So Go Ahead and Kill Yourself! It All Amuses Me, chapter 6
I'm safe, I'm loved, I'm warm and I'm... ... naked. The sunlight is peeking through the curtains and streaming across the room shining on two entwined bodies, lying on a bed of ruffled blue sheets.
I can feel Mike's arms around my waist holding my body safely in place. He's breathing is heavy and level, he must still be asleep. So as not to wake 'sleeping beauty', I turn around gently and stare up at his sleeping face.
His eyes are closed and his lips are curled into a slight pout, he looks like a horny angel. I trace my fingers over his cheekbones lightly and down to his chin. I stroke his eye brows casually and I hear him groan slightly.
As if burned I withdraw my hand hoping that I didn't wake him. The clock read 7:30am. No one would be up this early on a Saturday not even my mum, so I decided to spend some more time examining Mike's face.
I tickled his nose with my little finger, I giggled slightly as he moved his hand to scratch it. My head was swimming with mixed thoughts of how I shouldn't be feeling this way about a person who babysat me as a little girl, but I do.
He makes me quiver with a single look. I've felt this way for almost my whole life but never really admitted it to myself, now I can't get enough. I turn my attention to how angelic he looks with light shining on his face.
Lost with my thoughts I sigh happily. "You know... It's not polite to watch someone when they're sleeping" a gasp springs from my mouth, surprised at his voice suddenly breaking through the silence. I watch his eyes flutter open revealing his icy pools.
He smiled his cheeky grin and pouted. "Oh really" I ask politely leaning in and giving him chaste kiss. I pull back and rest my chin on his chest. "MmmHmm. But it's polite to do that again"
I lean in to kiss him once again with more passion this time "Cheeky" Kiss "Man" Kiss. I rest my head on his chest again staring up at him through my thick lashes. I feel his hands thread through my long black locks lovingly.
He stroked my face with the pad of his thumb. I ran my tongue across my bottom lip; his finger gently retraced the path my tongue had taken. He began massaging my skull whilst biting his lip as if he wanted to say something.
"I love you" I closed my eyes letting his words wash over me filling my body with warmth. "I know I shouldn't, but... I can't help it. Your perfect and you make me shake" I don't respond to him straight away so he continued.
"You're my best friend's daughter. People will say that this is wrong but, it's not wrong because it feels so right. Your dad may not approve or even like it, but I love you so much... Have done for a year. What am I saying? You haven't even answered and I'm... "
I placed my gently against his lips silencing him "Sssshhhh. Don't talk" he shut his mouth quickly. He looked almost scared at my reaction "I love you too and if people have a problem, fuck them. But we...we can't tell them yet, we have to act like nothings happening"
I could feel his chest tighten at my statement "I don't wanna"
"Oh you're just being a baby" I giggled as he playfully pulled me closer to him. He rested him head on top of mine and kissed the crown of my head whispering "Mine"
We laid together for another 25 minutes until we heard movement from mum and Leo's room. I carefully extracted myself from Mike's grip whilst ignoring his plea's of "Please don't go. I'll get cold"
I giggle and make my way to the bathroom. Mike's watching my moves carefully considering I have no clothes on. That's something I can be proud of; I'm not ashamed of my own body.
When I re-enter the room after a long warm shower Mike is hiding under the covers. I'm quite surprised actually, I thought he would try and join me in my shower but I was wrong.
I can hear, slight snoring he must be asleep. I creep up slowly and take the covers away from his body, knowing that woke him up because he shivered.
"You're dead Miss Armstrong!" He reached out threateningly, but I just glided in front of him laughing in his face "Uh Uh! You can't get me because you don't want to get up. So I can tease you all I want" He growled softly.
Pushing my luck I kept creeping closer. Just out of his reach from the position he was in. So caught up in watching him suffer that I didn't realize before it was too late. He leaped out his position on the bed and pulled me down.
My body felt like I was suffocating when Mike rolled on top of me, but it was the nice kind of suffocating that I enjoyed. He kissed along my jaw until I pushed him off of me and onto the floor. "Now, you go take a shower while I get dressed. I'll see you downstairs when you're finished.
I heard him grumbling all the way into the bathroom, as soon as I heard the shower start running; I pulled on some clothes and made my way down the hall to check on and wake my friends up.
I walked into everyone's rooms and shouted "GET UP!" I'm quite pleased to say that I got a wide range of reactions. Andy grunted and threw his pillow at me. Tanisha let out a moan and rolled over trying to ignore me. Tom farted to try and force me out of the room, it worked by the way.
I stopped at Tre's door slightly worried at what I would find behind. I pushed it open to find that Tre was out of bed and wearing clothes that he found in the closet.
"You're up!" He could hear the surprise in my voice because he just nodded with a grin a mile wide.
"Its 8 am" he nodded again "And you're up?" He nodded once again
"You don't get up this early" I stated.
He just laughed at me. In my surprised state he just walked straight past me and slapped my ass playfully.
After 2 minutes of staring at the space where Tre was a minute before, I shook my head violently trying in vain to make sense of how Tre Cool. Tre Cool! got up at this time in the morning.
I followed the path that I had made minute before whilst checking that everyone was getting up. They were, so I made my way down the kitchen, stopping to check in my room on the way. The water was still running so I assumed Mike was in the shower.
