I Still Dream About Him, chapter 1
"Mommy? What's wrong," Jakob Danger said as he innocently walked into my bedroom. For all of you who are wondering I'm Adrienne Nesser Armstrong, or Adie for short. I've been crying myself to sleep for the past two weeks. Billie Joe, or Billie, just went on tour and he left in anger.
Flashback
"MY GOD, ADIE!", said Billie with pure venom in his voice. "Why don't you ever spend time with me?" I asked. "I always spend time with you or the boys. You're always too drunk to remember it or are always pissed at me to enjoy it."
That made me SO mad. "Fine if you ALWAYS spend time with me then maybe we need to spend some time apart". He said, " Fine. I'll go, but you won't see for a long time.
End Flashback
It's true. I have been drinking a lot more than I should, but I needed something to numb the pain of Billie's not being here. "Jakob, Mommy needs to go to sleep now. Do you want me to tuck you back in?" He responded "Please Mommy," After I came back to my room, I saw someone sitting on my bed. It was Tre.
"How the hell did you get in here?" I asked with surprise apparent in my expression. He gestured to the open window, letting in a draft. After closing it I said, " Why are you here? Is Billie and Mike okay?"
Tre responded, "Mike is great but Billie is really fucked up. He's always so distant or high or drunk. In his sleep he mumbles your name over and over again. He won't tell us what happened so we're asking you. What did you do to him." I was so shocked. I said barely above a whisper, "Well we sorta had a fight right before he left. My God I miss him."
Tre said, "I'll be sure to tell him that," and with that he left.
Next morning after driving Joey and Jakob to school, I came home to find two messages on my cell phone (which I accidently left on the table in the rush). What I heard next made my blood run cold.... "MY FUCKING GOD!!!! ADIE ANSWER YOUR PHONE!!! BILLIE'S GONE AND WE CAN'T FIND HIM!!!" After this message was over I heard Tre's voice frantic" ADIE!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!! BILLIE'S GONE AND I THINK HE'S GONNA KILL HIMSELF!!!!"
After gathering my thoughts, wondering where Billie was my phone rang again." Mike? Tre? Where's Billie?"
After a long pause, a familiar voice that sounded teary and choked as if trying not to cry began to speak," Adie, It's me, I've decided to end your misery and kill myself. I love you too much to put you through all my shit. Please don't try and find me. I love you and always have," I quickly said "NO! Please Billie no!! Think about Joey and Jakob! I still love you!!!" He said really quickly and then I heard a crash and a bang. All of a sudden a cold voice said " Adrienne, I can't believe you married this piece of shit. You still love me and I love you," Dump this jackass and join me at the Berkley Sunside hotel in one hour." Billie was able to say " Adie, help me" before he was knocked out cold. Soon after the phone was hung up.
I grabbed my keys and sped into the street, wondering what I was getting myself into.
Flashback
"MY GOD, ADIE!", said Billie with pure venom in his voice. "Why don't you ever spend time with me?" I asked. "I always spend time with you or the boys. You're always too drunk to remember it or are always pissed at me to enjoy it."
That made me SO mad. "Fine if you ALWAYS spend time with me then maybe we need to spend some time apart". He said, " Fine. I'll go, but you won't see for a long time.
End Flashback
It's true. I have been drinking a lot more than I should, but I needed something to numb the pain of Billie's not being here. "Jakob, Mommy needs to go to sleep now. Do you want me to tuck you back in?" He responded "Please Mommy," After I came back to my room, I saw someone sitting on my bed. It was Tre.
"How the hell did you get in here?" I asked with surprise apparent in my expression. He gestured to the open window, letting in a draft. After closing it I said, " Why are you here? Is Billie and Mike okay?"
Tre responded, "Mike is great but Billie is really fucked up. He's always so distant or high or drunk. In his sleep he mumbles your name over and over again. He won't tell us what happened so we're asking you. What did you do to him." I was so shocked. I said barely above a whisper, "Well we sorta had a fight right before he left. My God I miss him."
Tre said, "I'll be sure to tell him that," and with that he left.
Next morning after driving Joey and Jakob to school, I came home to find two messages on my cell phone (which I accidently left on the table in the rush). What I heard next made my blood run cold.... "MY FUCKING GOD!!!! ADIE ANSWER YOUR PHONE!!! BILLIE'S GONE AND WE CAN'T FIND HIM!!!" After this message was over I heard Tre's voice frantic" ADIE!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!! BILLIE'S GONE AND I THINK HE'S GONNA KILL HIMSELF!!!!"
After gathering my thoughts, wondering where Billie was my phone rang again." Mike? Tre? Where's Billie?"
After a long pause, a familiar voice that sounded teary and choked as if trying not to cry began to speak," Adie, It's me, I've decided to end your misery and kill myself. I love you too much to put you through all my shit. Please don't try and find me. I love you and always have," I quickly said "NO! Please Billie no!! Think about Joey and Jakob! I still love you!!!" He said really quickly and then I heard a crash and a bang. All of a sudden a cold voice said " Adrienne, I can't believe you married this piece of shit. You still love me and I love you," Dump this jackass and join me at the Berkley Sunside hotel in one hour." Billie was able to say " Adie, help me" before he was knocked out cold. Soon after the phone was hung up.
I grabbed my keys and sped into the street, wondering what I was getting myself into.
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