Wicked Wishes, chapter 10
<Riot's P.O.V>
For the next few weeks I didn't see or talk to Chadd. I missed her. I did something stupid. I started to date someone else. Her name was Anna I only dated her to fill the whole left in my heart by Chadd. It worked too. As long as I pretended that she was Chadd when I kissed her or when I held her. She was my temporary fix. She broke up with me a week before Christmas break. She said she was putting more into the relationship then I was. She was right. She may have been my temporary fix but I didn't love her, I hardly even liked her.
I continued to cut myself. I still hadn't heard from my mom. Billie was doing his best to help me but I was losing it more and more. I couldn't stop thinking about Chadd.
I went for a walk and tried to stop thinking of Chadd. For some reason I kept tripping. I looked down at my feet and noticed my shoes were on the wrong feet. As I was looking at my feet I bumped into someone. It was Chadd. She looked at me and then at my feet.
"Sorry." She said and pushed past me.
I dropped to my knees. The best thing I had ever had in my life left me. I sat on the ground and fixed my shoes. I didn't want to get up. I just wanted to sit there.
When I got home Billie had started a fire in the fire place. I sat down in front of it and warmed up.
"You look frozen." He told me as I picked ice chips out of my hair.
"It's cold outside." I informed him.
"It is really?" he said sarcastically. I yawned. I watched red flames come from the fire.
"It's Christmas eve tomorrow" Billie told me.
"I know it is. I'm going to the Gilman tonight." I said untying my shoes.
"Oh ok." Billie walked out of the living room.
When I got to the Gilman I bought a beer and sat at a table in the back. I asked some kid who was playing tonight. He said a band called Wicked. Then he said it was their first time playing. I grinded my teeth for a minuet looking for Chadd. I grabbed my beer and moved to one of the tables in the front. There she was on the stage sitting on a speaker next to Bayzer. I wanted to get her attention but thought better of it.
Wicked played and did a great job too.
"How was it?" Billie asked me when I got home.
"It was fun." I went up stairs and went to bed.
<Chadd's P.O.V>
That night after I left Riot's house I dealt with David yelling at me for half an hour about how disrespectful I had been.
The next few weeks passed and I missed Riot more and more. A lot happened, Vikki moved in, David and her both worked at an office building downtown. I hated waking up every morning and seeing her at my kitchen table. Wicked finally got to play at the Gilman.
Christmas came and I got a lot of nice things. A new Guitar, CDs, clothes and books. I spent Christmas morning with my mom and David and Vikki. After, I drove over to Bayzer's house where Mark, Sony, me and her all exchanged gifts. We did it every year.
<Riot's P.O.V>
I spent Christmas with Billie, Adie, Mike, Tre, Sarah, and all of the kids. It was fun. Considering I just sat on the couch most of the time. The gifts I got were great, things I had wanted but had never asked for. Adie and Sarah made a great dinner.
School started back up the week after New Year's Day. I still had bought Chadd a Christmas gift. A small guitar pendent with a diamond at the bottom. It cost a lot of money but it was worth it. I shoved a small black box into a small slot on Chadd's locker door. I walked back to my locker. In second period Chadd came up to me with the black box.
"Did you give this to me?"
"No." I looked at her. "Do you want to come over after school?" I asked her in an unsure voice. She tilted her head. I shoved my hands inside my jacket to restrain myself from grabbing her hand.
"You know I can't do that."
"You could if you wanted too." I told her.
"And that's the exact reason why I can't James."
"You called me James."
"I did didn't I?" She said looking at her feet. She sighed and walked away.
"Chadd!"
"Huh?" She turned around.
"You did good at The Gilman the other day." She smiled.
"Thanks." She turned and walked away.
As I walked down the steps after school I tripped on a patch of ice.
"Damn!" I yelled falling down the steps. I rolled over Chadd was standing over me.
"You're really graceful James."
I didn't like it when she called me James. It made me anxious. She helped me stand up.
"I miss you." I said running my hand along her cheek. She pushed my hand away.
"Don't."
I sighed and grabbed my book bag off the ground.
"Well I have to go." I watched her walk away again.
At home I was sitting on the couch when Billie threw an envelope down in front of me.
"What is it?" I asked picking it up.
"Pictures." He said. "Tre took them at your birthday party. He found them shoved in the crack between two seats in his car. Then he said he had to pick out the ones that where of him naked but if you really wanted those he would give them to you."
"He's joking right?" I asked opening the envelope.
"I hope so." Billie said sitting down across from me.
The first one was of me and Chadd she was standing over me as I piled food on to my plate. The next one was of Mark, Sony, and Mike. Then one of Adie and Sarah. Another one of Billie Mike and Tre covered in cake. A few of Billie and Adie. Two of my mom and brother. Then the next one was of me and Chadd, she was stand behind me with her arms around my waist using me as a shield to protect herself from Bayzer who was about to throw a piece of cake at her. The last one was of me and Chadd. She had her arms around my neck and was kissing me on the cheek.
I put the pictures back in the envelope and set them on the coffee table.
On Saturday Run drove up and was going to spend the night. We had lunch at Rudy's. He had dyed his Mohawk green.
