Wicked Wishes, chapter 17
Riots P.O.V
Three months passed and I didn't talk to Chadd. I worried about her everyday. Billie Finally made me drive over there.
I was walking up the steps when I ran into Bayzer.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" She said.
"I...I need to talk to Chadd."
"Fine...you can go in there but dont fucking touch her!" Bayzer said glaring at me.
"What a prick." She said walking down the steps.
I knocked on the apartment door but no one answered. The door was unlocked so I let myself in. Chadd was fast asleep on the couch. I sat down across from her. I just watched her for awhile. She was so beautiful.
I loved her so much. I never meant to hurt her but I always seemed too. I wanted to reach out and touch her but I didn't. She opened her eyes and looked at me. She sat up.
"I thought I locked the door." She said to me standing up. Her stomach looked bigger.
"You're starting to show." I said.
"Yeah." That just made me feel even worse.
"Where is David?" I asked
"He moved out a week ago. I am living with Bayzer. Mark and Sony have an apartment on the next floor."
I put my head in my hands and sighed.
"I'm so sorry Chadd. I love you... Ill love this kid just please forgive me."
Chadd sighed.
"It's not that easy."
"Please Chadd! I'm begging you!" I said standing up and warping my arms around her. Her eyes were caked in massacre, eyeliner, and eye shadow the same way they always were.
"Riot, I can't trust you."
"Please, yes you can. I'm sorry."
"Alright listen Riot, I love you. I need to know you love me."
"I do. I always have and I always will. I'm so sorry. I won't do it again. Believe me."
I kissed her and gave her the ring back.
Three weeks passed and Bayzer moved in with mark and sony and I moved in with Chadd. I was also working at Adeline. For once in a long time things seemed to be going good. Until my mom and dad came to visit. Ryan and Sarah came with them. I sure as hell didn't want to see my parents. Billie Joe called me the day before they came. He was going to be there to make sure things didn't get out of hand.
"I don't want them here." I told him. "I don't want them any where near Chadd or my daughter."
"I know you don't, but just for this one day please at least pretends you're happy to see them." He said to me. I sighed. We were sitting on the couch waiting for them. Chadd was asleep, she hadn't been feeling well.
She was almost at 5 months now. She slept a lot. 80 came over once a week and the two of them went out. Bayzer, Mark, and Sony came over regularly. I didn't mind though.
Some one knocked on the door.
"You gonna answer that?"
"Do I have to?"
"Yeah."
I sighed and went and opened the door. My dad looked me over. I knew he was looking for a flaw.
"You should do something about that hair." He said walking in.
"It's nice to see you to dad." My mom walked in followed by Ryan and Sarah. Ryan was holding Sarah's hand.
"So you finally got a girl pregnant!" My dad said sitting down "And there she is!" I looked behind me and saw Chadd standing in the bedroom door way. I walked over to her.
"Chadd please just go back to sleep."
"Why?"
"Please go back to bed."
"Why?"
"Its doesn't matter."
"Why?"
"I just don't want you with my parents."
"Ok."
She kissed me and went back into the bedroom. I didn't want Chadd to sit there and have to deal with my parents shit. I turned around to see my mom going through my fridge. I looked at Billie.
"You have nothing to eat."
"I didn't know you were staying for dinner"
"We will just have to go out then."
"Chadd isn't feeling well, she isn't going out."
"Well then we will just order pizza."
For the next 3 hours I sat and endured Insult after Insult. Billie would some times remark on something, but it didn't stop them.
'This is the worst neighborhood in town isn't it? your going to raise a child n the little apartment? Your suicidal, how are you going to manage taking of a kid? What is this kid going to say about those scars on your wrists?' were just a few of the things said to me.
They finally left at six' o'clock. Billie left at 6:30 and Chadd woke up at seven.
***
"There's some pizza left if you want some." I said bitterly to Chadd not taking my eyes of the T.V. She came and sat down next to me.
"I heard some of the things they said to you." I wrapped my arms around her.
"Why? Why do they say those kinds of things?" I looked at her. "Because I'm not like my brother and I'm not perfect and I never will be."
"Riot please don't let the things they say effect you."