When I got into the kitchen, I was greeted with Tre Cool swinging my mum around in a circle while Leo attempted to cook breakfast. Mikey was sitting in his high chair watching the whole scene with amusement. I call my brother Mikey when Mike's here to stop any confusion.
Tre dropped my mum onto her feet and sat down on one of the chairs. He was patting his stomach and making wild eye gestures "Fill me up with good Food Isabelle. Hi Tasha!" He called just noticing me for the first time. Just as I sat down Mike came rushing into the room. Everyone stopped what they were doing to stare at him.
Tre was the first to laugh, soon after we were all following his example. Mike was standing in the centre of the room looking not amused. But what guy would be amused when they were standing in front of their friends wearing a dress. I stopped laughing when I recognized it.
"Hey! That's my dress!" I cried "You better not have ripped it. Hold on a second I do have to do this" I wolf whistled at him. He blushed and began his explanation.
"I got out of the shower then of course I realized that my clothes are still in my suitcase which just happens to be in the car outside"
He cut off when he noticed Tre was in men's clothes to show his horror he made loud and disapproving noises but continued talking at mums say so "Well, I couldn't just walk around the house butt naked, so I went searching for clothes in Tasha's closet"
"You what" I shouted.
He ignored my outrage "I went looking for clothes but the only thing I could find that would fit was this. It's so not my fault"
I coughed to get people to turn towards me "Err... actually that's not true!" Tre who was just coming down from his laughing high looked at me curiously while Mike just shifts his eyes pretending to have no clue as to what I was talking about.
"I have two of those dresses and I can't believe that you chose to wear the pink one over the black one"
His mouth dropped open, as Tre started cracking up again "There was a black one?" he cried indignantly. I nodded and turned to Leo.
"Can you get the guys suitcases from the car please Leo?" he smiles and mutters a thank you to me.
"I've been wanting to get away from doing all the cooking". He left the room just as Mike began to blush because Tre was watching him with hunger in his eyes.
Unable to hold it in any longer I ask. "Mum, have you got a camera? This has to be captured on film" Mike huffed and darted out of the room quickly as Tanisha, Tom and Andy walked in. All they saw was a slight blur.
Tom's eyes bugged out "Was Mike just in a dress?"
"Uh huh" Andy and Tanisha laughed just as Tre had. Leo came in lugging three suitcases with him. I'd recognize Mike's suitcase anywhere. I rushed over to it and pulled out some clothes for Mike to wear.
I started making my way out of the room as Andy called out "Hey make sure the little girl is okay" I throw the orange I have in my hand at him. It bounced off of his head with a dull thud.
"Your so insensitive Andy! That must have been hard for him and you're making it worse! He obviously looks better in a dress than you ever would!" I shout and climb the stairs to my room.
When entering the room I catch Mike standing in front of the mirror admiring himself. I chuckle and place my body behind him. I curl my arms around his waist, holding on tight. Resting my head on his back, I place a kiss between his shoulder blades. "I'm sorry about laughing"
"That's okay! I know you love me" He turns around in the circle of my arms. I hold out his clothes. He grins and kisses me lovingly on the lips "Thank you! I heard you shouting at Andy on my behalf. It sounded very sexy"
Placing a chaste kiss on his cheek I went to walk out of the room to give him some privacy, but he took my hand and pulled me back into his body. He ran his fingers gently down my spine making me tingle.
"Oooo! You're turned on Tasha, I didn't know my fingers were capable of effecting you that way"
I shake my head gently and grin up at him "No it's not the fingers. It's the sight of you in that dress"
He giggles lightly, rests his hands on my derriere and nods "I do look sexy in a dress, don't I?"
I nod along with him "MmmmHmmm. Yes you do" our noses we rubbing together lightly. I sigh as he kisses my lips.
I cock my head to the right slightly allowing him deeper access to the caverns of my mouth. I groan feeling him trying to lift me up. Hearing laughter from downstairs I regretfully break away from him.
Slapping his arm teasingly I say "No more Hanky Panky! And get that dress off"
He whines like a little child "Ohhh, but I'm very fond of the hanky panky"
I giggle at his little pout. "Yes, I know. And I bet you're fond of that dress as well"
He fakes a surprised and hurt look but then grins "Yep! It's starting to grow on me"
I walk out of the room to leave him to change, but shout back to him "It may be growing on you! But I want that dress back"
I entered into the kitchen to see everyone eating breakfast. Andy gets up when I enter "Look I'm sorry Tasha. I didn't mean to be rude" I nod at his apology even though he shouldn't be saying it to me.
Tre seemed to be hitting it off with Tom, I suppose its cause they're both drummers, and slightly mental. For Tom something kinda clicks, but for Tre, well he's just permanently mental.
"Sweetie, I left yours and Mike's breakfast on the stove, you'll have to dish it out" I pull out two plates and begin to pile both of them with delicious food. Mike walks in and surprisingly no one mentions the dress incident.
He gives my mum a big long hug; I felt a surge of jealous go through me. How can I be jealous of my mum that's not right? He nods at everyone but ruffles Mikey's hair. "Hey Mike! How are you?"
"I'm good Mike, you?"
"Super, Mike!"
