I Still Dream About Him, chapter 4
Billie ran to the drug store as soon as he got dressed. I was so scared, I couldn't stop shaking. We could be pregnant. After convincing myself that I really wanted a baby, I decided I wanted a girl. A girl to do make-overs with. A girl to talk about boys with. I'd be a cool mom, for a girl. For Joey and Jakob I'd be a cool, but regular mom. I'd be best friends with my daughter like my mom was with me. At the thought of her I broke down into tears. She and my father got divorced shortly after I moved in with Billie. I can't blame her. She only stayed in the marriage for me, vut when she realized that I love Billie more than my father she filed for divorce and left. After a couple months, she died. No one knows why she died , but she did.
What kills me the most is what she said last to me:"Adrienne Michelle Nesser (before I was married) promise me that you will marry a guy you love, have all the beautiful kids, and love your family as much as I love you" She died after she said that.
Joey and Jakob saw me curled up in my bed, crying. They looked at each other and ran downstairs. They found Billie just pulling into the driveway and ran up to his black BMW. They told him they saw "Mommy crying her eyes out" and he ran upstairs. He ran up to me and pulled me into a sharp embrace.
He said with pure concern in his voice,"Adie? Baby? What's Wrong? Are you feeling okay? Should I tell Joey to call 911? Talk to me!!"
I looked up with teary, blood shot eyes and said,"Hold me" He understood that I didn't want to talk right now and took me in his lap and gave me tissues. He called Joey and Jakob and told them to order dinner with his credit card(platinum) and stay downstairs. They asked if I was okay and Billie reassured them that I'd be okay. I love my family.
I sat there crying in Billie's lap for about 15 minutes until I looked onto his eyes and found the courage to tell him about my mother. "She told me to love you and Joey and Jakob and always be faithful. I miss her so much and I really need her right now because I might be pregnant and I know she always wanted a granddaughter."
Billie wiped a tear from his eye and sighed. He lovingly said, "You know I understand how you feel. Remember I lost my dad when I was 10. I thought I'd never be a good father, but you're there to balance out my mistakes. I still how you feel. I never had a dad to teach me how to get ready for a first date, or ask a really hot girl out, or anything that my brothers had to do with me. I'll do the best I can, but that won't be perfect and I know it. I'll make mistakes and so will you. We'll learn from our mistakes and just keep going with life"
I looked at him and realized how much I love him. He decided that I was feeling better and picked me up and put me on the bed. I said. "Do you have the pregnancy test?"
He looked at me as if he didn't know what I was talking about, made a face, and gave me a plastic bag with a white and purple box in it. "A teenage girl saw me buying it and started to cry."
I said,"Welll, You've always abeen a heart-breaker, Mr. Armstrong."
He replied, "Well, I love you Mrs. Armstrong."
I took the bag into the bathroom and took the test. After about an hour I came back out to see Billie, Mike, Tre, Joey, Jakob, Stella, Ramona, Frankito, Claudia, and Birttany all waiting for an answer. I asked Billie to walk over and whispered in his ear,"Your're a great dad, but you'll have to be an even better dad to handle 3 kids."
Billie kissed me and said out loud "I am proud to almost be the father of 3 and am also proud to be the wife of this beautiful lady. Adrienne Michelle Armstrong, I fucking love you!!!!!!"
What kills me the most is what she said last to me:"Adrienne Michelle Nesser (before I was married) promise me that you will marry a guy you love, have all the beautiful kids, and love your family as much as I love you" She died after she said that.
Joey and Jakob saw me curled up in my bed, crying. They looked at each other and ran downstairs. They found Billie just pulling into the driveway and ran up to his black BMW. They told him they saw "Mommy crying her eyes out" and he ran upstairs. He ran up to me and pulled me into a sharp embrace.
He said with pure concern in his voice,"Adie? Baby? What's Wrong? Are you feeling okay? Should I tell Joey to call 911? Talk to me!!"
I looked up with teary, blood shot eyes and said,"Hold me" He understood that I didn't want to talk right now and took me in his lap and gave me tissues. He called Joey and Jakob and told them to order dinner with his credit card(platinum) and stay downstairs. They asked if I was okay and Billie reassured them that I'd be okay. I love my family.
I sat there crying in Billie's lap for about 15 minutes until I looked onto his eyes and found the courage to tell him about my mother. "She told me to love you and Joey and Jakob and always be faithful. I miss her so much and I really need her right now because I might be pregnant and I know she always wanted a granddaughter."
Billie wiped a tear from his eye and sighed. He lovingly said, "You know I understand how you feel. Remember I lost my dad when I was 10. I thought I'd never be a good father, but you're there to balance out my mistakes. I still how you feel. I never had a dad to teach me how to get ready for a first date, or ask a really hot girl out, or anything that my brothers had to do with me. I'll do the best I can, but that won't be perfect and I know it. I'll make mistakes and so will you. We'll learn from our mistakes and just keep going with life"
I looked at him and realized how much I love him. He decided that I was feeling better and picked me up and put me on the bed. I said. "Do you have the pregnancy test?"
He looked at me as if he didn't know what I was talking about, made a face, and gave me a plastic bag with a white and purple box in it. "A teenage girl saw me buying it and started to cry."
I said,"Welll, You've always abeen a heart-breaker, Mr. Armstrong."
He replied, "Well, I love you Mrs. Armstrong."
I took the bag into the bathroom and took the test. After about an hour I came back out to see Billie, Mike, Tre, Joey, Jakob, Stella, Ramona, Frankito, Claudia, and Birttany all waiting for an answer. I asked Billie to walk over and whispered in his ear,"Your're a great dad, but you'll have to be an even better dad to handle 3 kids."
Billie kissed me and said out loud "I am proud to almost be the father of 3 and am also proud to be the wife of this beautiful lady. Adrienne Michelle Armstrong, I fucking love you!!!!!!"
