Please Wake Me Up When September Ends or Let Me Here to Die!, chapter 12
I have to find a way for Tré to mess up again... But how?
I sat there just thinking when someone called my name.
"Billie? Are you ok?"
'Seth?!' I thought
"Yea."
"Your mom sent me up to see if you were hungry."
"Um... "
She walked in and shut the door behind her.
"I kind of am but not a whole lot."
"Well ok. I am gonna go."
"Ok. I'll be down in a bit."
"Ok.."
*Seth's P. O. V*
I walked back down to the kitchen and up to Ollie.
"He said he might be down."
"Ok."
"Oh...um...I am not hungry either."
"You feeling ok?"
"Yea. I am just not hungry."
"Ok...there will be food down here if you are hungry."
"Thanks Ollie."
I walked back up stairs and into our room.
Tré was sitting on the bed.
He looked up as he saw the door open and me walk in.
"Hey babe. Wait... What's wrong? You don't look to good."
"I feel fine. Oh...um would you and Billie want to go visit my aunt and mom?"
"I would love to babe."
I walked over to Billie's room and knocked.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"Nothing, um I was wondering if you would like to go to see my mom and aunt."
"I would love to. Is your brother gonna be there?"
"Yea, he is going with us to see my mom."
"Ok."
I walked back to the room and walked over to my bag.
I got out my make up, black kinda baggy shorts and a Misfits shirt.
I changed and redid my make up and Tré and I went to Billie's room.
He opened and we all walked out of the house, me being in the middle.
We got to my aunt's house and walked in.
"Aunt Tally?"
"Seth! I thought you would never come by!"
"Same here, where's Ryan?"
"Did I just hear my name?"
I ran over and hugged him.
He let go a few moments later and walked over to Billie and Tré.
"Bill, how've ya been?"
"Good. You?"
"Same old me."
"Ryan, we gonna go see mom?"
"Yup."
"Let's go then!"
"Bye Aunt Tally," Ryan and I said in unison.
"Bye Tally."
"Bye kids."
We walked out and were walking on the side walk.
Tré and Ryan were caught up in some weird conversation on what songs are good and I just tuned them out.
I was focusing on Tré's hand in my left one and Billie's trying to get into my right hand.
I looked kind of out of it when Tré was waving his hand in front of my face.
"Hey, what's wrong? You haven't been yourself since last night."
"Wha- oh yeah. Sorry."
"It's ok, I think."
"Tré what did you do to my twin?"
"I swear I didn't do anything."
Billie was still trying to hold my hand when I glared at him.
He immediately stopped.
We finally got to the hospital and were went up to the desk.
Ryan said that they changed mom's room.
"Excuse me, we are looking for Sara Bicks."
"Oh, um...would you like to wait in the waiting room?"
"Um...ok."
We walked over and sat down.
"Ryan why would they make us sit here?"
"I don't know Seth."
We just sat there in a very awkward silence, waiting to go see my mom.
"Excuse me, Seth and Ryan?"
Our heads shot up and looked over at the nurse.
"Can you come with me?"
We looked at each other then to Billie and Tré and went to the nurse.
"Kids, we have some news for you."
"Good or bad?" Ryan asked.
"Bad."
I looked over at Ryan and then look to the floor.
"Guys, I hate giving this kind of news out."
My head shot back up.
"Your mother, passed away."
"No! She can't!"
"I'm sorry kids."
I just ran out of the rooms and out of the building.
I looked up to the sky and it started to rain.
"Why?! First it's my dad! Now it's my mom! What did we do?!?!"
"Seth?! It's ok!"
Ryan came and hugged me.
"Ryan...why...us? Why?"
"Seth, I don't know, I just don't know."
"Ryan?! Seth?!"
Tré and Billie came over to us.
"Hey, babe what's wrong?"
"Guys not to be rude, I just want to be alone."
And with that I began to walk to the beach.
Me and my father used to go there everyday and play games.