Mike takes a seat and I ask out "Okay! Did that just confuse the hell out of anyone?" Everyone raised his or her hands "Good. I'm not the only one" I put Mike's plate in front of him and sat down next to him with my own breakfast.
The conversation starts up again; halfway through talking about the benefits of talking animals Mike rested his hand on my knee under the table. I move my hand over his and held it.
When the last person had finished eating that person being Tre because he volunteered to eat everyone's leftovers, we vacated to the living room where everyone collapsed onto the sofa.
Andy was sitting next to me on the love seat; the conversation had started back up again. Mike seemed to be staying out of it. I don't know why. No one had really noticed. Andy shuffled closer to me halfway through and Mike's eyes were drawn straight towards this movement.
Looking into his eyes I saw their hardness, almost like they were made out of stone. So, that's the problem he doesn't like Andy being near me, I'm able to kind of understand why. He loves me; he doesn't want to loose me.
I make a split decision and rise from my position. All eyes were watching me make my way over to Mike and jump onto his lap. "Hey Mike! You don't mind if I sit here do you?"
"You can stay" he wraps his arms around me to stop me falling off, we all settle down again. Mike discreetly strokes the small of my back. We were getting comfortable but mum was looking at me "Tasha" I raise my eyebrows asking her what she wanted.
"Don't you have something to tell Mike and Tre?" I shift my eyes to my band mates silently asking for permission to let them know.
"Yes I do" Extracting myself from Mike's grip I stood in the center of the room looking at Tre and Mike.
"What has bugaboo got to tell us? Is it exciting? I need a bit of excitement"
Taking a deep breath I answer him "Yeah, its exciting!" Tre's face perked up "Well tell us already! I'm dying here"
I laugh at his attempt to hurry me. "Well we. Being E.O.T.A" I motioned towards my friends "We got a record deal!!" I shouted my voice rising in pitch constantly. It took them a slight bit of time to realize what I had said. But when they did they're faces broke out into huge grins.
Uncle Tre jumped up from his seat, picked me up and swung me around the room grinning like a manic "Oh Bugaboo! That's amazing! I'm so proud of you!" He put me back onto the ground but kept me in his hug "Come on Mike! Get in on the action!"
Literally bubbling with joy for me Mike bounced over and smothered both Tre and myself in a hug "Well done! I knew you could do it" Tre was the first to pull away. Everyone was watching our happy scene with smiling faces.
We separated and anyone could tell they were overflowing with questions. "What record company did you sign to?" Tre was the first to ask. It took my brain a moment to process what he was asking me.
"Oh. Interscope Records"
"Congratulations, to you guys by the way" Tre added thinking it rude to ignore my friends "You guys are really good"
They smiled at him "Thanks Tre!"
I was surprised that Mike was being so quiet. Turning to look at him I saw his face fall "What the matter Mike? I thought you'd be happy"
I watched him force a smile upon his face "Of course I'm happy" He was lying to me I know it.
"Don't you lie to me Mike Dirnt! You've got that 'I look like I've got constipation' look! Your not happy". He pretended to gag "I don't have a constipation look".
"Yes you do! Why aren't you happy?"
"You're going to be famous. You're gonna have tours and arrangements like we do. You already live far away, now I'm never gonna get to see you" He looked so small when he spoke those few words, as if people were gonna hate him for thinking that. Before I was able to let them know the good news, Uncle Tre jumped in and started talking to Mike.
He sounded quite upset with Mike. He looked it too. "What's wrong with you Mike! You're being so selfish!"
Mike looked solemn albeit slightly angry "How am I being selfish Tre? Tell me"
Tre flung his arms up into the air like a preacher and begun speaking with an edge of disbelief in his voice "How are you being selfish? Firstly, This is a great chance for Tasha and her band"
Mike cut Tre off. "Of course I know that, but I still don't see where... " I wanted to jump in and stop Tre from making Mike feel bad again but I couldn't help wanting Mike to hear the truth in Tre's words.
"Secondly, you are only worrying about your time with Tasha. That's selfish. Don't you think I feel that way? Don't you think that I'd like to spend some more time with my Bugaboo?"
We watched as Mike's face fell with the realization that he was in fact being selfish. "I'm sorry you guys. I know this is a great chance for you. You should take it"
With that said Tre swung his arm and patted Mike heavily on the back "There you go Mike. It wasn't that hard was it?" He sighed and muttered "yes" under his breath. Tre's pat on the back turned into a one armed hug.
He pulled Mike down onto the couch with him "So when you gonna record? You got any songs in mind you want to put on the album? "I laughed at his enthusiasm as Tom launched into a detailed report on what we were gonna do for the album. I spared a glance at Mike to see if he was okay.
His eyes caught his and he smiled gently and nodded. I tuned back into Tom's discussion with Tre. "So we're going to write 2 to 4 new songs for the album and use the best of the songs we've already done"
Tre was nodding listening to him "You know what I've only heard two of your songs! That's pathetic, hey maybe you guys could give Mike and me a private show?" I could literally see the guys bursting with the need to show off.
"Yeah maybe we could do that tomorrow, what do you think Tasha? Don't we have that gig at 'The Quake'?" said Tanisha.
Tom, Andy and myself all winced at the thing she had forgotten, although Mike and Tre seemed eager "That sounds good" Tre voiced.
