart would let go. Then it suddenly hit me.
"Mike, what date is it today?"
"September 22nd. Why?" he answered and looked at me curiously. I stopped. All of a sudden I felt noxious and wanted to puke.
"Why, Maria? What's wrong?"
"I'm...I'm...I'm late, Mike!"
Mike looked at me strangely. Like he didn't understand. Suddenly his eyes widened, and his mouth dropped. "Oh my God, Maria, are you pregnant??"
"I don't know...I might be...Oh my God! This is the worst that could happen right now!" I bent down and flushed out the cigarette.
"I need to tell Billie, now!" I said and was turning around, and heading for his house, but Mike held me back.
"Shouldn't you take a test first? Just to be sure?" I shook my head. I needed to tell Billie now. Maybe he would pay a little more attention to me then. Maybe he would pay a little more notice to his friends, and not just dream about Adie and the band all day long! I mind-slapped myself for thinking those thoughts.
"Hey Mrs. A, is Billie here?" I said and begged that he was home. Billie's mother nodded and lead me into his room. She didn't say anything; she didn't even smile at me. Inside I found Billie sitting by his desk, writing on a piece of paper. The headline was "Ha, ha you're dead!" He noticed my presence and looked up and covered his paper.
"What are you doing here?" he grouched and turned to look out the window. He didn't even wanna look at me.
"I need to talk to you!" I said and troubled to get the next part out. "I...I...I might be pregnant!" I said and fell down on my knees and hid my face in my hands. I didn't want to see his reaction.
"Ha, ha, very funny Maria! Is this some sort of way to get back together with me?" he laughed coldly. What? Did he think I would sink that low, just because I was jealous at Adie?
"No! Seriously! I might be pregnant!" I said. Billie smiled.
"Yeah, well, what does that have to do with me?" he said and crossed his arms.
"Hello! If I am pregnant, it's your fucking sperm that have made me pregnant!" I replied sarcastically. I turned around and thought for a second.
"I thought we were friends Billie!" I sighed.
"Well so did I!" he answered and looked out the window again. How could he be this dumb!?
"Fine, but this is the last time I'll bother looking back! If you let me go now, I'll never come back again!" I said and looked at Billie's back. He just stood there. Looked out the window.
"FINE!" I yelled and ran out the door.
"Are you aware of what you've been a part of, young lady?" she shouted at me. I didn't answer. Just went upstairs in silence. I heard Mum yelling at me, but I didn't bother noticing what she said. I had to figure out something clever to rescue Billie! Make Jim change his mind, but how?
"So you just gonna give up?" Tre said and lit a cigarette and passed the lighter to me.
"I don't know what else to do, Tre! I've been more in the way than I've been a help!" I murmured and lit my own cigarette. I took a drag and blew the smoke out into the cold autumn air. We were sitting on the porch outside my room. There was not a cloud in the sky, so we could see all the stars, but it all seemed so heartbreaking without Billie.
"Hey! Maria! Down here!" I voice whispered. I looked down to see Mike waving at us. I climbed down on the ladder I had there. I had to be able to run out in the middle of the night somehow, right? I gave Mike a hug when I came down. He stared at me. He pitied me.
"Don't look at me like that, Mike! I'll be just fine!" I turned around and lit another cigarette. I offered Mike one, but he turned it down.
"Since when did you smoke?" he asked.
"Since today!" I answered lightly as Tre climbed down the ladder.
"Maria, there's something I need to tell you!" Mike said. And the way he said it...I just knew I was going to be mad at him!
"You see, I've been seeing...Cara for some time...and I really like her!" he said. I could practically hear my heart breaking. I sat down and looked down. I knew if I looked up, I would look into a pair of big, blue, teary eyes. And that would be more than I could handle right now.
"You know this is a really, REALLY bad time to tell me this!"
"I know, but I had to tell you, 'cause..." he stopped.
"Wait, you're the reason she dumped me?" I said and stood up again. I could feel the anger boil inside of me. My fist clenched and my heartbeat started raising.
"Well...no...I don't know...I suppose...maybe..." he stuttered and started walking slowly backwards as I came closer and closer, with my fist tighter for every step. Mike leaned against the fence. He had nowhere to go. Normally Mike seemed big and though, but now he didn't look bigger than a mouse. He was scared of me. Scared of what I could do. I raised my arm to give him a punch, but Tre came and grabbed my hand.
"Calm down, now!" he said and forced me to sit down. This sudden change, made me really sad, and I started crying...AGAIN!
"Mike...I'm really scared!" I said as Mike slowly took his hands around me. I sobbed and let all of my feelings out. It's frustrating to be a teenager.
"So you still love Billie?" Mike asked and gave me his jacket, 'cause he saw I was getting cold. I nodded and lit another cigarette.
"But he loves Adie now! He even wrote her a song, Mike! A really good song! He never did that for me!" I said. We were walking down the street. I didn't want to be at home. I didn't want to be anywhere. I just wanted to vanish. To be nothing so this pain in my heart would let go. Then it suddenly hit me.
"Mike, what date is it today?"
"September 22nd. Why?" he answered and looked at me curiously. I stopped. All of a sudden I felt noxious and wanted to puke.
"Why, Maria? What's wrong?"
"I'm...I'm...I'm late, Mike!"
Mike looked at me strangely. Like he didn't understand. Suddenly his eyes widened, and his mouth dropped. "Oh my God, Maria, are you pregnant??"
"I don't know...I might be...Oh my God! This is the worst that could happen right now!" I bent down and flushed out the cigarette.
"I need to tell Billie, now!" I said and was turning around, and heading for his house, but Mike held me back.
"Shouldn't you take a test first? Just to be sure?" I shook my head. I needed to tell Billie now. Maybe he would pay a little more attention to me then. Maybe he would pay a little more notice to his friends, and not just dream about Adie and the band all day long! I mind-slapped myself for thinking those thoughts.
"Hey Mrs. A, is Billie here?" I said and begged that he was home. Billie's mother nodded and lead me into his room. She didn't say anything; she didn't even smile at me. Inside I found Billie sitting by his desk, writing on a piece of paper. The headline was "Ha, ha you're dead!" He noticed my presence and looked up and covered his paper.
"What are you doing here?" he grouched and turned to look out the window. He didn't even wanna look at me.
"I need to talk to you!" I said and troubled to get the next part out. "I...I...I might be pregnant!" I said and fell down on my knees and hid my face in my hands. I didn't want to see his reaction.
"Ha, ha, very funny Maria! Is this some sort of way to get back together with me?" he laughed coldly. What? Did he think I would sink that low, just because I was jealous at Adie?
"No! Seriously! I might be pregnant!" I said. Billie smiled.
"Yeah, well, what does that have to do with me?" he said and crossed his arms.
"Hello! If I am pregnant, it's your fucking sperm that have made me pregnant!" I replied sarcastically. I turned around and thought for a second.
"I thought we were friends Billie!" I sighed.
"Well so did I!" he answered and looked out the window again. How could he be this dumb!?
"Fine, but this is the last time I'll bother looking back! If you let me go now, I'll never come back again!" I said and looked at Billie's back. He just stood there. Looked out the window.
"FINE!" I yelled and ran out the door.