I got there and immediately sat on the sand and cried.
"Dad I miss you. I wish you could come back."
*Tré's P. O. V*
"Dude where is she going?"
"She went to the beach."
"Why would she go there?"
"Our dad used to take her there all the time before he died, he took me to the skate park."
"What if she hurts herself again?"
"Again?" Billie asked."
"Long story. Well what if she does Ry?"
"She won't. She promised me she never will."
"Ry, what happened?" Billie asked then looked towards the beach.
"Our...mother...passed away."
"Are you serious?" Billie asked because I was speechless.
"Yea, and Seth wants to know why but I can't explain. What are we gonna do? Our mom was the only person other then our aunt that cared about us in the family and now Seth is gonna be more depressed, guys don't let her leave the house unless one of you goes with her," he rambled.
While he was saying this I text Mike telling him to come to the beach.
"Why?"
"Billie, she'll run, trying to find our step father and she end up getting hurt."
"Why will she try and find him?" I asked.
"She'll want revenge."
I just looked up and took off towards the beach.
*Seth's P. O. V*
I was sitting looking toward the beach listening to the sound of the waves.
That's when I heard foot steps.
"Hey, babe, are you ok?"
"Tré why did it have to be her?"
"I don't know."
He came and sat behind me and pulled me close.
I started crying again.
"Come on babe, you're way to pretty to cry."
"I miss them."
"I know you do."
I heard more foot steps and then people sitting around us.
"Hey sis, you ok."
"Yea, I just want to know why they both had to go."
"All I can say is that God must've needed them."
"True."
It was silent.
Mike then pulled up in his pick up and walked over to us.
"Hey guys."
"Hey."
I just looked out at the ocean.
"You guys want a lift back?"
"Sure Mikey."
Tré got up and helped me up.
I tried to fight it, I wanted to stay here and have the past come back to me.
"Seth what are you doing?"
"I just want to stay, I don't want to go back, not yet."
"You guys go I'll stay with her."
"Tré you don't have to."
"But I want to."
I smiled and sat back down along with Tré.
About an hour later we left.
We were walking to Billie's house holding hands.
We were also talking about really random things.
"Hey can I tell you something Tré?"
"Yeah."
"I want my dad back."
"I know you do. Were you guys close?"
"Tré you wouldn't believe how close we were. Only Ryan would see that."
"What about your mom?"
"She was never home."
"What do you mean, I thought she was with you."
"Well she never told my dad or Ryan but she told me."
"She told you what?"
"She told me she was cheating on my dad and she also said that if I told him or Ry then she slit my throat. So I never told them and one night my dad found out."
"What happened?"
"She tried to tell him that he was losing his mind and that she wasn't with anyone else."
"So basically you're saying she's a whore?"
"Yeah."
"Whoa."
"You are so weird Tré."
"I know."
We finally got back to Billie's and we were eating dinner.
We just talked about random things.
We finished and Tré and I offered to do the dishes.
"Why did you want to help?"
"Well because I can do this."
Tré stuck his hand in the water and pulled out suds and put them on my face.
"Ah! Tré! What is this for?!"
"I don't know."
I wiped it of and did this same to him.
"Seth?! What was that for?"
"The same reason you had."
We finished the dishes up and walked into the living room.
Billie and Mike were playing a card game.
"Bill I give up you win!"
"Sweet."
"Hey Mikey!" I yelled which caused him to jump a little.
"Hey Seth, What did Tré do to you?"
"Nothin."
I walked over and sat on his lap (as a friend).
"Are you stoned?"
"Nope. Just bored."
"Hey you guys want to go somewhere?"
"Where Bill?"
"Um, the movies."
"Sure!"
*Billie's P. O. V*
We all ran up stairs to change and once we were done I walked over to my mom's room.
I knocked on her and I heard 'Shh" and finally she came to the door.
"Hey honey. What did you need?"
"Um...who is in there?"