"Well, It would have been a good idea. Except that gig was canceled because we're sellouts" I replied bitterly. Tanisha's face dropped when she realized she forgotten in all the excitement.
"Oh" Both Tre and Mike looked at us gravely, understanding shining in their eyes.
"We went through the exact same thing as you know. You were there Tasha. Although you were only 3, you noticed that we lost a bit of our sparkle. You used to ask me..."
A memory of long ago resurfaced in my mind. I bent my head to look towards the ground and whispered out the rest of Tre's sentence sadly "Why Tre sad?"
He chuckled "You remembered. Well, we lost it for a little while and I don't think Mike, your dad or myself want that to happen to you. We'll always be here for you, so the best thing you could do would be to say 'Fuck em'"
Trying to change the subject I grin playfully at Tre and pounce on him. We land on the floor with me on top of him. Everyone watched on with confusion as I began to pull down Tre's pants "Let's see if you're wearing your thong Mr. Cool"
Tre was giggling at me furiously "Stop! Stop! Stop!"
I was able to feel bare ass and no thong so then I knew. Commando. I laughed and was about to let out the secret that Tre had no underwear when he let out a low and excited moan. I retracted as fast as humanly possible, horrified. He rolled over laughing for all he was worth.
"Hey that's not funny! But we can give you all a private show right here tomorrow if that's alright?"
Tre nodded his head while trying to calm down "Yeah that's great Tasha! Can't wait"
Mike was unconvinced at my trying to change the subject "So, I'm gonna take it that Billie Joe doesn't know that you have a record deal?"
My face fell, Mike let out a contemplating sigh "It's not my fault, he never talks to me!"
Tre coughed and the attention was brought onto himself again "Have you ever considered that you can call him"
I scoff at him "Why should I? He's the parent" I noticed that my friends, my mum, Leo and my brother were deciding to stay out of this conversation. Tanisha seemed solemn; I'd have to ask her about that later. My head was brought back to the conversation when Tre let out a frustrated scream at the ceiling.
"You're both so fucking stubborn! He won't call you first because he thinks that if you really wanted to talk to him, you would call first"
I mimicked Tre's scream angrily "Well, he's my dad! Doesn't he love me enough to want to talk to me even if I didn't want to talk to him?"
Mike decided to intervene "I really don't want to do this but as the motto says 'You gotta be cruel to be kind' You're being stubborn Tasha! Of course he loves you. But you never call him"
I was so angry and sad at the same time, both these emotions kept battling it out inside me like the war or the roses. Sadness finally won over, I collapsed to the floor tears rolling down my face "How am I supposed to call him when I don't know anything?"
Mike immediately regretted what he had said, he went forward to comfort me but I shooed him away. Tre took the situation into his hands "What don't you know Tasha? You can tell us"
I let out a choked sob that cut Mike right to the bone. "How am I supposed to call him when I have no idea what he feels? Do you know what its like you guys? Do you know what it's like wondering if your father loves you less than everything else in his life or at all?"
All their heads dropped, they let me continue "Do you know what its like searching for little messages to tell you that you're loved? Do you know what it's like at the age of 6 wishing that Daddy was there to pick you up when you fell?" Everyone was watching me eyes tearing up with sadness.
"Do you know what its like feeling my heart beating, hoping that his memory of me will not become a star? Do you know what it's like having everyone tell that you are so much like your daddy, wishing that he would see it too? Do you!?"
My mum let a tear escape her eye but didn't move to help me, I could hear her gently whispering in the silence "Pick yourself up sweetie. Pick yourself up"
I wiped the tears from my eyes and began to stand wobbly, not looking at anyone. Mike suddenly snapped out of his little trance and hugged my body to his "Hey babe. It's okay" Tre stepped up carefully and pulled both Mike and I into his arms. "It's okay. Mike and Tre are here. Billie loves you sweetie. It may not seem like it right now, but he does, okay?"
I shrugged my shoulders indifferently "Uh huh" He took my chin gently and raised my head so our eyes were staring into each other's.
They were so calm and reassuring "You can call him tomorrow and you'll see. He loves you" I buried my face in the crook of Tre's neck in the hopes of staying there in the familiar circle of his arms.
"Thank you Tre! What would I do without you?" He lifted me up and hugged me tighter trying to reassure me
"You won't have to worry about that" He placed me back on the ground. The next thing I know, I'm being swept up into another hug this time from Mike.
Inhaling his familiar scent, I close my eyes and focus solely on him. His body is warm against mine and his arms tight. I hear him whisper lowly in my ear "I'm Sorry. I love you" I squeeze him lightly letting him know I heard, plus I kind of don't trust my own voice at the moment.
We pull apart reluctantly hoping that no one noticed. Everyone just stood there exchanging looks. Everyone was reluctant to say anything, all except Leo who walked forward and ran his fingers through my hair.
He smiled widely and pulled me into a great big hug "I'm so proud of you Sweet pea! I can no longer see that stroppy little 9 year old I was introduced to. I see a beautiful woman who knows what she wants"
He gave me a discreet wink and glanced towards Mike. My mouth opened slightly but I shook myself out of it "You've been so much of a father towards me Leo. We've had so much fun. Thank you"
Mum broke through the new silence "Well look at the time. It's 11:30pm we've been talking all day. Bed all of you. Mike I'm afraid that there is no room again so you'll have to sleep in Tasha's room with her. Is that alright?"