"I won't." I said and kissed her
Three months passed and I didn't talk to Chadd. I worried about her everyday. Billie Finally made me drive over there.
I was walking up the steps when I ran into Bayzer.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" She said.
"I...I need to talk to Chadd."
"Fine...you can go in there but dont fucking touch her!" Bayzer said glaring at me.
"What a prick." She said walking down the steps.
I knocked on the apartment door but no one answered. The door was unlocked so I let myself in. Chadd was fast asleep on the couch. I sat down across from her. I just watched her for awhile. She was so beautiful.
I loved her so much. I never meant to hurt her but I always seemed too. I wanted to reach out and touch her but I didn't. She opened her eyes and looked at me. She sat up.
"I thought I locked the door." She said to me standing up. Her stomach looked bigger.
"You're starting to show." I said.
"Yeah." That just made me feel even worse.
"Where is David?" I asked
"He moved out a week ago. I am living with Bayzer. Mark and Sony have an apartment on the next floor."
I put my head in my hands and sighed.
"I'm so sorry Chadd. I love you... Ill love this kid just please forgive me."
Chadd sighed.
"It's not that easy."
"Please Chadd! I'm begging you!" I said standing up and warping my arms around her. Her eyes were caked in massacre, eyeliner, and eye shadow the same way they always were.
"Riot, I can't trust you."
"Please, yes you can. I'm sorry."
"Alright listen Riot, I love you. I need to know you love me."
"I do. I always have and I always will. I'm so sorry. I won't do it again. Believe me."
I kissed her and gave her the ring back.
Three weeks passed and Bayzer moved in with mark and sony and I moved in with Chadd. I was also working at Adeline. For once in a long time things seemed to be going good. Until my mom and dad came to visit. Ryan and Sarah came with them. I sure as hell didn't want to see my parents. Billie Joe called me the day before they came. He was going to be there to make sure things didn't get out of hand.
"I don't want them here." I told him. "I don't want them any where near Chadd or my daughter."
"I know you don't, but just for this one day please at least pretends you're happy to see them." He said to me. I sighed. We were sitting on the couch waiting for them. Chadd was asleep, she hadn't been feeling well.
She was almost at 5 months now. She slept a lot. 80 came over once a week and the two of them went out. Bayzer, Mark, and Sony came over regularly. I didn't mind though.
Some one knocked on the door.
"You gonna answer that?"
"Do I have to?"
"Yeah."
I sighed and went and opened the door. My dad looked me over. I knew he was looking for a flaw.
"You should do something about that hair." He said walking in.
"It's nice to see you to dad." My mom walked in followed by Ryan and Sarah. Ryan was holding Sarah's hand.
"So you finally got a girl pregnant!" My dad said sitting down "And there she is!" I looked behind me and saw Chadd standing in the bedroom door way. I walked over to her.
"Chadd please just go back to sleep."
"Why?"
"Please go back to bed."
"Why?"
"Its doesn't matter."
"Why?"
"I just don't want you with my parents."
"Ok."
She kissed me and went back into the bedroom. I didn't want Chadd to sit there and have to deal with my parents shit. I turned around to see my mom going through my fridge. I looked at Billie.
"You have nothing to eat."
"I didn't know you were staying for dinner"
"We will just have to go out then."
"Chadd isn't feeling well, she isn't going out."
"Well then we will just order pizza."
For the next 3 hours I sat and endured Insult after Insult. Billie would some times remark on something, but it didn't stop them.
'This is the worst neighborhood in town isn't it? your going to raise a child n the little apartment? Your suicidal, how are you going to manage taking of a kid? What is this kid going to say about those scars on your wrists?' were just a few of the things said to me.
They finally left at six' o'clock. Billie left at 6:30 and Chadd woke up at seven.
***
"There's some pizza left if you want some." I said bitterly to Chadd not taking my eyes of the T.V. She came and sat down next to me.
"I heard some of the things they said to you." I wrapped my arms around her.
"Why? Why do they say those kinds of things?" I looked at her. "Because I'm not like my brother and I'm not perfect and I never will be."
"Riot please don't let the things they say effect you."
"I won't." I said and kissed her