"So how are things with you and Chadd?" He asked as I shoved half a hot in my mouth.
"Ve bloke vlop." I tried to talk with my mouth full. Ron dropped his fork and looked at me.
"Come again? Try saying that with out food in your mouth please."
I swallowed and said it again. "We broke up."
"Why?" Ron asked as a crammed the other half of the hot dog in my mouth.
"Mow ve kell vam mi vusposed ve kow?"
"Goddamn it Riot stop talking with your mouth full!"
I swallowed.
"I said, how the hell am I supposed to know!" I crammed potato chips in my mouth and just to annoy him yelled "Vuck vou Mon!" I sprayed crumbs all over the table. He kicked me in the leg. I coughed and started to choke.
"That's what you get asshole!" Ron yelled at me. I stopped coughing and glared at him.
"It's not my fault you don't have manners. No one is going to fucking understand you when you've got half your meal crammed in your mouth! You sure that isn't the reason Chadd broke up with you? Because you were a pig!?"
"UGHH!" I kicked him in the leg. Ron went home the next day.
<Chadd's P.O.V>
I knew Riot gave me that necklace even though he wouldn't admit it. I loved the necklace. I wore it everyday.
When David told me we were moving to L.A I thought he was joking. But when he didn't say anything I knew he wasn't. I yelled at him giving him reason after reason why I couldn't go. But he wouldn't change his mind.
<Riot's P.O.V>
I was driving around town one day when I saw Chadd. She looked upset.
"Do you want a ride?" I opened the door and she got in. I leaned over and started to kiss her neck. She started to cry.
"What? What's wrong?"
"Please James don't!" she got out of the car.
I drove home. I ran upstairs and shoved all my clothes in my green knapsack and other things inside my book bag. I was done, I was leaving. As I was about to walk out the door Billie grabbed my bag.
"Where are you going?"
"I swear to fucking god Billie let go of my bag!" I grabbed it out of his hands and ran out the door.
I opened the back seat of the car door and threw my bags onto the seat. I know I can't stop you.
"I know I can't stop you." Billie said as he watched me fling my bags into the back seat.
"Then why are you trying!?" I yelled slamming the car door shut. I knew he wasn't trying. He knew I had to go. I wanted to tell him I was sorry, sorry for being a burden.
"Don't look for me Billie." I said opening the door to the front seat. "I'll be fine."
Billie looked at me. I know he didn't want me to go but he would let me. I know that he would want to try and find me but then my attempt to leave would only become a game of hid and seek.
"I wont." He told me. "You'll be fine." I could tell he was worried.
"I'll be fine Billie." I got into the cat and drove away.
For the next few weeks I didn't see or talk to Chadd. I missed her. I did something stupid. I started to date someone else. Her name was Anna I only dated her to fill the whole left in my heart by Chadd. It worked too. As long as I pretended that she was Chadd when I kissed her or when I held her. She was my temporary fix. She broke up with me a week before Christmas break. She said she was putting more into the relationship then I was. She was right. She may have been my temporary fix but I didn't love her, I hardly even liked her.
I continued to cut myself. I still hadn't heard from my mom. Billie was doing his best to help me but I was losing it more and more. I couldn't stop thinking about Chadd.
I went for a walk and tried to stop thinking of Chadd. For some reason I kept tripping. I looked down at my feet and noticed my shoes were on the wrong feet. As I was looking at my feet I bumped into someone. It was Chadd. She looked at me and then at my feet.
"Sorry." She said and pushed past me.
I dropped to my knees. The best thing I had ever had in my life left me. I sat on the ground and fixed my shoes. I didn't want to get up. I just wanted to sit there.
When I got home Billie had started a fire in the fire place. I sat down in front of it and warmed up.
"You look frozen." He told me as I picked ice chips out of my hair.
"It's cold outside." I informed him.
"It is really?" he said sarcastically. I yawned. I watched red flames come from the fire.
"It's Christmas eve tomorrow" Billie told me.
"I know it is. I'm going to the Gilman tonight." I said untying my shoes.
"Oh ok." Billie walked out of the living room.
When I got to the Gilman I bought a beer and sat at a table in the back. I asked some kid who was playing tonight. He said a band called Wicked. Then he said it was their first time playing. I grinded my teeth for a minuet looking for Chadd. I grabbed my beer and moved to one of the tables in the front. There she was on the stage sitting on a speaker next to Bayzer. I wanted to get her attention but thought better of it.
Wicked played and did a great job too.
"How was it?" Billie asked me when I got home.
"It was fun." I went up stairs and went to bed.
<Chadd's P.O.V>
That night after I left Riot's house I dealt with David yelling at me for half an hour about how disrespectful I had been.
The next few weeks passed and I missed Riot more and more. A lot happened, Vikki moved in, David and her both worked at an office building downtown. I hated waking up every morning and seeing her at my kitchen table. Wicked finally got to play at the Gilman.
Christmas came and I got a lot of nice things. A new Guitar, CDs, clothes and books. I spent Christmas morning with my mom and David and Vikki. After, I drove over to Bayzer's house where Mark, Sony, me and her all exchanged gifts. We did it every year.
