Wicked Wishes, chapter 23
Riots P. O. V
We were going to get Helena back on Saturday. It was Thursday.
I felt horrible for what I was doing to Chadd. I was going to try and make it up to her...
"Ron?" I said to him one day walking into his room. Which was filthy... Clothes thrown all over the place.
"What's up?" He said. His Mohawk wasn't spiked... I rarely ever saw him with out it spiked up. He must have just woken up.
"Do you think you can make your self scarce Friday?"
He just looked at me.
"I mean. Could you leave Friday night?"
"Why?" He said smiling at me.
"I want to do something for Chadd." I told him. His smile just got bigger.
"Well in THAT case... Of course I can."
"Good."
"Riot: Family Man." He said teasing me. I glared at him.
"I've never seen you act this way with a girl... With Sarah... And pretty much ever other girl you've ever been with it was always 'Bitch Shut up and give it up! ' But with Chadd it's like you worship the ground she walks on." He said laughing. I pushed him and he fell back on his bed.
"It's not a bad thing Riot!" He said standing back up. "You're just in love. I've never been in love, so I've never acted that way."
"Well, you use girls for a different purpose."
Ron laughed.
"HA! Well, I remember when you used girls for the same purpose I did!"
"And what purpose would that be?" I laughed at him.
He just laughed even more.
"Well good luck with that. I should be back some time Saturday then."
He said putting on his leather jacket and grabbed his book bag and walking out the door.
***
Friday afternoon I called Bayzer and convinced her to get Chadd out of the house.
I'm not sure where they went.
I called 80.
"Why did you want me to come over Riot?" 80 asked me. I was sitting at the kitchen table drumming my fingers.
"Umm... I need your help with something."
"What? Tell me now or I have to go home because I left Helena with Billie Joe and I'm not really sure you want that."
I looked up at her.
"I want to do something for Chadd. I mean... Prove to her I'm committed to her and Helena. You can cook right?"
"Yeah. Why?" She asked setting her bag on the table and sitting down across from me.
"I want to like... Make dinner for Chadd."
"AWWW... How sweet Riot!" She said ruffling my hair.
"DON'T!" I said.." Touch my hair!" I said scooting back. My cheeks turning red with embarrassment.
"Are you going to help me or not?" I asked her. "Because I can't cook for shit."
"Of course Ill help you Riot!"
I tried to help her cook, but she figured it would be best if I just stayed out of the kitchen.
Adie left for little bit... She said had to go to the store. She came back with a bag of candles...
"What are those for?" I asked her.
"It will make things more romantic..." She said putting candles on the table. I just looked at her... Unsure what to say.
"What?" I wasn't good at this. Id never really put such effort into something for a girl... I take that back. I've put effort into things for girls alright... Just NOTHING like this.
"Trust me Riot." She said ruffling my hair again. Jesus did I hate it when people did that. I ran my fingers through my hair spiking it back up.
"Is that it?" I asked.
"Yup. Just make sure you check the food, I've got to go home and make sure my husband didn't kill your daughter. Good luck." She smiled. I sighed.
I sat outside in the hallway waiting for Chadd and Bayzer to come back.
When I saw them I jumped in front of them on the landing.
Bayzer smiled at me and walked away.
Chadd gave me a weak smile.
"Come here." I said grabbing her hand and pulling her into the apartment.
"Riot." She said walking into the door way. Seeing all the candles and the food on the table.
Her jaw dropped.
I kissed her.
"Sit down!" I said to her smiling like a madman.
"Did you do all this?" She asked sitting down.
"Yeah with a little help." I told her.
"Its amazing Riot."
We started to eat. Well she ate... I just sat and watched her. Still smiling at her.
"I'm sorry." I said to her.
"For what?" She asked.
"For just not being there... I'm going to try to I promise I will. Things will be different Chadd. Ill marry you tomorrow if you want me too, I will. I'm going to change."
"Riot..." She said shaking her head.
"I will! I promise!" I said to her. "I swear to God I will Chadd!"
"Riot..." She said again shaking her head.