"What? No one."
"Mom who is in there?" I said with clenched teeth.
"She opened the door a little to revel a man sitting in her bed covering himself up.
I looked at my mom and ran downstairs, my mom followed.
"Billie, you don't understand."
"YES I DO!"
"Don't you dare raise your voice to me," she said still at a calm tone.
"MOM I WILL RAISE MY VOICE BECAUSE YOU ARE SLEEPING WITH SOME DUDE!"
"Excuse me! Billie I can sleep with other men."
"Mom, Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't want you to get hurt."
"Oh thanks, having to find out when telling you I was going to the movies really helps to not hurt me mom. What's it's name?"
"His name is Brad."
"Well we all are going out."
"Ok. Billie I want you to know that I love you."
"Mom just tell me you aren't gonna marry him."
"I am not promising that."
Then I looked at her hand, there was a wedding ring, and it wasn't my dad's.
"Billie he proposed last night."
I ran out the door and sat on the grass waiting for everyone else.
They finally came out and we left.
"Bill, what's wrong?"
"My mom is engaged."
"Why aren't- Oh."
"Yea oh."
It was silent.
*Seth's P. O. V*
"Billie, I am so sorry."
I wrapped my arms around him giving him a hug, he hugged back.
"It's ok, you don't have to be."
I let go and walked back to Tré.
We finally got to the movies and decide on some horror movie.
*After The Movie*
*Mike's P. O. V*
We were walking back to Billie's house when Billie stopped.
We all turned and looked at him.
"Bill what's wrong?" I asked raising an eye brow.
"My mom is getting married to some dude I don't know."
"Bill it's ok," Tré said trying to call him down.
"No it's not."
"Billie, please don't yell at Mike or Tré, yell at me if you must."
"No, I don't want to yell at anyone."
*Seth's P. O. V*
We got home and Tré and I went up to our room.
There was something bugging him so I got the guts to ask him.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"I am so sorry?"
"Sorry for what?"
"For what I am about to do to you."
"Tré what are you doing?"
I sat there just thinking when someone called my name.
"Billie? Are you ok?"
'Seth?!' I thought
"Yea."
"Your mom sent me up to see if you were hungry."
"Um... "
She walked in and shut the door behind her.
"I kind of am but not a whole lot."
"Well ok. I am gonna go."
"Ok. I'll be down in a bit."
"Ok.."
*Seth's P. O. V*
I walked back down to the kitchen and up to Ollie.
"He said he might be down."
"Ok."
"Oh...um...I am not hungry either."
"You feeling ok?"
"Yea. I am just not hungry."
"Ok...there will be food down here if you are hungry."
"Thanks Ollie."
I walked back up stairs and into our room.
Tré was sitting on the bed.
He looked up as he saw the door open and me walk in.
"Hey babe. Wait... What's wrong? You don't look to good."
"I feel fine. Oh...um would you and Billie want to go visit my aunt and mom?"
"I would love to babe."
I walked over to Billie's room and knocked.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"Nothing, um I was wondering if you would like to go to see my mom and aunt."
"I would love to. Is your brother gonna be there?"
"Yea, he is going with us to see my mom."
"Ok."
I walked back to the room and walked over to my bag.
I got out my make up, black kinda baggy shorts and a Misfits shirt.
I changed and redid my make up and Tré and I went to Billie's room.
He opened and we all walked out of the house, me being in the middle.
We got to my aunt's house and walked in.
"Aunt Tally?"
"Seth! I thought you would never come by!"
"Same here, where's Ryan?"
"Did I just hear my name?"
I ran over and hugged him.
He let go a few moments later and walked over to Billie and Tré.
"Bill, how've ya been?"
"Good. You?"
"Same old me."
"Ryan, we gonna go see mom?"
"Yup."
"Let's go then!"
"Bye Aunt Tally," Ryan and I said in unison.
"Bye Tally."
"Bye kids."
