Being a Father is Not the Same as Being a Rockstar, chapter 2
A few minutes passed and I already showed the guys some of the stuff I've worked on for this week and the last. They were really satisfied with the new songs, and so was the producer! We, finally, managed to put all the chords together for the demos, and we were finally finished until six or seven in the afternoon.
Man! I'm sooo tired and yet, I gotta go home and feed everybody! I hope Adie would finally do something for once! I packed my equipment that I brought this morning (and so did everybody else) and walked out drowsily from the studio. I, suddenly, received a good pat on my back from the producer, and said," Good work Bill! Loved all the songs, the fans are gonna be really satisfied!" I replied with a tired smile," Thanks Rob, I try," I get a stern look from Mike and Tre, then added," WE tried," then Rob nodded in comprehension.
I rolled my eyes and set my stuff in the trunk, closed it, and got in my car. I set my head on top of the steering wheel, tiredly, and decided to turn on the ignition and head home. After a few minutes, I finally turned on the curb in direction to the white house, and parked on the drive way. I get out of the car, gather my stuff from the trunk, and head inside. Then, there is Adie again, sleeping on the couch until there's no tomorrow.
I set my stuff down and give her a look (as if I wasn't surprised), and headed upstairs to change. Once I was in the large room, all that came to my mind was, 'It's like the kids could be starving for weeks, and she wouldn't give a crap. It's like "Leave all to Billie Joe".' I rolled my eyes at the thought, and decided to check on the now starving boys.
I headed to Joey's room and saw him playing on his psp, concentrated on his game and at the same time with a bummed look on his face. I closed the door and went to the next room, down the hall, and went to check on Jakob. He was taking his usual nap, but with an empty stomach.
I figured that if I died, or gone away for a lifetime, the kids wouldn't be able to last, I'm getting tired of this and it's gonna cost us a good/bad divorce. I headed to the kitchen to prepare us something to eat (for our own sake) and woke up Adie when it was ready.
As we were eating silently in the dining room, I kept giving stern looks at Adie and finally had the courage to tell her, "Adie, we need to have a serious talk after dinner."
She replied confused, "Okay dad, what's with you giving me those weird looks?"
I replied getting frustrated, "Adie, I'll tell you later, 'cause I don't wanna ruin anything for anybody."
She replied with the same expression, "Okay hunnie, I guess we'll talk this over casually when we're finished." I just gave her another disgruntled look and finished my dinner.
I hate it when Adie gets like this! It's like I have another kid to take care of! For pete's sake she's 38 years old and I'm 34, and I have to look after her! I'm getting so frustrated with that girl, I can't get myself to believe that I'm actually going to divorce her.
Soon enough, everyone was finished with their dinner and were excused to go to bed. It was only me and Adie now, clearing the table, and setting the dishes in the kitchen. After minutes of silence, Adie broke the ice by saying, "So, um, Billie, hunnie, what were you so upset about?"
I replied now starting a fight," Look, Adie, I'm tired of you slopping down and not doing anything around here! It's like I always have to be the one taking care of everybody around here, especially you!"
"Look Billie, I'm sorry if I've been like that, which I don't believe, and I think you're just overreacting."
"Adie! Overreacting?! Overreacting?! Jesus! It's like you're too fucking stupid to understand what's happening in front of your eyes!"
"What?! Don't you start cursing at me Billie! And try to keep your voice down, because the kids are fucking sleeping."
"Whatever Adie! Whatever! You don't even care about our kids! You just leave them starving there, just so you can get your fucking beauty sleep! You only care about yourself!"
"I don't know wher you're going with this Billie, 'cause it's not fixing anything! It's just tearing us apart!"
"Look Adie, I'm so disappointed in you, because you don't know how to be a good mother! I'm so tired of this shit, that I don't even think we can go on!"
"Billie, please don't say that. Just please, we could just talk and forget about this untill tomorrow."
"What's there to talk about Adie?! Huh?! All we had to say was right now, there's nothing left to talk about about!"
"Fine, Billie, if you want to end this, go ahead, because I don't even know when it's going to happen. Another fact, is that... That I still believe in us and I'll try my best to change."
"Fine Adie you could just do what you want, and just that you better mean what you said, because I believe in second chances and in us too. I'm sorry for yelling at you."
With that I just left upstairs to our room, leaving her with that thought. Finally, all that I kept bottled up inside, I let it out that night. I felt hurt that I yelled at her like that, but I had to, because if anybody wouldn't be able to say that to her, who would?