"Don't do this Chadd!" I said to her starting to get frustrated. She put her head in her hands.
"Riot please..." I could hear the tears coming in her voice.
"Why is that we can't do this? I'VE DONE EVERYTHING FOR YOU CHADD!" I yelled at her.
"Don't start Riot. I'm begging you... Don't. You don't understand." She was crying now.
"I DON'T UNDERSTAND? YOUR RIGHT I DON'T UNDERSTAND! GIVE ME A GOOD REASON!" I said standing up and grabbing her hands and pulling her up.
"Give me good reasons why we cant do this, give me a good reason why we have to put Helena up for adoption. Give me one good goddamn reason." She was crying even harder... This night wasn't going as I planed it too.
"You don't understand!" She said again.
"ILL UNDERSTAND IF YOU TELL ME! SO TELL ME CHADD!"
"I CAN'T!" she yelled at me.
"Why?" I said putting my hands on her cheeks and looking her in the eyes.
She cried more. I didn't know what I was doing... It was just happening.
I let her go and looked at her.
"I'm so sorry..." I said shocked at myself. I turned around and walked down the hallway into our bedroom.
"RIOT!" She pleaded. But I had shut and locked the door. I unlocked the door a little bit later in the night. Chadd came to bed after that.
Chadds P. O. V
A crash woke me up. I rolled over and noticed Riot wasn't lying next to me.
I got up and walked out of the bedroom.
"Riot?" I said. No one said anything back. "Riot?" I said again getting worried. I walked into the bathroom.
He was sitting on the floor against the bathtub. His left wrist Bloody.
"Riot." I sighed dropping to my knees.
Riots P. O. V
I didn't do anything but look at her. She moved closer to me and buried her head in my chest. Sobbing.
"Is this one of the reasons?" I whispered. She tried to stop another sob.
"Mmhhhmm."
"It's a good reason." I said wrapping my other arm around her. She grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my arm.
"We can't do this anymore can we?" I asked squeezing her.
"No."
I kissed her. I knew there was no way to fix this. Fix this night, fix what I had just done.
We were going to get Helena back on Saturday. It was Thursday.
I felt horrible for what I was doing to Chadd. I was going to try and make it up to her...
"Ron?" I said to him one day walking into his room. Which was filthy... Clothes thrown all over the place.
"What's up?" He said. His Mohawk wasn't spiked... I rarely ever saw him with out it spiked up. He must have just woken up.
"Do you think you can make your self scarce Friday?"
He just looked at me.
"I mean. Could you leave Friday night?"
"Why?" He said smiling at me.
"I want to do something for Chadd." I told him. His smile just got bigger.
"Well in THAT case... Of course I can."
"Good."
"Riot: Family Man." He said teasing me. I glared at him.
"I've never seen you act this way with a girl... With Sarah... And pretty much ever other girl you've ever been with it was always 'Bitch Shut up and give it up! ' But with Chadd it's like you worship the ground she walks on." He said laughing. I pushed him and he fell back on his bed.
"It's not a bad thing Riot!" He said standing back up. "You're just in love. I've never been in love, so I've never acted that way."
"Well, you use girls for a different purpose."
Ron laughed.
"HA! Well, I remember when you used girls for the same purpose I did!"
"And what purpose would that be?" I laughed at him.
He just laughed even more.
"Well good luck with that. I should be back some time Saturday then."
He said putting on his leather jacket and grabbed his book bag and walking out the door.
***
Friday afternoon I called Bayzer and convinced her to get Chadd out of the house.
I'm not sure where they went.
I called 80.
"Why did you want me to come over Riot?" 80 asked me. I was sitting at the kitchen table drumming my fingers.
"Umm... I need your help with something."
"What? Tell me now or I have to go home because I left Helena with Billie Joe and I'm not really sure you want that."
I looked up at her.
"I want to do something for Chadd. I mean... Prove to her I'm committed to her and Helena. You can cook right?"
"Yeah. Why?" She asked setting her bag on the table and sitting down across from me.
"I want to like... Make dinner for Chadd."
