Dear Whatsername (an old journal was all that was left), chapter 1
"I can't tell you! Why don't you understand!" she said as her eyes filled up with tears." I just can't tell you!"
"Why? I'm going crazy not knowing what's wrong with you! Just fucken tell me already! Tre and Mike know don't they?" I said grasping her wrist.
"Please... Let me go! You're hurting me!" still her eyes were being covered with tears.
"Oh yeah!" I said tightening my grasp on her. "What do you think you're doing to me! I thought you fucken love me! But I guess all these years it was all a joke!"
Looking in her eyes I could see something wasn't right. Seeing that fear in her eyes made me loosen my grasp on her and we stood there for what seemed like hours, staring at each other. I notice how different she looked since the last time I saw her at Christie Road. When all of a sudden she kissed me. "I will always love you... Don't forget me ok..." And with that she ran away.
"Sir.....Sir" the voice was starting to get louder in my head. "Sir!"
"Hmmm......."
"Sir... I don't want to tell you again! Please get up, the plane landed about an hour ago!" The mysterious voice kept on tapping me on the should until I open my right eye.
"About time!" I recognized her to be a lady that worked in a plane, but what the hell was I doing here! I went from dreaming of her again...To being in a plane where I was being attacked by some bitch..
"As I was saying the plane landed about half an hour ago! I would suggest that you don't get drunk the next time you take a 9 hour trip!" And with that she walked away.
Wow! I guess that explains why my head feels like it was hit by a brick. Slowly but surely I got up and grabbed my one and only suitcase. It was already dusk as I stepped outside the plane where the cold weather was waiting for me. New York is always a bitch during winter. I grabbed a hood and some sunglasses, knowing how stupid I would look walking around with sunglasses in the middle of winter, but I didn't fee like being surrounded by a bunch of groupies. I can't remember when was the last time I felt so disoriented by my surroundings, but I sure knew that I didn't fucken like it. I started walking around, looking for a decent hotel to crash in.
Fuck man! These couple of months have been a true hell! First our newest CD gets jacked and then me and Adrienne get into this big fight. I really did need an escape.
After walking for a couple of minutes I ran into a hotel I remember staying in the first time Green Day came to New York. Using my masquerade name I checked in and decided to go buy some beers. Coming back to my room I was greeted by the ringing phone.
"Hello?" who could this be I thought.
"Oh baby! I'm glad you're ok." Of course! It was Adrienne. She always knew where I was.
"Yeah... I landed sometime ago." I said opening a beer. "How are the kids?"
"Oh they're fine... We just miss you baby," it sounded as she was holding in tears that were going to escape any time now.
"Yeah...Me too! But I really needed to get away for sometime you know."
"Yea. Well I just wanted to make sure you were ok and to tell you that I love you." Yep! The tears were definitely escaping now as I said good bye to her.
I opened another beer as I started to unpacked my little bit of clothes I brought along. When I finished unpacking I opened up another beer and notice that there was still something inside the suitcase. It was a very old book, but what was it doing inside my suitcase. I put down my beer and picked it up.
"No! It cant be..." looking at it up close I realize that it was her journal............
Now I remember that I received it a couple of days before I got married to Adrienne. I didn't want to read it then, for fear of what it said. But I guess now was the perfect time to find out what happened to the women I ever truly loved...
[i]Dear Whatsername,
Today I turned 17 and as a gift from my mom I received you. You know...All through the day people kept telling me how things change when you turn 17. And oh boy were they right. I just found out the other day, after many visits to the doctor, that I was going to face the biggest challenge of my life. Ever since that day, everything changed around my house. And I HATE IT! That's why I haven't told them...How can I? I mean I don't want them to treat me like a lost puppy without a home. That's why I decided that no one will know. I may sound brave, but I will confess to you that I'm so unprepared for what's ahead...[i]
"Why? I'm going crazy not knowing what's wrong with you! Just fucken tell me already! Tre and Mike know don't they?" I said grasping her wrist.
"Please... Let me go! You're hurting me!" still her eyes were being covered with tears.
"Oh yeah!" I said tightening my grasp on her. "What do you think you're doing to me! I thought you fucken love me! But I guess all these years it was all a joke!"
Looking in her eyes I could see something wasn't right. Seeing that fear in her eyes made me loosen my grasp on her and we stood there for what seemed like hours, staring at each other. I notice how different she looked since the last time I saw her at Christie Road. When all of a sudden she kissed me. "I will always love you... Don't forget me ok..." And with that she ran away.
"Sir.....Sir" the voice was starting to get louder in my head. "Sir!"
"Hmmm......."
"Sir... I don't want to tell you again! Please get up, the plane landed about an hour ago!" The mysterious voice kept on tapping me on the should until I open my right eye.
"About time!" I recognized her to be a lady that worked in a plane, but what the hell was I doing here! I went from dreaming of her again...To being in a plane where I was being attacked by some bitch..
"As I was saying the plane landed about half an hour ago! I would suggest that you don't get drunk the next time you take a 9 hour trip!" And with that she walked away.
Wow! I guess that explains why my head feels like it was hit by a brick. Slowly but surely I got up and grabbed my one and only suitcase. It was already dusk as I stepped outside the plane where the cold weather was waiting for me. New York is always a bitch during winter. I grabbed a hood and some sunglasses, knowing how stupid I would look walking around with sunglasses in the middle of winter, but I didn't fee like being surrounded by a bunch of groupies. I can't remember when was the last time I felt so disoriented by my surroundings, but I sure knew that I didn't fucken like it. I started walking around, looking for a decent hotel to crash in.
Fuck man! These couple of months have been a true hell! First our newest CD gets jacked and then me and Adrienne get into this big fight. I really did need an escape.
After walking for a couple of minutes I ran into a hotel I remember staying in the first time Green Day came to New York. Using my masquerade name I checked in and decided to go buy some beers. Coming back to my room I was greeted by the ringing phone.
"Hello?" who could this be I thought.
"Oh baby! I'm glad you're ok." Of course! It was Adrienne. She always knew where I was.
"Yeah... I landed sometime ago." I said opening a beer. "How are the kids?"
"Oh they're fine... We just miss you baby," it sounded as she was holding in tears that were going to escape any time now.
"Yeah...Me too! But I really needed to get away for sometime you know."
"Yea. Well I just wanted to make sure you were ok and to tell you that I love you." Yep! The tears were definitely escaping now as I said good bye to her.
I opened another beer as I started to unpacked my little bit of clothes I brought along. When I finished unpacking I opened up another beer and notice that there was still something inside the suitcase. It was a very old book, but what was it doing inside my suitcase. I put down my beer and picked it up.
"No! It cant be..." looking at it up close I realize that it was her journal............
Now I remember that I received it a couple of days before I got married to Adrienne. I didn't want to read it then, for fear of what it said. But I guess now was the perfect time to find out what happened to the women I ever truly loved...
[i]Dear Whatsername,
Today I turned 17 and as a gift from my mom I received you. You know...All through the day people kept telling me how things change when you turn 17. And oh boy were they right. I just found out the other day, after many visits to the doctor, that I was going to face the biggest challenge of my life. Ever since that day, everything changed around my house. And I HATE IT! That's why I haven't told them...How can I? I mean I don't want them to treat me like a lost puppy without a home. That's why I decided that no one will know. I may sound brave, but I will confess to you that I'm so unprepared for what's ahead...[i]
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