I pretended to huff and be upset that I had to share my room, but inside I was jumping for joy.
I can feel Mike's arms around my waist holding my body safely in place. He's breathing is heavy and level, he must still be asleep. So as not to wake 'sleeping beauty', I turn around gently and stare up at his sleeping face.
His eyes are closed and his lips are curled into a slight pout, he looks like a horny angel. I trace my fingers over his cheekbones lightly and down to his chin. I stroke his eye brows casually and I hear him groan slightly.
As if burned I withdraw my hand hoping that I didn't wake him. The clock read 7:30am. No one would be up this early on a Saturday not even my mum, so I decided to spend some more time examining Mike's face.
I tickled his nose with my little finger, I giggled slightly as he moved his hand to scratch it. My head was swimming with mixed thoughts of how I shouldn't be feeling this way about a person who babysat me as a little girl, but I do.
He makes me quiver with a single look. I've felt this way for almost my whole life but never really admitted it to myself, now I can't get enough. I turn my attention to how angelic he looks with light shining on his face.
Lost with my thoughts I sigh happily. "You know... It's not polite to watch someone when they're sleeping" a gasp springs from my mouth, surprised at his voice suddenly breaking through the silence. I watch his eyes flutter open revealing his icy pools.
He smiled his cheeky grin and pouted. "Oh really" I ask politely leaning in and giving him chaste kiss. I pull back and rest my chin on his chest. "MmmHmm. But it's polite to do that again"
I lean in to kiss him once again with more passion this time "Cheeky" Kiss "Man" Kiss. I rest my head on his chest again staring up at him through my thick lashes. I feel his hands thread through my long black locks lovingly.
He stroked my face with the pad of his thumb. I ran my tongue across my bottom lip; his finger gently retraced the path my tongue had taken. He began massaging my skull whilst biting his lip as if he wanted to say something.
"I love you" I closed my eyes letting his words wash over me filling my body with warmth. "I know I shouldn't, but... I can't help it. Your perfect and you make me shake" I don't respond to him straight away so he continued.
"You're my best friend's daughter. People will say that this is wrong but, it's not wrong because it feels so right. Your dad may not approve or even like it, but I love you so much... Have done for a year. What am I saying? You haven't even answered and I'm... "
I placed my gently against his lips silencing him "Sssshhhh. Don't talk" he shut his mouth quickly. He looked almost scared at my reaction "I love you too and if people have a problem, fuck them. But we...we can't tell them yet, we have to act like nothings happening"
I could feel his chest tighten at my statement "I don't wanna"
"Oh you're just being a baby" I giggled as he playfully pulled me closer to him. He rested him head on top of mine and kissed the crown of my head whispering "Mine"
We laid together for another 25 minutes until we heard movement from mum and Leo's room. I carefully extracted myself from Mike's grip whilst ignoring his plea's of "Please don't go. I'll get cold"
I giggle and make my way to the bathroom. Mike's watching my moves carefully considering I have no clothes on. That's something I can be proud of; I'm not ashamed of my own body.
When I re-enter the room after a long warm shower Mike is hiding under the covers. I'm quite surprised actually, I thought he would try and join me in my shower but I was wrong.
I can hear, slight snoring he must be asleep. I creep up slowly and take the covers away from his body, knowing that woke him up because he shivered.
"You're dead Miss Armstrong!" He reached out threateningly, but I just glided in front of him laughing in his face "Uh Uh! You can't get me because you don't want to get up. So I can tease you all I want" He growled softly.
Pushing my luck I kept creeping closer. Just out of his reach from the position he was in. So caught up in watching him suffer that I didn't realize before it was too late. He leaped out his position on the bed and pulled me down.
My body felt like I was suffocating when Mike rolled on top of me, but it was the nice kind of suffocating that I enjoyed. He kissed along my jaw until I pushed him off of me and onto the floor. "Now, you go take a shower while I get dressed. I'll see you downstairs when you're finished.
I heard him grumbling all the way into the bathroom, as soon as I heard the shower start running; I pulled on some clothes and made my way down the hall to check on and wake my friends up.
I walked into everyone's rooms and shouted "GET UP!" I'm quite pleased to say that I got a wide range of reactions. Andy grunted and threw his pillow at me. Tanisha let out a moan and rolled over trying to ignore me. Tom farted to try and force me out of the room, it worked by the way.
I stopped at Tre's door slightly worried at what I would find behind. I pushed it open to find that Tre was out of bed and wearing clothes that he found in the closet.
"You're up!" He could hear the surprise in my voice because he just nodded with a grin a mile wide.
"Its 8 am" he nodded again "And you're up?" He nodded once again
"You don't get up this early" I stated.
He just laughed at me. In my surprised state he just walked straight past me and slapped my ass playfully.
After 2 minutes of staring at the space where Tre was a minute before, I shook my head violently trying in vain to make sense of how Tre Cool. Tre Cool! got up at this time in the morning.
I followed the path that I had made minute before whilst checking that everyone was getting up. They were, so I made my way down the kitchen, stopping to check in my room on the way. The water was still running so I assumed Mike was in the shower.
When I got into the kitchen, I was greeted with Tre Cool swinging my mum around in a circle while Leo attempted to cook breakfast. Mikey was sitting in his high chair watching the whole scene with amusement. I call my brother Mikey when Mike's here to stop any confusion.
