Wicked Wishes, chapter 24
Riots P.O.V
In the morning Chadd was asleep on the couch. Ron wasn't there. Before Chadd woke up I walked out of the building and drove to the Adeline office. I wasn't working just looking for Billie. He was sitting at a desk with headphones on. I walked up to him and pulled them off.
"Can I talk to you?"
"Actually, I'm just going on my lunch break. Why don't we go to Rudy's?" He suggested.
"Fine."
"Its over." I said when we sat down.
"What?"
"Me and Chadd. Its over, we are putting Helena up for adoption and that's it."
"Wow. I don't know what to say."
We sat there for a while.
"You know what?" Billie Joe said.
"Hmm?" I mumbled.
"You've grown up a lot this past year. From a destructive 17 year old who dealt with a physically and verbally abusive family, then got dumped here in the bay to what you are now. You've changed a lot."
"Oh." I said rolling my eyes.
"You're not a bad person Riot. Bad things just happened to you and caused you to be unstable.
"So what your saying is... It's not my fault I have a tendency to be suicidal?" Billie laughed.
***
When I got home there was a letter on the fridge.
Dear R.
I couldn't think of the right things to say to you last night so I'm writing them in a letter. I love you Riot I do. But I don't understand you and I never will. You make all these promises and never keep them. I can't live on broken promises Riot.
I skipped to the bottom of the letter.
Ill be back later
C.
She walked into the doorway.
"Oh... " I said.
"So you read the letter?"
"Letter bomb." I mumbled tossing the paper aside.
"What?"
"Nothing." I said and kissed her.
"What was that for?" She asked.
"Seeing the way things are going that might be the last time I ever get to do that."
I started to walk out the door.
"Where are you going?"
"I don't know."
That's the night I became an Insomniac. It would be a long time before I ever slept again.
When I went home Chadd was sitting on the couch. I sat down next to her.
"I wanted to be everything you needed. I wanted to make sure everything was perfect. But I think even wishing that now seems out of wicked proportion. So I don't deserve you or Helena. And I deserve to have it all taken away. The way it is being." I told her.
I got up and went to bed. But I didn't go to sleep.
Chadd's P.O.V
I went to bed soon after. I couldn't sleep. I knew Riot wasn't asleep.
"Riot?" I whispered.
"Huh?"
"Was it waste?"
"What?"
"This. Me and you. These past three years, were they a waste?"
He rolled over and looked at me. He sighed.
"Never. It was never a waste."
In the morning Chadd was asleep on the couch. Ron wasn't there. Before Chadd woke up I walked out of the building and drove to the Adeline office. I wasn't working just looking for Billie. He was sitting at a desk with headphones on. I walked up to him and pulled them off.
"Can I talk to you?"
"Actually, I'm just going on my lunch break. Why don't we go to Rudy's?" He suggested.
"Fine."
"Its over." I said when we sat down.
"What?"
"Me and Chadd. Its over, we are putting Helena up for adoption and that's it."
"Wow. I don't know what to say."
We sat there for a while.
"You know what?" Billie Joe said.
"Hmm?" I mumbled.
"You've grown up a lot this past year. From a destructive 17 year old who dealt with a physically and verbally abusive family, then got dumped here in the bay to what you are now. You've changed a lot."
"Oh." I said rolling my eyes.
"You're not a bad person Riot. Bad things just happened to you and caused you to be unstable.
"So what your saying is... It's not my fault I have a tendency to be suicidal?" Billie laughed.
***
When I got home there was a letter on the fridge.
Dear R.
I couldn't think of the right things to say to you last night so I'm writing them in a letter. I love you Riot I do. But I don't understand you and I never will. You make all these promises and never keep them. I can't live on broken promises Riot.
I skipped to the bottom of the letter.
Ill be back later
C.
She walked into the doorway.
"Oh... " I said.
"So you read the letter?"
"Letter bomb." I mumbled tossing the paper aside.
"What?"
"Nothing." I said and kissed her.
"What was that for?" She asked.
"Seeing the way things are going that might be the last time I ever get to do that."
I started to walk out the door.
"Where are you going?"
"I don't know."
That's the night I became an Insomniac. It would be a long time before I ever slept again.
When I went home Chadd was sitting on the couch. I sat down next to her.
"I wanted to be everything you needed. I wanted to make sure everything was perfect. But I think even wishing that now seems out of wicked proportion. So I don't deserve you or Helena. And I deserve to have it all taken away. The way it is being." I told her.
I got up and went to bed. But I didn't go to sleep.
Chadd's P.O.V
I went to bed soon after. I couldn't sleep. I knew Riot wasn't asleep.
"Riot?" I whispered.
"Huh?"
"Was it waste?"
"What?"
"This. Me and you. These past three years, were they a waste?"
He rolled over and looked at me. He sighed.
"Never. It was never a waste."
