Bitter Sweet Revenge (Sequel to How could she? She knew it was my dream?), chapter 3
"How could ya?" Abi screamed at me hysterically.
"I didn't exactly do it." I replied, shaking from nerves.
"Don't lie you fucking bitch." Jessica snapped at me, giving me a quick, sharp slap. It stung like hell but that wasn't the part I cared about.
"You never even knew her properly; she was just the 'Goth' girl in your form." I replied as calmly as I could.
"It doesn't mean just because we weren't really close friends doesn't mean we don't care." Lauren hissed.
"You're lucky now that Sam's coming over or you'd be for it." Holly smirked coldly before they all stormed away, leaving me to face Sam.
As Sam arrived he opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off. "I don't want to hear what you have to say, you'll just say the same I thought you of all people would stick with me." I stormed off upset and not wanting anyone to see me cry.
"I was only gonna say I'd always be here for you." Sam called after me. "But if ya don't want it then fine."
I felt the feeling of guilt hit me in the stomach, but I was also nervous, I was a complete wreck and I didn't want anyone to see me so I didn't stop. I wanted to skip but I didn't have the guts, as I knew the next time I skipped I would be expelled and the next time I was expelled would make it Three times. Well let's put it this way my parents had told me if I got expelled once more I was going to a camp to get me back in shape, good enough for them and everything I loved would be taken away until I deserved it.
I knew they weren't joking and if they didn't work well they said I'd know about it. The thing was I wasn't the one who wanted to bunk in the first place it was always Leigh, we'd both been expelled twice and had somehow managed to stay together through the schools, she knew it was her fault and promised she wouldn't let me be expelled again.
By the time I had thought that threw I had arrived at my first lesson it being Thursday it was German and god did I hate German at the best of times. As I walked in I felt everyone's eyes bore into me making shudder, I was ten minutes late but for once I didn't get a lecture from the teacher.
As I sat down beside Alex the person I was forced to sit next to every lesson, I felt stabs in the backs with people's finger nails and I could hear the sharp, hurtful whispers being hissed around the room. I tried to ignore them but it was so hard, I gave up and ran from the room, anger raging through my body, making me heat up and see red.
I dashed down the corridor, burst through the entrance doors to the school and darted through the school gates. I wanted to give up end the pain, life was hard before but know it was harder, it may be the easy way out and people may think I've given up but I really don't care, they never knew me really only Leigh did.
I sprinted down the streets towards the graveyard, hurriedly finding Leigh's grave I kneeled before it. "I upset you so much and I know I hurt you and I'm so sorry I never meant any of it. No matter what you did to me, I always forgive ya and I hope you'll forgive me." I murmured my voice low, soft and gentle sort of like a whisper. "I miss you and well if I stay like this will forever, I feel so bad for doing this to you and I know I will always feel so bad for it as well, no matter how long I have to get over it so... I know its weak really weak but I don't want to continue I'm coming to you."
I took a razorblade from my school bag which I had placed in there earlier just in case I couldn't cope with the pain and pressure, I slowly placed it to my wrist my hand shaking violently, as I felt the blade brush against my skin, I was ready to slice when a voice came from behind me.
"NO DON'T."
"I didn't exactly do it." I replied, shaking from nerves.
"Don't lie you fucking bitch." Jessica snapped at me, giving me a quick, sharp slap. It stung like hell but that wasn't the part I cared about.
"You never even knew her properly; she was just the 'Goth' girl in your form." I replied as calmly as I could.
"It doesn't mean just because we weren't really close friends doesn't mean we don't care." Lauren hissed.
"You're lucky now that Sam's coming over or you'd be for it." Holly smirked coldly before they all stormed away, leaving me to face Sam.
As Sam arrived he opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off. "I don't want to hear what you have to say, you'll just say the same I thought you of all people would stick with me." I stormed off upset and not wanting anyone to see me cry.
"I was only gonna say I'd always be here for you." Sam called after me. "But if ya don't want it then fine."
I felt the feeling of guilt hit me in the stomach, but I was also nervous, I was a complete wreck and I didn't want anyone to see me so I didn't stop. I wanted to skip but I didn't have the guts, as I knew the next time I skipped I would be expelled and the next time I was expelled would make it Three times. Well let's put it this way my parents had told me if I got expelled once more I was going to a camp to get me back in shape, good enough for them and everything I loved would be taken away until I deserved it.
I knew they weren't joking and if they didn't work well they said I'd know about it. The thing was I wasn't the one who wanted to bunk in the first place it was always Leigh, we'd both been expelled twice and had somehow managed to stay together through the schools, she knew it was her fault and promised she wouldn't let me be expelled again.
By the time I had thought that threw I had arrived at my first lesson it being Thursday it was German and god did I hate German at the best of times. As I walked in I felt everyone's eyes bore into me making shudder, I was ten minutes late but for once I didn't get a lecture from the teacher.
As I sat down beside Alex the person I was forced to sit next to every lesson, I felt stabs in the backs with people's finger nails and I could hear the sharp, hurtful whispers being hissed around the room. I tried to ignore them but it was so hard, I gave up and ran from the room, anger raging through my body, making me heat up and see red.
I dashed down the corridor, burst through the entrance doors to the school and darted through the school gates. I wanted to give up end the pain, life was hard before but know it was harder, it may be the easy way out and people may think I've given up but I really don't care, they never knew me really only Leigh did.
I sprinted down the streets towards the graveyard, hurriedly finding Leigh's grave I kneeled before it. "I upset you so much and I know I hurt you and I'm so sorry I never meant any of it. No matter what you did to me, I always forgive ya and I hope you'll forgive me." I murmured my voice low, soft and gentle sort of like a whisper. "I miss you and well if I stay like this will forever, I feel so bad for doing this to you and I know I will always feel so bad for it as well, no matter how long I have to get over it so... I know its weak really weak but I don't want to continue I'm coming to you."
I took a razorblade from my school bag which I had placed in there earlier just in case I couldn't cope with the pain and pressure, I slowly placed it to my wrist my hand shaking violently, as I felt the blade brush against my skin, I was ready to slice when a voice came from behind me.
"NO DON'T."