Tre dropped my mum onto her feet and sat down on one of the chairs. He was patting his stomach and making wild eye gestures "Fill me up with good Food Isabelle. Hi Tasha!" He called just noticing me for the first time. Just as I sat down Mike came rushing into the room. Everyone stopped what they were doing to stare at him.
Tre was the first to laugh, soon after we were all following his example. Mike was standing in the centre of the room looking not amused. But what guy would be amused when they were standing in front of their friends wearing a dress. I stopped laughing when I recognized it.
"Hey! That's my dress!" I cried "You better not have ripped it. Hold on a second I do have to do this" I wolf whistled at him. He blushed and began his explanation.
"I got out of the shower then of course I realized that my clothes are still in my suitcase which just happens to be in the car outside"
He cut off when he noticed Tre was in men's clothes to show his horror he made loud and disapproving noises but continued talking at mums say so "Well, I couldn't just walk around the house butt naked, so I went searching for clothes in Tasha's closet"
"You what" I shouted.
He ignored my outrage "I went looking for clothes but the only thing I could find that would fit was this. It's so not my fault"
I coughed to get people to turn towards me "Err... actually that's not true!" Tre who was just coming down from his laughing high looked at me curiously while Mike just shifts his eyes pretending to have no clue as to what I was talking about.
"I have two of those dresses and I can't believe that you chose to wear the pink one over the black one"
His mouth dropped open, as Tre started cracking up again "There was a black one?" he cried indignantly. I nodded and turned to Leo.
"Can you get the guys suitcases from the car please Leo?" he smiles and mutters a thank you to me.
"I've been wanting to get away from doing all the cooking". He left the room just as Mike began to blush because Tre was watching him with hunger in his eyes.
Unable to hold it in any longer I ask. "Mum, have you got a camera? This has to be captured on film" Mike huffed and darted out of the room quickly as Tanisha, Tom and Andy walked in. All they saw was a slight blur.
Tom's eyes bugged out "Was Mike just in a dress?"
"Uh huh" Andy and Tanisha laughed just as Tre had. Leo came in lugging three suitcases with him. I'd recognize Mike's suitcase anywhere. I rushed over to it and pulled out some clothes for Mike to wear.
I started making my way out of the room as Andy called out "Hey make sure the little girl is okay" I throw the orange I have in my hand at him. It bounced off of his head with a dull thud.
"Your so insensitive Andy! That must have been hard for him and you're making it worse! He obviously looks better in a dress than you ever would!" I shout and climb the stairs to my room.
When entering the room I catch Mike standing in front of the mirror admiring himself. I chuckle and place my body behind him. I curl my arms around his waist, holding on tight. Resting my head on his back, I place a kiss between his shoulder blades. "I'm sorry about laughing"
"That's okay! I know you love me" He turns around in the circle of my arms. I hold out his clothes. He grins and kisses me lovingly on the lips "Thank you! I heard you shouting at Andy on my behalf. It sounded very sexy"
Placing a chaste kiss on his cheek I went to walk out of the room to give him some privacy, but he took my hand and pulled me back into his body. He ran his fingers gently down my spine making me tingle.
"Oooo! You're turned on Tasha, I didn't know my fingers were capable of effecting you that way"
I shake my head gently and grin up at him "No it's not the fingers. It's the sight of you in that dress"
He giggles lightly, rests his hands on my derriere and nods "I do look sexy in a dress, don't I?"
I nod along with him "MmmmHmmm. Yes you do" our noses we rubbing together lightly. I sigh as he kisses my lips.
I cock my head to the right slightly allowing him deeper access to the caverns of my mouth. I groan feeling him trying to lift me up. Hearing laughter from downstairs I regretfully break away from him.
Slapping his arm teasingly I say "No more Hanky Panky! And get that dress off"
He whines like a little child "Ohhh, but I'm very fond of the hanky panky"
I giggle at his little pout. "Yes, I know. And I bet you're fond of that dress as well"
He fakes a surprised and hurt look but then grins "Yep! It's starting to grow on me"
I walk out of the room to leave him to change, but shout back to him "It may be growing on you! But I want that dress back"
I entered into the kitchen to see everyone eating breakfast. Andy gets up when I enter "Look I'm sorry Tasha. I didn't mean to be rude" I nod at his apology even though he shouldn't be saying it to me.
Tre seemed to be hitting it off with Tom, I suppose its cause they're both drummers, and slightly mental. For Tom something kinda clicks, but for Tre, well he's just permanently mental.
"Sweetie, I left yours and Mike's breakfast on the stove, you'll have to dish it out" I pull out two plates and begin to pile both of them with delicious food. Mike walks in and surprisingly no one mentions the dress incident.
He gives my mum a big long hug; I felt a surge of jealous go through me. How can I be jealous of my mum that's not right? He nods at everyone but ruffles Mikey's hair. "Hey Mike! How are you?"
"I'm good Mike, you?"
"Super, Mike!"
Mike takes a seat and I ask out "Okay! Did that just confuse the hell out of anyone?" Everyone raised his or her hands "Good. I'm not the only one" I put Mike's plate in front of him and sat down next to him with my own breakfast.