We walked out and were walking on the side walk.
Tré and Ryan were caught up in some weird conversation on what songs are good and I just tuned them out.
I was focusing on Tré's hand in my left one and Billie's trying to get into my right hand.
I looked kind of out of it when Tré was waving his hand in front of my face.
"Hey, what's wrong? You haven't been yourself since last night."
"Wha- oh yeah. Sorry."
"It's ok, I think."
"Tré what did you do to my twin?"
"I swear I didn't do anything."
Billie was still trying to hold my hand when I glared at him.
He immediately stopped.
We finally got to the hospital and were went up to the desk.
Ryan said that they changed mom's room.
"Excuse me, we are looking for Sara Bicks."
"Oh, um...would you like to wait in the waiting room?"
"Um...ok."
We walked over and sat down.
"Ryan why would they make us sit here?"
"I don't know Seth."
We just sat there in a very awkward silence, waiting to go see my mom.
"Excuse me, Seth and Ryan?"
Our heads shot up and looked over at the nurse.
"Can you come with me?"
We looked at each other then to Billie and Tré and went to the nurse.
"Kids, we have some news for you."
"Good or bad?" Ryan asked.
"Bad."
I looked over at Ryan and then look to the floor.
"Guys, I hate giving this kind of news out."
My head shot back up.
"Your mother, passed away."
"No! She can't!"
"I'm sorry kids."
I just ran out of the rooms and out of the building.
I looked up to the sky and it started to rain.
"Why?! First it's my dad! Now it's my mom! What did we do?!?!"
"Seth?! It's ok!"
Ryan came and hugged me.
"Ryan...why...us? Why?"
"Seth, I don't know, I just don't know."
"Ryan?! Seth?!"
Tré and Billie came over to us.
"Hey, babe what's wrong?"
"Guys not to be rude, I just want to be alone."
And with that I began to walk to the beach.
Me and my father used to go there everyday and play games.
I got there and immediately sat on the sand and cried.
"Dad I miss you. I wish you could come back."
*Tré's P. O. V*
"Dude where is she going?"
"She went to the beach."
"Why would she go there?"
"Our dad used to take her there all the time before he died, he took me to the skate park."
"What if she hurts herself again?"
"Again?" Billie asked."
"Long story. Well what if she does Ry?"
"She won't. She promised me she never will."
"Ry, what happened?" Billie asked then looked towards the beach.
"Our...mother...passed away."
"Are you serious?" Billie asked because I was speechless.
"Yea, and Seth wants to know why but I can't explain. What are we gonna do? Our mom was the only person other then our aunt that cared about us in the family and now Seth is gonna be more depressed, guys don't let her leave the house unless one of you goes with her," he rambled.
While he was saying this I text Mike telling him to come to the beach.
"Why?"
"Billie, she'll run, trying to find our step father and she end up getting hurt."
"Why will she try and find him?" I asked.
"She'll want revenge."
I just looked up and took off towards the beach.
*Seth's P. O. V*
I was sitting looking toward the beach listening to the sound of the waves.
That's when I heard foot steps.
"Hey, babe, are you ok?"
"Tré why did it have to be her?"
"I don't know."
He came and sat behind me and pulled me close.
I started crying again.
"Come on babe, you're way to pretty to cry."
"I miss them."
"I know you do."
I heard more foot steps and then people sitting around us.
"Hey sis, you ok."
"Yea, I just want to know why they both had to go."
"All I can say is that God must've needed them."
"True."
It was silent.
Mike then pulled up in his pick up and walked over to us.
"Hey guys."
"Hey."
I just looked out at the ocean.
"You guys want a lift back?"
"Sure Mikey."
Tré got up and helped me up.
I tried to fight it, I wanted to stay here and have the past come back to me.
"Seth what are you doing?"
"I just want to stay, I don't want to go back, not yet."
"You guys go I'll stay with her."
"Tré you don't have to."
"But I want to."