As I was caught up in my thoughts, I felt someone lay next to me, it had to be Adie. I looked to the side, and soon enough, she was fast asleep. I turned back to the side of my bed, and fell asleep as well. This has got to be one of the biggest fights at the top of the earth.
Man! I'm sooo tired and yet, I gotta go home and feed everybody! I hope Adie would finally do something for once! I packed my equipment that I brought this morning (and so did everybody else) and walked out drowsily from the studio. I, suddenly, received a good pat on my back from the producer, and said," Good work Bill! Loved all the songs, the fans are gonna be really satisfied!" I replied with a tired smile," Thanks Rob, I try," I get a stern look from Mike and Tre, then added," WE tried," then Rob nodded in comprehension.
I rolled my eyes and set my stuff in the trunk, closed it, and got in my car. I set my head on top of the steering wheel, tiredly, and decided to turn on the ignition and head home. After a few minutes, I finally turned on the curb in direction to the white house, and parked on the drive way. I get out of the car, gather my stuff from the trunk, and head inside. Then, there is Adie again, sleeping on the couch until there's no tomorrow.
I set my stuff down and give her a look (as if I wasn't surprised), and headed upstairs to change. Once I was in the large room, all that came to my mind was, 'It's like the kids could be starving for weeks, and she wouldn't give a crap. It's like "Leave all to Billie Joe".' I rolled my eyes at the thought, and decided to check on the now starving boys.
I headed to Joey's room and saw him playing on his psp, concentrated on his game and at the same time with a bummed look on his face. I closed the door and went to the next room, down the hall, and went to check on Jakob. He was taking his usual nap, but with an empty stomach.
I figured that if I died, or gone away for a lifetime, the kids wouldn't be able to last, I'm getting tired of this and it's gonna cost us a good/bad divorce. I headed to the kitchen to prepare us something to eat (for our own sake) and woke up Adie when it was ready.
As we were eating silently in the dining room, I kept giving stern looks at Adie and finally had the courage to tell her, "Adie, we need to have a serious talk after dinner."
She replied confused, "Okay dad, what's with you giving me those weird looks?"
I replied getting frustrated, "Adie, I'll tell you later, 'cause I don't wanna ruin anything for anybody."
She replied with the same expression, "Okay hunnie, I guess we'll talk this over casually when we're finished." I just gave her another disgruntled look and finished my dinner.
I hate it when Adie gets like this! It's like I have another kid to take care of! For pete's sake she's 38 years old and I'm 34, and I have to look after her! I'm getting so frustrated with that girl, I can't get myself to believe that I'm actually going to divorce her.
Soon enough, everyone was finished with their dinner and were excused to go to bed. It was only me and Adie now, clearing the table, and setting the dishes in the kitchen. After minutes of silence, Adie broke the ice by saying, "So, um, Billie, hunnie, what were you so upset about?"
I replied now starting a fight," Look, Adie, I'm tired of you slopping down and not doing anything around here! It's like I always have to be the one taking care of everybody around here, especially you!"
"Look Billie, I'm sorry if I've been like that, which I don't believe, and I think you're just overreacting."
"Adie! Overreacting?! Overreacting?! Jesus! It's like you're too fucking stupid to understand what's happening in front of your eyes!"
"What?! Don't you start cursing at me Billie! And try to keep your voice down, because the kids are fucking sleeping."
"Whatever Adie! Whatever! You don't even care about our kids! You just leave them starving there, just so you can get your fucking beauty sleep! You only care about yourself!"
"I don't know wher you're going with this Billie, 'cause it's not fixing anything! It's just tearing us apart!"
"Look Adie, I'm so disappointed in you, because you don't know how to be a good mother! I'm so tired of this shit, that I don't even think we can go on!"
"Billie, please don't say that. Just please, we could just talk and forget about this untill tomorrow."
"What's there to talk about Adie?! Huh?! All we had to say was right now, there's nothing left to talk about about!"
"Fine, Billie, if you want to end this, go ahead, because I don't even know when it's going to happen. Another fact, is that... That I still believe in us and I'll try my best to change."
"Fine Adie you could just do what you want, and just that you better mean what you said, because I believe in second chances and in us too. I'm sorry for yelling at you."
With that I just left upstairs to our room, leaving her with that thought. Finally, all that I kept bottled up inside, I let it out that night. I felt hurt that I yelled at her like that, but I had to, because if anybody wouldn't be able to say that to her, who would?
As I was caught up in my thoughts, I felt someone lay next to me, it had to be Adie. I looked to the side, and soon enough, she was fast asleep. I turned back to the side of my bed, and fell asleep as well. This has got to be one of the biggest fights at the top of the earth.
