In The End It Doesn't Even Matter-Sequel To, "Tell Me Who You Love!", chapter 11
I sit there and just stare at the box, dreading to believe what's inside.
"Take it" Billie says, nudging it into my hands. I take it from him and feel the soft, velvity coating around the lid, tracing it with my fingers.
I finally find the courage and pop open the lid, almost immediatley being dazzled by twinkling. I squint a little to let my eyes adjust and as soon as I clap my eyes on it, my hand absent mindedly covers my mouth in shock.
What's caused this shock is a small silver ring with the most georgous diamond ontop. It's a plain white diamond that when it catches the sun now and then it will appear a deap red colour.
"Fucking hell," Billie mumbles, running his hand through his hair and sighing.
I run my hand softly over the diamond, feeling tingles run up my body as memories of Tre cover my mind. I close my eyes and hang my head, the lid snapping shut on the box as I hold it tightly to my chest. I feel a tear managing to escape my closed eyes and roll silently down my face.
"Please don't cry, Cassie," I hear Billie say softly, followed by a hand placed on my shoulder. The touch of him makes me want to hurl all over him and hit him so hard he feels the pain I am feeling right now.
I open my eyes and look up at him with anger, the grip around the box increasing making my knuckles go white. He flashes me a smile, the smile I have been able to fall for since I was 15 years old, but not now.
I stand up, shrugging Billie's hand from my shoulder and look him in the eye.
"Since I was 15, I always had something for you but now I am nearly 40 I can't take it anymore. Being with you has caused me so much pain" I start to say, watching as his eyes sadden with every word that escapes my mouth.
"You can't expect me to still be with you after this? Can you?" I ask.
"Look, the only reason this has been going on is because we know we love eachother-"
"No! No Billie, LOVED eachother. I can't...love you anymore," I say, my voice trailing off. He reaches and takes my hand, clasping it in his.
"Please, Cassie, don't do this to me!" He pleads, looking into my eyes. I move my gaze to the floor. "I need to re-patch things with Tre, like you said that time we parted 'make Tre happy' and that is what I shall do" I say, recalling the day that we said we wouldn't be together again, the day that was all obviously, a lie.
He just sighs, ignoring the fact that more tears are escaping from his eyes. I place my hand on his cheek and move closer to him, going to kiss him one last time but thinking again.
"I'm sorry," I say, releasing from his grasp and walking from the room, leaving my troubles behind, leaving the pain behind. Leaving Billie behind.
"Take it" Billie says, nudging it into my hands. I take it from him and feel the soft, velvity coating around the lid, tracing it with my fingers.
I finally find the courage and pop open the lid, almost immediatley being dazzled by twinkling. I squint a little to let my eyes adjust and as soon as I clap my eyes on it, my hand absent mindedly covers my mouth in shock.
What's caused this shock is a small silver ring with the most georgous diamond ontop. It's a plain white diamond that when it catches the sun now and then it will appear a deap red colour.
"Fucking hell," Billie mumbles, running his hand through his hair and sighing.
I run my hand softly over the diamond, feeling tingles run up my body as memories of Tre cover my mind. I close my eyes and hang my head, the lid snapping shut on the box as I hold it tightly to my chest. I feel a tear managing to escape my closed eyes and roll silently down my face.
"Please don't cry, Cassie," I hear Billie say softly, followed by a hand placed on my shoulder. The touch of him makes me want to hurl all over him and hit him so hard he feels the pain I am feeling right now.
I open my eyes and look up at him with anger, the grip around the box increasing making my knuckles go white. He flashes me a smile, the smile I have been able to fall for since I was 15 years old, but not now.
I stand up, shrugging Billie's hand from my shoulder and look him in the eye.
"Since I was 15, I always had something for you but now I am nearly 40 I can't take it anymore. Being with you has caused me so much pain" I start to say, watching as his eyes sadden with every word that escapes my mouth.
"You can't expect me to still be with you after this? Can you?" I ask.
"Look, the only reason this has been going on is because we know we love eachother-"
"No! No Billie, LOVED eachother. I can't...love you anymore," I say, my voice trailing off. He reaches and takes my hand, clasping it in his.
"Please, Cassie, don't do this to me!" He pleads, looking into my eyes. I move my gaze to the floor. "I need to re-patch things with Tre, like you said that time we parted 'make Tre happy' and that is what I shall do" I say, recalling the day that we said we wouldn't be together again, the day that was all obviously, a lie.
He just sighs, ignoring the fact that more tears are escaping from his eyes. I place my hand on his cheek and move closer to him, going to kiss him one last time but thinking again.
"I'm sorry," I say, releasing from his grasp and walking from the room, leaving my troubles behind, leaving the pain behind. Leaving Billie behind.