I smiled and sat back down along with Tré.
About an hour later we left.
We were walking to Billie's house holding hands.
We were also talking about really random things.
"Hey can I tell you something Tré?"
"Yeah."
"I want my dad back."
"I know you do. Were you guys close?"
"Tré you wouldn't believe how close we were. Only Ryan would see that."
"What about your mom?"
"She was never home."
"What do you mean, I thought she was with you."
"Well she never told my dad or Ryan but she told me."
"She told you what?"
"She told me she was cheating on my dad and she also said that if I told him or Ry then she slit my throat. So I never told them and one night my dad found out."
"What happened?"
"She tried to tell him that he was losing his mind and that she wasn't with anyone else."
"So basically you're saying she's a whore?"
"Yeah."
"Whoa."
"You are so weird Tré."
"I know."
We finally got back to Billie's and we were eating dinner.
We just talked about random things.
We finished and Tré and I offered to do the dishes.
"Why did you want to help?"
"Well because I can do this."
Tré stuck his hand in the water and pulled out suds and put them on my face.
"Ah! Tré! What is this for?!"
"I don't know."
I wiped it of and did this same to him.
"Seth?! What was that for?"
"The same reason you had."
We finished the dishes up and walked into the living room.
Billie and Mike were playing a card game.
"Bill I give up you win!"
"Sweet."
"Hey Mikey!" I yelled which caused him to jump a little.
"Hey Seth, What did Tré do to you?"
"Nothin."
I walked over and sat on his lap (as a friend).
"Are you stoned?"
"Nope. Just bored."
"Hey you guys want to go somewhere?"
"Where Bill?"
"Um, the movies."
"Sure!"
*Billie's P. O. V*
We all ran up stairs to change and once we were done I walked over to my mom's room.
I knocked on her and I heard 'Shh" and finally she came to the door.
"Hey honey. What did you need?"
"Um...who is in there?"
"What? No one."
"Mom who is in there?" I said with clenched teeth.
"She opened the door a little to revel a man sitting in her bed covering himself up.
I looked at my mom and ran downstairs, my mom followed.
"Billie, you don't understand."
"YES I DO!"
"Don't you dare raise your voice to me," she said still at a calm tone.
"MOM I WILL RAISE MY VOICE BECAUSE YOU ARE SLEEPING WITH SOME DUDE!"
"Excuse me! Billie I can sleep with other men."
"Mom, Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't want you to get hurt."
"Oh thanks, having to find out when telling you I was going to the movies really helps to not hurt me mom. What's it's name?"
"His name is Brad."
"Well we all are going out."
"Ok. Billie I want you to know that I love you."
"Mom just tell me you aren't gonna marry him."
"I am not promising that."
Then I looked at her hand, there was a wedding ring, and it wasn't my dad's.
"Billie he proposed last night."
I ran out the door and sat on the grass waiting for everyone else.
They finally came out and we left.
"Bill, what's wrong?"
"My mom is engaged."
"Why aren't- Oh."
"Yea oh."
It was silent.
*Seth's P. O. V*
"Billie, I am so sorry."
I wrapped my arms around him giving him a hug, he hugged back.
"It's ok, you don't have to be."
I let go and walked back to Tré.
We finally got to the movies and decide on some horror movie.
*After The Movie*
*Mike's P. O. V*
We were walking back to Billie's house when Billie stopped.
We all turned and looked at him.
"Bill what's wrong?" I asked raising an eye brow.
"My mom is getting married to some dude I don't know."
"Bill it's ok," Tré said trying to call him down.
"No it's not."
"Billie, please don't yell at Mike or Tré, yell at me if you must."
"No, I don't want to yell at anyone."
*Seth's P. O. V*
We got home and Tré and I went up to our room.
There was something bugging him so I got the guts to ask him.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"I am so sorry?"
"Sorry for what?"
"For what I am about to do to you."
"Tré what are you doing?"