The conversation starts up again; halfway through talking about the benefits of talking animals Mike rested his hand on my knee under the table. I move my hand over his and held it.
When the last person had finished eating that person being Tre because he volunteered to eat everyone's leftovers, we vacated to the living room where everyone collapsed onto the sofa.
Andy was sitting next to me on the love seat; the conversation had started back up again. Mike seemed to be staying out of it. I don't know why. No one had really noticed. Andy shuffled closer to me halfway through and Mike's eyes were drawn straight towards this movement.
Looking into his eyes I saw their hardness, almost like they were made out of stone. So, that's the problem he doesn't like Andy being near me, I'm able to kind of understand why. He loves me; he doesn't want to loose me.
I make a split decision and rise from my position. All eyes were watching me make my way over to Mike and jump onto his lap. "Hey Mike! You don't mind if I sit here do you?"
"You can stay" he wraps his arms around me to stop me falling off, we all settle down again. Mike discreetly strokes the small of my back. We were getting comfortable but mum was looking at me "Tasha" I raise my eyebrows asking her what she wanted.
"Don't you have something to tell Mike and Tre?" I shift my eyes to my band mates silently asking for permission to let them know.
"Yes I do" Extracting myself from Mike's grip I stood in the center of the room looking at Tre and Mike.
"What has bugaboo got to tell us? Is it exciting? I need a bit of excitement"
Taking a deep breath I answer him "Yeah, its exciting!" Tre's face perked up "Well tell us already! I'm dying here"
I laugh at his attempt to hurry me. "Well we. Being E.O.T.A" I motioned towards my friends "We got a record deal!!" I shouted my voice rising in pitch constantly. It took them a slight bit of time to realize what I had said. But when they did they're faces broke out into huge grins.
Uncle Tre jumped up from his seat, picked me up and swung me around the room grinning like a manic "Oh Bugaboo! That's amazing! I'm so proud of you!" He put me back onto the ground but kept me in his hug "Come on Mike! Get in on the action!"
Literally bubbling with joy for me Mike bounced over and smothered both Tre and myself in a hug "Well done! I knew you could do it" Tre was the first to pull away. Everyone was watching our happy scene with smiling faces.
We separated and anyone could tell they were overflowing with questions. "What record company did you sign to?" Tre was the first to ask. It took my brain a moment to process what he was asking me.
"Oh. Interscope Records"
"Congratulations, to you guys by the way" Tre added thinking it rude to ignore my friends "You guys are really good"
They smiled at him "Thanks Tre!"
I was surprised that Mike was being so quiet. Turning to look at him I saw his face fall "What the matter Mike? I thought you'd be happy"
I watched him force a smile upon his face "Of course I'm happy" He was lying to me I know it.
"Don't you lie to me Mike Dirnt! You've got that 'I look like I've got constipation' look! Your not happy". He pretended to gag "I don't have a constipation look".
"Yes you do! Why aren't you happy?"
"You're going to be famous. You're gonna have tours and arrangements like we do. You already live far away, now I'm never gonna get to see you" He looked so small when he spoke those few words, as if people were gonna hate him for thinking that. Before I was able to let them know the good news, Uncle Tre jumped in and started talking to Mike.
He sounded quite upset with Mike. He looked it too. "What's wrong with you Mike! You're being so selfish!"
Mike looked solemn albeit slightly angry "How am I being selfish Tre? Tell me"
Tre flung his arms up into the air like a preacher and begun speaking with an edge of disbelief in his voice "How are you being selfish? Firstly, This is a great chance for Tasha and her band"
Mike cut Tre off. "Of course I know that, but I still don't see where... " I wanted to jump in and stop Tre from making Mike feel bad again but I couldn't help wanting Mike to hear the truth in Tre's words.
"Secondly, you are only worrying about your time with Tasha. That's selfish. Don't you think I feel that way? Don't you think that I'd like to spend some more time with my Bugaboo?"
We watched as Mike's face fell with the realization that he was in fact being selfish. "I'm sorry you guys. I know this is a great chance for you. You should take it"
With that said Tre swung his arm and patted Mike heavily on the back "There you go Mike. It wasn't that hard was it?" He sighed and muttered "yes" under his breath. Tre's pat on the back turned into a one armed hug.
He pulled Mike down onto the couch with him "So when you gonna record? You got any songs in mind you want to put on the album? "I laughed at his enthusiasm as Tom launched into a detailed report on what we were gonna do for the album. I spared a glance at Mike to see if he was okay.
His eyes caught his and he smiled gently and nodded. I tuned back into Tom's discussion with Tre. "So we're going to write 2 to 4 new songs for the album and use the best of the songs we've already done"
Tre was nodding listening to him "You know what I've only heard two of your songs! That's pathetic, hey maybe you guys could give Mike and me a private show?" I could literally see the guys bursting with the need to show off.
"Yeah maybe we could do that tomorrow, what do you think Tasha? Don't we have that gig at 'The Quake'?" said Tanisha.
Tom, Andy and myself all winced at the thing she had forgotten, although Mike and Tre seemed eager "That sounds good" Tre voiced.
"Well, It would have been a good idea. Except that gig was canceled because we're sellouts" I replied bitterly. Tanisha's face dropped when she realized she forgotten in all the excitement.
