"What An Asshole You Are Billie"-sequal to "you may not see me but im always with you Adrienne", chapter 15
"Fuck," he mumbled. "But how?"
"That night Billie found out we had kissed and then we did, it went a little too far" I explain.
"Oh god, I'll come with you to the abortion clinic. Tomorrow morning yes, get rid of it and we'll all be happy" he blurts out.
"Tre what the fuck are you talking about?" I say confused.
"Well you can't keep the baby, not when you're going to get back with Billie and he's bound to find out and then it will go all wrong" he says, his eyes misting over with tears.
"Look, who says I'm going to get back with Billie?" I ask. "And I'm not going to have an abortion, I want this baby, whether I shall raise it alone or not" I add quickly, not giving him a chance to respond.
"You want the baby?" he asks softly. "That means... " he says trailing off.
"Yes Tre, you are going to be a father" I finish for him. A smile spreads across his face and suddenly his arms go flying around me as he picks me up and spins me around.
"Watch it Tre!" I warn, as he props me back down on the floor.
"I'm so happy. I will be there for you and the baby Adie, we shall raise it together" He comforts, giving me a peck on the cheek.
"Thanks Tre"
"But what ARE you going to do about Billie?" he asks once again.
"I don't know, I suppose I will have to tell him the truth, it will hurt him but I can't lead him to think he's the father. And when he does find out, I doubt it very much he will stick by me and the baby, I guess it's the end" I explain, a tear trickling down my face as I think of how Billie's and my marriage is over.
"I don't want to leave him Tre" I sob.
"Hey hey, don't cry. I know you don't want to leave him, but to be honest none of this would have happened if he hadn't of cheated on you" he says, pulling me into a hug. I just sob into his shoulder.
"Adie are you OK now? Shall we go back into the lounge?" he asks, wiping tears from my face. I nod, and walk slowly into the other room, where Billie is sat on the sofa with Jakob on his knees.
"Hey you two" Billie says, getting up and heading toward me.
"Hi" I say cheerily, a false smile spread across my damp face.
"Mummy! Mummy! Mummy! I'm going to be an older brother" Jakob screeches, flinging his arms round my waist.
"Yeah you are Jakey, and you're going to make the best-est big brother in the whole wide world" I add.
"Hey, you said that to me when you were having Jakob!" Joey protests from the other side of the room. I glare at him and he suddenly nods.
"But you can take over now Jakob" Joey adds quickly.
"Guys, why don't you play with Tre and Mike for a bit, I need to talk to your mother" Billie suggests, followed by a squeal from Jakob as he runs over to Tre.
"Adie, I'm sorry for everything and now that a baby is on the way, I think this proves our love will last. I think it's best that we shall be honest to each other, no matter how much the truth hurts" Billie says, holding my hands as we stand away from everyone else on the other side of the room. This last bit he said, makes me feel guilty. How am I supposed to tell him?
"So, if we're being honest then I want to tell you what I think we need to do" he starts. I look at him eagerly.
"I think it would be best if we moved away from here. I have found a few places we could buy and the kids would love it, make a proper fresh start" He rushes, his mouth flowing with ideas.
"Whoa, hold on Billie. You want us to move? How far do you want us to move?" I ask. I hold my breath, waiting for the answer.
"England."
"That night Billie found out we had kissed and then we did, it went a little too far" I explain.
"Oh god, I'll come with you to the abortion clinic. Tomorrow morning yes, get rid of it and we'll all be happy" he blurts out.
"Tre what the fuck are you talking about?" I say confused.
"Well you can't keep the baby, not when you're going to get back with Billie and he's bound to find out and then it will go all wrong" he says, his eyes misting over with tears.
"Look, who says I'm going to get back with Billie?" I ask. "And I'm not going to have an abortion, I want this baby, whether I shall raise it alone or not" I add quickly, not giving him a chance to respond.
"You want the baby?" he asks softly. "That means... " he says trailing off.
"Yes Tre, you are going to be a father" I finish for him. A smile spreads across his face and suddenly his arms go flying around me as he picks me up and spins me around.
"Watch it Tre!" I warn, as he props me back down on the floor.
"I'm so happy. I will be there for you and the baby Adie, we shall raise it together" He comforts, giving me a peck on the cheek.
"Thanks Tre"
"But what ARE you going to do about Billie?" he asks once again.
"I don't know, I suppose I will have to tell him the truth, it will hurt him but I can't lead him to think he's the father. And when he does find out, I doubt it very much he will stick by me and the baby, I guess it's the end" I explain, a tear trickling down my face as I think of how Billie's and my marriage is over.
"I don't want to leave him Tre" I sob.
"Hey hey, don't cry. I know you don't want to leave him, but to be honest none of this would have happened if he hadn't of cheated on you" he says, pulling me into a hug. I just sob into his shoulder.
"Adie are you OK now? Shall we go back into the lounge?" he asks, wiping tears from my face. I nod, and walk slowly into the other room, where Billie is sat on the sofa with Jakob on his knees.
"Hey you two" Billie says, getting up and heading toward me.
"Hi" I say cheerily, a false smile spread across my damp face.
"Mummy! Mummy! Mummy! I'm going to be an older brother" Jakob screeches, flinging his arms round my waist.
"Yeah you are Jakey, and you're going to make the best-est big brother in the whole wide world" I add.
"Hey, you said that to me when you were having Jakob!" Joey protests from the other side of the room. I glare at him and he suddenly nods.
"But you can take over now Jakob" Joey adds quickly.
"Guys, why don't you play with Tre and Mike for a bit, I need to talk to your mother" Billie suggests, followed by a squeal from Jakob as he runs over to Tre.
"Adie, I'm sorry for everything and now that a baby is on the way, I think this proves our love will last. I think it's best that we shall be honest to each other, no matter how much the truth hurts" Billie says, holding my hands as we stand away from everyone else on the other side of the room. This last bit he said, makes me feel guilty. How am I supposed to tell him?
"So, if we're being honest then I want to tell you what I think we need to do" he starts. I look at him eagerly.
"I think it would be best if we moved away from here. I have found a few places we could buy and the kids would love it, make a proper fresh start" He rushes, his mouth flowing with ideas.
"Whoa, hold on Billie. You want us to move? How far do you want us to move?" I ask. I hold my breath, waiting for the answer.
"England."