"AWWW... How sweet Riot!" She said ruffling my hair.
"DON'T!" I said.." Touch my hair!" I said scooting back. My cheeks turning red with embarrassment.
"Are you going to help me or not?" I asked her. "Because I can't cook for shit."
"Of course Ill help you Riot!"
I tried to help her cook, but she figured it would be best if I just stayed out of the kitchen.
Adie left for little bit... She said had to go to the store. She came back with a bag of candles...
"What are those for?" I asked her.
"It will make things more romantic..." She said putting candles on the table. I just looked at her... Unsure what to say.
"What?" I wasn't good at this. Id never really put such effort into something for a girl... I take that back. I've put effort into things for girls alright... Just NOTHING like this.
"Trust me Riot." She said ruffling my hair again. Jesus did I hate it when people did that. I ran my fingers through my hair spiking it back up.
"Is that it?" I asked.
"Yup. Just make sure you check the food, I've got to go home and make sure my husband didn't kill your daughter. Good luck." She smiled. I sighed.
I sat outside in the hallway waiting for Chadd and Bayzer to come back.
When I saw them I jumped in front of them on the landing.
Bayzer smiled at me and walked away.
Chadd gave me a weak smile.
"Come here." I said grabbing her hand and pulling her into the apartment.
"Riot." She said walking into the door way. Seeing all the candles and the food on the table.
Her jaw dropped.
I kissed her.
"Sit down!" I said to her smiling like a madman.
"Did you do all this?" She asked sitting down.
"Yeah with a little help." I told her.
"Its amazing Riot."
We started to eat. Well she ate... I just sat and watched her. Still smiling at her.
"I'm sorry." I said to her.
"For what?" She asked.
"For just not being there... I'm going to try to I promise I will. Things will be different Chadd. Ill marry you tomorrow if you want me too, I will. I'm going to change."
"Riot..." She said shaking her head.
"I will! I promise!" I said to her. "I swear to God I will Chadd!"
"Riot..." She said again shaking her head.
"Don't do this Chadd!" I said to her starting to get frustrated. She put her head in her hands.
"Riot please..." I could hear the tears coming in her voice.
"Why is that we can't do this? I'VE DONE EVERYTHING FOR YOU CHADD!" I yelled at her.
"Don't start Riot. I'm begging you... Don't. You don't understand." She was crying now.
"I DON'T UNDERSTAND? YOUR RIGHT I DON'T UNDERSTAND! GIVE ME A GOOD REASON!" I said standing up and grabbing her hands and pulling her up.
"Give me good reasons why we cant do this, give me a good reason why we have to put Helena up for adoption. Give me one good goddamn reason." She was crying even harder... This night wasn't going as I planed it too.
"You don't understand!" She said again.
"ILL UNDERSTAND IF YOU TELL ME! SO TELL ME CHADD!"
"I CAN'T!" she yelled at me.
"Why?" I said putting my hands on her cheeks and looking her in the eyes.
She cried more. I didn't know what I was doing... It was just happening.
I let her go and looked at her.
"I'm so sorry..." I said shocked at myself. I turned around and walked down the hallway into our bedroom.
"RIOT!" She pleaded. But I had shut and locked the door. I unlocked the door a little bit later in the night. Chadd came to bed after that.
Chadds P. O. V
A crash woke me up. I rolled over and noticed Riot wasn't lying next to me.
I got up and walked out of the bedroom.
"Riot?" I said. No one said anything back. "Riot?" I said again getting worried. I walked into the bathroom.
He was sitting on the floor against the bathtub. His left wrist Bloody.
"Riot." I sighed dropping to my knees.
Riots P. O. V
I didn't do anything but look at her. She moved closer to me and buried her head in my chest. Sobbing.
"Is this one of the reasons?" I whispered. She tried to stop another sob.
"Mmhhhmm."
"It's a good reason." I said wrapping my other arm around her. She grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my arm.
"We can't do this anymore can we?" I asked squeezing her.
"No."
I kissed her. I knew there was no way to fix this. Fix this night, fix what I had just done.