"Oh" Both Tre and Mike looked at us gravely, understanding shining in their eyes.
"We went through the exact same thing as you know. You were there Tasha. Although you were only 3, you noticed that we lost a bit of our sparkle. You used to ask me..."
A memory of long ago resurfaced in my mind. I bent my head to look towards the ground and whispered out the rest of Tre's sentence sadly "Why Tre sad?"
He chuckled "You remembered. Well, we lost it for a little while and I don't think Mike, your dad or myself want that to happen to you. We'll always be here for you, so the best thing you could do would be to say 'Fuck em'"
Trying to change the subject I grin playfully at Tre and pounce on him. We land on the floor with me on top of him. Everyone watched on with confusion as I began to pull down Tre's pants "Let's see if you're wearing your thong Mr. Cool"
Tre was giggling at me furiously "Stop! Stop! Stop!"
I was able to feel bare ass and no thong so then I knew. Commando. I laughed and was about to let out the secret that Tre had no underwear when he let out a low and excited moan. I retracted as fast as humanly possible, horrified. He rolled over laughing for all he was worth.
"Hey that's not funny! But we can give you all a private show right here tomorrow if that's alright?"
Tre nodded his head while trying to calm down "Yeah that's great Tasha! Can't wait"
Mike was unconvinced at my trying to change the subject "So, I'm gonna take it that Billie Joe doesn't know that you have a record deal?"
My face fell, Mike let out a contemplating sigh "It's not my fault, he never talks to me!"
Tre coughed and the attention was brought onto himself again "Have you ever considered that you can call him"
I scoff at him "Why should I? He's the parent" I noticed that my friends, my mum, Leo and my brother were deciding to stay out of this conversation. Tanisha seemed solemn; I'd have to ask her about that later. My head was brought back to the conversation when Tre let out a frustrated scream at the ceiling.
"You're both so fucking stubborn! He won't call you first because he thinks that if you really wanted to talk to him, you would call first"
I mimicked Tre's scream angrily "Well, he's my dad! Doesn't he love me enough to want to talk to me even if I didn't want to talk to him?"
Mike decided to intervene "I really don't want to do this but as the motto says 'You gotta be cruel to be kind' You're being stubborn Tasha! Of course he loves you. But you never call him"
I was so angry and sad at the same time, both these emotions kept battling it out inside me like the war or the roses. Sadness finally won over, I collapsed to the floor tears rolling down my face "How am I supposed to call him when I don't know anything?"
Mike immediately regretted what he had said, he went forward to comfort me but I shooed him away. Tre took the situation into his hands "What don't you know Tasha? You can tell us"
I let out a choked sob that cut Mike right to the bone. "How am I supposed to call him when I have no idea what he feels? Do you know what its like you guys? Do you know what it's like wondering if your father loves you less than everything else in his life or at all?"
All their heads dropped, they let me continue "Do you know what its like searching for little messages to tell you that you're loved? Do you know what it's like at the age of 6 wishing that Daddy was there to pick you up when you fell?" Everyone was watching me eyes tearing up with sadness.
"Do you know what its like feeling my heart beating, hoping that his memory of me will not become a star? Do you know what it's like having everyone tell that you are so much like your daddy, wishing that he would see it too? Do you!?"
My mum let a tear escape her eye but didn't move to help me, I could hear her gently whispering in the silence "Pick yourself up sweetie. Pick yourself up"
I wiped the tears from my eyes and began to stand wobbly, not looking at anyone. Mike suddenly snapped out of his little trance and hugged my body to his "Hey babe. It's okay" Tre stepped up carefully and pulled both Mike and I into his arms. "It's okay. Mike and Tre are here. Billie loves you sweetie. It may not seem like it right now, but he does, okay?"
I shrugged my shoulders indifferently "Uh huh" He took my chin gently and raised my head so our eyes were staring into each other's.
They were so calm and reassuring "You can call him tomorrow and you'll see. He loves you" I buried my face in the crook of Tre's neck in the hopes of staying there in the familiar circle of his arms.
"Thank you Tre! What would I do without you?" He lifted me up and hugged me tighter trying to reassure me
"You won't have to worry about that" He placed me back on the ground. The next thing I know, I'm being swept up into another hug this time from Mike.
Inhaling his familiar scent, I close my eyes and focus solely on him. His body is warm against mine and his arms tight. I hear him whisper lowly in my ear "I'm Sorry. I love you" I squeeze him lightly letting him know I heard, plus I kind of don't trust my own voice at the moment.
We pull apart reluctantly hoping that no one noticed. Everyone just stood there exchanging looks. Everyone was reluctant to say anything, all except Leo who walked forward and ran his fingers through my hair.
He smiled widely and pulled me into a great big hug "I'm so proud of you Sweet pea! I can no longer see that stroppy little 9 year old I was introduced to. I see a beautiful woman who knows what she wants"
He gave me a discreet wink and glanced towards Mike. My mouth opened slightly but I shook myself out of it "You've been so much of a father towards me Leo. We've had so much fun. Thank you"
Mum broke through the new silence "Well look at the time. It's 11:30pm we've been talking all day. Bed all of you. Mike I'm afraid that there is no room again so you'll have to sleep in Tasha's room with her. Is that alright?"
I pretended to huff and be upset that I had to share my room, but inside I was jumping for joy.