<Riot's P.O.V>
I spent Christmas with Billie, Adie, Mike, Tre, Sarah, and all of the kids. It was fun. Considering I just sat on the couch most of the time. The gifts I got were great, things I had wanted but had never asked for. Adie and Sarah made a great dinner.
School started back up the week after New Year's Day. I still had bought Chadd a Christmas gift. A small guitar pendent with a diamond at the bottom. It cost a lot of money but it was worth it. I shoved a small black box into a small slot on Chadd's locker door. I walked back to my locker. In second period Chadd came up to me with the black box.
"Did you give this to me?"
"No." I looked at her. "Do you want to come over after school?" I asked her in an unsure voice. She tilted her head. I shoved my hands inside my jacket to restrain myself from grabbing her hand.
"You know I can't do that."
"You could if you wanted too." I told her.
"And that's the exact reason why I can't James."
"You called me James."
"I did didn't I?" She said looking at her feet. She sighed and walked away.
"Chadd!"
"Huh?" She turned around.
"You did good at The Gilman the other day." She smiled.
"Thanks." She turned and walked away.
As I walked down the steps after school I tripped on a patch of ice.
"Damn!" I yelled falling down the steps. I rolled over Chadd was standing over me.
"You're really graceful James."
I didn't like it when she called me James. It made me anxious. She helped me stand up.
"I miss you." I said running my hand along her cheek. She pushed my hand away.
"Don't."
I sighed and grabbed my book bag off the ground.
"Well I have to go." I watched her walk away again.
At home I was sitting on the couch when Billie threw an envelope down in front of me.
"What is it?" I asked picking it up.
"Pictures." He said. "Tre took them at your birthday party. He found them shoved in the crack between two seats in his car. Then he said he had to pick out the ones that where of him naked but if you really wanted those he would give them to you."
"He's joking right?" I asked opening the envelope.
"I hope so." Billie said sitting down across from me.
The first one was of me and Chadd she was standing over me as I piled food on to my plate. The next one was of Mark, Sony, and Mike. Then one of Adie and Sarah. Another one of Billie Mike and Tre covered in cake. A few of Billie and Adie. Two of my mom and brother. Then the next one was of me and Chadd, she was stand behind me with her arms around my waist using me as a shield to protect herself from Bayzer who was about to throw a piece of cake at her. The last one was of me and Chadd. She had her arms around my neck and was kissing me on the cheek.
I put the pictures back in the envelope and set them on the coffee table.
On Saturday Run drove up and was going to spend the night. We had lunch at Rudy's. He had dyed his Mohawk green.
"So how are things with you and Chadd?" He asked as I shoved half a hot in my mouth.
"Ve bloke vlop." I tried to talk with my mouth full. Ron dropped his fork and looked at me.
"Come again? Try saying that with out food in your mouth please."
I swallowed and said it again. "We broke up."
"Why?" Ron asked as a crammed the other half of the hot dog in my mouth.
"Mow ve kell vam mi vusposed ve kow?"
"Goddamn it Riot stop talking with your mouth full!"
I swallowed.
"I said, how the hell am I supposed to know!" I crammed potato chips in my mouth and just to annoy him yelled "Vuck vou Mon!" I sprayed crumbs all over the table. He kicked me in the leg. I coughed and started to choke.
"That's what you get asshole!" Ron yelled at me. I stopped coughing and glared at him.
"It's not my fault you don't have manners. No one is going to fucking understand you when you've got half your meal crammed in your mouth! You sure that isn't the reason Chadd broke up with you? Because you were a pig!?"
"UGHH!" I kicked him in the leg. Ron went home the next day.
<Chadd's P.O.V>
I knew Riot gave me that necklace even though he wouldn't admit it. I loved the necklace. I wore it everyday.
When David told me we were moving to L.A I thought he was joking. But when he didn't say anything I knew he wasn't. I yelled at him giving him reason after reason why I couldn't go. But he wouldn't change his mind.
<Riot's P.O.V>
I was driving around town one day when I saw Chadd. She looked upset.
"Do you want a ride?" I opened the door and she got in. I leaned over and started to kiss her neck. She started to cry.
"What? What's wrong?"
"Please James don't!" she got out of the car.
I drove home. I ran upstairs and shoved all my clothes in my green knapsack and other things inside my book bag. I was done, I was leaving. As I was about to walk out the door Billie grabbed my bag.
"Where are you going?"
"I swear to fucking god Billie let go of my bag!" I grabbed it out of his hands and ran out the door.
I opened the back seat of the car door and threw my bags onto the seat. I know I can't stop you.
"I know I can't stop you." Billie said as he watched me fling my bags into the back seat.
"Then why are you trying!?" I yelled slamming the car door shut. I knew he wasn't trying. He knew I had to go. I wanted to tell him I was sorry, sorry for being a burden.
"Don't look for me Billie." I said opening the door to the front seat. "I'll be fine."
Billie looked at me. I know he didn't want me to go but he would let me. I know that he would want to try and find me but then my attempt to leave would only become a game of hid and seek.
"I wont." He told me. "You'll be fine." I could tell he was worried.
"I'll be fine Billie." I got into the cat and drove away.
