Wake me up when May ends(a true story about me), chapter 2
"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch, like me.Was lost, but now I'm found, was blind but now I see." I sang with everyone, tears in my eyes. I was at my dad's funeral, and we were singing hymns. I wondered why it had to be in a church, dad never believed in anything like that, and if there really was a God then this wouldn't have happpened, would it. Why am I here? I don't want to be here, all I want to do is crawl into a hole and curl up and die.
Then on came the song dad had picked, it was called Already There by Lonestar, the saddest part is when the song goes "A little voice came on the phone, and said "Daddy when you comin' home?" Oh god I think I'm gonna cry. I broke down into tears and started sobbing. Then mum leaned across the pew and whispered "Are you okay?" I wanted to scream that no I wasn't okay and that I was sick of everyone asking me that, but instead I just wiped my tears on my sleeve and replied, "Yeah I'm fine."
One year ago
I tumbled out of bed at half nine. "Shit, shit shit." I muttered under my breath. I was supposed to be going shopping with my friends, Nikki, Laura and Denise.
I got dressed and went downstairs for some breakfast. I went into the living room and was confronted with my gran.
"Where's mum?" I asked.
"She's up at the hospital seeing your pops." By the way, in case you're wondering, my pops is my grandad and he's dying in hospital of lung cancer, he hasn't got long to live.
"Why is she away up so early?" My gran sighed.
"Sit down, I have something to tell you." I was instantly alert. Oh God no, please don't let it be pops, not this again, I don't think I can go through with this again. Oh dear God please don't let pops be dead. Oh God if you can hear me now, I know you've never liked me but please I am begging you please don't let pops be dead.
My blood ran cold and sweat ran over my body. I crossed my fingers and made every wish I could think of and then gran began to speak again.
"Rhiannon, your pops died this morning."
Then on came the song dad had picked, it was called Already There by Lonestar, the saddest part is when the song goes "A little voice came on the phone, and said "Daddy when you comin' home?" Oh god I think I'm gonna cry. I broke down into tears and started sobbing. Then mum leaned across the pew and whispered "Are you okay?" I wanted to scream that no I wasn't okay and that I was sick of everyone asking me that, but instead I just wiped my tears on my sleeve and replied, "Yeah I'm fine."
One year ago
I tumbled out of bed at half nine. "Shit, shit shit." I muttered under my breath. I was supposed to be going shopping with my friends, Nikki, Laura and Denise.
I got dressed and went downstairs for some breakfast. I went into the living room and was confronted with my gran.
"Where's mum?" I asked.
"She's up at the hospital seeing your pops." By the way, in case you're wondering, my pops is my grandad and he's dying in hospital of lung cancer, he hasn't got long to live.
"Why is she away up so early?" My gran sighed.
"Sit down, I have something to tell you." I was instantly alert. Oh God no, please don't let it be pops, not this again, I don't think I can go through with this again. Oh dear God please don't let pops be dead. Oh God if you can hear me now, I know you've never liked me but please I am begging you please don't let pops be dead.
My blood ran cold and sweat ran over my body. I crossed my fingers and made every wish I could think of and then gran began to speak again.
"Rhiannon, your pops died this morning."
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